bAuthor/b - ever wondering

bChapter/b - Amending the past.

bDisclaimer/b- I don't own Gilmore Girls, or anything affiliated with it.

b A/N /b - Thanks to everyone that reviewed. It means so much to me. Thanks to Lola, Lauren, Helen, Katherine, Summer and everyone the supports the Obsessive fanatics.

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I think my mind was still out of it when I awoke. I couldn't grasp the reality of what was happening.

By the time I had awoken, every one except for Paris and my mother had left. Paris was keeping a ice pack on my head to try and wake me up and I could see my mum in the corner of the room. She was talking to grandmother in a hushed tone, but if I listened hard enough I could make out what they were saying.

'What are you doing here?' My grandmother asked.

'I came to see my daughter.'

'After 16 years with no word at all. You show up at our doorstep with out any warning. This is so like you, you haven't changed at all.'

'Hey, I married now, I have a good life. But just because it is so unlike me, I would like to spend time with my daughter, now because I can?'

I don't get what she meant by that. Even in my fuzzy state everything else made sense except that small remark. It was about this time that Paris realized I was no longer un-conscience.

'Rory!' She exclaimed. 'Your awake!'

'Where is everybody?' I ask in a dizzy state.

'Matthew got all the guest to leave after you blacked out.'

'Is he still here?'

'Yeah, he's in the other room talking to your grandfather.'

At this time my grandmother and my mother was walking over, having realized I was awake.

'Rory are you okay?' Grandmother asked with concern in her voice.

'I'm fine.'

'I'm sorry I made you faint, I mean I know I am good looking but no-one has ever fainted on me, before not even Luke.'

I laughed at the comment, before confusion rushed over me.

'Who's Luke?'

'Oh Luke's my husband.'

About half an hour later Paris and Matthew had left and Grandfather had gone into his study to take an urgent business call. Grandmother had gone to get me a drink of water. So I was left alone with my mother in the living room of the only house I had known.

At this time I got my first real look at her, she had long brown hair, amazing blue eyes and a smile that I knew was familiar, I had it.

'I'm sorry I ruined your party.' She said apologetically

'It's okay. Umm, I don't really now why you're here.'

'The court order said…'

'What court order?'

'No-one told you?'

'Told me what?' I ask with confusion

'Oh my god, I thought they would've told you.'

'Told me what?!' I asked getting aggravated.

'When I was pregnant with you, your grandparents, you father's parents put in for a court order that they would get you when you where born. However the court decided that it would be better if your other grandparents raised you. When you were 5 months I ran away with you, to were I live now. Stars Hollow. When my parents found out where we were they had to not let me see you until you were 16 because the court told them too. I've missed you.' It took awhile before the shock moved over and the questions poured out.

'Why didn't any body tell me? Who does know? Who is my father?'

'Wait, you don't know who your father is?

'Grandmother never told me, she figured it would be better for me.'

'He's name was Christopher, Last I heard he was in California.'

'Oh.' This was all I could get out before my grandmother entered the room. She noticed my shock expression and turned to my mother.

'What did you say to her?'

'I told her the truth, and to be quite honest I very surprised you didn't tell her it 10 years ago.'

'Lorelai, we were protecting her.'

'By what, making her think her mother didn't want her?'

'No, by letting her have a stable family life not one with a mother that ruined all her chances when she ran away.'

'I was suffocating, I couldn't let Rory grow up to be like that.'

'Like what?'

'Like you!' They were both shouting by then I couldn't take anymore, suddenly I snapped.

'It's both your faults, you,' I said as I turned to Lorelai 'shouldn't have taken me away I you didn't want to lose me and you,' I said as I turned from Lorelai to my Grandmother 'you, should've told be the truth, told me what happened, if you did maybe I wouldn't be like John Edwards.' At that I turned and ran up stairs to my room.

 ~*~

I sat in my room with silent tears running down my face when I heard a tap on my window.

I walked over and saw Matthew sitting in the tree.

'Hey' He had said while giving me a kiss.

'Hey.' I had said in a sullen tone.

'You okay?' He asked

'I'm fine, just a bit shocked.'

'Yeah, well Paris, Tristan and I were wondering if you were interested in going to the movies, are you?'

'Sure, I can't stay here right now, I need to get out.'

'Cool, I've got the car out the front. Join me.'

He retreated down the tree and then went out to his car. I got changed and then ran out the house leaving a note in the foyer, because I can still her people bickering in the living room. I rush outside and hope into Matthews car, I noticed Paris and Tristan in the back seat.

'Hi guys.'

'Hey.' They reply

'What movie are we seeing?' I ask no-one in particular.

'I want to go see Phone booth.' Tristan said.

'Why?' Paris asked him

'Katie Holmes.' That had got him a whack on the shoulder, at which he laughed and pulled Paris in for a kiss

'Don't worry Paris, apparently Colin Farrell is in every second of the movie.'

'Oh good.' She said with a cheeky smile on her face. That time last year, Paris would never had admitted to have a celebrity crush, but she had changed a lot since she got together with Tristan, she became a lot more easy going.  

After the movie we were driving home and Paris and Tristan were discussing the movie. I was just content with watching Matthew drive. About 5 minutes from my house, I think he realized that I was watching him.

'What?' He asked                   

'I love you.'

'I know.' He picked up my hand and kissed it, while taking his off eyes of the road for a split second. However a split second was all it took, a car came from out of the other lane and Matthew swerved but we weren't fast enough. The last thing I heard was Paris scream, before everything went black for the second time that night.

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