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A/N: thanks for the Reviews, and please continue to R&R. I need some advice too, in this and chapters to follow, I'm doing what I originally called "Perspective", but after thinking, I thought it would be better as "Introspective," Please read and share your thoughts. Also, I apologize if Shinji and Asuka seem a little OOC. I think that after what they went through, it's warranted. Also, everything will be explained eventually. And the reasons for their actions will make more sense. Thank you.
PERSPECITIVE: Asuka
Shinji had matured a lot in the weeks that followed Impact. Or was it really impact? We still question it. I'm still afraid, and can't sleep right thinking about what happened. Shinji was also a lot stronger, tougher-he wasn't the wimpy idiot I had come to know. But he was still a pervert.
Over time, he told me things meant to keep me happy. To change the sadness. Philosophy flooded from him. He's smarter than I ever gave him credit for-but it probably rubbed off from hanging around with me!
Who am I kidding-I've changed too. I can't be what I was. Not now that I've seen what true suffering does, and what lying does to the soul.
All I've did for years, was lie. Look what its done to me. I've forced my self into this harsh arrogant shell. I am and can be sensitive. Some of what I was is real. The rest I faked to protect my self. But, then came Shinji, and with out knowing it, he tore away the shield I had put up around my soul. He let it out again. The scars have made it an ugly and clouded soul. With time many of those scars have healed, but they haven't and will never go away.
Then, came our secret. After 2 years, it was decided and only 3 people know about it. We're two of them. We're alone in that old apartment, and even I find its missing something with out Misato or Pen-Pen. We have each other, but we are very alone. (End Perspective) --- "Who called?" Shinji asked Asuka, as they sat alone in the cafeteria.
She didn't answer, and bowed her head slowly.
"What are you thinking about?"
"I'm scared. I can't do that again. What it did to my brain, my soul. . . It hurts. . . I won't go back."
"Who was crazy enough to call us back, why did it even start up again?"
"Because, we were afraid. And because we were asked to." Misato stood in the doorway, looking more depressed then they were. "I was dragged back here by some higher up in the UN. Told to get you-. You have to believe that I didn't want to."
"I believe you Misato." Shinji replied sounding pathetic, just like he used to.
"Look at the two of you, all grown up." Her eyes moved between Asuka and Shinji, but stayed mostly on Shinji, who was starting to look like his father because of the stubble on his face.
Asuka kept her eyes closed. "I won't do it."
Shinji twitched, snapping out of the trance caused by being back at NERV. "Me neither. I can't handle it. If there's an Angel, let it come."
"You don't think there's a reason for the EVAs coming back?"
Both looked up, shocked.
"They aren't the same, the souls with in are gone, Don't know if they'll even work, but we'll have to try." "NO!" Shinji screamed. "No."
--- PERSPECTIVE : Shinji
I tried to fight what I'd been. Being back there, seeing it all again, was quickly dragging me back into my once wimpy, and esteemless self.
But, Asuka was there, her confidence radiating towards me. While she seemed to have none at all.
We'd lived together almost 9 years now, if you counted what it was like before impact. 2 years into our "rebirth" we had made a decision- to never go back. We also forged another agreement.
I watched her shaking but did nothing. As part of our agreement, I had refused to tell anyone about it. . . if I comforted her, I would go back on a promise. From that day six years ago on, I had vowed to keep my promises.
Misato hadn't changed but she looked a little off, not wearing the cross. It was still nailed to a post somewhere near the sea of LCL. Her eyes begged us, and my sense of dignity was the only thing keeping me from giving in. (End Perspective.) ---
Asuka and Shinji stared at each other, left to think over a prospect neither wanted to face. After waiting to be sure they were alone, Asuka moved closer to Shinji, and gently laid her head on his shoulder. "What?" "I'm scared, Shinji." "You? Scared? Wow-hard to believe." "Stop that you Jerk." She lifted her head and playfully pushed him. This quickly turned into a shoving match that ended with Shinji flat out on his back on the floor.
"I'm scared to." He admitted. "I think we should just leave. It can't be an Angel."
Asuka reached out a hand to help him up, and he took it. Before he was fully to his feet, though, he pulled Asuka towards him and deliberately fell backwards-pulling her on top of him. "Pervert." She snapped, in his ear, and they kissed.
"We can't do this here. What about the promise?"
He nodded, seeming disappointed. "Let's go home."
A/N: thanks for the Reviews, and please continue to R&R. I need some advice too, in this and chapters to follow, I'm doing what I originally called "Perspective", but after thinking, I thought it would be better as "Introspective," Please read and share your thoughts. Also, I apologize if Shinji and Asuka seem a little OOC. I think that after what they went through, it's warranted. Also, everything will be explained eventually. And the reasons for their actions will make more sense. Thank you.
PERSPECITIVE: Asuka
Shinji had matured a lot in the weeks that followed Impact. Or was it really impact? We still question it. I'm still afraid, and can't sleep right thinking about what happened. Shinji was also a lot stronger, tougher-he wasn't the wimpy idiot I had come to know. But he was still a pervert.
Over time, he told me things meant to keep me happy. To change the sadness. Philosophy flooded from him. He's smarter than I ever gave him credit for-but it probably rubbed off from hanging around with me!
Who am I kidding-I've changed too. I can't be what I was. Not now that I've seen what true suffering does, and what lying does to the soul.
All I've did for years, was lie. Look what its done to me. I've forced my self into this harsh arrogant shell. I am and can be sensitive. Some of what I was is real. The rest I faked to protect my self. But, then came Shinji, and with out knowing it, he tore away the shield I had put up around my soul. He let it out again. The scars have made it an ugly and clouded soul. With time many of those scars have healed, but they haven't and will never go away.
Then, came our secret. After 2 years, it was decided and only 3 people know about it. We're two of them. We're alone in that old apartment, and even I find its missing something with out Misato or Pen-Pen. We have each other, but we are very alone. (End Perspective) --- "Who called?" Shinji asked Asuka, as they sat alone in the cafeteria.
She didn't answer, and bowed her head slowly.
"What are you thinking about?"
"I'm scared. I can't do that again. What it did to my brain, my soul. . . It hurts. . . I won't go back."
"Who was crazy enough to call us back, why did it even start up again?"
"Because, we were afraid. And because we were asked to." Misato stood in the doorway, looking more depressed then they were. "I was dragged back here by some higher up in the UN. Told to get you-. You have to believe that I didn't want to."
"I believe you Misato." Shinji replied sounding pathetic, just like he used to.
"Look at the two of you, all grown up." Her eyes moved between Asuka and Shinji, but stayed mostly on Shinji, who was starting to look like his father because of the stubble on his face.
Asuka kept her eyes closed. "I won't do it."
Shinji twitched, snapping out of the trance caused by being back at NERV. "Me neither. I can't handle it. If there's an Angel, let it come."
"You don't think there's a reason for the EVAs coming back?"
Both looked up, shocked.
"They aren't the same, the souls with in are gone, Don't know if they'll even work, but we'll have to try." "NO!" Shinji screamed. "No."
--- PERSPECTIVE : Shinji
I tried to fight what I'd been. Being back there, seeing it all again, was quickly dragging me back into my once wimpy, and esteemless self.
But, Asuka was there, her confidence radiating towards me. While she seemed to have none at all.
We'd lived together almost 9 years now, if you counted what it was like before impact. 2 years into our "rebirth" we had made a decision- to never go back. We also forged another agreement.
I watched her shaking but did nothing. As part of our agreement, I had refused to tell anyone about it. . . if I comforted her, I would go back on a promise. From that day six years ago on, I had vowed to keep my promises.
Misato hadn't changed but she looked a little off, not wearing the cross. It was still nailed to a post somewhere near the sea of LCL. Her eyes begged us, and my sense of dignity was the only thing keeping me from giving in. (End Perspective.) ---
Asuka and Shinji stared at each other, left to think over a prospect neither wanted to face. After waiting to be sure they were alone, Asuka moved closer to Shinji, and gently laid her head on his shoulder. "What?" "I'm scared, Shinji." "You? Scared? Wow-hard to believe." "Stop that you Jerk." She lifted her head and playfully pushed him. This quickly turned into a shoving match that ended with Shinji flat out on his back on the floor.
"I'm scared to." He admitted. "I think we should just leave. It can't be an Angel."
Asuka reached out a hand to help him up, and he took it. Before he was fully to his feet, though, he pulled Asuka towards him and deliberately fell backwards-pulling her on top of him. "Pervert." She snapped, in his ear, and they kissed.
"We can't do this here. What about the promise?"
He nodded, seeming disappointed. "Let's go home."