Wish You Were Here
I dig my toes into the sand...
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket.
I lean against the wind,
Pretend that i am weightless
And in this moment i am happy... happy...
Before he was gone, they hadn't been to the oceanside in ages. But the last time they had gone, it had been right after their little discovery of their love for one another- Ginny remembered their little dance in the rain, but she thought this memory was even better. It had been the first- and only- thing they could have considered even a pseudo-date. But as she sat there now, remembering, Ginny was, for once in a long time, not crushed that Ron would never again sit by her side.
They had sat there for hours, just laying in each other's arms looking out on the ocean as the sun set, sending jewels of light across the flat sea, letting them settle into diamonds as the moon came up and cast its pale shadow about them. I wish you were here... The calm feeling began to fade...
I wish you were here... The old anger, fury and longing returned...
I wish you were here... She closed her eyes and let the pain wash over her, letting shudders rack through her body, making her shoulders shake crazily...
I wish you were here... He wasn't coming back... he couldn't.
I lay my head onto the sand.
The sky resembles a backlit canopy
With holes punched in it.
I'm counting ufo's.
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment i am happy... happy....
Ginny thought again of their last visit to this shoreline. They had kissed sweetly, had begun to discover just how deep their emotions went. They had stargazed until the pink rays of the dawn had begun to show in the eastern skies... Had seen meteors and shooting stars, had wished upon each one that they would never be separated... And another fleeting grin passed on her face until she realized that already those wishes had been tossed out the window. I wish you were here... Ginny wasn't sure she could go on...
I wish you were here... Tears fell from her cheeks in rivers.
I wish you were here... No one had understood, yet that wasn't the reason he had left...
I wish you were here. No, Ron hadn't left her because he didn't accept... above all things he had accepted what they were...
No, he had been killed. The long war was over, yet Ginny knew the war on her heart had been lost.
***
I love that song...
Life is a rollercoaster,
And I am not strapped in...
Maybe I should hold with care,
But my hands are busy in the air...
- Wish You Were Here, Incubus
*Star of Light*