Disclaimer: I don't own the Ronins, Warlords, or Kayura. The song belongs to Linkin Park. I don't claim to own anything but the time put into writing this. Please don't sue me I'm a poor college student.
One Step Closer
Kayura stood watching out the castle window. She could see the former warlords out among the people giving them food and offering help. She was careful to stay back in the shadows of the room where the people couldn't see her. She was just beginning to remember all of the horrible things she did for Talpa but the people knew. They remembered the Devil Woman who killed their husbands, stole their children, and burned their homes. They had been willing to accept the other warlords back slowly but not her. it was that first traumatic day, after Talpa's defeat, that kept her locked within the walls of the castle. The dark haired yound woman turned away from the open window and tried to shut out the silent screams caller Demon priestess, Murderer, and hardest to bear Baby killer. She quickly regained her composure as she heard the door open behind her.
" Lady Kayura, you should not lock yourself away. The people will forgive you but they need time and they must know the truth."
" It seems they already know the truth Mage." hissed Kayura to the white haired warrior," I burned their villages, Killed their families, Murdered their children. What makes you think that they will ever be able to forgive me?"
" But Lady, You were..."
"Leave me Dais!"
" Yes Lady."
I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But You'll find that out anyways.
Kayura didn't wait for Dais to leave, she ran from the room, hands covering her ears trying to block out the voices. She pushed her way through the hall past the still healing warrior of cruelty towards her room. Once inside she closed the door and locked it in hopes of locking out the ghosts from her past. In the silence of her room ghosts from her past assaulted her with their cries. The young warrior cover her ears and squeezed her eyes closed but even that couldn't block out the sound or the visions of children locked inside a burning house.
Just Like Before....
Just like before....
Behind the darkness of her eyelids she could see the faces of the men, women, and children that she hurt. Their eyes begged and they reached out to their loved ones as she dragged them away knowing that when she was finished they would beg to die. She watched Baddamon brainwash the young boys and heard herself laugh as they returned home to kill the ones they loved. To escape the visions of her past she reached under her blanket and removed the Sakura Dagger. Throwing the sheath against the wall she slid the cold metal across the pale flesh of her stomach and watched as purifying redness rolled along her skin while the pain washed away the memories.
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breath
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
When Kayura woke up the sky was darkening and night was beginning to fall. Dinner would be soon and she was expected to attend so she sat up slowly. Her stomach ached from her self inflicted wounds but she ignored the pain and got up. At her wash bin she used a soft cloth to wash away the dried blood which clung to her skin like red earth. When she was finished she replaced her Kimono and made her way to the great hall where they would eat.
By the time she arrived, all of the food was on the table and the four warriors waited patiently for her. Since the defeat of Talpa the neather realm flourished with life. there was no shortage of food for anyone. Kayura watched everyone through the meal and picked unenthusiastically at her food. They ate in a tense silence while everyone tried to figure out what to say. Finally Anubis broke the thickening silence.
" Kayura, you should get out of the castle more. The people what to know about you. It would be better for them and for you that way." said Anubis gently.
" How would you know what is good for me?" she spit back at him.
" You've locked yourself away in here for nearly six months Lady," admonished kale, only Anbuis had the guts to use her given name," Not even I can give up the sunlight forever. Like the flowers people need the sun."
" It is my choice, leave me to it." she snapped jumping from her chair.
Anubis let his voice roll like thunder," When the Ronins arrive in the morning I want you to escort them on a tour of the country side."
kayura ran from the room without replying to the warlords command. when she reached the safety of her room she found the Sakura dagger again.
I find the answers aren't so clean
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thought they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again...
Her pale pink kimono fell like a pool of Sakura and only her small caged bird was there to bear witness to the new pink scars covering her pale flesh. Kayura tried to sleep, she lay there for hours and every once in a while her fingers reached out to feel the security of the cold metal pain which lay beside her. It was her only escape, the only way to make the voices stop tormenting her. Finally sleep took her but once again she was tormented by images of the three captured warriors who were tormented by her hands. Their screams echoed through her mind like lightning.
Just Like Before...
Just Like before...
Kayura awoke with a scream on her lips. The voices of the captive warriors haunted her. and she couldn't force their pain filled faces from her mind. For every blow they received her sakura dagger cut deeper and longer gashes. Blood ran in crimson rivers along her white flesh to stain the stone floor with her agony.
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breath
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Kayura continued to cut her body. As the Voices and images seemed to grow more real and alive. As she neared morning loss of blood, open wounds, and exhaustion started to take their toll on the last of the Ancients but she continued on. Tears streamed down her ghostly pale cheeks, she could hear him in her mind again whispering his poisons. She could hear Talpa's dark calling to her even though she knew that he was destroyed.
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up
Kayura pulled the dagger across her wrists just as she felt the familiar energy of a portal opening to the mortal realm.
Shut up When I'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up
I'm about to Break!
