Deep Within
By: Nananashi-silence
A/N most of what I would say you have already read so I will leave you all with this before the second chapter. I have felt the pain of love and hate, and I have grown cold because of it. Perhaps you will have better luck than I, who was born of the darkness.
This is for Adam. Ashiteru, even if you can never feel the same.
Legalities: I do not own gundam wing, nor do I wish to, I would not have done near as good a job as the actual creators. I do however own Cal, and any other innocent bystander that happens to get in the way of Duo or Cal or any of the other gundam pilots in a rage.
Now, on to the fic.
Chapter Two: Blood Lust
They drove up the driveway to the large mansion before them. Duo was in awe (how can one small girl and her fiancée live in such a huge house? They honestly don't need all that room.) She smirked a little and stepped out of the car. Walking to the door bags in hand, she rang the doorbell and was immediately greeted by a smiling Quatre. Her smile turned dark however when she looked into Duos hollow face, she frowned and then took Duos bags and ushered her to a room on the third floor. Duo and Cal stepped into the room and looked at two single beds and a door that lead into a private bath. (Quatre really knows a lot about me considering she hasn't called or seen me in two years. Cal through his things down on the bed closest to the window and Duo took the one close to the bathroom. Quatre set her things down and said.
"Why don't I help you two unpack.by the way Duo, who is your friend?"
"No, that's alright Quat, Cal and I can handle it. See you in a few; I'm going to freshen up a bit before supper. Cal, why don't you go down and meet the guys, I'm sure you will find something in common with them."
Cal frowned and then looking into her eyes complied by leaving Duo and Quatre alone in the room.
"Duo, what has happened to you? You look nothing like what I remember, are you all right? What has been going on that could make all of this happen to you in such a short time?"
Duo looked into Quatre's eyes and smiled at her. "It's nothing, just having a little trouble finding a job, I've been short on cash and haven't been eating well, but now that I'm here, I suppose ill get the chance to gain some weight. Wont I?"
Quatre didn't look satisfied with her answer but nodded and accepted it graciously. "Yes, I suppose you will, hurry up now, dinner is almost ready!"
Quatre hugged Duo and looked back over her shoulder to give a faint smile then left the room. As Duo shut the door behind her, she began to cry.
(Why the hell did I come here!! All I'm doing is hurting Quatre, she already knows something is up just by looking at me!!) "Maybe I should just leave." (That would save Quat a lot of heartache and worry. A nice hot shower and a little bit of Cal's Medication should help me. I guess ill go do that then)
Duo shed her clothing and untied her hair from its braid letting it fall along her back in beautiful flowing tresses. She lit some candles and turned on the bath. (Perfect ambiance to get high in. shit I should have called Cal in here first. Oh well, it isn't like he hasn't ever seen a woman wrapped in a towel before) she stood and dried herself off for the most part, then stepped into the hallway and called out.
"CAL!! COME UP HERE!! FINISH UNLOADING YOUR CAR FIRST!!"
he yelled up a mumbled ok and she heard the front door slam shut. She stepped back into the tub and pulled the plug, then threw on a robe. Just as she pulled the robe around her form cal burst into the room with a black bag the size of his upper body. He set it down and smiled at her.
"Pick your poison."
"Just hand me a joint, and ill be good. I need something quick."
"Alright! Done."
"Thanks Cal, don't know what I would do without you."
"not a problem, by the way.what was your deal in the car.kissing me like that? It shocked me, I mean, I would expect that out of someone like me, but not you."
"Oh Cal, I really don't want to get into it right now, I already have enough stress on me with this wedding.damn it."
"Ah.OK I can take a hint, ill leave, Oh, by the way, who the hell is Heero?"
"HEERO! Heero is here!! QUATRE! YOU WILL DIE!"
:: meantime, down in the kitchen Quatre was making a smoothie for himself and Trowa.::
"I guess she found out that Heero was here huh?"
:: Back upstairs::
"Damn her! She knows I don't ever want to see him again! That's it! I'm leaving tonight!"
"Um, Duo, what about the wedding, you told her you would go to it.cant you leave tomorrow?"
"Damn it, that's right, shit, yea, I guess, were leaving right after the ceremony is over though."
He smiled at her and lit up the drug. Puffing on t he passed it to her and she smiled back.
"Leave."
"What! Why?"
"Leave, I'm going to take a bath."
"mmm, that sounds like fun, can I come with?"
"hell no, you go downstairs. See you in a little bit"
He walked out of the door and shut it softly, as soon as she felt like he was gone, she collapsed to the floor and began to cry softly.
"Why the hell do you have to be here Heero! Why can't you just leave me alone! You already haunt my soul! GO AWAY!"
Duo screamed out over the blaring of the music from a 21st century band called Smile Empty Soul. She clutched her head in her hands as she slid to the floor next to the tub, the weed long forgotten. She let out an agonizing sob and held her self, rocking back and forth. Remembering her bath she slowly stood, her body still raced with sobs and stepped into the bath, the Luke warm water enveloping her. She picked the drug back up and pressed it to her lips, drawing on it hard, then holding it, savoring the moments that the drug took effect on her system. Cringing as she felt the wound on her shoulder lip below the water and reopen, she relaxed her face again, and took another hit. She closed her eyes and exhaled, she put the reefer out in the tub and opened her eyes again, thoroughly stoned. She looked at the water and noticed that it was now stained crimson with her blood. She sighed and then smiled. (I've always wanted to bathe in a pool of blood. I guess now I'm getting my wish)
She laughed the noise emerging from her throat a cross of insanity and anger. Her teeth shone as her pitch increased and she became louder until the room was filled with echoes of her maniac laughter. She caught herself just as she was becoming loud enough to penetrate three floors with her voice. She smiled wickedly baring teeth that were like fangs and opened her eyes wide to reveal dagger shaped pupils. Smiling all the while, she bit at her wrist, immediately causing blood to pour out into the already crimson bath. Lapping at the flesh she began another low chuckle, which she cut off as she heard a voice coming down the hallway.
(SHIT! I can't let them see this!)
Panicking she wrapped a towel around her body concealing her wrist and pulled the shower curtain around the bath so that its contents were a complete secret. Just as she finished this the door opened and Quatre stepped in.
"Duo, you said you would be quick, dinners almost ready!"
Duo stared at her for a moment, then smiled, annoyed, she said, in a harsher tone than what she meant, "Get out now, I'm in the middle of a bath, its called respect."
Quatre frowned and turned quickly to leave the room. As she left, Duo pulled the towel away from her arm, it was stained red with blood and duo lapped at the stream flowing down her arm, she stepped back into the bath and let the tub turn deep crimson from her blood. She pulled her arm up out of the water and grimaced, it still hadn't stopped bleeding, she would have to do something about it soon.
"Damn it, I have to keep from dripping blood on the floor, it has to be white!!"
Duo wrapped the towel around her arm again and walked into the room she and cal were to share. Sitting on the edge of her bed, she opened her bag and pulled out gauze and a needle and thread. Removing the towel she stitched the bite marks up quickly, unaware of the pain. When she was done, she wiped the extra blood away from the wound and put antiseptic on it, then wrapped it in gauze. Realizing that she couldn't go downstairs with that showing she pulled on a baggy long sleeved nightshirt, black, of course, and a pair of long black jeans, which served to wash what was left of color, from her face. After she had hidden the towel from sight and put her medical kit beneath the bed, she walked down the stairs and after a bit of searching, she found the kitchen, where everyone, including Heero and Cal was seated eating their dinner.
" Hi Duo, glad you finally joined us." It was Wufei, he looked at her displeased that she was so late to arrive at the table, then continued eating. Seeing an empty seat she took it and looked across the table to Quatre, who smiled and then reached for a pile of biscuits that sat in the center of the table.
"Duo, won't you have something to eat? I remember our conversation earlier, and I know you must be hungry." Without waiting for a reply Quatre handed Duo a plate full of chicken and assorted other items. She looked at the plate in front of her disgusted and stood.
"If I may be excused, I'm not to hungry tonight. See you all later!" She stepped out of the room quickly in search of a bathroom.
"Duo, not hungry? Well, I never thought that would happen." Heero stated and looked to Quatre who's face was wrinkled with worry. She looked to Heero and said
"I'm worried about her.something's not right"
Duo stood over a toilet somewhere in the house and began to vomit.
By: Nananashi-silence
A/N most of what I would say you have already read so I will leave you all with this before the second chapter. I have felt the pain of love and hate, and I have grown cold because of it. Perhaps you will have better luck than I, who was born of the darkness.
This is for Adam. Ashiteru, even if you can never feel the same.
Legalities: I do not own gundam wing, nor do I wish to, I would not have done near as good a job as the actual creators. I do however own Cal, and any other innocent bystander that happens to get in the way of Duo or Cal or any of the other gundam pilots in a rage.
Now, on to the fic.
Chapter Two: Blood Lust
They drove up the driveway to the large mansion before them. Duo was in awe (how can one small girl and her fiancée live in such a huge house? They honestly don't need all that room.) She smirked a little and stepped out of the car. Walking to the door bags in hand, she rang the doorbell and was immediately greeted by a smiling Quatre. Her smile turned dark however when she looked into Duos hollow face, she frowned and then took Duos bags and ushered her to a room on the third floor. Duo and Cal stepped into the room and looked at two single beds and a door that lead into a private bath. (Quatre really knows a lot about me considering she hasn't called or seen me in two years. Cal through his things down on the bed closest to the window and Duo took the one close to the bathroom. Quatre set her things down and said.
"Why don't I help you two unpack.by the way Duo, who is your friend?"
"No, that's alright Quat, Cal and I can handle it. See you in a few; I'm going to freshen up a bit before supper. Cal, why don't you go down and meet the guys, I'm sure you will find something in common with them."
Cal frowned and then looking into her eyes complied by leaving Duo and Quatre alone in the room.
"Duo, what has happened to you? You look nothing like what I remember, are you all right? What has been going on that could make all of this happen to you in such a short time?"
Duo looked into Quatre's eyes and smiled at her. "It's nothing, just having a little trouble finding a job, I've been short on cash and haven't been eating well, but now that I'm here, I suppose ill get the chance to gain some weight. Wont I?"
Quatre didn't look satisfied with her answer but nodded and accepted it graciously. "Yes, I suppose you will, hurry up now, dinner is almost ready!"
Quatre hugged Duo and looked back over her shoulder to give a faint smile then left the room. As Duo shut the door behind her, she began to cry.
(Why the hell did I come here!! All I'm doing is hurting Quatre, she already knows something is up just by looking at me!!) "Maybe I should just leave." (That would save Quat a lot of heartache and worry. A nice hot shower and a little bit of Cal's Medication should help me. I guess ill go do that then)
Duo shed her clothing and untied her hair from its braid letting it fall along her back in beautiful flowing tresses. She lit some candles and turned on the bath. (Perfect ambiance to get high in. shit I should have called Cal in here first. Oh well, it isn't like he hasn't ever seen a woman wrapped in a towel before) she stood and dried herself off for the most part, then stepped into the hallway and called out.
"CAL!! COME UP HERE!! FINISH UNLOADING YOUR CAR FIRST!!"
he yelled up a mumbled ok and she heard the front door slam shut. She stepped back into the tub and pulled the plug, then threw on a robe. Just as she pulled the robe around her form cal burst into the room with a black bag the size of his upper body. He set it down and smiled at her.
"Pick your poison."
"Just hand me a joint, and ill be good. I need something quick."
"Alright! Done."
"Thanks Cal, don't know what I would do without you."
"not a problem, by the way.what was your deal in the car.kissing me like that? It shocked me, I mean, I would expect that out of someone like me, but not you."
"Oh Cal, I really don't want to get into it right now, I already have enough stress on me with this wedding.damn it."
"Ah.OK I can take a hint, ill leave, Oh, by the way, who the hell is Heero?"
"HEERO! Heero is here!! QUATRE! YOU WILL DIE!"
:: meantime, down in the kitchen Quatre was making a smoothie for himself and Trowa.::
"I guess she found out that Heero was here huh?"
:: Back upstairs::
"Damn her! She knows I don't ever want to see him again! That's it! I'm leaving tonight!"
"Um, Duo, what about the wedding, you told her you would go to it.cant you leave tomorrow?"
"Damn it, that's right, shit, yea, I guess, were leaving right after the ceremony is over though."
He smiled at her and lit up the drug. Puffing on t he passed it to her and she smiled back.
"Leave."
"What! Why?"
"Leave, I'm going to take a bath."
"mmm, that sounds like fun, can I come with?"
"hell no, you go downstairs. See you in a little bit"
He walked out of the door and shut it softly, as soon as she felt like he was gone, she collapsed to the floor and began to cry softly.
"Why the hell do you have to be here Heero! Why can't you just leave me alone! You already haunt my soul! GO AWAY!"
Duo screamed out over the blaring of the music from a 21st century band called Smile Empty Soul. She clutched her head in her hands as she slid to the floor next to the tub, the weed long forgotten. She let out an agonizing sob and held her self, rocking back and forth. Remembering her bath she slowly stood, her body still raced with sobs and stepped into the bath, the Luke warm water enveloping her. She picked the drug back up and pressed it to her lips, drawing on it hard, then holding it, savoring the moments that the drug took effect on her system. Cringing as she felt the wound on her shoulder lip below the water and reopen, she relaxed her face again, and took another hit. She closed her eyes and exhaled, she put the reefer out in the tub and opened her eyes again, thoroughly stoned. She looked at the water and noticed that it was now stained crimson with her blood. She sighed and then smiled. (I've always wanted to bathe in a pool of blood. I guess now I'm getting my wish)
She laughed the noise emerging from her throat a cross of insanity and anger. Her teeth shone as her pitch increased and she became louder until the room was filled with echoes of her maniac laughter. She caught herself just as she was becoming loud enough to penetrate three floors with her voice. She smiled wickedly baring teeth that were like fangs and opened her eyes wide to reveal dagger shaped pupils. Smiling all the while, she bit at her wrist, immediately causing blood to pour out into the already crimson bath. Lapping at the flesh she began another low chuckle, which she cut off as she heard a voice coming down the hallway.
(SHIT! I can't let them see this!)
Panicking she wrapped a towel around her body concealing her wrist and pulled the shower curtain around the bath so that its contents were a complete secret. Just as she finished this the door opened and Quatre stepped in.
"Duo, you said you would be quick, dinners almost ready!"
Duo stared at her for a moment, then smiled, annoyed, she said, in a harsher tone than what she meant, "Get out now, I'm in the middle of a bath, its called respect."
Quatre frowned and turned quickly to leave the room. As she left, Duo pulled the towel away from her arm, it was stained red with blood and duo lapped at the stream flowing down her arm, she stepped back into the bath and let the tub turn deep crimson from her blood. She pulled her arm up out of the water and grimaced, it still hadn't stopped bleeding, she would have to do something about it soon.
"Damn it, I have to keep from dripping blood on the floor, it has to be white!!"
Duo wrapped the towel around her arm again and walked into the room she and cal were to share. Sitting on the edge of her bed, she opened her bag and pulled out gauze and a needle and thread. Removing the towel she stitched the bite marks up quickly, unaware of the pain. When she was done, she wiped the extra blood away from the wound and put antiseptic on it, then wrapped it in gauze. Realizing that she couldn't go downstairs with that showing she pulled on a baggy long sleeved nightshirt, black, of course, and a pair of long black jeans, which served to wash what was left of color, from her face. After she had hidden the towel from sight and put her medical kit beneath the bed, she walked down the stairs and after a bit of searching, she found the kitchen, where everyone, including Heero and Cal was seated eating their dinner.
" Hi Duo, glad you finally joined us." It was Wufei, he looked at her displeased that she was so late to arrive at the table, then continued eating. Seeing an empty seat she took it and looked across the table to Quatre, who smiled and then reached for a pile of biscuits that sat in the center of the table.
"Duo, won't you have something to eat? I remember our conversation earlier, and I know you must be hungry." Without waiting for a reply Quatre handed Duo a plate full of chicken and assorted other items. She looked at the plate in front of her disgusted and stood.
"If I may be excused, I'm not to hungry tonight. See you all later!" She stepped out of the room quickly in search of a bathroom.
"Duo, not hungry? Well, I never thought that would happen." Heero stated and looked to Quatre who's face was wrinkled with worry. She looked to Heero and said
"I'm worried about her.something's not right"
Duo stood over a toilet somewhere in the house and began to vomit.