Chapter 4
(Okay guys – I'm focused more on the kidnapping –but I'm not going to abandon this story. Tell me if you think I'm slacking and I'll try harder)
Credit: Train, It's about you
This ain't about the things I've done
Where I've been or what I've won
Stand on your corner a thousand times
Lose what I got
Keep what I find
It's about you
It's about you
This ain't about the things you say
Or how you make me feel this way
Stand on your corner a thousand times
Lose what I gotKeep what I find
It's about you
Well that had been hard. But not unpleasant. She had missed him so much. And when she saw him the anger had not returned. She of course remembered the hurt. That would always be there. But that didn't mean it would over shadow the love. When Jackie had been little she'd always thought that love was supposed to be perfect. She would dream of the future when she would meet someone who would make her supremely happy and never make her feel like her parents did. Although most would have thought Jackie's parental issues started this year –they had been long standing. Her father had always used his money to buy her forgiveness for missed birthdays and other special occasions. Her mother had always been more interested in her friends and social life than being a mom. Jackie had loved them both so much and just wanted their attention but the moments when she got it undivided were few and far between. She remembers sitting in her room after they had both missed a dance recital when she was 7 and thinking –if I ever have a daughter I'm going to never miss anything important to her and her father will worship the ground she walks on. She had promised herself that "her" family would be perfect. But Jackie knew now that love didn't have to be perfect. It just had to be real. It didn't mean that you wouldn't hurt each other; it just meant that you shouldn't try. That is why Jackie had had such a hard time forgiving Steven. It seemed as if he had cheated on her to hurt her on purpose. She had spent at least a month of the summer convincing herself that –but after about another month she had decided that if anything he was just trying to keep himself from being hurt. He had parent issues himself. She was willing to forgive him now. And he was obviously willing to forgive her. So why was she here and not over in the basement in his arms?
"Jackie" Oh god it was Michael. She really didn't want to see him now. But in he came bounding across the room and hugging her in his awkward way.
"Hey Michael"
"So how was your summer? Ready to pick me yet" he looked eager. He looked sweet. Everything she always associated with her first love. She hated to break his heart.
"No Michael"
He looked really sad but at the same time like he had expected it.
"So it is Hyde huh? You really love him don't you?"
"How do you figure?"
"Well every time I cheated on you we either got back together right away or you know spontaneously got back together later without much hoo-ha"
"Yeah?"
"Yeah but with Hyde man it really floored you. You had to run away and think and stuff. And I was hoping that meant that you loved him less but I guess it means you love him more. Because you know –it was this big deal."
She couldn't believe Michael was actually giving her insight into her relationship with Steven. If Michael could recognize the depth of their love – why the hell couldn't they?
"So you aren't going to try to get me back anymore?"
He took her hand and she realized that this was it. This was when she let what they were –who she use to be – go.
"I'll always be here for you." He said sincerely then waited a beat and finished. "So you know if you ever wanna do it."
Classic Kelso – she threw a pillow at him. And he didn't even try to duck.