[ W E L T A N S C H A U U N G ]
"world view"
Vejiita was aware of himself in an instant but noticed his
surroundings much more slowly. He was flat on his back, stretched out, almost
comfortable. He forgot about Chester's eternal black eye and Montgomery's
accusing shout. They both became a memory of a memory, easy to ignore and
discard. Vejiita forgot about them without any effort.
In fact, the
troublesome thoughts of those who occupied the shadows of his mind were so
easily forgotten that he wanted to sink back into oblivion, forget everything
and everyone. It would be so easy. Just lay back, clear his mind, force himself
to be at peace with himself as much as he has ever been...
He shifted
his weight slightly, fully intending to do just this, to allow himself to
be a goner. However, as he tried to move into a more comfortable position, too
greedy for perpetual placidity and too confident in this downward-spiral plan,
he felt something that was none too relaxing.
A chill.
An icy
metal surface came in contact to his hot skin. When he had moved, he had shifted
just enough to move to a part of the table where his body heat had not
previously warmed the metal. It wasn't the cold that nearly shocked him out of
his skin — it was what a metal table meant.
He gasped softly and in a
jerky motion, he arched his back and slid off the examination table, moving
faster than his mind could follow. Barefooted and disoriented, he slipped on the
slick tile floor, barely managing to catch himself by his elbows on the side of
the table.
Wisely, he chose to pause here to catch his breath, sort out
his thoughts and let his body wake up. His sight was temporarily shot, having
been jolted out of his stupor too quickly and he wasn't quite sure if he could
trust his knees. He shook his head, peering past the black and red haze that
impaired his view of the world. Something was coming into focus. A shiny,
horizontal surface hovering a few inches in front of him. The darkness clouding
his sight cleared up; a hospital tray, holding a few rolls of gauze, an empty
syringe, a bottle of pills, a scalpel or two.
He swallowed nervously and
forced himself to walk. His steps were strained, joints painfully stiff. The
familiar pain in his stomach returned with a new vengeance with almost enough
force to cause him to double over. For a moment, he considered turning back in
hope that laying still would cause the twisted stitch of pain to subside, but he
knew from past experience that it throbbed as healthily holding still as it did
in motion. He could deal with this. It wasn't like giving care to it now would
make it any better.
His skin suddenly broke out in gooseflesh. The
table, the surgical knife, the tell tale knot in his side. A small dark room,
illumination manipulated by four glaring, white walls. The pieces were slowly
coming back together, the picture forming being one that he had thought he had
destroyed permanently. The dust of his earlier childhood had never been brushed
away; childhood was now.
He swivelled around, panic seizing him
once again. Oh, thank God, he thought. No one's here. No one to hit him, to grab
him and strap him down on the table and to slice him open and mess his innards
up. Thank God his father was nowhere in sight. But.... they could come in any
minute. He turned with difficulty, taking in his surroundings much more slowly.
The instant he spotted a door he was there, shaking and clammy hands twisting
the smooth knob. The door gave in and he stumbled through, shutting it behind
him with a soft click.
Slowly drawing in a deep breath between his
teeth, he felt along the wall near the doorway, finding and flicking on the
light. Bright fluorescent lights drenched him from above, nearly blinding him
for a second time within the hour. Before he squinted through his tightly
clenched eyes, he inhaled deeply. The strong smell of artificially-scented soap
and sharp tang of lemon disinfectant was giving him a headache. He slit an eye
open, slowly recognizing the white, ceramic facilities surrounding him.
Vejiita sighed, feeling his face draw into a scowl of both annoyance and
deep-set worry he decided that staying in the bathroom, behind a locked door,
would keep him much safer than sitting out there, exposing his belly. At least
here he would have the illusion of safety and that was all he could ever
ask for.
He rubbed his nose, trying to snuff out the harsh scent of
disinfectant; he could do without a headache right now. He needed to be on full
alert. As many aches and pains that dominated his body now, he needed to be
mentally prepared. He liked to think he could be good at verbosity when his
limbs failed him. Now, though, it was quiet. Silent, a vacant buzz humming
consistently in his ear. He blinked hard and turned towards the sink, his
intention being a drink of water. He caught sight of his face before he could
reach the faucet. He gave up on thoughts of a refreshment.
He took a
step and a half backwards, backing himself into a wall, immediately allowing his
knees to give out on him at this sudden resistance. He didn't want to look at
that face. He didn't want to look at anybody.
His stomach churned and he
turned his head, eyeing the toilet a few feet away from him through blurred
vision. Bile burned at back of his throat and the deep breath he inhaled rattled
shakily through his body, appeasing the tremors he was being overwhelmed with
little success. He squeezed his eyes shut, wanting so badly to somehow just
leave his body behind and become nothing more than air, a soon-to-be
forgotten memory.... Wishful thinking, he knew this but hated to acknowledge,
but in bringing up his hand to wipe away the tears, induced by overwhelming
anxiety and stress, he nearly stabbed himself.
He stared at the thin
instrument; it was as long as the end of his middle finger to the center of his
palm, a stainless steel implement ending with a blade that sliced through the
skin of his thumb so smoothly that he barely felt it. A drop of blood oozed out
and dripped leisurely down his palm, down his wrist, on the stiff white hospital
slacks he wore.
He remembered that dreary morning a month ago, in
Craig's rundown apartment where he had played with a kitchen knife. His body, he
believed, was too worn-out and battered and scarred for a man of his age. It was
because of a lifetime of violent labor, starting from the day he could walk and
it's completion not yet in sight. Sometimes, he just couldn't take it — in his
head and in his mind. He broke down that night. He cut.
What did he have
to lose now? They'd cut him open eventually. He could see them now; pale, raised
skin crisscrossing his torso, visible reminders that he wasn't in one piece.
They'd cut him open and fuck with him. His gaze shifted from his marred flesh,
ignoring the droplets of blood that trickled from his elbow. He looked at the
scalpel, recognizing it as the one that had startled him outside on the hospital
tray. At some point, he must have grabbed it. He wiped the blade free of gore on
his knee and pondered what to do with it next. It had already broken his skin,
and it was meant to do so again. No silly doctor was needed to mess with him
this time.
Vejiita had been out for a long time. He had
seemed to be partially conscious on the way back to Capsule Corp., but by the
end of the hour-long road trip he was gone to the world as he had been for the
past two days. When they drove into the Capsule Corporation complex Gokou noted,
not at all surprised, that she veered off the usual driveway to the housing
buildings in favor of the small but classy hospital. The gray building was
square shaped standing out among the domes and was built close to the main
laboratory. Its purposes for being on the complex were primarily for
emergencies.
In this very building now, walking leisurely despite his
long strides, Gokou tried not to worry himself too much about Vejiita's
condition. The elder Saiyajin hadn't looked at all well in the car — he had been
much paler than usual and it wasn't the ashen look one might develop from lack
of sunlight. The bruises speckling his arms and the busted nose suggested a
struggle but they weren't that serious. Certainly not enough to knock Vejiita
out for a day and a half.
Gokou was a worrier. His anxiety — not just
his moral sense — kept him concerned with other people's well being. Helping
others so they were safe and fighting to keep the world free of danger were all
his principal goals. His personal peace of mind, however, was always something
else he made a point to secure.
He stopped at the last door of the
hallway. Peering through the narrow window of the heavy wooden door, he looked
past the fine chainlink wires that strengthened the glass. This was where
Vejiita was. He knew this because he had carried him inside himself. From his
vantage point, there was no sign of the other Saiyajin.
Without
realizing that his fingers were brushing the cold metal of the doorknob and
easily twisting it one half-turn to the right, Gokou stepped into the small,
colorless room that Vejiita was supposedly occupying. His senses were
immediately flushed with the bland, rubbery, too-clean odor that all hospitals
had. It had been there outside this room and in the waiting lobby but in this
room he thought it was going to knock him senseless.
Upon further
inspection of the surroundings, Gokou determined that his earlier glance was
accurate. The white-sheeted bed in the center of the room was messed up, the
covers thrown back and a small tray near the bed that looked as if it had been
shoved aside so it was no longer aligned parallel to the edge of the bed.
Indication that Vejiita had been here but had made his exit with little grace.
He looked around the small room. Windowless, the only exit being the
door through which Gokou had just entered. Those in the waiting lobby or
reception desk would have spotted and stopped the ailing Saiyajin if he should
have attempted to leave that way.
Eyes scanned the small area, locking
in on the second door of the room. Identical to the door that led into the
hallway but without a window, Gokou guessed that it was a closet or bathroom. To
test his assumption he accessed his sixth sense; Vejiita's ki resided behind
that door.
Gokou set the neatly-folded clothes he had been sent to
deliver down on the unmade bed. The clothes that Vejiita had been wearing were
ripped and stained and covered with mud and dead leaves. The deep sleep he had
only come out of recently certainly proved that he had needed the rest after a
wild night. Gokou cleared the distance between the bed and the door quickly,
side-stepping and trying to ignore the needles and other small medical
instruments scattered across the floor. His fist hovered hesitantly a few inches
in front of the smooth surface, uncertain if he really wanted to see Vejiita
right now.
A red sun. A red sun swirling timelessly in a
moist sky of flesh. Slowly growing larger, consuming more of the sky, expanding
steadily across the horizon until the substance was spread so thin that it was
nothing more than a pale smear. The silent God who was responsible for this red
circle's death sighed tiredly, bloodied finger trailing up his stomach to start
anew. He hadn't stopped bleeding from the small stab wound he had afflicted on
himself and he found the gore to be the most suitable of paint, coloring
thoroughly and thickly.
A crash of thunder behind him tore him from his
bleeding, his finger jerking away from his side, his elbow smacking the wall in
his surprise. He jump up, stepping away from the door. Through the buzz in his
ear, he heard his name....
"Hey, Vejiita. Are you in there?"
The
voice was not familiar but the question was. He didn't trust his own voice
enough to answer or his hands enough to open the door. He responded indirectly,
slipping around the toilet and moving aside the pale yellow shower curtains. He
twisted the plastic faucet so the arrow was indicating towards the far end of
the red area — hot. He slipped in, panicked, not wanting to face anyone should
the speaker come in. Bracing himself against the wall with one arm, he waited
for the sound of departing feet through the loud spray of the shower water. Then
he turned off the water. Whoever had talked to him was convinced that he was in
the lavatory and quite alive.
Pulling his conclusions primarily from the
overall cleanliness of the bathroom, he realized that he was not a kid anymore
and this place was not a threat to him. However, sick as he was and as
disoriented as he remained, he took his stubborn anxiety and fear anger out on
the knot of pain in his stomach. It was gone now. Leaving behind just him and
the hole in his side for the time being, bleeding idly.
He slipped out
of the square shower stall, yanking a fluffy white towel off its metal hanger.
He scrubbed his face with it, quickly rubbing it through his hair and wiped off
his shoulders before pressing the now damp cloth against the deep cut. Vejiita
exhaled hard through his teeth, exhalation a cross between a sigh and a snarl.
He didn't regret stabbing himself but now he didn't really understand why he had
done it in the first place.
Tossing the blood-smeared towel back in the
shower, he peeked through the door. Nothing had been touched or moved and no one
was in sight. The bed was still a mess, the door was tightly shut and whoever
had called to him earlier was gone without a trace. His eyes zoned in on some
light-colored clothing on the foot of the bed. Thank God. Something to wear
other than the hospital slacks he was wearing; currently soaking wet and
sticking to him like a second skin.
The white slacks dropped to the tile
floor with a damp smacking sound. Vejiita found that his lips were betraying an
amused smirk. Underwear. Boxers, dark red plaid with frogs. Vejiita wasn't one
who wore undergarments religiously and always they had been quite plain. Whoever
had been in charge of picking out clothes for him would have had to be either
Craig or —
One of them.
Vejiita's lips tightened into a
somber straight line. The thought took all the humor out of the frog-boxers. He
felt sick thinking about it but it put them on anyway, as if those who possessed
them were some sort of gods who needed to be appeased in order to behave.
The jeans were pulled on and buttoned without fuss and the undershirt
was slipped over his head with minimal trouble. He dropped the black and gray
button-up shirt to the floor for later. He eyed the bed, the fatigue he had been
ignoring scraped up inside him, making his eyelids droop and his knees feel like
water. Very heavy water. He took a clumsy step forward and allowed himself to
fall on the bed, twisting himself around to stare at the flourescent light
seeking to blind him from above.
The last thing he wanted to do was
sleep. His head wouldn't let him forget how bad hospitals were and the fact that
he hadn't seen anyone yet put him on edge. But he couldn't possibly fight this
forever. He had to sleep. You always succumbed to it eventually — it was
inevitable, sleep. He knew it. Sleepless nights turning into sleepless weeks had
always ended up with him collapsing like some narcoleptic. He closed his eyes
and the lights in his head went out within that second.
Craig leaned against the smooth, white concrete of the
building, warm enough to be an actual living, breathing thing. His black eyes
were wide and awe-struck, focused on the crackling fire which was quickly eating
up the east fringes of the Capsule Corp. complex. His eyes danced red,
reflecting the orange flames. He licked his lips slowly then snapped himself out
of his daze by giving his head a hard shake, not unlike a dog shaking it's coat
free of water. He glanced to his right, his eyes still glazed over. To his
newfound companion he said, "Now, wasn't that the shit?"
Yamucha
made eye contact warily, wondering what this fellow was on. Yamucha had a strong
impulse to get away from him. Unfortunately, Son Gokou had asked him to hang
around Craig, keep him company. "Humor him if you must," Gokou had told him.
"He's a friend of Vejiita and you know what that means." Yes, he certainly did
know what that meant. Vejiita's friend's mischief rivaled both Trunks' and
Goten's together and bordered on devilry.
The human was reminded vaguely
of his few years of high school; daily schoolwork and nagging teachers aside,
the kids were what drove him to the desert. Preps, jocks who lived to make an
impression of the sidewalk in your face and girls so high-maintenance they
brought the joy out of dating and even sex. Circles of friends, every other one
a back stabber who just used you to help back-stab another, asked you to do
favors in return for a permanent place at the top. Yamucha couldn't help but
resent Gokou and even Bulma for taking advantage of their friendship and sending
him on a guilt trip to baby sit this guy.
What use was Craig anyway? All
he had done was set off a series of cheaply-made firecrackers, successfully
alighting the small, private forest at the edge Capsule Corp.'s territory. He
had laughed when a tree collapsed, laughed at the small team of firemen who had
arrived to put the fire out. Yamucha snorted to himself and took a few steps
away from the other man. Seemed a lot like how Vejiita was; a jerk who usually
ended up making things worse — except this one meant to do it.
Preps and
asshole Saiyajin. He never had to deal with this out in the desert....
He was pulled from his sulking from a yell above, more like a howl than
any human bellow. A small ki blast, easily mistakable for a firework, was shot
off from above him into the yard fire causing the firemen to shout out in anger.
The igniter slid down the side of the gently-sloping building shortly after.
Yamucha groaned audibly at the sight of Vejiita, looking deranged as usual.
Joining them, waving two fingers in greeting, he jabbed Yamucha numerous
times in the stomach and side. "Hey, you, how you doin'?" He laughed then turned
to Craig. "Nice shirt," he offered, rubbing his arm lightly. Craig flashed a shy
grin.
The shirt looked like something he had pulled out of the donation
box to the Salvation Army. Dirty white, short sleeved and made of thin ribbed
corduroy, the shirt was a mixture of a mechanic's apparel and tacky 70's
clothes. On the left side was an oval, red-seamed patch with the name "Frank"
sewed in the center in red, cursive thread. Adjusting the fake leopard skin
collar, Craig replied, "Thanks. My mom says it detracts from the goofiness of my
face."
Vejiita smirked and shook his head. "Yeah, sure, your mom." He
wiped the grit from the roof off on his pants, adjusted the collar of his black
shirt so it laid flat and made his way to the entrance of the building, slipping
through the glass doors and disappearing. Craig dropped the garbage left over
from the fireworks. Yamucha tailed him, intent on keeping his word to Gokou.
Yamucha saw that Vejiita had already made himself comfortable on a
green-padded wooden bench in the reception area, his head titled up and eyes
glued to the television set bolted into the corner of the room. Yamucha allowed
himself to be yanked forward, his will to get away from these two far from
conquered but he found that his chances of escaping — and getting more than two
feet without getting pantsed (which, he imagined, would be the result of
leaving) — were zip.
He followed the Saiyajin's gaze, looking at but not
watching the newscaster tell the public, face professional and bare of concern,
of the devastating earthquakes that plagued the ever-luckless third world
countries. Yamucha tried to look at Vejiita out of the side of the eye without
the sharp warrior noticing him. From what he could gather, the alien's attention
was focused on the thirteen-inch screen six feet above ground.
Suddenly
he looked away, his lips curled in a snarl. "Bah," he muttered, "where the hell
is the remote?"
"Velcro-ed to the side of the TV box," answered Craig.
Vejiita squinted up at it.
"Damn, is that far up." Yamucha waited for a
moment for one of them to stand up and get it; certainly that was a simple task
as Vejiita, at least, could fly. Simple to hover up to the television and pull
the remote off or just change the channel manually. But, no. Neither made any
move. Craig, to his left, was staring at the human's knee. Vejiita on the other
side, picked at a hangnail. The overall silence from the two was unnerving.
He cleared his throat and glanced at Craig. "So.. are you a Saiyajin or
what?"
"Huh?"
"Well, I mean you don't have a tail."
Craig drew a blank for at least twenty second before his face broke out
into a smile, the equation that tail plus a crazy guy setting things on fire
equaled Saiyajin finally registering. "Yeah, about that. I think it got hacked
off in prison."
"Prison," he repeated.
"Yeah, fuck it hurt."
From the expression on his face, Yamucha would never know, for apparently the
memory of getting his tail cut off brutally did not pain him. He was smiling and
shaking his head to himself, entertained by the thought. Leaning over Yamucha,
he inquired to Vejiita, "What happened to yours?"
"I think it burnt off
in hell, Craigie."
The statement was followed by a few moments of
silence, the quietness bothering Yamucha almost more than the two Saiyajin on
either side of him. Attempting normalcy, he dug into his pocket and extracted a
red and white pen with "Quality Tan" advertising printed in worn-out blue. Then
he picked up the local newspaper off the coffee table, flipping through the
pages and folding back the paper when he found the crossword puzzle.
He
wasn't the best at crossword puzzles, he would admit that much, but the trivia
he had acquired throughout his life provided him with just enough correct
answers to encourage him to keep doing them. However, giving the box-inhabited
game a closer look, he saw that it had already been completely filled out
incorrectly in black pen.
Slowly, his gaze slid over, appropriately
settling on man to his left who was drawing cartoons on the knee of his pants
with a white and red clicky pen. Meeting Yamucha's eyes then looking at the
paper in his lap, Craig chuckled softly and muttered with could have possibly
been shame, "Oh, I didn't know you were into word puzzles..."
Bulma sighed and paused, setting down the cardboard box
which was burdening her. Why she decided to clean out all the old junk she found
decaying in the back of the closet was beyond her now. This morning she had been
motivated to clean out the junk, telling herself it needed to be done and that
there were benefits involved, depending on how one wished to look at it. She
didn't often become introspective, but the rare times she did, such as sitting
down in the center of the room with an old photo album or some memorable
childhood object, reminiscing, she enjoyed it wholeheartedly. She decided she
needed to make more personal time.
And now, with an apparently psychotic
Saiyajin who turned out to be multiple people, the stress was almost
overwhelming. Everything Vejiita had ever done was turning out to be not all of
his fault and that those other "people" were responsible for doing those awful
things. Now with him being unconscious... Having taken the week off, Bulma was
hoping to isolate Vejiita herself and get some sort of idea about from where
these problems were coming.
She frowned down at the dusty box that was
over flowing with old, out-of-date clothing and purses she couldn't believe
having ever bought. That closet was nearly cleaned out now; she had been working
since eight this morning and it was almost noon. Seeing how this was the last of
the lot and it was noon, Bulma decided that a break was certainly well deserved.
That was where she saw him. In the kitchen, standing over the stove with
steam curling up around his face, his skin breaking out in an artificial sweat.
He was poking a large blue spoon at something inside the pan resting on an
orange-hot burner with as much concentration as she had ever seen from him. Her
eyes slid over to a body resting on the table, his back facing the stove top and
the doorway in which Bulma stood. Yamucha, looking highly uncomfortable, sat at
the table staring at the feet of the sleeping man. Seeing Bulma, relief washed
over his face. Silently he got up and left, pushing the chair in behind himself.
She nodded her thanks for him staying so long.
A fine but visible tremor
suddenly thrilled its way through Vejiita's frame, notifying him abruptly that
he had company. He looked at her, a sly grin sneaking onto his face. "Hey, good
afternoon."
She nodded politely and smiled. "What are you making?" He
tilted the pan so she could see.
"Started out as an omelet, but then I
didn't want to go through with that flipping thing. So now it's scrambled eggs
with junk in it. Want some?" He took the pan off the burner and set it on the
counter. Bulma winced, hoping that the hot pan wouldn't leave a permanent scar
in the expensive counter top.
She shook her head. "No thanks, you can
have it all."
He jerked his head in a short, happy nod. "Rock on." With
that, he slouched over and leaned against the counter top on one elbow, using
the other arm to scoop up the eggs and ham and cheese concoction with a fork. He
was a picky or maybe just a temperamental eater, poking through his meal and
occasionally stabbing up a yellow mouthful.
While Vejiita played with
his food, Bulma opened the refrigerator and extracted some flavored yogurt, her
choice in food not so much to extinguish her hunger but as an excuse to stick
around. Like Vejiita, she ate at the counter, avoiding the table that was
currently doubling as a bed.
Vejiita studied her for a moment before
initiating the conversation. "You seem unnaturally calm."
"Why wouldn't
I be?" she asked.
He lifted a shoulder. "Never mind." He sank his teeth
into a grinning lip then quickly shoved the fork in his mouth. "This tastes
funny. I think I need more salt." He extended his arm to get the tall wooden
salt shaker on the other side of the counter.
Bulma's attention was
caught by something under his sleeve. She grabbed his wrist before he had a
chance to move away, her reflexes startling her as much as the one she had
captured.
However, he lacked the shock at being caught and of her quick
movements. Instead, confusion blighted over his face momentarily before
transforming into a muddled annoyance, instantly starting to wrench his hand
free. He gave her a small, baffled smile as if suspecting that she was "up" to
something. "What are you doing? Let go."
She held tight and undid the
button on the cuff of his shirt with her other hand and pushed the sleeve back.
Three nicks, lined up one by one on his arm, varying in length from a half an
inch to almost two. She easily pushed the sleeve past his elbows, staring at the
fresh cuts that definitely weren't there when she had checked him into the
hospital.
Face serious and still uncertain, Vejiita pulled his arm away
and twisted it for a better look. His fingers came up and ran over the
glistening, red slash marks. The faint wince that flashed across his face
momentarily was not bothered to be suppressed. "Hmm...," he murmured, brows
creased in concentration. He inspected his other arm. It was less damaged
surface-area wise, but two red circles suggested stabbing rather than cutting.
"Weird. I barely even felt this stuff." He held his arm out in front of him,
rotating it to see all sides. Sighing, he finally lowered it, awe gone from his
face.
He suddenly seemed to notice Bulma, still standing next to him,
one eyebrow arched and gawking at him with an expression of astonishment. He
returned the expression, although he was more shocked and outraged. "What, you
think I did this to myself? You dumb girl, of course I wouldn't!"
"I'm
not speaking to Vejiita, am I?" she meekly guessed.
"No!" His eyes
flashed. "I can't believe you don't know who I am..."
"And you are...?"
she ventured.
The corner of his mouth jumped. "Chester. Chester Hardy."
His eyes narrowed, angry that he was so easily confused with the others. "Duh."
Bulma herself was unnerved by the fact that she had not been talking to
Vejiita this whole time. She was not well acquainted with any of the others yet
and had hoped to get to know them in a less casual and unexpected fashion.
"Well," she started uncertainly, "can I talk to him?"
"Who?"
Chester scraped the rest of the omelet out of the pan and tossed the fork in the
sink, the sound of metal clanging and scraping against metal making Bulma wince.
"Vejiita," she said flatly, trying not to lose her patience.
Chester's face twisted into a confused frown, his brow wrinkling and a
lip curling up. "Why do you want to see him?" He followed the fork's path to the
sink, leaving the warm pan on the counter. Grasping the shiny sliver knobs and
giving them a quick twist, water poured through the long-necked faucet and he
angled one arm under the spray. He hadn't noticed these cuts earlier but now
that he had, they stung like hell. He hoped some cool water would soothe the
stinging sensation. "I don't want to talk to him."
Bulma shook her head.
"I want to." She moved away from the counter so she was behind him. Methodically
he moved his arm back and forth under the stream of water, ignoring her until he
was finished and drying off with a towel. "Please, just for a little while."
He turned slowly, his tongue smoothing over his upper lip, considering
her request. His eyes lifted to meet hers but before he could say anything, they
focused on a point past her shoulder instead. She turned as well, following his
gaze. The little smirk that lighted up his eyes was not lost on her.
Gokou was standing in the entryway to the kitchen. Currently, he was
locked in a staring contest with Craig, formerly known the limp person passed
out on the table. But now he was wide awake, stretched on his side with one leg
crossed over the other and upper body supported by his elbow, chin resting on
his palm. However, Craig wasn't what had caught Chester's attention. His eyes
were boring into the side of Gokou's head.
As always, Gokou acknowledged
the other Saiyajin, a friendly smile spreading over his face. Chester winked
back, the mischief growing ever brighter. He caught Bulma's eyes and said, with
more resolution than before, "You don't want to talk to him. I see no point in
it." He moved around her, pulling the sleeves of his shirt down.
"What's
going on?" asked Gokou with the smallest touch of uncertainty. He was keeping a
wary eye on Chester, who was slinking his way over to his side, and try to keep
the mood light. Vejiita hadn't responded earlier to his presence earlier in the
infirmary. Gokou had wanted to stick around, wait in the lobby and see how
Vejiita was doing, but he needed to get back to his own family. He had no doubts
that Chichi would be a little more than rubbed the wrong way after he had up and
left at the break of dawn and didn't return for two whole days. He was partially
correct, but his short-tempered wife knew Gokou well enough to understand his
need to care for his friends — no matter what his character was like.
He
returned to Capsule Corp. after squaring everything away with his wife and
persuading Yamucha to do him the favor. He had just released the human of his
duty and had finally managed to track Vejiita down. Hovering outside the door
had given him a bit of insight as to what Bulma was trying to pull out of the
ever-grinning Chester. Too bad he hadn't realized beforehand that he was more a
distraction than help.
Chester was behind him now and when Gokou turned
around he was standing there, arms crossed behind his back and feet spread out,
a grin stretched out across his face. Gokou raised an eyebrow, trying to humor
him, then turned back to Bulma. He hoped the other Saiyajin would place himself
in his line of vision.
"Well, I've been trying to have a conversation
Vejiita but he's being a—"
Bulma's sentence was cut short by Chester
clearing his throat loudly and rubbing his finger along his lower lip. "Excuse
me. Chester." She faltered at the correction for a moment, then realized
that he was right.
"Chester is refusing to cooperate." She stared
at him, keeping his attention. "And this is serious."
He shrugged but
was apparently won over by Bulma's reasoning. "Fine, if you want to talk to him
so badly, I guess I have no real reason not to let you. But I swear, he doesn't
know anything."
"No?" spoke up Gokou. Chester shook his head, buttoning
the cuffs of his shirt. He shook his head.
"Not a damn thing, so if
you're trying to pull information, forget about it. And right now I don't feel
like sharing." Chester's face was hard now but there was still that twist in his
lip that suggested that he was not so very angry. From the table, Craig smirked
and pulled a deck of cards out, slipping off the surface and seating himself.
Shuffling the cards occupied his hands while he listened in on the conversation.
After a moment he started up on a game of solitaire, absorbed in his activity in
seconds.
"Chester, it's not my intention to interrogate him, or any one
of you," said Bulma. "We'd just like to talk to him. About you." She cut him off
before he could make out a word. "About this whole situation, not you
specifically."
Chester snorted softly and shrugged. "Whatever. I'll be
back later."
Gokou watched carefully. He wasn't sure what to expect...
it had to be subtle, the transition, for everyone to have missed it all these
years. But it almost seemed as if this time should be dramatic. This was it,
after all. The changing of one personality to another, a whole other person
rising from the shadows. Chester went inexpressive for about five seconds, his
face turning to stone and his eyes blank and empty.
Then Vejiita stood
before them. Gokou was certain that this was Vejiita. The posture with which
Vejiita held himself was one Gokou was beginning to recognize. The Saiyajin's
eyes darted once or twice, quickly taking in his location before recognizing the
exit. He shifted his weight towards it, inconspicuously inching towards the only
way out. He avoided looking at the three other people in the room.
"Vejiita?" Gokou asked, spellbound. The other man' eyes hardened at the
name, glaring at him and trying to control his jumpy nerves. Vejiita had a
sudden flashback, remembering being half guided, half carried out of a dark
house with Kakarotto all over him. His breathing quickened suddenly but it was a
short panic attack, hard to catch and hold onto as everything else was about
him. His racing heart beat was slowed immediately by well-exercised endorphin.
He inhaled deeply and breathed out, "Yes, what is it?"
Gokou
glanced at Bulma, waiting for her to raise her eyebrows in encouragement before
continuing. "Vejiita, I think we should talk."
The lack of expression
that suddenly came over Vejiita's face, any emotion or prospect for negotiation
shut down under the weight of a mastered poker-face. Gokou feared yet another
transition, thus losing Vejiita for a undetermined amount of time, but staring
into his dark eyes, he was quite certain that he hadn't gone anywhere yet... but
that was no reason to patronize him. "Talk about..." Vejiita murmured, the
hardness in his eyes slipping for a moment as his directed his gaze downwards.
"Talk about... what?"
Gokou bit his lip. He had been hoping that it
would be easier to get a straight answer out of Vejiita than Chester but it
appeared that it was going to be even more of a challenge. The stubbornness was
not entirely unexpected. Gokou was frustrated with it but Bulma was more
understanding. Chester was being difficult for the sake of being difficult,
perhaps his own insecurities and wanting to be around Kakarotto making the
situation worse also. After all, talking to Vejiita meant that Chester was out
of control — for the most part.
But Vejiita — he needed help, he needed
it badly and wasn't going to ask for it himself. His doggedness was all about
self-preservation and reputation and denial.
Bulma spoke up before Gokou
could form a sentence, taking hold of Vejiita by the arm and gesturing for him
to sit down at the table. He did so, resting an elbow on the surface, just
barely able to see Craig carry out his game from the corner of his eye. He paid
no mind when Bulma took a seat across from him and said to Vejiita, "Can you
tell me what you remember from two days ago?"
"Two days ago..." he
muttered to himself, his eyes flickering away as he brought up that night. His
eyes flickered off to the side, his mind traveling two days in the past. They
had lost their defensive blankness for the time being and were pensively
distant. Then, for a moment, his face was pure shock and he turned around
sharply in his seat.
In the process of moving three cards to another
length of cards, Craig took his time in noticing Vejiita. But when he finally
did look over him, he just offered him a quirked eyebrow, his expression plainly
saying, "What? Why do you look at me?"
Then he put his expression into
words.
"Come on, Vejiita. You don't remember?" Like Chester had earlier,
he bit down on his lip to keep himself from smirking. Vejiita shook his head.
"No? Sano? You don't remember Sano or his house or anything?"
"No," Vejiita said softly, moving his seat so he was facing the table,
not Bulma. Craig exhaled through his teeth and started to gather all the cards
up into one pile, shuffling them in his hand for a moment then set the deck
down.
"Damn."
"Why, what happened?"
Craig drummed his
fingers on the table. He was stalling. A sharp pain started to develop in the
side of Vejiita's head, a killer headache coming to life. Vejiita closed his
eyes for a moment and took a few deep breaths as if he were preparing to
meditate, which didn't sound like a bad idea at the moment. "Craig, just tell
me." He bit off the end of each word. He loathed to know what Craig knew but he
couldn't stand being in the dark for much longer.
Craig chuckled
nervously, biting his thumb nail before he went on, "Um, well, you know, I gave
you that needle. I had thought you wanted one earlier so I got ya one." Vejiita
kept his eyes tightly shut. He already knew it was bad and didn't help that he
had an audience here to listen to Craig's story. "You took it anyway. I left
after a bit."
"Where?" Vejiita asked. His voice sounded so loud to him;
he realized that he was almost yelling.
"With some girl."
"Ah."
Vejiita pulled the black button off the cuff of his shirt. He rolled it
on its edges between his thumb and index finger. Craig didn't continue his story
and Vejiita's vocal cords seemed to have frozen up on him, for he could not find
the voice to tell Craig to continue.
From behind Vejiita, at the
counter, Gokou cleared his throat softly and hesitantly said, "Okay, then what?"
Craig scratched his head then fingered a stud shot through the lobe of
his ear. "I came down like an hour or something later and I saw you with Sano,
you know. That was Sano's house so I thought, okay, he saw that you were with me
so he went to introduce himself or whatever."
"Or whatever," Vejiita
muttered.
"Uh huh, I guess. So you were getting it on with Sano — I
didn't have a great view and I didn't stay and watch, but that's what it looked
like, you know. When I was in the kitchen looking for something to drink, I ran
into Sano. He didn't say nothing to me, though," Craig said, glancing over at
Gokou to make sure he was still listening. The tall Saiyajin's eyes were
narrowed, stern and thoughtful. When Craig broke the contact Gokou shot a glance
at Vejiita, noting the hunched, tensed shoulders and the way he was popping his
knuckles repeatedly. "Just bumped into me and told me he was going out for a
bit. You were somewhere on the floor by then." He prodded Vejiita's arm with his
finger. "You seemed okay enough so I went back upstairs and hitched a ride back
here with you guys later.
"And that's all that happened."
Yeah... That made sense. The pieces fit together, more or less, or
rather the sequence of events Craig spoke of matched what Vejiita had barely
remembered. Some of it was becoming clearer as he thought about it with a more
positive outlook. Of course, he quickly shut down on that train of thought; he
didn't need this sort of stuff going through his mind right now.
He
stole a glance to the side and though he couldn't see the other's faces clearly,
he knew they would be staring at him. What else was there to look at? Vejiita
swallowed a gulp of air and stood up, nearly knocking his chair to the ground.
He stormed past Bulmaand Gokou and found himself outside, squinting through the
gray, afternoon sunlight and suffocating under with the strong smell of cinder
and smoke.
Exhaling sharply to clear out his nose, Vejiita looked around
helplessly for a moment, realizing that although he was outside and free of
prying eyes for now, he didn't really have anywhere to go. He slumped against
the building and slid down into a crouch.
He stared unblinkingly at the
singed remains of the once quite healthy forest. He wasn't going to move. He
wasn't going to curl up and cover his face and he wasn't going to cry. He'd sit
here in neutrality forever if that was what it took to save face.
The
door slammed and Craig noisily stepped outside. He took a bite of an apple and
swung his arms at his side for a moment, apparently taken aback by the
brightness the same way Vejiita had been. After two more bites and more mindless
gazing, Craig flung the half-eaten fruit into the distance, bent over to wipe
his hands on the grass, and approached Vejiita.
He waited for Vejiita to
look at him before he spoke, drawing shapes into the dirt at their feet. Vejiita
kicked his hand and Craig said, "You know, I didn't mean for that to happen."
Vejiita made a soft noise of doubt and narrowed his eyes at the horizon. "I mean
it," Craig continued. "Sano's usually a pretty nice guy, I didn't think he'd
bother you like that."
"Fine, whatever. I don't mind."
Craig
patted his foot. "That's good. You know, I have a few bucks."
"That's
nice," Vejiita commented, watching Craig pat his buttocks where a few folded up
bills resided.
"Yeah, the girl just gave it to me. She's a real sweetie,
I hope I see her again." Craig grinned. "So, wanna go down to the store?"
"No, I don't."
"Yeah, you do, come on." Craig grabbed his hand
and tried to tug him up and he eventually gave in and stood on his own. "We'll
drive," he informed him, jingling car keys in Vejiita's ear. Vejiita didn't
bother to ask where he got those keys. Craig would probably just tell him that
"he had his ways" anyway.
Vejiita slammed the door of the dark green car
shut, turned the volume of the radio up, grit his teeth, and didn't look back.
If anyone cared enough to get into his problems, they'd come find him
themselves. Vejiita never had to doubt that.
