Final Fantasy 10
Guilt
By Selina
Warnings: Rated R for later chapters.
Pairing: Tidus/Lulu, maybe others later I haven't thought that far ahead.
Disclaimers: Characters and places from the game mentioned in my story are from FFX belonging to Squaresoft not me. So there is no point of trying to sue me.
Setting: The group has just left Kilka Island and is aboard the S.S.Winno.
Chapter Two - Memories
Tidus sat on the deck of the S.S.Winno, the second ship that was on its was to Luca. There were so many thoughts going through his head he just wanted to scream out loud. He was taken by complete surprise when Yuna asked him to become one of her guardians. Just like his father was to hers.
Jecht…It seemed unreal that he could be alive after all this time. For ten years Tidus thought his father was dead and now …now he just didn't know.
Tidus pressed his gloved fingers to his temple. Would he be a good guardian to Yuna if he agreed? And what about Zanarkand? Would he have to stay in Spira if he agreed to become a guardian? He just wasn't sure how he felt about that just yet. Tidus thought back to earlier in the day.
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As Tidus turned the corner to Kilka Woods he saw all of the gang waiting for him. Lulu approached him with a stern look on her face. She folded her arm. "Yuna says she wants you with us."
Tidus blinked and turned to Yuna who was smiling bashfully. "I want to ask you… to be my guardian."
Wakka walked past Tidus and stood by Yuna. "No time for jokes. He might be a great blitzer but up against fiends he's a newbie."
She bowed her head slightly. "Not a guardian then. I just want him near by." A slight blush appeared across her cheeks.
Tidus leaned forward a little. "What do you mean?"
Yuna looked really uncomfortable now. "It's just that…I…I…"
Lulu stepped forward her arms still folded. "We're all going to the temple anyway. Can't this wait till later?"
Yuna nodded her eyes on the ground. "I'm sorry…I shouldn't have…"
"Let's go Yuna." Wakka patted her back then began to head off in the direction of the temple.
Tidus rubbed the back of his head then looked at Lulu who was staring at him. She shook her head then walked off after the other…
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Lulu…
Tidus sighed and rested his hands behind his head. He really got her mad today, or so he thought. Earlier in the day Dona, another summoner, and her guardian Bartello threw him into the Cloister of Trials. He still remembered the look on Lulu's face when she saw him. It was a look of pure anger and worry for Yuna safety.
"What are you doing here! Yuna could be excommunicated for this!" Lulus' voice echoed in the chamber.
Tidus really hoped that he hadn't blown it with her. He stood up and brushed off his shorts then headed for the stairs leading to the upper level.
Lulu stood there her arms folded gazing at the sea. Tidus took a breath then started towards her. All of a sudden he saw Lulu tense and he knew she knew he was there.
"What do you want?" She asked brusquely.
"I want to apologise for what happened today." Tidus looked down at his shoes. "But it wasn't my fault. Dona and that big musclehead man threw me on the platform and…."
She waved a hand at him. "I know, I know you've said this all before. Just be more careful in the future."
"So you're not mad at me?" Tidus asked hopefully.
She looked at him over her shoulder and grinned. "Not anymore. Don't worry."
"Great." Tidus smiled and leaned back on the pole with his hands behind his head.
Lulu continued to stare out to sea deep in thought. Ever since she met this stranger she couldn't help but think of Chappu. He reminded her of him so much. And the pain of his death felt stronger than before. She felt so alone and afraid. Afraid of what the future would bring, afraid of her feelings towards the newcomer.
Since her parents died when she was five, killed by Sin, she's had no one. No one to look after her, no one to hold her hand when she was crying. That was until she'd met Chappu. He had showed her the side of life that she never thought existed. He made her laugh so much, made her so happy and showed her what it was like to be loved and to be in love.
Chappu was her first ever and her last. No one came close to being what Chappu was and no one would replace him either. She remembered back to when she found out about Chappus death.
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"Lulu…."
Lulu turned and smiled at Wakka as he stepped into her house. "Good morning. How are…what's wrong?" She noticed that Wakka was deathly pale, his eyes were red.
He stared at Lulu knowing what he had to say would bring her whole world crashing down. "Lulu…."
She rushed to him her heart racing. "What's wrong? Tell me?"
Lulu grabbed his arms and tried to shake him. Wakka continued to look at her but then closed his eyes and began to sob uncontrollably.
"It's Chappu, isn't it?" She was desperate to get an answer even though she'd already guessed what had happened.
"I'm…so sorry…Lu." He said between sobs. "It was Sin. The crusaders went up against Sin. Chappu…He didn't make it."
Lulu wrapped her arms around Wakka comforting him. Her mind was totally blank, she couldn't think straight. He couldn't be dead. Not Chappu, he was always so confident about the Crusaders destroying Sin and that one-day everyone would live happily ever after.
"Wakka…."
"Chappu's dead Lu. Sin killed my little brudda."
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Upon hearing those words Lulu changed drastically. She kept her feeling bottled up and never opened up her heart to another man again. Besaid was deviated by the news of Chappus' death as well as some other Crusaders that had died with him. She helped out with the memorial and throughout the entire ordeal she never shed a single tear. But she had noticed that the control she'd tried so hard to maintain was slipping.
At that moment tears began to fall down Lulus face and they wouldn't stop. "Chappu…" She uttered.
"Huh?"
Lulu spun around totally forgetting that Tidus stood there watching her. And when he saw her pain-stricken face he stepped towards her.
"What wrong?" He went to hold her but she violently pulled away from him.
"Don't…." She said quietly. "Just don't."
Tidus was baffled. "Why are you crying?"
Lulu looked up at him her eyes sparkled with tears that were still flowing down her face. "This is too much for me…I…"
He looked at her sadly. "It's about Wakka's brother isn't it?" Tidus asked.
"He…you…." Lulu was breathing harshly. The walls that she had built around her heart over the past two years crumbled around her leaving her afraid and alone yet again.
Tidus went to hold her again. "Don't try to hold it in Lulu. Just cry. There's no shame in it. You'll feel better after…believe me."
She grinned slightly then felt strong arms embrace her. At first she remained stiff but she felt her body mould into his and it felt so soothing, so right. Her arms snaked around his neck drawing him closer. She let out a sigh then cried into his chest so hard he thought that she might pass out.
The feel was so familiar but at the same time it was different. A new and fresh feel. She held him tight to her, her shoulder shaking uncontrollably as she sobbed.
Tidus gently rubbed her back in a soothing motion. She must have had it really rough back then. It seemed weird for him to see Lulu like this, letting her emotions loose. Even though he hadn't known her too long, he guessed that she wasn't the type to do that.
Lulu sniffed then turned her head slightly so she could see the night sky.
Goodbye Chappu…I think I'm finally ready to let you go. Rest in peace…my love…
She smiled and as the last tear dropped from her face she closed her eyes and fell fast asleep in Tidus arms.
To Be Continued….
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Authors Notes
I'm really sorry if the story has been a little depressing so far but things will perk up as Tidus and Lulu get closer and when the other characters join the group (Auron and Rikku). And I'll try to make the next chapter longer as well.
If you have an opinion on my story then submit a review so I'll know if I could improve. And by the way if anyone was wondering why the story is called 'Guilt' you'll find out in later chapters. Also I'm not quite sure how long ago Chappu died, I only guessed that it was two years. If you know how many years ago he died, it'll be a big help if you let me know.
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Thanks for reading!
