Oki, this chapter might be a tad bit confusing at first, I'll try to make
it as easy to follow as saiyajinly possible ^_^ Basicly the first half of
it is like a nasty flashback/dream^_^
WARNING: It's a little bloody and....slightly eerie. Tell me in your reivew if you think I should kick the rating up.....^^;; I just want to be causious.
Starting Over
Chapter 4
Darkness
Darkness.....its chasing me.......memories.......they just wont leave me....there coming for me.......no.....
"Amay........"
Yamcha.......?
I look around me.....
Nothing..............
Darkness.
It's so cold......
"Amay........."
Goku.......?
Again.....I look around the vast darkness....and again...there's nothing.......
"Amay!"
I more harsher voice calls out.....I freeze, knowing who it belongs to......Raditz.
The scene suddenly changes, I see a teenage girl.....sitting alone on Freiza's base.....her eyes hazed over....as she almost carlessly slices the small razor across her wrists.....
"Amay!"
Again, HIS voice rings through my ears. The girl hears him too.....quickly slips the razor into hiding, and tries hide her blood covered arms.......but the small jacket she wears does little to help.
"What are you doing?!"
"n-nothing...." I shakes her head, shaking at his words and the harsh look on his face.
"Don't you know thats only a cowards way out!" He yells, grabbing the girl by the air, making her scream out in pain.
"NO!" I try to scream....but my voice cant reach them as HE carries her out of the room, scolding her for crying......
"Only the WEAK cry!"
I close my eyes....his words.......making the darkness come back....its consumes me one again.....I suddenly realize....the girl.....that was me......
I laugh at myself humorlessly....I hadnt even reconized my own self............then again......Who am I......really....?
I ask myself that countless times as I drift through the darkness.....the wounds the little girl inflicked on her wrists.....now on mine.....I stare down at them......lifelessly as they bleed.....my brother's voice,......Yamcha's....everyone's clashes and calls my name....but I cant hear them...................
~*~
"NO!" I screamed, sitting straight up in my bed, sweat pouring off my face. My hands shaking....palms sweating.
Suprisinly enough, I was upstairs.....in my bed for that matter.
I felt my eyes widen as I saw Yamcha. He sat, fast asleep, on the floor beside my bed....
'He.....stayed with me....' I thought, a small smile coming across my face, I leaned down to his level and looked at his face, which was fixed in a serious expression......he looked worried.
I could of kicked myself for opening up THAT MUCH to him. I knew he didnt mind, and I knew he wouldnt think I was stupid for feeling the way I did......but still......I didnt want to trouble him.... I looked at his face, tracing my finger over his profile.....
~Cry if you need to.....forget your a saiyajin, forget all the things that you've been taught and CRY. I'm not going to think any less of you if you do.....~
I closed my eyes as his words replayed in my head, I knew he was right.....and just having him here right now made me feel better......even after that dream...........I've had it dozens of times......but...never with Yamcha in it.......
Then, I remembered what Bulma had said to me a few days earlier.......Do I? Do I actually LOVE him.....?
I knew he was one of best friends...and he had been ever since I got to earth.......he was, afterall, the first person I met......even then, I knew there was something speical about him....from the first time I saw his face, there was something different about him. And it wasnt just his looks.....
Then Nail crossed my mind.....I just you could say I still held a torch for him......even though I knew we could never be together....he and Piccolo fused shortly after I came to Earth.....all because of that bastard, Frieza.
I traced my finger over the scar on Yamchas cheek.....he must of had a past of his own......
I shook my head, here I was rammbling about how bad my past was....I hadnt even thought about what he might of been through.......
"I was being selfish...." I whispered, as I kissed his forhead. "I'm sorry...." I stood and pulled my blanket over his shoulders, before heading downstairs to start some breakfast.
~End Chapter 4~
Aoi Jade: heh heh....I'm finally writting LONGER chapters! Hope that wasnt lame....^^;; I tired my hardest...and I put Zane's little booty to work on this chapter!! Right Zaney-chan?
Zane: ............
Aoi Jade: Ah, still not talking to me, eh? *Shrugs* Ah well, you'll get over it....hopefully before I start the next chapter or sooner. *Smiles like a little angel*
Zane: Angel my ass.....
Aoi Jade: *Wacks him over the head with Chichi's Frying Pan again* Hey! Watch it Mister!
Zane: Yeah yeah......
Aoi Jade: *Smiles at ff.n readers and tires to hide little horns on her head* What devil horns?! There only there to hold the hallow up! ^____^
Zane: *Mutteres*
Aoi Jade: *Makes face* (Much like this one -_-;;) Do you want me to get the frying pan out again.
Zane: Oh...I'm so scared.....
Aoi Jade: *WHAM!*
Zane: Ouch........!
Aoi Jade: *grins* That odda teach ya, you little bugger you!
Zane: *rubs head* Wanna bet......?
Aoi Jade & Zane: *Both lock in a glare*
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Aoi Jade: HAHA! YOU BLINKED!
Zane: *Sweatdrops and falls over Anime Style* UGH! Would you just post this damn thing so these people can read it and review it!
Aoi Jade: *Sticks out her tounge* Maybe I like doing Author's Notes! So there! Naaaaa!!!!!!!
Zane: *Grabs keyboard away from Jade*
Aoi Jade: HEY!!! GIMMIE THAT BACK YOU!!!!
Zane: *Types like mad* PLEASE REVEIW!!!!!
P.S. HELP ME!
*Clicks Upload*
WARNING: It's a little bloody and....slightly eerie. Tell me in your reivew if you think I should kick the rating up.....^^;; I just want to be causious.
Starting Over
Chapter 4
Darkness
Darkness.....its chasing me.......memories.......they just wont leave me....there coming for me.......no.....
"Amay........"
Yamcha.......?
I look around me.....
Nothing..............
Darkness.
It's so cold......
"Amay........."
Goku.......?
Again.....I look around the vast darkness....and again...there's nothing.......
"Amay!"
I more harsher voice calls out.....I freeze, knowing who it belongs to......Raditz.
The scene suddenly changes, I see a teenage girl.....sitting alone on Freiza's base.....her eyes hazed over....as she almost carlessly slices the small razor across her wrists.....
"Amay!"
Again, HIS voice rings through my ears. The girl hears him too.....quickly slips the razor into hiding, and tries hide her blood covered arms.......but the small jacket she wears does little to help.
"What are you doing?!"
"n-nothing...." I shakes her head, shaking at his words and the harsh look on his face.
"Don't you know thats only a cowards way out!" He yells, grabbing the girl by the air, making her scream out in pain.
"NO!" I try to scream....but my voice cant reach them as HE carries her out of the room, scolding her for crying......
"Only the WEAK cry!"
I close my eyes....his words.......making the darkness come back....its consumes me one again.....I suddenly realize....the girl.....that was me......
I laugh at myself humorlessly....I hadnt even reconized my own self............then again......Who am I......really....?
I ask myself that countless times as I drift through the darkness.....the wounds the little girl inflicked on her wrists.....now on mine.....I stare down at them......lifelessly as they bleed.....my brother's voice,......Yamcha's....everyone's clashes and calls my name....but I cant hear them...................
~*~
"NO!" I screamed, sitting straight up in my bed, sweat pouring off my face. My hands shaking....palms sweating.
Suprisinly enough, I was upstairs.....in my bed for that matter.
I felt my eyes widen as I saw Yamcha. He sat, fast asleep, on the floor beside my bed....
'He.....stayed with me....' I thought, a small smile coming across my face, I leaned down to his level and looked at his face, which was fixed in a serious expression......he looked worried.
I could of kicked myself for opening up THAT MUCH to him. I knew he didnt mind, and I knew he wouldnt think I was stupid for feeling the way I did......but still......I didnt want to trouble him.... I looked at his face, tracing my finger over his profile.....
~Cry if you need to.....forget your a saiyajin, forget all the things that you've been taught and CRY. I'm not going to think any less of you if you do.....~
I closed my eyes as his words replayed in my head, I knew he was right.....and just having him here right now made me feel better......even after that dream...........I've had it dozens of times......but...never with Yamcha in it.......
Then, I remembered what Bulma had said to me a few days earlier.......Do I? Do I actually LOVE him.....?
I knew he was one of best friends...and he had been ever since I got to earth.......he was, afterall, the first person I met......even then, I knew there was something speical about him....from the first time I saw his face, there was something different about him. And it wasnt just his looks.....
Then Nail crossed my mind.....I just you could say I still held a torch for him......even though I knew we could never be together....he and Piccolo fused shortly after I came to Earth.....all because of that bastard, Frieza.
I traced my finger over the scar on Yamchas cheek.....he must of had a past of his own......
I shook my head, here I was rammbling about how bad my past was....I hadnt even thought about what he might of been through.......
"I was being selfish...." I whispered, as I kissed his forhead. "I'm sorry...." I stood and pulled my blanket over his shoulders, before heading downstairs to start some breakfast.
~End Chapter 4~
Aoi Jade: heh heh....I'm finally writting LONGER chapters! Hope that wasnt lame....^^;; I tired my hardest...and I put Zane's little booty to work on this chapter!! Right Zaney-chan?
Zane: ............
Aoi Jade: Ah, still not talking to me, eh? *Shrugs* Ah well, you'll get over it....hopefully before I start the next chapter or sooner. *Smiles like a little angel*
Zane: Angel my ass.....
Aoi Jade: *Wacks him over the head with Chichi's Frying Pan again* Hey! Watch it Mister!
Zane: Yeah yeah......
Aoi Jade: *Smiles at ff.n readers and tires to hide little horns on her head* What devil horns?! There only there to hold the hallow up! ^____^
Zane: *Mutteres*
Aoi Jade: *Makes face* (Much like this one -_-;;) Do you want me to get the frying pan out again.
Zane: Oh...I'm so scared.....
Aoi Jade: *WHAM!*
Zane: Ouch........!
Aoi Jade: *grins* That odda teach ya, you little bugger you!
Zane: *rubs head* Wanna bet......?
Aoi Jade & Zane: *Both lock in a glare*
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Aoi Jade: HAHA! YOU BLINKED!
Zane: *Sweatdrops and falls over Anime Style* UGH! Would you just post this damn thing so these people can read it and review it!
Aoi Jade: *Sticks out her tounge* Maybe I like doing Author's Notes! So there! Naaaaa!!!!!!!
Zane: *Grabs keyboard away from Jade*
Aoi Jade: HEY!!! GIMMIE THAT BACK YOU!!!!
Zane: *Types like mad* PLEASE REVEIW!!!!!
P.S. HELP ME!
*Clicks Upload*