Hudson soft/takara, beyblade project TV Tokyo. Ok, I'm gonna try to write Rei's POV.
How could he do this to me - I mean, to the team? He left, Kai left me - I mean, the team. Why do I keep thinking he left me? He left the team, not me, he left us all to go and join the Demolition Boys. He doesn't care about me - there I go again. If Kai was hearing this, he'd probably say something like, 'always about YOU isn't it?' God, I love the way he's so sarcastic about most things, but then when it comes to Beyblading, he's so.....I don't know..... open about how much he hates loosing, I mean, everyone does, but he's just so different..........
He seems so cold, but I'll be willing to bet that somewhere, no matter how deep inside him, that there's some form of kindness inside him - wait a minute....Kai is Kai, and nothing has changed that before.........But why do I get this feeling that something will? Is it because I......no, I can't. It's not right, it can't be.....oh, god. This isn't happening to me. Why? God, I feel like such an idiot, how could I have let myself fall for him? He's so cold, he'll never like me, no, why me?
Oh no, this can't happen here. I can't start to cry in front of the others. I have to get out of here.....I don't know where to but just away. I know. I'll go to the place down by the river, just for a walk. Nothing special, no emotion is able to show out there, just how cold you feel since it's below -30 degrees.
No, here I go again. I came down here to get away from my thoughts, away from my thoughts of Kai. But stupid me has just kept walking and I've ended up near the only place I never thought Kai would go. The Abbey.
It seems just so perfect for him. It's cold and hard, and the security is so strong that you'd have to be a super sleuth just to even make it past the doors. Like Kai. He never talks to anyone...he seems to hate us all, but for some reason, I can't help but want to comfort him, I think that's all he needs. Judging from what I know, which isn't much, it seems like he didn't have an easy life growing up in this place.
Oh, no. Why is he outside at this time of day? I thought he was training. Maybe he comes outside, into the cold and bitter weather. He must feel right at home..........
Don't look up, just concentrate on your Blading Kai. Don't look up and see me, please don't. He looks almost perfect....I mean, he's standing alone, but he seems so focused, like nothing can move him, he looks like he feels. Alone, cold, bitter, and sort of upset at himself.
I wish he would just stop being like that. If he got rid of the look on his face, I'm sure he would look a lot more like he should instead of the way he was brought up to think he should.
Oh, no. He saw me, what do I do? I'm confused, Kai. When you were around, I always had some sort of feeling that *I* knew what I was doing since you were there, but now, all the others are worried. They think that I'm sick. Kenny told me just this morning that I seemed even paler than usual. I can feel it. Kai, I need you there for me. I need you, you make me feel safe, and that I know who I am. Without you, I'm just on autopilot. I eat, sleep, and train. I go through the day automatically. I don't need anything else.
You are the one that showed me almost all the things I've recently learnt about BeyBlading. I watch you all the time, I make sure that I know where you are, always relying on the fact that you're there.
But now, you're gone. I watched as you just walked away from me, leaving me alone in a strange place.
God, I love you, I just want to tell you. I feel so stupid that I didn't earlier. Now, you'll never know.....I'm so sorry Kai. I'm a coward. I was scared about how you'd react if I told you, but now, watching you train by yourself in the cold wind is breaking me. I'm sorry Kai, I can't watch you anymore. I have to go get myself away from this emptiness I feel building up inside me.
No, I feel a tear on my cheek, this can't be right. Why am I crying for you? I love you, Kai. I know I do. I love you so much, and that's why I feel like this. I'm going back, I know you'll never see me again, most likely, and you'll never even think about loving me. I'm sorry.
Owari..........for now.
Thanks to all the people that asked me to write another chapter to 'thoughts of kai' so this is it. As soon as I can, I'll write more to this, explaining a twist that...well, you all know is coming. ^_^; *sigh* Well, considering this is a Kai/Rei fic, they gotta end up together don't they?
Ja!
Oh, and thanks to everyone that reviewed. I was surprised to find out I actually had reviews after only a few days!
How could he do this to me - I mean, to the team? He left, Kai left me - I mean, the team. Why do I keep thinking he left me? He left the team, not me, he left us all to go and join the Demolition Boys. He doesn't care about me - there I go again. If Kai was hearing this, he'd probably say something like, 'always about YOU isn't it?' God, I love the way he's so sarcastic about most things, but then when it comes to Beyblading, he's so.....I don't know..... open about how much he hates loosing, I mean, everyone does, but he's just so different..........
He seems so cold, but I'll be willing to bet that somewhere, no matter how deep inside him, that there's some form of kindness inside him - wait a minute....Kai is Kai, and nothing has changed that before.........But why do I get this feeling that something will? Is it because I......no, I can't. It's not right, it can't be.....oh, god. This isn't happening to me. Why? God, I feel like such an idiot, how could I have let myself fall for him? He's so cold, he'll never like me, no, why me?
Oh no, this can't happen here. I can't start to cry in front of the others. I have to get out of here.....I don't know where to but just away. I know. I'll go to the place down by the river, just for a walk. Nothing special, no emotion is able to show out there, just how cold you feel since it's below -30 degrees.
No, here I go again. I came down here to get away from my thoughts, away from my thoughts of Kai. But stupid me has just kept walking and I've ended up near the only place I never thought Kai would go. The Abbey.
It seems just so perfect for him. It's cold and hard, and the security is so strong that you'd have to be a super sleuth just to even make it past the doors. Like Kai. He never talks to anyone...he seems to hate us all, but for some reason, I can't help but want to comfort him, I think that's all he needs. Judging from what I know, which isn't much, it seems like he didn't have an easy life growing up in this place.
Oh, no. Why is he outside at this time of day? I thought he was training. Maybe he comes outside, into the cold and bitter weather. He must feel right at home..........
Don't look up, just concentrate on your Blading Kai. Don't look up and see me, please don't. He looks almost perfect....I mean, he's standing alone, but he seems so focused, like nothing can move him, he looks like he feels. Alone, cold, bitter, and sort of upset at himself.
I wish he would just stop being like that. If he got rid of the look on his face, I'm sure he would look a lot more like he should instead of the way he was brought up to think he should.
Oh, no. He saw me, what do I do? I'm confused, Kai. When you were around, I always had some sort of feeling that *I* knew what I was doing since you were there, but now, all the others are worried. They think that I'm sick. Kenny told me just this morning that I seemed even paler than usual. I can feel it. Kai, I need you there for me. I need you, you make me feel safe, and that I know who I am. Without you, I'm just on autopilot. I eat, sleep, and train. I go through the day automatically. I don't need anything else.
You are the one that showed me almost all the things I've recently learnt about BeyBlading. I watch you all the time, I make sure that I know where you are, always relying on the fact that you're there.
But now, you're gone. I watched as you just walked away from me, leaving me alone in a strange place.
God, I love you, I just want to tell you. I feel so stupid that I didn't earlier. Now, you'll never know.....I'm so sorry Kai. I'm a coward. I was scared about how you'd react if I told you, but now, watching you train by yourself in the cold wind is breaking me. I'm sorry Kai, I can't watch you anymore. I have to go get myself away from this emptiness I feel building up inside me.
No, I feel a tear on my cheek, this can't be right. Why am I crying for you? I love you, Kai. I know I do. I love you so much, and that's why I feel like this. I'm going back, I know you'll never see me again, most likely, and you'll never even think about loving me. I'm sorry.
Owari..........for now.
Thanks to all the people that asked me to write another chapter to 'thoughts of kai' so this is it. As soon as I can, I'll write more to this, explaining a twist that...well, you all know is coming. ^_^; *sigh* Well, considering this is a Kai/Rei fic, they gotta end up together don't they?
Ja!
Oh, and thanks to everyone that reviewed. I was surprised to find out I actually had reviews after only a few days!