"A Life Half Lived"
Chapter 3 Diclaimer: Don't own, so don't sue Author's Note: I don't do a very good Scott hey!
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I think in the back of my mind I knew she was going to leave us. She told me. She said 'something terrible is going to happen' I just didn't put two and two together in time. Everyone was at the funeral. Even Logan. I was surprised to see him there. He was there for Rogue I suppose.
Rogue. She's a wonderful girl. Sat for her finals and is now a teacher here. We needed a new one now that... I think Logan has some crazy notion that I'm trying to take his place with her. That's not true. I'm just grateful to her. She's the only one is this whole place that doesn't treat me like some sort of invalid. Like I'm going to break at any moment.
I had a feeling that Logan was going to take off some time soon. It wasn't his 'style' to stick around. Even when she needed him most. She knew it too and was miserable. I hugged her and told her I wasn't going anywhere.
After Jean died everything changed. Everything
We returned to a newly renovated Mansion and classes continued as per usual, except for Jean's. After a while Rogue began to teach some of her classes and i found myself listening outside the door. Just to hear the words I've heard Jean say for some many years.
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I saw Logan prowling the halls with his bag. He's leaving i thought. I'd better say something
"Logan!" I called
"Yea?" He growled
"Do you know where i could find Rogue?" I asked... I didn't know what to say
"Nup" He knew where she was. He just didn't want to tell me. Fine
"Well, if you see her can you tell her I'm looking for her?" i asked.
"Yup" He said turning to walk away
'Say something Scott, my mind urged me'
"Oh and Logan?" I abruptly said
"Yea?" came the reply
"Thanks for sticking round" I decided on
"No problem" He replied testily
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"Ok, so I want all your definitions on my desk by Monday morning, no excuses please. Have a nice weekend"
I was listening to Rogue teach. She is a good teacher. Firm but fair. Kind but keen. Just like Jean.
I heard Logan start talking and decided it was best to leave then. I wanted to talk to Rogue. To thank her for being there. To thank her for being my friend. It could wait. Hopefully Logan would tell her I was looking for her. Suddenly I caught a whiff of White Musk. Jean wore White Musk. I could feel the heartache welling up inside me.
Later I was sitting alone in my room when Rogue found me.
"Logan said you were looking for me" She said softly
I turned around startled; I didn't know she was there
"I'm sorry," She said hastily. I didn't know if she could see the tears falling down my cheek
"I'll come back later" she said
"No, no Rogue please come in" I said patting the bed beside me
"Can I do anything for you?" She asked
"No, it's me that can do something for you" I said sadly.
I held out a necklace with a small pendent in the shape of an X hanging from it. It was Jean's X pendent. The one she had when we first started this.
"I was cleaning out some of Jeans things and I saw this and thought you might like to have it." I said my voice giving way.
"Oh no Scott you keep it." She said
"No Jean would want you to have it. I want you to have it. You were very important to her. She was very proud of you. Of what you will become." I was trying to hold back it all back. I wanted to tell her everything. But I'm not that kind of guy.
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I'd like to think that I could be a religious guy. But I can't. Because everyday I ask the Lord why he took Jean away from me. Why did he let something so beautiful leave this earth and I never get a reply.
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Chapter 3 Diclaimer: Don't own, so don't sue Author's Note: I don't do a very good Scott hey!
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I think in the back of my mind I knew she was going to leave us. She told me. She said 'something terrible is going to happen' I just didn't put two and two together in time. Everyone was at the funeral. Even Logan. I was surprised to see him there. He was there for Rogue I suppose.
Rogue. She's a wonderful girl. Sat for her finals and is now a teacher here. We needed a new one now that... I think Logan has some crazy notion that I'm trying to take his place with her. That's not true. I'm just grateful to her. She's the only one is this whole place that doesn't treat me like some sort of invalid. Like I'm going to break at any moment.
I had a feeling that Logan was going to take off some time soon. It wasn't his 'style' to stick around. Even when she needed him most. She knew it too and was miserable. I hugged her and told her I wasn't going anywhere.
After Jean died everything changed. Everything
We returned to a newly renovated Mansion and classes continued as per usual, except for Jean's. After a while Rogue began to teach some of her classes and i found myself listening outside the door. Just to hear the words I've heard Jean say for some many years.
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I saw Logan prowling the halls with his bag. He's leaving i thought. I'd better say something
"Logan!" I called
"Yea?" He growled
"Do you know where i could find Rogue?" I asked... I didn't know what to say
"Nup" He knew where she was. He just didn't want to tell me. Fine
"Well, if you see her can you tell her I'm looking for her?" i asked.
"Yup" He said turning to walk away
'Say something Scott, my mind urged me'
"Oh and Logan?" I abruptly said
"Yea?" came the reply
"Thanks for sticking round" I decided on
"No problem" He replied testily
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"Ok, so I want all your definitions on my desk by Monday morning, no excuses please. Have a nice weekend"
I was listening to Rogue teach. She is a good teacher. Firm but fair. Kind but keen. Just like Jean.
I heard Logan start talking and decided it was best to leave then. I wanted to talk to Rogue. To thank her for being there. To thank her for being my friend. It could wait. Hopefully Logan would tell her I was looking for her. Suddenly I caught a whiff of White Musk. Jean wore White Musk. I could feel the heartache welling up inside me.
Later I was sitting alone in my room when Rogue found me.
"Logan said you were looking for me" She said softly
I turned around startled; I didn't know she was there
"I'm sorry," She said hastily. I didn't know if she could see the tears falling down my cheek
"I'll come back later" she said
"No, no Rogue please come in" I said patting the bed beside me
"Can I do anything for you?" She asked
"No, it's me that can do something for you" I said sadly.
I held out a necklace with a small pendent in the shape of an X hanging from it. It was Jean's X pendent. The one she had when we first started this.
"I was cleaning out some of Jeans things and I saw this and thought you might like to have it." I said my voice giving way.
"Oh no Scott you keep it." She said
"No Jean would want you to have it. I want you to have it. You were very important to her. She was very proud of you. Of what you will become." I was trying to hold back it all back. I wanted to tell her everything. But I'm not that kind of guy.
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I'd like to think that I could be a religious guy. But I can't. Because everyday I ask the Lord why he took Jean away from me. Why did he let something so beautiful leave this earth and I never get a reply.
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