Disclaimer- I hate saying this over and over again. But the only way to avoid saying it is to stop writing. I'll say it. Don't own, don't sue.

A/N- This chapter contains very strong m/m sexual implications. If you don't like, don't read, and if you do read don't report me coz you've had fair warning. \~\ denotes a flashback


Remembrance 3. Together with each other


He awoke slowly, stretching luxuriantly. A lazy sigh escaped him as his body covered near the entire bed. A small sound flittered up to him from down stairs and a smile crept over his face. He kicked off the cover and literally jumped out of bed, running downstairs. A wonderful smell was issuing from the kitchen and he slowly tiptoed up behind the figure standing by the table.

Trapper jumped violently as Hawkeye's arms snaked around his waist and a chuckle sounded in his ear.
Jeez Hawk! he yelled, spinning round and knocking a chair flying, are you trying to give me a heart attack?

It wouldn't matter. I am a doctor remember? Trapper laughed and wrapped his arms around Hawkeye's shoulders, pulling him close.

Why don't you sit down and eat breakfast Mr. Doctor? Trapper whispered, feeling a shudder run through the body he was holding as his breath blew across Hawkeye's ear. Unless of course you'd rather put some clothes on first?

Hawkeye's laugh rang through the kitchen and Trapper's soon joined it. The two stood like that, wrapped in each others arms, long after the laughter had died away. A seriousness replaced the light atmosphere and both men felt it. Trapper's hand moved to Hawkeye's face and he watched as the blue eyes in front of him darkened. They both shivered as their bodies drew nearer, and heir lips quickly closed they remaining distance. It took a long time for the food to leave the table that morning.
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Later, when Hawkeye had left for the surgery, Trapper fell to wondering about his wife. He hadn't seen her for almost three months now. Ever since Hawkeye had finally come back to him.

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Trapper! You see, I remembered!

He had been so focused on holding Hawkeye, Trapper hadn't even noticed when his wife had walked out of the house.

They pulled apart at the sound of her voice.

Louise. This is Haw... um, Ben. Ben, my wife, Louise.
Hawkeye held out his hand and turned on his devastatingly charming smile.
Call me Hawkeye, please.

Louse blushed slightly, but then her gaze turned to Trapper and a vague look of suspicion entered her eyes.
You'd better come in. John's told to me a lot about you and how you helped him during the war.
She turned and walked back in to the house, both men following her with puzzled expressions. Louise started talking as soon as they were all sitting down.

In case your wondering Hawkeye, John and I, our marriage is over. It has been for a long time. I know John had lovers in Korea and to stop you feeling sorry for me I'll tell you frankly that I did too.
She turned to Trapper who had a bemused look on his face.

I'm sorry John, I did love you once. All I ask now is we don't drag this out, I don't want our girls to suffer. If you agree to me having them through the week, I'll agree to them spending the weekend, Friday to Monday, with you. Providing you get them off to school on time of course.

She moved to a drawer and pulled a sheaf a papers out of one of the drawers.
I had my lawyer draw these up a few weeks ago. All you need to do is sign them.

Trapper was packing a few minutes later.
Lucky Dad thought to phone ahead and book a hotel room for me, remarked Hawkeye as he steered the car away from the curb. I didn't think to.

Trapper laughed, a genuine laugh that hadn't been heard very often for the last seven years and Hawkeye smiled to hear it.

I've missed that laugh, said Hawkeye softly, glancing away from the road to flash a smile at Trapper.

I've missed you, cam the reply. Those three words conveyed a wealth of emotions and Trapper knew that Hawkeye retuned everyone of them. \~\

Trapper smiled at the memory. He had moved to Crabapple Cove just a few days later, and had been there ever since. Hawkeye had taken over from his father at the local surgery and Trapper had easily taken up some of the slack. The only thing he missed was his girls; neither he nor Louise were willing to let them fly to Crabapple Cove, so he was only seeing them once a month when he flew out to see them.

But as a result, he was closer to his girls than he had been before, and, of course, he got to see Hawkeye every day. In his mind, those two facts more than made up for the loss of a woman he no longer felt any thing for.

Not that everything had been sugary and sweetness for him and Hawkeye. A few of the people in the cove had their suspicions and had refuses to go to the surgery anymore, they took the bus in to town instead. And telling anyone about their relationship was definitely out. Neither had any illusions as to the reaction of the medical board should their sexual preferences come to their attention.

A sigh escaped him as he settled back in his chair. He really wished he could let everyone know. But it was out of the question. A sudden smile jumped on to his face as he heard the front door click open. Hawkeye was home for dinner, and in that second Trapper saw his life as it would be, as it should be.

He would stay with Hawkeye, in Crabapple Cove. There would be reunions, and deaths, and mariages, and births, and through it all they would be together with each other. If love always finds a way, it didn't need any directions for him and Hawkeye. They already knew exactly where they were going.

They were going to eternity, and they were going with each other.




Ok, this wasn't what I was expecting it to be. I seem to say that a lot, have you noticed? Anyway, that's not what I wanted to say. What I did want to ask is- the Doctor in Rainbow Bridge, is called Lin Tang. Does anyone know if that's the right way to spell his name?