Tired
Okay everybody thanks for the reviews. I like how this story turned out.
I hope you do too. Please review.
Credit: Song by Robert Kelly Thomas (of Matchbox Twenty and formerly Tabitha's Secret) -Tired.
You've been talking for an hour
And I swear to god that I can't hear a word you say
So would you come to me, come to me
I get caught up in the waves of conversation and they wash over me
And they cover me, they cover me
Should I just pack my bags and leave
Would I be a bigger (woman) if I
Built a wall around your heart
And dared you to come in
I could lie to you and say I didn't mean it
But hurts a funny thing
And it makes you stronger
Jackie had been trying to figure out a way to tell Steven she had forgiven him for the past two weeks. She missed him. She loved him. She couldn't stop no matter how hard she tried. And she was just damn tired of trying. She had a whole list of things she wanted to say to him. She wanted to tell him that she was going to UW like the rest of the gang. And above all else -she wanted to kiss him, feel his arms around her, and know the whole ordeal was over. But every time she decided to go to him she chickened out. She didn't know why she was so scared. Why would anyone be scared of being happy? So when Steven woke her up a few hours ago she had felt relieved. Maybe this would be her chance. But then Steven flipped out -for a minute there she thought he was going to break up with her (could he even do that? They were already not together.) But now 15 minutes later -she knew he still loved her - but the verbal assault? Well her ears didn't love it. And she was beginning to wonder when he was going to take a breath.
"STEVEN!" she shrieked. It startled him long enough for her to jump up -grab him and clamp a tiny hand over his mouth. She looked him in the eye and said slowly so he could understand -so he would listen - "I said YOU DO and I CAN" she smiled, encouraging him to get it. He looked only confused.
"What was the question?"
She couldn't help but laugh. She couldn't help but love him. "You said you deserved a second chance and that you wanted me to trust you again."
He slowly began to smile. "And you said I did and you can"
It wasn't a question but she confirmed anyway. Because she liked the way it sounded. "Yes I did", it sounded like the end to hurting and the promise of moving forward. It looked like Steven thought so too. He visibly relaxed. He took a deep breath and then tackled her in an uncharacteristic display of affection.
"Oh god I'm so glad that is over" he mumbled into her shoulder.
She couldn't agree more. As she felt his arms for the first time in what seemed like forever she felt safe again. She felt tears of relief and she knew she'd made the right decision. "I love you so much Steven. I never stopped no matter what I said." She loved the look on his face when she said that. He looked happy. And she knew he finally believed her. He reached down and took her face in his hands.
"I'm never going to hurt you again."
"No Steven, we can't promise that." He looked apprehensive again so she rushed to continue "if we are going to do this -seriously -long term - we are going to hurt each other from time to time. It is inevitable. We just have to trust each other and never do it on purpose. If we are going to do this right. Are we?"
"I want to"
"I do too" God now she was crying.
"Baby don't cry" He wiped at her tears and she swatted his hand laughing.
"I'll cry if I want to - I'm happy".
He gave her that you're such a girl and therefore incomprehensible look and laughed too. "I'm glad".
"You know what would make me even happier though?"
"What?" looking for all the world like he'd do anything to accomplish that goal.
"If you would stop staring at me and kiss me already"
He needed very little prompting. He closed the space between them and kissed her with everything he had, everything he'd missed all summer. And at the end her knees felt weak and she was out of breath. She had a hunch he felt the same.
"Steven?"
"Yes?" a blissed out Steven replied.
"Let's go home and watch the Price is Right."
Okay everybody thanks for the reviews. I like how this story turned out.
I hope you do too. Please review.
Credit: Song by Robert Kelly Thomas (of Matchbox Twenty and formerly Tabitha's Secret) -Tired.
You've been talking for an hour
And I swear to god that I can't hear a word you say
So would you come to me, come to me
I get caught up in the waves of conversation and they wash over me
And they cover me, they cover me
Should I just pack my bags and leave
Would I be a bigger (woman) if I
Built a wall around your heart
And dared you to come in
I could lie to you and say I didn't mean it
But hurts a funny thing
And it makes you stronger
Jackie had been trying to figure out a way to tell Steven she had forgiven him for the past two weeks. She missed him. She loved him. She couldn't stop no matter how hard she tried. And she was just damn tired of trying. She had a whole list of things she wanted to say to him. She wanted to tell him that she was going to UW like the rest of the gang. And above all else -she wanted to kiss him, feel his arms around her, and know the whole ordeal was over. But every time she decided to go to him she chickened out. She didn't know why she was so scared. Why would anyone be scared of being happy? So when Steven woke her up a few hours ago she had felt relieved. Maybe this would be her chance. But then Steven flipped out -for a minute there she thought he was going to break up with her (could he even do that? They were already not together.) But now 15 minutes later -she knew he still loved her - but the verbal assault? Well her ears didn't love it. And she was beginning to wonder when he was going to take a breath.
"STEVEN!" she shrieked. It startled him long enough for her to jump up -grab him and clamp a tiny hand over his mouth. She looked him in the eye and said slowly so he could understand -so he would listen - "I said YOU DO and I CAN" she smiled, encouraging him to get it. He looked only confused.
"What was the question?"
She couldn't help but laugh. She couldn't help but love him. "You said you deserved a second chance and that you wanted me to trust you again."
He slowly began to smile. "And you said I did and you can"
It wasn't a question but she confirmed anyway. Because she liked the way it sounded. "Yes I did", it sounded like the end to hurting and the promise of moving forward. It looked like Steven thought so too. He visibly relaxed. He took a deep breath and then tackled her in an uncharacteristic display of affection.
"Oh god I'm so glad that is over" he mumbled into her shoulder.
She couldn't agree more. As she felt his arms for the first time in what seemed like forever she felt safe again. She felt tears of relief and she knew she'd made the right decision. "I love you so much Steven. I never stopped no matter what I said." She loved the look on his face when she said that. He looked happy. And she knew he finally believed her. He reached down and took her face in his hands.
"I'm never going to hurt you again."
"No Steven, we can't promise that." He looked apprehensive again so she rushed to continue "if we are going to do this -seriously -long term - we are going to hurt each other from time to time. It is inevitable. We just have to trust each other and never do it on purpose. If we are going to do this right. Are we?"
"I want to"
"I do too" God now she was crying.
"Baby don't cry" He wiped at her tears and she swatted his hand laughing.
"I'll cry if I want to - I'm happy".
He gave her that you're such a girl and therefore incomprehensible look and laughed too. "I'm glad".
"You know what would make me even happier though?"
"What?" looking for all the world like he'd do anything to accomplish that goal.
"If you would stop staring at me and kiss me already"
He needed very little prompting. He closed the space between them and kissed her with everything he had, everything he'd missed all summer. And at the end her knees felt weak and she was out of breath. She had a hunch he felt the same.
"Steven?"
"Yes?" a blissed out Steven replied.
"Let's go home and watch the Price is Right."