Chapter Six
April 20th, 2003
Dear Diary,
Steph finally opened her club, Sizzle. I sang a lot that night. The last time I sang, it was the last song that night. It was the one I wrote about my father.
"Once upon a time there was a girl,
In her early years, she had to learn,
How to grow up living in a war she called home,
Never know just where to turn for shelter from the storm,
Hurt me to see the pain across my mother's face,
Everytime my father's fist would put her in her place,
Hearing all the yelling, I would cry up in my room,
Hoping it would be over soon.
Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same,
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid,
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave,
Every morning that I wake,
I look back to yesterday,
And I'm OK."
I looked over to Stacy and seen the tears falling down her face. She didn't know all the details about my childhood.
"I often wonder why I carry all this guilt,
When it's you that helped my put up all these walls I've built,
Shadows stir at night through a crack in the door,
The echo of a broken child,
Screaming "please no more",
Daddy, don't you understand the damage you have done,
To you it's just a memory,
But for me it still lives on."
I looked out through the crowd, and noticed a few were crying. I was crying, they were crying and now Steph and Julie were crying.
"Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same,
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid,
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave,
Every morning that I wake, I look back to yesterday,
It's not so easy to forget,
All the marks you left along her neck,
When I was thrown against cold stairs,
And every day afraid to come home,
In fear of what I might see there.
Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same,
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid,
Strength is my mother,
For all the love you gave,
Every morning that I wake,
I look back to yesterday,
And I'm OK,
I'm OK."
I walked off the stage to lots of clapping. I went to Stacy and she hugged me.
"Are you o...stupid question..." She said. I just laughed.
"Yeah, yeah. Laugh all you want!" She said, grinning.
"Ok, I think I will!" I replied, laughing. Julie came up to me.
"That took guts, to get up there and sing that song." she said.
"But none I don't have." I replied, smiling. We went to help Steph shut down.
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Three months later, Stacy had asked me to go on the road with her. It was now July, 1999, with Wrestlemania that Sunday. I almost didn't go, because Julie needed me. Shane and her had just decided to see other people, and it was killing her. Shane was a close friend of mine too, just like Julie was. Julie told me to go, and Steph offered to stay with her.
Wrestlemania was an experience I'll never forget. All the screaming fans, with extra excitement in the backstage area where I stayed with Stacy. Vince had been looking for someone to sing "The Star-Spangled Banner". Stacy, Shane, Dwayne, Mark, and a lot of others said that I would probably do it. So Vince came up to me with the opportunity of a lifetime, singing at one of the biggest events of the year, Wrestlemania. I, of course, said I would be happy to sing, so I went right to wardrobe. Vince came to get me a half hour later. I was wearing a black short skirt, and a white tank top with a pink button down shirt. My hair was down and curled, and I was wearing Stacy's silver hoops with my locket on a silver chain.
Most of the wrestlers were in the ring. Matt, Jeff, Amy, and Trish all looked at me with surprised looks on their faces when I made my way down. J.R.'s voice came over the loudspeakers, "Now singing "The Star-Spangled Banner", Kate MacDonnell!" The crowds cheered as I climbed up the steps. Shane and Adam parted the ropes for me and I made my way to the middle of the ring. The music started and I sang with all the emotion in my heart.
"Oh, say can you see?
By the dawn's early light,
What so proudly we hailed,
At the twilight's last gleaming,
Who's broad stripes and bright stars,
Through the perilous fight,
O'er the rampards we watched,
Were so gallantly streaming,
And the rockets red glare,
The bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof through the night,
That our flag was still there,
Oh, say does that star-spangled banner yet wave,
O'er the land of the free,
And the home of the brave...."
I just smiled and waved while the crowd erupted behind me. Amy, Matt, Jeff and Trish were shocked. They hadn't heard me sing since the night at the club where we all sang on Matt's birthday. I walked over to the ropes and gave Shane a hug before he parted the ropes. Everyone in the ring followed us out, all heading up the ramp to the thunderous applause of the audience.
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A/N: I know it's short, but I have alot going on in my life. I almost broke my neck, my parents are getting a divorce, my older brother is moving back, school's almost out and i have to switch schools. So yeah, I've got alot on my plate. I'll try to update more but I'm not sure how often. I have another story on the go too, I'm gonna try to post it soon!
Lots of Luv Peeps!
~Kate
April 20th, 2003
Dear Diary,
Steph finally opened her club, Sizzle. I sang a lot that night. The last time I sang, it was the last song that night. It was the one I wrote about my father.
"Once upon a time there was a girl,
In her early years, she had to learn,
How to grow up living in a war she called home,
Never know just where to turn for shelter from the storm,
Hurt me to see the pain across my mother's face,
Everytime my father's fist would put her in her place,
Hearing all the yelling, I would cry up in my room,
Hoping it would be over soon.
Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same,
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid,
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave,
Every morning that I wake,
I look back to yesterday,
And I'm OK."
I looked over to Stacy and seen the tears falling down her face. She didn't know all the details about my childhood.
"I often wonder why I carry all this guilt,
When it's you that helped my put up all these walls I've built,
Shadows stir at night through a crack in the door,
The echo of a broken child,
Screaming "please no more",
Daddy, don't you understand the damage you have done,
To you it's just a memory,
But for me it still lives on."
I looked out through the crowd, and noticed a few were crying. I was crying, they were crying and now Steph and Julie were crying.
"Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same,
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid,
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave,
Every morning that I wake, I look back to yesterday,
It's not so easy to forget,
All the marks you left along her neck,
When I was thrown against cold stairs,
And every day afraid to come home,
In fear of what I might see there.
Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same,
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid,
Strength is my mother,
For all the love you gave,
Every morning that I wake,
I look back to yesterday,
And I'm OK,
I'm OK."
I walked off the stage to lots of clapping. I went to Stacy and she hugged me.
"Are you o...stupid question..." She said. I just laughed.
"Yeah, yeah. Laugh all you want!" She said, grinning.
"Ok, I think I will!" I replied, laughing. Julie came up to me.
"That took guts, to get up there and sing that song." she said.
"But none I don't have." I replied, smiling. We went to help Steph shut down.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Three months later, Stacy had asked me to go on the road with her. It was now July, 1999, with Wrestlemania that Sunday. I almost didn't go, because Julie needed me. Shane and her had just decided to see other people, and it was killing her. Shane was a close friend of mine too, just like Julie was. Julie told me to go, and Steph offered to stay with her.
Wrestlemania was an experience I'll never forget. All the screaming fans, with extra excitement in the backstage area where I stayed with Stacy. Vince had been looking for someone to sing "The Star-Spangled Banner". Stacy, Shane, Dwayne, Mark, and a lot of others said that I would probably do it. So Vince came up to me with the opportunity of a lifetime, singing at one of the biggest events of the year, Wrestlemania. I, of course, said I would be happy to sing, so I went right to wardrobe. Vince came to get me a half hour later. I was wearing a black short skirt, and a white tank top with a pink button down shirt. My hair was down and curled, and I was wearing Stacy's silver hoops with my locket on a silver chain.
Most of the wrestlers were in the ring. Matt, Jeff, Amy, and Trish all looked at me with surprised looks on their faces when I made my way down. J.R.'s voice came over the loudspeakers, "Now singing "The Star-Spangled Banner", Kate MacDonnell!" The crowds cheered as I climbed up the steps. Shane and Adam parted the ropes for me and I made my way to the middle of the ring. The music started and I sang with all the emotion in my heart.
"Oh, say can you see?
By the dawn's early light,
What so proudly we hailed,
At the twilight's last gleaming,
Who's broad stripes and bright stars,
Through the perilous fight,
O'er the rampards we watched,
Were so gallantly streaming,
And the rockets red glare,
The bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof through the night,
That our flag was still there,
Oh, say does that star-spangled banner yet wave,
O'er the land of the free,
And the home of the brave...."
I just smiled and waved while the crowd erupted behind me. Amy, Matt, Jeff and Trish were shocked. They hadn't heard me sing since the night at the club where we all sang on Matt's birthday. I walked over to the ropes and gave Shane a hug before he parted the ropes. Everyone in the ring followed us out, all heading up the ramp to the thunderous applause of the audience.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
A/N: I know it's short, but I have alot going on in my life. I almost broke my neck, my parents are getting a divorce, my older brother is moving back, school's almost out and i have to switch schools. So yeah, I've got alot on my plate. I'll try to update more but I'm not sure how often. I have another story on the go too, I'm gonna try to post it soon!
Lots of Luv Peeps!
~Kate