A\N: I don't own any of Ah! My Goddess what's so ever. Also this story is
about one Goddess's search and curiosity of love and one man's fear and
avoidance of love and the challenges they must face to recover it.
Tears in Heaven
In the hearts of heaven......
Belldandy: But my Lord it should be me who should receive this call not her! (She said in a worried and persuasive tone)
God: Please understand Belldandy this is for your own good.(God said calmly)
Belldandy: But why?! What's to understand?! All I don't understand is why it should be her and not me? Wasn't it to be me to grant his wish? But why her, she's not even on the Goddess Relief Office were I work. She's from the Earth Help Center a rival office!
God: But she is your friend isn't she . Why worry about one call, I promise that the next one will be answered by you.
But Belldandy wasn't persuaded, she didn't listen to a word he was saying. She didn't want another, she would rather sacrifice every last one in the world forever just to answer this one important call. She knelt down in both knees and begged him, to grant this one persons wish .
Belldandy: Please my Lord I beg of you let me grant this wish, please I beg of you. I don't want to grant another, please just this once. Please......
God: I'm very sorry Belldandy but my answer is still no. I know why you want to grant this wish so badly; it's about the boy isn't it.
Belldandy was shocked when she heard this, she knew sooner or later he would find out, but she doesn't understand the reason why she couldn't grant his wish. She tried to speak, but he quickly stopped her.
Belldandy: But my Lord.....
God: Please Belldandy listen to what I have to say first. I knew after you met the boy and went back up to heaven that you would find a way to meet him again. After you went back up to heaven, you worked very hard in Yggdrasil. Everyday you would sneak into the observation room after schools was done and watched him as he grows with every chance you've got. After you graduated you were sent to the Goddess Relief office to grant the wishes of other people. Their you planned and set about arranging things so you would in a position to grant his wish. You would work through the hours setting and resetting the computers all just to grant this one boys wish.
As he finished his words, Belldandy immediately stand up, her eyes were almost filled with tears. She can no longer hold the long frustration in her heart any longer.
Belldandy: But why my Lord why?! What did I ever do to deserve this?! Yes I admit that I sneaked into the observation everyday! I admit that I rigged up the computers so it would be I to grant his wish. Yes all you said was true, but tell me what's so wrong about it?! I only (sniff)... wanted to see him face to face one more time....I (sniff)...only wanted to hear his voice for the very last time. Tell me what's so wrong about it. Tell...(sniff)...me what's......(sniff) so wrong.....about...it......please....(sniff)...tell... me....
She cried out all the sadness and frustration in her heart. Her tears streaming down her cheeks, unable control her tears any longer. She covered her eyes with her hands and kneeling back down the floor. The Lord just sat there looking at her with pity and understanding. He softly called her name.... God: Belldandy don't you see, all those things you did was the reason why I can't let you see him.
Slowly Belldandy looked up to him, her face was wet with her tears. Her mind still filled with unanswered questions.
Belldandy: What do you mean? Is it because I broke some of the rules is that it?!
God: No the reasons I can't let you see him is not because you broke some rules. Yes what you did was wrong but understandable. But that is not the real reason...
Belldandy's eyes were now looking directly at him wanting to know the answer.
Belldandy: Please...tell...me.
God: The real reason is because of your unhealthy obsession for this boy. I fear this obsession you have for him will bring dire consequences for the both of you.
Belldandy couldn't beleive what she was hearing, everyday she would dream of the day she could finally meet him and grant his greatest desires and make him happy, to make him happy. But in the end, even her own wish can't be granted. But her delicate heart just won't accept fact, she tried to explain but to no avail.
Belldandy: Please my lord let me ex......
God: Please Belldandy that is enough . It has already been decided it would be Peorth who would be the one to grant the boys wish. You may now leave Belldandy. I am very sorry.
As Belldandy sadly walked slowly out the door tears still going down her cheeks. Waiting or should I say snooping on her, were her two sisters, Urd the eldest, and Skuld the youngest of the three. As they waited/snooped on her they have overheard Belldany's conversation with the Lord. As they listened the two sisters were getting very worried as to were the conversation was going. They heard Belldandy arguing, shouting, and crying in front of the Lord all at the same time, even the two sisters never saw Belldandy do all those things at the same time, it was a very shocking experience indeed.
Skuld: Urd what's going on? I never heard or even seen elder sister get so upset like this before, and who is this boy the Lord was talking about.(she said worriedly to her eldest sister)
Urd: I really don't know Skuld, I just don't know. But as for the boy.........
Before Urd could explain, she heard the door slowly opened. There she saw Belldandy coming out still weeping after the predicament.
Skuld: Sister!
Urd: Belldandy! Are you alright
As they approached her Belldandy suddenly clasped on to the arms of her eldest sister, weeping on her chest. Belldandy: Sister!!!!
Urd: Bell...
Following her instincts as the Eldest of the three, she tried to calm her down, soothing down her long peanut-butter hair.
Urd: Shhh...it's alright..it's alright..just let it all out (sigh)...Skuld lets take her home .
As skuld looked at her elder sister, what else can she do.
Skuld: Yes...lets take her home.
So they left, as soon as they came back, they took her to her apartment and slowly put her down her bed. Only a minute past, then Belldandy slowly cried her self to sleep. Urd the took her handkerchief and carefully wiped away her tears, then left her be, switching of the light and closed the door slowly behind her. As Urd walked into the living room she saw Skuld waiting for her in the sofa.
Skuld: So how is she ?(She asked worriedly)
Urd: (sigh) She's fine, she just cried herself to sleep,....poor Bell.
Skuld then moved a little signaling her to sit beside her.
Skuld: Urd will she be all right? Looking at her sister for an answer.
Urd then laid her hand on Skulds right shoulder assuring her she will be fine.
Urd: Don't you worry she'll be old happy self in time, just not for today.
As they sat down Skuld was quickly reminded about the boy, who Belldandy and the Lord were talking about. Wondering to herself she tried to think of a reason but failed to produce an answer. She then asked Urd hoping to get her question to be answered.
Skuld: Urd ?
Urd: Hmmm, yes?
Skuld: I was wondering, who is this boy they were talking about, and why is it that elder sister would do anything to see him again?
Urd was startled at first, thinking if it would be right to tell her everything she knows about him. Looking back at her, she taught about and decided that Skuld was just too young to really understand. So she explained everything to her but in little less detail.
Urd: You really want to know?
Skuld: Yes ! I really do! (Looking back at her with anticipation.)
Urd: (Sigh) Skuld I will only explain this to you once and only once, so if I were you I'll wold listen carefully and be quite. OK?
Skuld: OK.
Urd: Good. Now for your question as to who the boy is...weeell...to put so you'll understand is that he is a childhood friend of our sister Belldandy, before you were even born. To make it short Bell accidentally made a promise to him, and as you know that is against the rules unless certified too. So Bell was forced to erase his memory and went back to heaven.
Skuld: Then why does elder sister want to meet this boy again?
Urd: That I can't answer since I really don't know why she would want to meet him so badly? All I know is that Peorth is going to grant this boys wish and Bell's not.
But their were things that puzzled her firstly why in the world of all the Goddess's in heaven would it have to be her of all people? Why indeed ?
Skuld: Yes I already heard that but why Peorth why not some other Goddess to grant his wish.
Urd: Well I really don't know . But I did hear that as soon as Peorth heard that there was an opening to Bell's next wish grantee and that it was the boy she quickly volunteered to do it. As much as I know her maybe she volunteered so she could get extra credit. You do know how she always brags that the Earth Help Center is the greatest and gives the best service.
But Skuld wasn't satisfied.
Skuld: Maybe. But then again their are many people out their whom will get their wish granted. And besides she is Bell's friend. Maybe their's a connection to all this ?
Urd: Well you may be right. Peorth was always the curios type, she was always asking questions about human love, what's it like, how it feels, and stuff. Maybe Bell told her about him after she went back up to heaven. Maybe she volunteered so she could meet this guy and ponder as to what's in this guy that is so special that made Bell go gaga over him or something. Besides what else can she do to make her volunteer?
Skuld: Then can we do?
Urd: Nothing of coarse! It's beyond are hands, what's done is done, the decision is final. Besides after the wish is granted will just ask her to come with us and tell Bell all about it, it's the least she can do. Maybe that would cheer Bell up. So any more question?
Skuld: No. I guess your right. I was just a bit too worried I guess.
too be continued
Tears in Heaven
In the hearts of heaven......
Belldandy: But my Lord it should be me who should receive this call not her! (She said in a worried and persuasive tone)
God: Please understand Belldandy this is for your own good.(God said calmly)
Belldandy: But why?! What's to understand?! All I don't understand is why it should be her and not me? Wasn't it to be me to grant his wish? But why her, she's not even on the Goddess Relief Office were I work. She's from the Earth Help Center a rival office!
God: But she is your friend isn't she . Why worry about one call, I promise that the next one will be answered by you.
But Belldandy wasn't persuaded, she didn't listen to a word he was saying. She didn't want another, she would rather sacrifice every last one in the world forever just to answer this one important call. She knelt down in both knees and begged him, to grant this one persons wish .
Belldandy: Please my Lord I beg of you let me grant this wish, please I beg of you. I don't want to grant another, please just this once. Please......
God: I'm very sorry Belldandy but my answer is still no. I know why you want to grant this wish so badly; it's about the boy isn't it.
Belldandy was shocked when she heard this, she knew sooner or later he would find out, but she doesn't understand the reason why she couldn't grant his wish. She tried to speak, but he quickly stopped her.
Belldandy: But my Lord.....
God: Please Belldandy listen to what I have to say first. I knew after you met the boy and went back up to heaven that you would find a way to meet him again. After you went back up to heaven, you worked very hard in Yggdrasil. Everyday you would sneak into the observation room after schools was done and watched him as he grows with every chance you've got. After you graduated you were sent to the Goddess Relief office to grant the wishes of other people. Their you planned and set about arranging things so you would in a position to grant his wish. You would work through the hours setting and resetting the computers all just to grant this one boys wish.
As he finished his words, Belldandy immediately stand up, her eyes were almost filled with tears. She can no longer hold the long frustration in her heart any longer.
Belldandy: But why my Lord why?! What did I ever do to deserve this?! Yes I admit that I sneaked into the observation everyday! I admit that I rigged up the computers so it would be I to grant his wish. Yes all you said was true, but tell me what's so wrong about it?! I only (sniff)... wanted to see him face to face one more time....I (sniff)...only wanted to hear his voice for the very last time. Tell me what's so wrong about it. Tell...(sniff)...me what's......(sniff) so wrong.....about...it......please....(sniff)...tell... me....
She cried out all the sadness and frustration in her heart. Her tears streaming down her cheeks, unable control her tears any longer. She covered her eyes with her hands and kneeling back down the floor. The Lord just sat there looking at her with pity and understanding. He softly called her name.... God: Belldandy don't you see, all those things you did was the reason why I can't let you see him.
Slowly Belldandy looked up to him, her face was wet with her tears. Her mind still filled with unanswered questions.
Belldandy: What do you mean? Is it because I broke some of the rules is that it?!
God: No the reasons I can't let you see him is not because you broke some rules. Yes what you did was wrong but understandable. But that is not the real reason...
Belldandy's eyes were now looking directly at him wanting to know the answer.
Belldandy: Please...tell...me.
God: The real reason is because of your unhealthy obsession for this boy. I fear this obsession you have for him will bring dire consequences for the both of you.
Belldandy couldn't beleive what she was hearing, everyday she would dream of the day she could finally meet him and grant his greatest desires and make him happy, to make him happy. But in the end, even her own wish can't be granted. But her delicate heart just won't accept fact, she tried to explain but to no avail.
Belldandy: Please my lord let me ex......
God: Please Belldandy that is enough . It has already been decided it would be Peorth who would be the one to grant the boys wish. You may now leave Belldandy. I am very sorry.
As Belldandy sadly walked slowly out the door tears still going down her cheeks. Waiting or should I say snooping on her, were her two sisters, Urd the eldest, and Skuld the youngest of the three. As they waited/snooped on her they have overheard Belldany's conversation with the Lord. As they listened the two sisters were getting very worried as to were the conversation was going. They heard Belldandy arguing, shouting, and crying in front of the Lord all at the same time, even the two sisters never saw Belldandy do all those things at the same time, it was a very shocking experience indeed.
Skuld: Urd what's going on? I never heard or even seen elder sister get so upset like this before, and who is this boy the Lord was talking about.(she said worriedly to her eldest sister)
Urd: I really don't know Skuld, I just don't know. But as for the boy.........
Before Urd could explain, she heard the door slowly opened. There she saw Belldandy coming out still weeping after the predicament.
Skuld: Sister!
Urd: Belldandy! Are you alright
As they approached her Belldandy suddenly clasped on to the arms of her eldest sister, weeping on her chest. Belldandy: Sister!!!!
Urd: Bell...
Following her instincts as the Eldest of the three, she tried to calm her down, soothing down her long peanut-butter hair.
Urd: Shhh...it's alright..it's alright..just let it all out (sigh)...Skuld lets take her home .
As skuld looked at her elder sister, what else can she do.
Skuld: Yes...lets take her home.
So they left, as soon as they came back, they took her to her apartment and slowly put her down her bed. Only a minute past, then Belldandy slowly cried her self to sleep. Urd the took her handkerchief and carefully wiped away her tears, then left her be, switching of the light and closed the door slowly behind her. As Urd walked into the living room she saw Skuld waiting for her in the sofa.
Skuld: So how is she ?(She asked worriedly)
Urd: (sigh) She's fine, she just cried herself to sleep,....poor Bell.
Skuld then moved a little signaling her to sit beside her.
Skuld: Urd will she be all right? Looking at her sister for an answer.
Urd then laid her hand on Skulds right shoulder assuring her she will be fine.
Urd: Don't you worry she'll be old happy self in time, just not for today.
As they sat down Skuld was quickly reminded about the boy, who Belldandy and the Lord were talking about. Wondering to herself she tried to think of a reason but failed to produce an answer. She then asked Urd hoping to get her question to be answered.
Skuld: Urd ?
Urd: Hmmm, yes?
Skuld: I was wondering, who is this boy they were talking about, and why is it that elder sister would do anything to see him again?
Urd was startled at first, thinking if it would be right to tell her everything she knows about him. Looking back at her, she taught about and decided that Skuld was just too young to really understand. So she explained everything to her but in little less detail.
Urd: You really want to know?
Skuld: Yes ! I really do! (Looking back at her with anticipation.)
Urd: (Sigh) Skuld I will only explain this to you once and only once, so if I were you I'll wold listen carefully and be quite. OK?
Skuld: OK.
Urd: Good. Now for your question as to who the boy is...weeell...to put so you'll understand is that he is a childhood friend of our sister Belldandy, before you were even born. To make it short Bell accidentally made a promise to him, and as you know that is against the rules unless certified too. So Bell was forced to erase his memory and went back to heaven.
Skuld: Then why does elder sister want to meet this boy again?
Urd: That I can't answer since I really don't know why she would want to meet him so badly? All I know is that Peorth is going to grant this boys wish and Bell's not.
But their were things that puzzled her firstly why in the world of all the Goddess's in heaven would it have to be her of all people? Why indeed ?
Skuld: Yes I already heard that but why Peorth why not some other Goddess to grant his wish.
Urd: Well I really don't know . But I did hear that as soon as Peorth heard that there was an opening to Bell's next wish grantee and that it was the boy she quickly volunteered to do it. As much as I know her maybe she volunteered so she could get extra credit. You do know how she always brags that the Earth Help Center is the greatest and gives the best service.
But Skuld wasn't satisfied.
Skuld: Maybe. But then again their are many people out their whom will get their wish granted. And besides she is Bell's friend. Maybe their's a connection to all this ?
Urd: Well you may be right. Peorth was always the curios type, she was always asking questions about human love, what's it like, how it feels, and stuff. Maybe Bell told her about him after she went back up to heaven. Maybe she volunteered so she could meet this guy and ponder as to what's in this guy that is so special that made Bell go gaga over him or something. Besides what else can she do to make her volunteer?
Skuld: Then can we do?
Urd: Nothing of coarse! It's beyond are hands, what's done is done, the decision is final. Besides after the wish is granted will just ask her to come with us and tell Bell all about it, it's the least she can do. Maybe that would cheer Bell up. So any more question?
Skuld: No. I guess your right. I was just a bit too worried I guess.
too be continued