As soon as the bedroom door shut, Yuki Eiri opened his dulled bronze yellow
eyes to the ceiling above him. Shuichi.had left him? That.that could not
be. Not his pink-haired lover. His annoyingly clingy, hyperactive, bi-polar
uke.
Was Shuichi actually serious?
Yes.not once had the novelist ever heard Shuichi so serious, so sober.so.sad.
Yuki's heart wrenched with despair. Had he lost him? Was he so cruel to the younger boy? To actually force him to give up on his love? Without even knowing the truth himself?
Yuki loved Shuichi.
Shindou Shuichi was the center of his universe. The missing piece to the puzzle of his heart. Life had no meaning without his.beloved.
Beloved
That's what Shuichi was to him, his Saiai.
Most Beloved
Dear Buddha, what had he done to drive Shuichi away? But it was obvious. After so many twists and turns on their roller coaster relationship, Shuichi finally decided to get off. And it looked like he wasn't going to get back on.
What could he do? Shuichi obviously was unaware of his feelings of love for him. But was there still time to fix things? Did Yuki even WANT to fix them?
And that thought horrified him.
Was it even worth it to try and fix their relationship? It was just in the way of both their careers and aspirations.
Shuichi was at odds with Yuki's family. Yuki was at odds with Shuichi's music.
Could it really work out?
If Shuichi was out of his life, then he could finally concentrate on his work. Put to rest his own past without disruption. Maybe even make peace with his family, and while Shuichi was there, that was impossible.
Besides.Shuichi was a boy, just barely over the age of minority. Yuki had other options, didn't he?
No!
Without Shuichi.without Shuichi.without Shuichi.
It was in that cold moment that the 22-year-old novelist realized, he really didn't have to have Shuichi to live.
Was Shuichi actually serious?
Yes.not once had the novelist ever heard Shuichi so serious, so sober.so.sad.
Yuki's heart wrenched with despair. Had he lost him? Was he so cruel to the younger boy? To actually force him to give up on his love? Without even knowing the truth himself?
Yuki loved Shuichi.
Shindou Shuichi was the center of his universe. The missing piece to the puzzle of his heart. Life had no meaning without his.beloved.
Beloved
That's what Shuichi was to him, his Saiai.
Most Beloved
Dear Buddha, what had he done to drive Shuichi away? But it was obvious. After so many twists and turns on their roller coaster relationship, Shuichi finally decided to get off. And it looked like he wasn't going to get back on.
What could he do? Shuichi obviously was unaware of his feelings of love for him. But was there still time to fix things? Did Yuki even WANT to fix them?
And that thought horrified him.
Was it even worth it to try and fix their relationship? It was just in the way of both their careers and aspirations.
Shuichi was at odds with Yuki's family. Yuki was at odds with Shuichi's music.
Could it really work out?
If Shuichi was out of his life, then he could finally concentrate on his work. Put to rest his own past without disruption. Maybe even make peace with his family, and while Shuichi was there, that was impossible.
Besides.Shuichi was a boy, just barely over the age of minority. Yuki had other options, didn't he?
No!
Without Shuichi.without Shuichi.without Shuichi.
It was in that cold moment that the 22-year-old novelist realized, he really didn't have to have Shuichi to live.