A/N: hey, sorry if it took too long for me to update, so I just wanted to get this out as fast as possible to make up for the other one!
So here it goes…
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I reached for a tissue to wipe the blood away. Stupid, stupid, stupid. I even can't shave right. I nicked myself and it hurts. I got my wand and did a quick healing spell. I know, I'm overreacting. They're just little things, and I'm making them big things. I put on a long sleeved shirt that cut short, exposing my midriff, and loose track pants. Once I finished changing, I walked to my room and jumped onto my bed. I lay down on my tummy, holding a pillow under my bed and looked at the journal on my bedside table. I closed my eyes and turned my head away. I opened them and saw my CD player. Music. Music could put my mind on other things. I reached for it and listened to the CD inside.
To my surprise, the CD that was inside wasn't mine. The first song was "My Stupid Mouth" by John Meyer.
"My Stupid Mouth"
My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see
She was offended
She said "well anyway..."
Just dying for a subject change
Oh, another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon
We bit our lips
She looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly
An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what just slipped out and what went wrong
Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one
I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me
Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now
One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked
I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me captain backfire
Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one
I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me
Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now
It got me thinking of all of them. The three boys that seemed to just pop out of I have no idea where and decide to crush on me. It's kinda pathetic the way they try to do things to impress girls. And it's annoying that the girl they choose to impress is me. That sucks.
I sighed and listened to the next song. It was another sentimental song. "I Miss You So Much" by TLC.
.
I never asked for this feeling
I never thought I would fall
I never knew how I felt
Till the day you were gone
I was lost
I never asked for red roses
I wasn't looking for love
Somehow I let my emotions take hold
And guess what all at once
I'm in love
Oh I miss you so much
I long for your love
It's scares me
Cuz my heart gets so weak
That I can't even breathe
How can you take things so easily
Baby why aren't you missing me?
Why did I act like you mattered
It was silly of me to believe
That if I just opened my heart
Things would come naturally
Jokes on me (yeah)
I did not ask for love letters
So why did you give them to me
How could I let your intentions
Get hold over me
So in love
So naive (oh baby)
Oh I miss you so much
I long for your love
It's scares me
Cuz my heart gets so weak
That I can't even breathe
How can you take things so easily
Baby why aren't you missing me?
And oh how I hate what you have done
Made me fall so deep in love
Got no cure
You're the only one I want
That I love oh baby
Oh I miss you so much
I long for your love
It's scares me
Cuz my heart gets so weak
That I can't even breathe
How can you take things so easily
Baby why aren't you missing me?
Baby why aren't you missing me?
Baby why aren't you missing me?
I frowned and turned the CD player off. Who put a CD full of sentimental songs in my CD player? Wait a minute, who messed with my stuff? Who came into my room??! Well, Draco could, especially if I left my door open. I sigh and close my eyes. Soon I was asleep.
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I crinkled my nose. Something was stroking it. I opened my eyes to see Draco looking at me. "Hey, you weren't in class today." He said softly, as if not wanting to wake me up, although I already was.
"I didn't feel well after breakfast." I said just as soft.
"Why? Ate something your tummy didn't agree on?" he lightly ran his fingers over my exposed tummy, sending pleasant shivers up and down my spine.
"No, I don't think so." I said. Draco withdrew his hand but I stopped him. "No, don't stop… feels good…" I whispered, closing my eyes. He continued on, but his touches got lower and spiraled down. Soon his caresses were replaced with soft kisses, going up and down my tummy. His fingers drew patterns on the exposed skin, followed by his soft lips.
Draco's fingers slipped under the band of my track pants, caressing the flesh underneath it. Growing bolder, his other hand went up under my shirt and lightly rubbed the gap between my breasts. I moaned softly. His lips explored every inch of my tummy, kissing and nibbling.
My hands went up and straight to is hair, getting tangled in his silky locks. Feels good… that was all I could think of at the moment. You would too if you felt it. Soon his fingers got a little more daring and slipped under my panties and rubbed against me. I moaned softly. "Feels good… don't stop…" was all I could say. His other hand pulled my shirt up and he started trailing up, following the path his fingers made for his lips.
Then he pulled his hands away from me and sat up. I opened an eye and looked up at him. "Why'd you stop?"
"No reason. Just now that I'm courting you it feels sorta different. I don't wanna rush you, Hermione. The last we did we didn't go all the way. I just want to respect you, Hermione. I hope you understand that." He put a puppy-dog face. Damn. That is soooooo cute!
Aw, how sweet of him. I reached a hand out to him ad stroked his cheek. Then I pinched it. "You're so cute when you do that, you know?" I laughed at his surprised expression. That's too much for me! I can only take one cute expression at a time…
"It's ok, I understand. Thank you." I hugged Draco tight. He felt so right in my arms. I really like Draco. I don't know if I love him though. Do I?
"So, you didn't feel well? How you feeling now? Feel better?" Draco asked.
"Yeah, I do. I guess I just needed a nap." I said, desperately trying to forget what really happened. Lucky he didn't notice the little war in my head.
"You sure? What really happened?"
"Um, I didn't sleep much last night?"
"Why?"
"Oh, couldn't sleep. Was thinking too much about my homework for Charms." I made an excuse up and go off my bed. I stretched a bit and got a CD out of my bag. I got the CD from inside the player and changed it. "Did you put the CD with sentimental songs into my player?"
Draco smiled and nodded.
"Thanks for the CD. I really like music." I smiled back.
"Me too." Draco said.
"Here, I've got a song for you. It's not sentimental, but it's for you." I sat beside him and gave the other earphone to him.
Baby girl (I'll
really like)
Desert Storm (yeah)
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you now
I wanna be more than a friend to you now
When they ask, I mention my baby girl in the interviews now
And I don't bring the problems from the 90s and the 2 thou
There's no reason to have a friend or two now
Cuz the kids ready to tell you how he feel and a few
vows
Maybe I speak in general now
But girl, I'ma do whatever just to keep a grin on u now
Where I roll, they wear bikinis in the winter too now
What you think about tan lines on the skin of you now?
Why wouldn't I wanna spend a few thou
On fifth ave, shopping sprees and them dinners to chow
I aint concerned with other men with you now
As long as when I slide up in you, you growl
And any dude with you, he better be a king to you now
And I ain't jealous, it's the principle now
I'm so into you
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I glanced at Draco and saw he had his eyes closed, leaning against a pillow. I guess he was really listening to the lyrics.
Come on ma
It's more than a flashing
I woulda traded it all in orderly fashion
My billa in Florida we crashing
Just off the shore so you can hear when the water be splashing
The Drop top 3 in the quota we dashing
Flawless diamonds in the water we flashing
The money we oughta be stashing
I make sure ever quarter be cashed in
I can't really explain it
My friends be thinking I'm slipping
These girls be thinking I'm tripping
What kinda weed u be smoking
What typa drinks u be sipping
Sweet thing just to think of you dipping
Would have me with the blue so hard
You would think I was crimping
Now you relaxing in the Benz
Credit cards are no limits
So u don't worry about maxing when u spends
But since u been asking about the friends
How'd u like it if both our names had Jackson on the ends
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I didn't notice that I was staring at Draco until he opened his eyes and looked back at me. He leaned in and gave me a kiss. It was soft and slow. I was surprised at how gentle it was.
I don't wanna trip, but the truth is
Girl the way you cook a steak
Remind me of them trips to Roofchris
U love my smile, no matter how chipped my tooth is
With you it aint because my whips is ruthless
So sit on chrome, dip the deuces
And you ain't flattered by Canary's and VS dip tay seuces
All the ballers look dumb when they press you
Five and sixes, you don't let them kinda #'s impress you
Even though I was so unsuccessful
Being a player was becoming too stressful
But ever since, this superwoman has come to my rescue
My winter's been wonderful, my summer's been special
That's why the same bar while the villa been painted
Just so we can really get acquainted
The love is real, there's no way you can feel like it's tainted
But I can't really explain it, yeah
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
I really like what you've done to me
I can't really explain it
I'm so into you
Ohhhh, no no no no nooooo
Ooooohhhh no no
So many
"I like the song." Draco smiled.
"I do too." I said.
"What did I miss in class today?" I asked. Draco laughed. "Gee Granger, you're sick and you're still thinking about class." Draco got his books and opened them. Then he started teaching me what I missed.
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A/N: I know, this chappie really sucks. I'm rushing things too much! Anyways, I sorta need help. I gots writer's block and I don't know what to write next! Any suggestions?