Indie Queen
Disclaimer: Still not mine.
Statement: Chapter 2 guys, this one is short. I just wanted to get the first two done –so I can see where it is going.
Song Cred: Indie Queen, Marvelous 3.
She dreams about
The girl she use to be
She dreams about
Someone else underneath the sheets
Well you can fly off to London
With a coke and a smile
But give it 24 hours and4000 miles and its
All just another day away from
One less day to cry
Jackie Burkhart had had a crappy summer. The crappiest. Hugely crappy. And it was all her fault. She had run away. Run off to glamorous New York City, convinced that she could drown her sorrows in bright lights and window-shopping. But it didn't work. Instead she had spent an entire summer of her life sitting in a public library studying for a test to get her out of her Senior Year of high school. It had been super boring but it had paid off. Jackie was finished with high school. Finished with Point Place. Well that is what she thought. That is what the plan had been. But you know what they say about the best-laid plans. At the beginning of the summer she had been running on anger and hurt. Making decisions based on what her broken heart wanted. But by the end of the summer she had cycled through most of her pain. All she was left with –was loneliness – and a love that she wasn't able to shake. And she wasn't sure if she wanted to anymore. So she had decided to come home. Home to the basement. To Donna, and Eric, and Fez and Michael – Home to Steven. She needed to see him. To see if the anger would return. She wanted to know if absence had erased the hurt or healed it. But most of all she wanted to stop running.
"Jackie we are here". Donna told her –snapping her out of her private thoughts and back into reality. And what a harsh reality – it was moment of truth time. The basement lay 6 feet away. And all its contents. Steven being the chief one.
"Is Red okay?" Jackie asked out of the blue. She had hated leaving Donna and Eric and of course Steven so shortly after the incident that had shook them all.
"Yeah, he is good. He is taking better care of himself. And he can even hold a conversation with Fez now without a respirator." Donna joked, letting Jackie think about something else instead of her love life.
"I'm glad."
"We all are – now come on you can go inside take a nap. Worry about unpacking tomorrow."
"Thanks Donna –I know you are trying to help me avoid what I have to do – but I can't. I've spent the whole summer doing that. I need to see him".
"Okay".
With that Jackie got out of the car. She needed to face her future. See if she still loved Steven – see if he still loved her. Donna had told her that he hadn't dated anyone the whole summer –hadn't really done anything but work. But that didn't mean anything. She had left him. Like everybody else –and whether or not she had reason –she couldn't help but feel bad about that. She had promised herself she would never hurt him –even if he hurt her. She had said some bad stuff before she left – lied about her emotions – but she wasn't going to do that anymore. Whatever happened –she would deal with it – no more running.