Disclaimer: I do not Beyblade. If I did Rei and Kai would be together in
the series.
Warning: Just like before.
"..."=Speech duh
'...'=Thought
Dark Diaries Chapter 2
Kai had cried himself to sleep earlier. Rei had held onto him the whole time cried saying calming little nothings. When Kai was deep in sleep Rei picked him up and brought him into the living room where he laid him down with Kai's head in his lap. Rei stared down at his calm peaceful face and ran fingers through his hair. 'He's so beautiful.' He thought. 'If he could have been raised better,' Rei wondered 'what Kai would be like?'
'Poor Kai. You've had it so hard. I knew that Hiwitari wasn't being a great grandfather but I didn't think that he beat my poor little Kai. My little Kai. It was something I often called him now. He often gave me a glare for that name but it was really just an act. I knew deep down he loved my nickname for him. How could Hiwitari hurt you? You're so amazing Kai. You've lived through so much.' Rei kissed his forehead.
Kai started to stir. He opened his eyes and looked to Rei. He blinked a couple of times and he then sat up. "How are you feeling?" Rei asked as Kai pinched the bridge of his nose.
"I have headache." Kai said. Rei stood up.
"Stay here I believe I have a remedy for that." Rei walked to the kitchen and went to a cabinet. He got out two mugs and placed a nice amount of water in them. Looking through another cabinet Rei got out some mini marshmallows and two packages of cocoa. It hadn't been long after he got with Kai that Rei had realized Kai had a sweet tooth for cocoa. It was one of the things Rei thought so cute about Kai. Rei sometimes was able to use Kai's love of chocolate against him. Rei placed the cups into the microwave and waited.
Course Kai had used it against Rei a couple of times. Rei loved chocolate almost as much as Kai did. They had to restock on cocoa every few weeks. Especially now that it was winter. It was odd how the two of them were almost completely different but they were stuck to each other like glue. The microwave beeped and Rei took the hot cocoa and poured it into the cups. After placing marshmallows in each he lifted the cups and brought them back to the living room. He placed one mug in front of Kai's face. Kai looked up saw it and stared for a moment. Then smiled and took the cup.
'He knows me so well.' Kai said and turned his eyes to the window. It was snowing lazily outside. He shivered. It reminded him of.'No!' Kai thought and turned his eyes to his cup. He took a sip and let the liquid heat fill his mouth. It was so warm and tasted so good. 'Kind of like Rei.' Kai thought to himself with another smile. When Kai sat back he pulled Rei over to where he was leaning against Kai. "I love you Rei." Kai said. Rei looked up at him.
It wasn't the first time he had heard it. But usually he had only heard it after Rei had said it. Kai didn't often express his feelings except for anger and annoyment. Rei smiled softly. "I could love no one other Kai." Kai entwined his free fingers with Rei's.
"Rei why did you have to look at those diaries? Those were things that I wanted to put in the past. I didn't want you to know anything about them." Kai said. Rei sat up and setting his cup down he looked Kai in the face.
"Kai those are things I need to know. So I can understand you. Not only so I can understand but because I want to know everything about you. The good and the bad. I want to know you. Please Kai tell me what happened after that last diary entry."
Rei sat watching Kai stare at the brown liquid in hand. "Are you sure?" he asked. When Rei nodded he said, "Get comfortable it's a long story." When Rei was settled again against Kai again Kai started. "After that last entry things went downhill. My grandfather started beating me more and more. Just asking one wrong question it could set him off. He found different ways to torture me that way the pain would never be the same. It would always be fresh new pain."
"I stopped writing in diaries until I realized that grandfather was a very important man. Important men don't stay home for very long before they disappear again. That was when I wrote. When he was gone I could get away with almost murder as long as I stayed out of the servants way. They didn't care what I did just as long as I didn't bother them or rat on them. A silent agreement that if you keep your mouth shut so will I. I got another diary from one of the maids who felt sorry for me. She told me to use it well. I promised that I would never tell grandfather where I had gotten it from. I never did. Peadmont often advised me to stop writing but I didn't. I just had to be careful that grandfather didn't find out."
"I kept a lot of secrets from him as he did me. And I always had to do twice than my best. If I didn't then it meant to be hurt. I remember one time I failed a school exam. I was tutored and my tutor gave me an exam. I failed it completely. My grandfather said I was as dumb as a dog. He asked is that what you want to be a dog. I had no answer for him so he yelled then I'll treat you as such. He stripped me of my clothing and put a dog collar on my neck and chained me out in the backyard. I stayed there the whole night. It was the middle of winter. In the morning my grandfather told Peadmont to bring me in. Peadmont did and he realized I had a severe case of the flu. My grandfather didn't care. He left for another business trip. All the servants helped me by collecting money and Peadmont took me to the doctor. The hospital didn't ask many questions. After that I helped out the servants in any way I could. They saved me. Grandfather never found out about it."
'I can't believe it. I told him something I hate to even remember. The very thing I told myself not to remember not even 10 minutes ago, the thing that the snow reminded me of, I told him.' Kai thought. 'I really can tell him anything.'
"After that I had pretty much lost any will to defy him because he didn't care if I lived or died. It wouldn't have taken much for him to kill me. So I obeyed. Then Grandfather got this crazy idea. He was going to steal bit-beasts and then sell them. Bits-beasts when sold cost a lot of money. My grandfather only wanted one thing in life: power. Money meant power. More money more power. The maid that had given me another diary had also bought me a beyblade for my birthday. My grandfather caught me using it and found I was pretty good. He beat me until I agreed to help him steal bit-beasts. From then on I was either training to be better at it. If he ever checked up on me and he didn't think I was working to my fullest it meant a brutal beating. So I did what I he wanted to stay alive."
"He found out how great the power was of Tyson, Max, and your bit- beasts were and got me placed on the Blade Breakers. So I would have an easy way to get to your bit-beasts. He wanted me to wait awhile to get them to trust me so they may not blame me. But I realized that you and the others.well you were the closet thing I had to friends. Even Tyson. Plus, there was you. You were the first to accept me. I fell for you the first time I saw you but of course I didn't let it show. I wasn't stupid. Grandfather would have hated to find out his grandson was gay. I didn't want to lose what little I had. So I started to lie to grandfather. Telling him different excuses for why I couldn't get the bit-beasts. He believed me."
"Then everything took a rather unfortunate turn. Grandfather came home far too soon from a business trip. I wasn't expecting to see him for another two or three days. He went straight to my bedroom and didn't even knock. He found me writing in my diary. On that very page I had written about how much I had fallen for you. He read it and then threw it into the fire. I had screamed no and went to the fire and tried to save the diary. Instead all I did was burn the tops of my hands." Kai then proceeded in removing the red gloves that Rei had never seen him without. On the tops of both his hands were scared tissue of skin. Burned skin. Rei took Kai's hands in his and started to rub the tops of his hands with his thumbs.
"Oh Kai." Kai took his hands back. Ai took a deep breath and started again.
"I wore the gloves so I didn't have to remember. I didn't want to have to see them and remember what happened. How I got them. My grandfather had kicked me and said if I even thought about you in that way again then I wasn't going to live to see my next birthday. I never wrote about it again but that didn't mean I didn't think it. Then you admitted that you liked me too. I told you the truth because I didn't want to hurt you. Then we started our relationship in secret. It went on like that for a long time. Then he started getting old and weaker. I got older and stronger. He didn't have much control over me anymore. Then he got sick and then there was nothing to stop me. I left and got an apartment with you. Now my grandfather is in the hospital. He'll die soon. It doesn't take a genius to realize that."
Kai had started to shed tears as he finished telling Rei of what had happened to him. It was just like before. Unshed tears being shed. These tears were something that Kai hadn't been able to shed and now they came at full force. Rei felt for his little one. He pulled Kai in his lap and rocked his crying boyfriend like a child. "Are you going to go see him Kai?" Rei asked. "It's a terrible thought to die alone." He said. Kai then sat for a moment in thought as his tears still fell. He looked up at Rei then looked back down again.
Just a Note last chapter I put Rei's POV. Well that was wrong. I started to write it in Rei's POV BUT I decided to put it in third. I forgot to erase that. So sorry. Then at the end I had it in Rei's POV. You must think I'm really stupid. That's because I am. So sorry. I think I got it all into third person POV. If I didn't SORRY. Anyways I'm probably only going to have one more chapter which will be in Kai's POV. I know that for sure. Well it's 1 in da morning I have 3 semester exams tomorrow so goodnight. Oh R/R please. Love ya.
Screamarie.
Dark Diaries Chapter 2
Kai had cried himself to sleep earlier. Rei had held onto him the whole time cried saying calming little nothings. When Kai was deep in sleep Rei picked him up and brought him into the living room where he laid him down with Kai's head in his lap. Rei stared down at his calm peaceful face and ran fingers through his hair. 'He's so beautiful.' He thought. 'If he could have been raised better,' Rei wondered 'what Kai would be like?'
'Poor Kai. You've had it so hard. I knew that Hiwitari wasn't being a great grandfather but I didn't think that he beat my poor little Kai. My little Kai. It was something I often called him now. He often gave me a glare for that name but it was really just an act. I knew deep down he loved my nickname for him. How could Hiwitari hurt you? You're so amazing Kai. You've lived through so much.' Rei kissed his forehead.
Kai started to stir. He opened his eyes and looked to Rei. He blinked a couple of times and he then sat up. "How are you feeling?" Rei asked as Kai pinched the bridge of his nose.
"I have headache." Kai said. Rei stood up.
"Stay here I believe I have a remedy for that." Rei walked to the kitchen and went to a cabinet. He got out two mugs and placed a nice amount of water in them. Looking through another cabinet Rei got out some mini marshmallows and two packages of cocoa. It hadn't been long after he got with Kai that Rei had realized Kai had a sweet tooth for cocoa. It was one of the things Rei thought so cute about Kai. Rei sometimes was able to use Kai's love of chocolate against him. Rei placed the cups into the microwave and waited.
Course Kai had used it against Rei a couple of times. Rei loved chocolate almost as much as Kai did. They had to restock on cocoa every few weeks. Especially now that it was winter. It was odd how the two of them were almost completely different but they were stuck to each other like glue. The microwave beeped and Rei took the hot cocoa and poured it into the cups. After placing marshmallows in each he lifted the cups and brought them back to the living room. He placed one mug in front of Kai's face. Kai looked up saw it and stared for a moment. Then smiled and took the cup.
'He knows me so well.' Kai said and turned his eyes to the window. It was snowing lazily outside. He shivered. It reminded him of.'No!' Kai thought and turned his eyes to his cup. He took a sip and let the liquid heat fill his mouth. It was so warm and tasted so good. 'Kind of like Rei.' Kai thought to himself with another smile. When Kai sat back he pulled Rei over to where he was leaning against Kai. "I love you Rei." Kai said. Rei looked up at him.
It wasn't the first time he had heard it. But usually he had only heard it after Rei had said it. Kai didn't often express his feelings except for anger and annoyment. Rei smiled softly. "I could love no one other Kai." Kai entwined his free fingers with Rei's.
"Rei why did you have to look at those diaries? Those were things that I wanted to put in the past. I didn't want you to know anything about them." Kai said. Rei sat up and setting his cup down he looked Kai in the face.
"Kai those are things I need to know. So I can understand you. Not only so I can understand but because I want to know everything about you. The good and the bad. I want to know you. Please Kai tell me what happened after that last diary entry."
Rei sat watching Kai stare at the brown liquid in hand. "Are you sure?" he asked. When Rei nodded he said, "Get comfortable it's a long story." When Rei was settled again against Kai again Kai started. "After that last entry things went downhill. My grandfather started beating me more and more. Just asking one wrong question it could set him off. He found different ways to torture me that way the pain would never be the same. It would always be fresh new pain."
"I stopped writing in diaries until I realized that grandfather was a very important man. Important men don't stay home for very long before they disappear again. That was when I wrote. When he was gone I could get away with almost murder as long as I stayed out of the servants way. They didn't care what I did just as long as I didn't bother them or rat on them. A silent agreement that if you keep your mouth shut so will I. I got another diary from one of the maids who felt sorry for me. She told me to use it well. I promised that I would never tell grandfather where I had gotten it from. I never did. Peadmont often advised me to stop writing but I didn't. I just had to be careful that grandfather didn't find out."
"I kept a lot of secrets from him as he did me. And I always had to do twice than my best. If I didn't then it meant to be hurt. I remember one time I failed a school exam. I was tutored and my tutor gave me an exam. I failed it completely. My grandfather said I was as dumb as a dog. He asked is that what you want to be a dog. I had no answer for him so he yelled then I'll treat you as such. He stripped me of my clothing and put a dog collar on my neck and chained me out in the backyard. I stayed there the whole night. It was the middle of winter. In the morning my grandfather told Peadmont to bring me in. Peadmont did and he realized I had a severe case of the flu. My grandfather didn't care. He left for another business trip. All the servants helped me by collecting money and Peadmont took me to the doctor. The hospital didn't ask many questions. After that I helped out the servants in any way I could. They saved me. Grandfather never found out about it."
'I can't believe it. I told him something I hate to even remember. The very thing I told myself not to remember not even 10 minutes ago, the thing that the snow reminded me of, I told him.' Kai thought. 'I really can tell him anything.'
"After that I had pretty much lost any will to defy him because he didn't care if I lived or died. It wouldn't have taken much for him to kill me. So I obeyed. Then Grandfather got this crazy idea. He was going to steal bit-beasts and then sell them. Bits-beasts when sold cost a lot of money. My grandfather only wanted one thing in life: power. Money meant power. More money more power. The maid that had given me another diary had also bought me a beyblade for my birthday. My grandfather caught me using it and found I was pretty good. He beat me until I agreed to help him steal bit-beasts. From then on I was either training to be better at it. If he ever checked up on me and he didn't think I was working to my fullest it meant a brutal beating. So I did what I he wanted to stay alive."
"He found out how great the power was of Tyson, Max, and your bit- beasts were and got me placed on the Blade Breakers. So I would have an easy way to get to your bit-beasts. He wanted me to wait awhile to get them to trust me so they may not blame me. But I realized that you and the others.well you were the closet thing I had to friends. Even Tyson. Plus, there was you. You were the first to accept me. I fell for you the first time I saw you but of course I didn't let it show. I wasn't stupid. Grandfather would have hated to find out his grandson was gay. I didn't want to lose what little I had. So I started to lie to grandfather. Telling him different excuses for why I couldn't get the bit-beasts. He believed me."
"Then everything took a rather unfortunate turn. Grandfather came home far too soon from a business trip. I wasn't expecting to see him for another two or three days. He went straight to my bedroom and didn't even knock. He found me writing in my diary. On that very page I had written about how much I had fallen for you. He read it and then threw it into the fire. I had screamed no and went to the fire and tried to save the diary. Instead all I did was burn the tops of my hands." Kai then proceeded in removing the red gloves that Rei had never seen him without. On the tops of both his hands were scared tissue of skin. Burned skin. Rei took Kai's hands in his and started to rub the tops of his hands with his thumbs.
"Oh Kai." Kai took his hands back. Ai took a deep breath and started again.
"I wore the gloves so I didn't have to remember. I didn't want to have to see them and remember what happened. How I got them. My grandfather had kicked me and said if I even thought about you in that way again then I wasn't going to live to see my next birthday. I never wrote about it again but that didn't mean I didn't think it. Then you admitted that you liked me too. I told you the truth because I didn't want to hurt you. Then we started our relationship in secret. It went on like that for a long time. Then he started getting old and weaker. I got older and stronger. He didn't have much control over me anymore. Then he got sick and then there was nothing to stop me. I left and got an apartment with you. Now my grandfather is in the hospital. He'll die soon. It doesn't take a genius to realize that."
Kai had started to shed tears as he finished telling Rei of what had happened to him. It was just like before. Unshed tears being shed. These tears were something that Kai hadn't been able to shed and now they came at full force. Rei felt for his little one. He pulled Kai in his lap and rocked his crying boyfriend like a child. "Are you going to go see him Kai?" Rei asked. "It's a terrible thought to die alone." He said. Kai then sat for a moment in thought as his tears still fell. He looked up at Rei then looked back down again.
Just a Note last chapter I put Rei's POV. Well that was wrong. I started to write it in Rei's POV BUT I decided to put it in third. I forgot to erase that. So sorry. Then at the end I had it in Rei's POV. You must think I'm really stupid. That's because I am. So sorry. I think I got it all into third person POV. If I didn't SORRY. Anyways I'm probably only going to have one more chapter which will be in Kai's POV. I know that for sure. Well it's 1 in da morning I have 3 semester exams tomorrow so goodnight. Oh R/R please. Love ya.
Screamarie.