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Chapter IV Of lost loves and rejections
It was nice outside, the sun was shinning a little and a cool wind was blowing. Syaoran was thinking about it when the doorbell rang. She had gotten early. So he asked her in. Sakura nodded smiling. He hadn't said anything about having tea together. Maybe she had just thought so.
"I brought you a little something" Sakura said smiling as she took out some freshly baked muffins "I hope you like them. You know I've never been really good at cooking anyway." "Well." he was too nervous to talk right now so he tried to change the subject and of course, change the fact that he hadn't prepared anything for her "you shouldn't have. We're not here to talk about our day, but about business." "I know" she sighed "It's just that I didn't want it to be so serious" "Always so caring my dear Sakura-chan" he said to himself "That's the way it is supposed to be" he stood silent for a while "So anyway" she broke the silence "what about that call?" "I'm really concerned, since we've got all of the Clow cards" he started "I never thought something like this would happen after that" "Yeah, I thought so too. That, those strange things were over." "Well they aren't" he interrupted "What do you mean?" "There's something going on. I'm not a hundred percent sure but it has everything to do with Clow, and because of that, with us. There's someone or something going after Clow" "Oh!" she stood up hysterically "we have to tell Eriol. We have to warn Tomoyo!! We have to... "
Syaoran stood up then and held her hands together, trying to calm down the now screaming Sakura. He hugged her.
"It's all gonna be okay" he said "Don't worry. It will all turn out well"
Sakura was anxious, she wasn't thinking then, she just wanted to run away. It had never been like that, but after all those years of hiding her fear inside her shelter, she had to blow someday: and that day had arrived. She had just broken down. Syaoran held her stronger than he had before trying to comfort her but the only thing that he had provoked on her had been more tears. I don't want it to happen Syaoran.I don't want to believe you. I don't want to He could still hear her words torturing him and his thoughts. He embraced her like trying to protect her from an incoming hurricane. They found themselves face-to-face. Breathing faster than usual. He removed softly the hair standing between them and kissed her forehead. He ran his right hand through her face and kept holding her with the left one. He bent closer to her and found himself moving his lips toward hers. He was trying to kiss her. Sakura pushed him back and nearly smacked him.
"What do you think you're doing Syaoran??!!" she yelled "Well. ano." he tried to think 'bout something to tell her "It's just that I. I" "You what Syaoran??!!" "Sakura" he begged "let me explain." "I don't want to hear your explanations. Do you wanna know what I think? I think that you.and.and. I. I don't even know why I came here!!!"
She ran to the door, went out and slammed it making a huge noise, leaving Syaoran, whose face was now buried in his hands, inside of the house.
She started walking with no destination. She didn't care about her father being worried or anything. She was just wandering around: wondering what the hell had Syaoran's attitude meant. It was so confusing. "He shouldn't have done that" she thought, "the only thing that he caused is more troubles. Our relationship was complicated enough by itself, and now. what am I going to do?"
Suddenly and from nowhere, Kero appeared.
"SAKURA!!" he shouted "I've been looking for you!! I was so worried about you!!"
He made a small pause and looked at Sakura. She was looking at the sky. He realized then that, absorbed by her thoughts, she hadn't heard a word of what he had said.
"HOE!! Oh, Kero-chan!" she apologized "I didn't see you coming" "It's okay, but what's going on with you? You're more distracted than usually" "No, It's nothing. It's just that." "What?" "Well, it's just that Syaoran." "Oh that gaki again!! Sakura, I've told you like a million times not to." "It's not what you think. He told me something about Clow and us being in great danger" "So" he said concerned "did he tell you anything about ShinJin Ni ?" "He didn't mention any name" "I see." he said placing his teddy bear's hands on his head "well you'll have to go see the gaki again and ask him" "No, I won't" "Well, you have to" "But I don't want to" "Sakura listen to me" he told her "If the gaki is right and we're in great danger, wouldn't you want to at least know about it. Besides, you've always liked hanging around with the gaki, what's wrong?" "Nothing" se replied dryly. Her tone becoming harsh. "You can't fool me Sakura. I may be just a card guardian, but I know a lot about love business. Furthermore, you owe me, big time!" "I said I'TS NOTHING. Is that clear Kero-chan?" "Crystal" "Okay" she smiled after a while "let's go then! FLY, Grant me wings!!"
Sakura rode over Tomoeda for a while before reaching her house, she had had a lot of time to think and she hadn't talk to Kero during the whole trip.
"Tadaima!!" she shouted at the entrance "Chotto matte kudasai" a male voice said "Kaiju, Okaeri" she recognized Touya's voice "I'm not kaiju!!" she yelled at him "how many times do I have to tell you?!!" ยด"Seems like the kaiju is in a bad mood" he answered calmly "did you have a bad day? Did your Sensei finally realize that monsters couldn't take math lessons just like the other kids?"
Sakura was burning inside, she was so mad, so angry. She felt like hitting everybody and running away, maybe also stepping on her brother. She was just about to run to her bedroom and add another slammed door to the list of that day when she heard another voice. A familiar one.
"I'm sorry, Sakura-chan" she heard the voice "What are you doing here?" Sakura answered "Are you just here to bother me?" "I don't know" "What do you meant by saying you don't know?!" she yelled at him "Huh, Syaoran?" "As you said before" he continued "I don't know why I came here" "I. I. I don't understand!!" "Believe me" he turned around "It's better like that. Arigato gozaimazu" Syaoran sighed almost in silence, but loud enough for Sakura to hear it.
Syaoran walked to the door and left walking silently across the street and followed the path of cherry trees back to his house. He walked trough those empty streets, the very same that he had walked trough years before but with one slight difference: for the first time, he felt like crying. He had hurt the person he loved the most in his life, and all because of a stupid impulse *Well it wasn't actually that stupid Syaoran. You did want to kiss her, didn't you?* He shook his head and kept walking, perhaps Wei would have some advice or at least he could cheer him up.
"What's up with the gaki?" Touya asked Sakura "LEAVE ME ALONE!!" she broke down "Hey!" Touya said in a more comprehensible tone "you can tell me what's wrong. I'm your oniichan, remember?" "It's all Syaoran's fault!!" she wept "I knew it had something to do with the gaki!!" he thought, but he didn't tell Sakura anything, she was worried enough to be bothered by him and his useless thoughts. "He. He ." she continued "he tried to." "What? What did he do?" Touya was getting desperate "He tried to kiss me!!" "WHAT!!!!" Touya shouted "Repeat what you've just said!" "I said. that Syaoran tried to kiss me" she repeated more calmly. "Wait a minute" he said in an I-can't-believe-it tone "you've just said that the GAKI tried to kiss YOU??!!!"
Sakura stared at his mad face. He was so angry but in his eyes there was a sad look. Sakura felt fear and she ran upstairs to her room. She wished she had created a card to disappear in that moment. She was unstable enough to have to deal with his brother's miss of approval above and beyond. She really didn't need that then.
When she got to her room she looked through the window and realized it was late night. "I wonder how he is doing?" she thought, but buried that idea in the bottom of her mind and went to bed.
Kero was, by that time, in his small drawer but hadn't been able to sleep. He flew to the little table in which the Clow (now Sakura's) book was. He laid next to it and found himself next to a second book. Curious as always he couldn't help opening it.
The day you went back to Hong Kong. he started reading .That was probably the hardest day of my life he knew it was kind of rude reading it, but curiosity was killing him and those words where full of pain and sadness. . I never knew that you actually loved me. Until you told me. And though, it was kinda late. Silly me, I couldn't realize it before. It was Sakura's diary, he was sure of that now and she had been certainly thinking about Syaoran when she wrote those lines.
Kero felt bad. He had just been making fun of Sakura instead of being aware of the pain that was killing his mistress soul. He felt guilty but kept reading: maybe he could find in there something that could help. But there's still a whisper of faith, because, if you went back to her, then you will come back to me.
"She's in love with him!!" he thought "She's in love with Syaoran Li!!!". In that very moment Kero realized it was the first time he hadn't call him a gaki. He also realized that he actually cared about his mistress despite all his complains. He flew to Sakura's pillow. "Why didn't you tell me about this before Sakura-chan?, don't you trust me enough?" he whispered disappointed.
End of Chapter 4
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Dedicated to you, reviewers, who have always been my greatest support. You rock!
Chapter IV Of lost loves and rejections
It was nice outside, the sun was shinning a little and a cool wind was blowing. Syaoran was thinking about it when the doorbell rang. She had gotten early. So he asked her in. Sakura nodded smiling. He hadn't said anything about having tea together. Maybe she had just thought so.
"I brought you a little something" Sakura said smiling as she took out some freshly baked muffins "I hope you like them. You know I've never been really good at cooking anyway." "Well." he was too nervous to talk right now so he tried to change the subject and of course, change the fact that he hadn't prepared anything for her "you shouldn't have. We're not here to talk about our day, but about business." "I know" she sighed "It's just that I didn't want it to be so serious" "Always so caring my dear Sakura-chan" he said to himself "That's the way it is supposed to be" he stood silent for a while "So anyway" she broke the silence "what about that call?" "I'm really concerned, since we've got all of the Clow cards" he started "I never thought something like this would happen after that" "Yeah, I thought so too. That, those strange things were over." "Well they aren't" he interrupted "What do you mean?" "There's something going on. I'm not a hundred percent sure but it has everything to do with Clow, and because of that, with us. There's someone or something going after Clow" "Oh!" she stood up hysterically "we have to tell Eriol. We have to warn Tomoyo!! We have to... "
Syaoran stood up then and held her hands together, trying to calm down the now screaming Sakura. He hugged her.
"It's all gonna be okay" he said "Don't worry. It will all turn out well"
Sakura was anxious, she wasn't thinking then, she just wanted to run away. It had never been like that, but after all those years of hiding her fear inside her shelter, she had to blow someday: and that day had arrived. She had just broken down. Syaoran held her stronger than he had before trying to comfort her but the only thing that he had provoked on her had been more tears. I don't want it to happen Syaoran.I don't want to believe you. I don't want to He could still hear her words torturing him and his thoughts. He embraced her like trying to protect her from an incoming hurricane. They found themselves face-to-face. Breathing faster than usual. He removed softly the hair standing between them and kissed her forehead. He ran his right hand through her face and kept holding her with the left one. He bent closer to her and found himself moving his lips toward hers. He was trying to kiss her. Sakura pushed him back and nearly smacked him.
"What do you think you're doing Syaoran??!!" she yelled "Well. ano." he tried to think 'bout something to tell her "It's just that I. I" "You what Syaoran??!!" "Sakura" he begged "let me explain." "I don't want to hear your explanations. Do you wanna know what I think? I think that you.and.and. I. I don't even know why I came here!!!"
She ran to the door, went out and slammed it making a huge noise, leaving Syaoran, whose face was now buried in his hands, inside of the house.
She started walking with no destination. She didn't care about her father being worried or anything. She was just wandering around: wondering what the hell had Syaoran's attitude meant. It was so confusing. "He shouldn't have done that" she thought, "the only thing that he caused is more troubles. Our relationship was complicated enough by itself, and now. what am I going to do?"
Suddenly and from nowhere, Kero appeared.
"SAKURA!!" he shouted "I've been looking for you!! I was so worried about you!!"
He made a small pause and looked at Sakura. She was looking at the sky. He realized then that, absorbed by her thoughts, she hadn't heard a word of what he had said.
"HOE!! Oh, Kero-chan!" she apologized "I didn't see you coming" "It's okay, but what's going on with you? You're more distracted than usually" "No, It's nothing. It's just that." "What?" "Well, it's just that Syaoran." "Oh that gaki again!! Sakura, I've told you like a million times not to." "It's not what you think. He told me something about Clow and us being in great danger" "So" he said concerned "did he tell you anything about ShinJin Ni ?" "He didn't mention any name" "I see." he said placing his teddy bear's hands on his head "well you'll have to go see the gaki again and ask him" "No, I won't" "Well, you have to" "But I don't want to" "Sakura listen to me" he told her "If the gaki is right and we're in great danger, wouldn't you want to at least know about it. Besides, you've always liked hanging around with the gaki, what's wrong?" "Nothing" se replied dryly. Her tone becoming harsh. "You can't fool me Sakura. I may be just a card guardian, but I know a lot about love business. Furthermore, you owe me, big time!" "I said I'TS NOTHING. Is that clear Kero-chan?" "Crystal" "Okay" she smiled after a while "let's go then! FLY, Grant me wings!!"
Sakura rode over Tomoeda for a while before reaching her house, she had had a lot of time to think and she hadn't talk to Kero during the whole trip.
"Tadaima!!" she shouted at the entrance "Chotto matte kudasai" a male voice said "Kaiju, Okaeri" she recognized Touya's voice "I'm not kaiju!!" she yelled at him "how many times do I have to tell you?!!" ยด"Seems like the kaiju is in a bad mood" he answered calmly "did you have a bad day? Did your Sensei finally realize that monsters couldn't take math lessons just like the other kids?"
Sakura was burning inside, she was so mad, so angry. She felt like hitting everybody and running away, maybe also stepping on her brother. She was just about to run to her bedroom and add another slammed door to the list of that day when she heard another voice. A familiar one.
"I'm sorry, Sakura-chan" she heard the voice "What are you doing here?" Sakura answered "Are you just here to bother me?" "I don't know" "What do you meant by saying you don't know?!" she yelled at him "Huh, Syaoran?" "As you said before" he continued "I don't know why I came here" "I. I. I don't understand!!" "Believe me" he turned around "It's better like that. Arigato gozaimazu" Syaoran sighed almost in silence, but loud enough for Sakura to hear it.
Syaoran walked to the door and left walking silently across the street and followed the path of cherry trees back to his house. He walked trough those empty streets, the very same that he had walked trough years before but with one slight difference: for the first time, he felt like crying. He had hurt the person he loved the most in his life, and all because of a stupid impulse *Well it wasn't actually that stupid Syaoran. You did want to kiss her, didn't you?* He shook his head and kept walking, perhaps Wei would have some advice or at least he could cheer him up.
"What's up with the gaki?" Touya asked Sakura "LEAVE ME ALONE!!" she broke down "Hey!" Touya said in a more comprehensible tone "you can tell me what's wrong. I'm your oniichan, remember?" "It's all Syaoran's fault!!" she wept "I knew it had something to do with the gaki!!" he thought, but he didn't tell Sakura anything, she was worried enough to be bothered by him and his useless thoughts. "He. He ." she continued "he tried to." "What? What did he do?" Touya was getting desperate "He tried to kiss me!!" "WHAT!!!!" Touya shouted "Repeat what you've just said!" "I said. that Syaoran tried to kiss me" she repeated more calmly. "Wait a minute" he said in an I-can't-believe-it tone "you've just said that the GAKI tried to kiss YOU??!!!"
Sakura stared at his mad face. He was so angry but in his eyes there was a sad look. Sakura felt fear and she ran upstairs to her room. She wished she had created a card to disappear in that moment. She was unstable enough to have to deal with his brother's miss of approval above and beyond. She really didn't need that then.
When she got to her room she looked through the window and realized it was late night. "I wonder how he is doing?" she thought, but buried that idea in the bottom of her mind and went to bed.
Kero was, by that time, in his small drawer but hadn't been able to sleep. He flew to the little table in which the Clow (now Sakura's) book was. He laid next to it and found himself next to a second book. Curious as always he couldn't help opening it.
The day you went back to Hong Kong. he started reading .That was probably the hardest day of my life he knew it was kind of rude reading it, but curiosity was killing him and those words where full of pain and sadness. . I never knew that you actually loved me. Until you told me. And though, it was kinda late. Silly me, I couldn't realize it before. It was Sakura's diary, he was sure of that now and she had been certainly thinking about Syaoran when she wrote those lines.
Kero felt bad. He had just been making fun of Sakura instead of being aware of the pain that was killing his mistress soul. He felt guilty but kept reading: maybe he could find in there something that could help. But there's still a whisper of faith, because, if you went back to her, then you will come back to me.
"She's in love with him!!" he thought "She's in love with Syaoran Li!!!". In that very moment Kero realized it was the first time he hadn't call him a gaki. He also realized that he actually cared about his mistress despite all his complains. He flew to Sakura's pillow. "Why didn't you tell me about this before Sakura-chan?, don't you trust me enough?" he whispered disappointed.
End of Chapter 4
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