Final Fantasy 10
Guilt
By Selina
Warnings: Rated R.
Pairing: Tidus/Lulu, I've thought of others and you've guessed them by now. ^_^
Disclaimers: Characters and places from the game mentioned in my story are from FFX belonging to Squaresoft not me. So don't sue!
Setting: Lulu's trying to figure out how she's feeling.
Authors Quick Note: This chapter is a little limey, but it's nothing explicit. If you don't like that kind of thing you can just skip the '&&&' section. So you've been warned.
Chapter - Wanting
That night Lulu couldn't get any sleep at all. Nothing had happened at all between them during the night. After their stare down she had grabbed her clothes and ran into the forest leading back to the Gate. When Auron had approached about twenty minutes later, she pretended that she was asleep.
She had no explanation for the way she acted back there or what was going through her head at that time. There was nothing going through her mind. Sin, Yuna, Chappu, and Tidus all just evaporated from her mind. And she couldn't explain it.
Lulu didn't like what she was feeling at all. She looked over her shoulder at Auron who sat nearby facing her. He had put his glasses back on so she wasn't quite sure if he was looking at her or not.
She stood up and began patrolling the area again making sure there were no fiends about. After half an hour she came back to the spot where Auron was asleep. Lulu slowly walked to him and crouched down by the sleeping soldier and peered into his face.
"What's happening to me?" She whispered gently removing his glasses.
Lulu examined his closed eye and then the eye with the scar through it. His skin was dark and strong and the lines in his face showed his age but also added character. Without realising it she reached out and touched his face. She was surprised at how smooth it was. Her eyes flittered closed and she sighed.
"I don't understand…." She uttered opening her eyes.
"What are you doing?"
Lulu stared at the warrior who was now awake. Realising that her hand was still on his face she pulled it away and jumped to her feet. She turned away from the soldier, her skin burning with embarrassment. "I'm…I…"
Auron slowly stood and reached for his glasses that was still clutched in her hand. He took them from her and slipped them back on. "We should leave now."
Lulu didn't answer.
He continued to watch her, waiting for a reply. There was a tight feeling in his chest and a gentle stirring deep within him. Auron was just as confused about these new feelings as she was. It's been so long since he'd been with a woman or even desired one. It must've been eleven years since he was with anyone. From then he had been focused on protecting Lord Braska and fulfilling the promise he made to both him and Jecht.
But last night when he was watching Lulu he felt a wave of pure lust burn through his entire being. She was the most exquisite creature he'd ever seen and as he watched her thoughts of everything else had abandoned him. All he could see was Lulu; all he could smell was Lulu.
Auron couldn't help but be angry with himself. How could he have forgotten everything in that instant? He had even forgot about Sin's existence.
He knew that he wanted this woman with a passion but he couldn't allow it. He had to maintain his self-control. He couldn't let his and her feelings interfere with them finding Yuna and helping her complete her pilgrimage. He had to stay focused.
"Get ready for the journey ahead." Auron ordered turning away from her to pick up his sword.
Lulu turned her head slightly, to look at him over her shoulder then began to head for the exit. Why am I feeling like this? Lulu wondered. Yevon help me…
*
Yuna rushed past Tidus with a huge grin on her face. They had just left the Djose temple and were heading back down the path. She turned and waved then continued running. Tidus rubbed the back of his head and grinned. "She sure is cheerful."
Wakka stood behind Tidus looking over at Yuna. "She has to be. Even in dark times like this she always smiles. If you worry she'll just try harder."
"Hmmm…you know she stayed up until dawn healing the wounded crusaders that made it to the temple. She didn't sleep long at all, only about two hours. And look at her now!" Tidus stated.
"I know. But that's how Yuna is." Wakka folded his arms and smiled. "She's full of life and would do anything to help someone else."
Yuna ran up to them. "Aren't you coming?"
Kimarhi stepped forward. "We go now." He then began to walk ahead.
Tidus put his hands behind his head. "Are you sure you're ready?"
Yuna nodded. "Yes. I'm sure."
"So where are we heading now?" Tidus asked looking at Wakka.
"We cross the Moonflow next." He answered. "Then head for Guadosalam, after that we cross the Thunder Plains and then go through Macalania Woods and Lake Macalania. That'll take us to the next temple."
Tidus sighed. "And we can't just skip all that can we? And go straight to Zarnakand?"
Yuna shook her head. "If I am to obtain the final aeon I must prey at all the temples."
"That must be tough Yuna." Tidus said.
She shrugged and smiled. "I'll be fine…as long as you're with me."
"Hey! Enough of that. We have to get going." Wakka walked past Tidus, patted Yuna's shoulder then headed after Kimarhi.
"Do you think the others are okay?" Tidus asked concernedly .
"Sir Auron and Lulu?"
He nodded.
Yuna sighed. "I believe that they are alright. They should catch up with us today. We did spend a lot of time at the temple." She paused for a moment. "I'm looking forward to seeing them again."
"So am I." Tidus smiled. He couldn't wait to see Lulu again. He kept thinking about her through the night, of how her lips felt when she kissed him. "I'm definitely looking forward to that."
*
Auron and Lulu fell to the floor, arms wrapped tightly around each other. Auron's lips devoured hers and she was responding hungrily. She ran her fingers through his hair while pushing his head closer to hers. Auron's tongue was fierce and was probing her mouth eagerly. They looked like wild animals clawing at each other. Their hearts were pounding and Lulu was trembling underneath him.
Auron pulled his lips away from hers then proceeded to kiss her neck and running his tongue over her collarbone. Lulu moaned, her eyes closed. Her mind was a total blank not a single thought went through it apart from the pleasure the older warrior was giving her. They were lying on the side of Mushroom Rock road near the Djose Highroad fully clothed. No one knew what had happen, one minute they're walking along fighting fiends the next they're making out on the rough floor.
'&&&'
Auron hands began to travel down her body and feel her through the thick dress. Lulu arched her back and licked her lips but then gasped as Aurons mouth found the top of her cleavage. Gently her brushed her necklace out of the way and licked her supple skin. Lulu writhed underneath him wanting more.
His fingers then grasped the furry top if her dress and slowly pulled the dress down to her waist, watching as her breasts popped free. Every nerve in her entire body tingle as her began to massage her chest harshly. Lulu tilted her neck back while gasping in pure desire. Auron continued massaging her breasts his fingers brushing her hard nipples. He watched her face intently; it was a face of pure sensuality.
He leaned down and held the sides of her waist to stop her from moving so much then leaned down to her chest. Without warning Auron bit down hard on her breast. Lulu almost screamed as a bolt of pain followed quickly by a wave of joy went straight though her. She pushed herself closer to him as he licked and sucked her breasts until she'd thought they would explode.
"A…Auron…." She gasped breathing heavily.
Auron quickly moved from her bosom and kissed her with all the passion he had. It was endless. He rolled over so that she was on top of him while his hand caressed the smooth, silky skin on her back. She continued to lick and pull on his lips as she felt a growing sensation between her legs. The kiss went on for a while but it was out of this world.
Lulu moved her legs to either side of him and he pushed her skirt up just a little higher than the knee not once taking his lips away from hers. They were pressed so close together she could feel his solid manhood pressing against her.
'&&&'
In that instant everything came rushing back to her. Yuna, Sin, the pilgrimage, her mission, and Tidus, somehow when Auron had first kissed her they had all disappeared from her mind but they were there now. She could imagine what the others would say if they saw them like this. "Oh dear Yevon." She muttered pulling away from Auron roughly and falling back against the floor.
Auron looked at her puzzled. "What-"
"I can't do this." Lulu said hysterically. She climbed to her feet and stepped away from him. Lulu turned away while pulling her dress back up. Her heart was pounding. "We shouldn't do this."
"Lulu…" Auron uttered not able to finish what he was going to say. What could he say? If she hadn't stopped him he would have kept going and not stopped. He knew that she'd done the right thing.
Lulu turned to face him her lips were slightly swollen and her face was flustered. She looked down at him, her wine-coloured eyes examining him closely. She couldn't deny it anymore. Lulu did want Auron. He was so masculine and strong, when he held her he made her forget about everything even that which was most important to her. She felt safe in his arms…safe and indescribably happy.
"Auron…this can't happen…" Lulu said quietly
"I know." He stood and walked towards her and didn't stop until he was an inch away from her.
Lulu took in a sharp breath and her cupped her face in his hands. He bent down slightly and peered into her eyes. "Auron…."
"Don't feel guilty about what we did or what we are feeling. We can't stop what's going on inside of us." Auron said huskily.
"But…Yuna…"
Auron nodded. "I know. But we have to put aside our yearnings and focus on our mission."
Lulu let out a breath but he had no idea what was going through her mind. Tidus…
"We must continue our journey." Auron stated moving away from her and collecting his glasses that was on the floor. He picked them up and slipped them back onto his face. Auron placed his arms into his coat and began to head off down the road.
"Auron!" Lulu called walking quickly after him. He turned slightly and looked at her over his shoulder. "This can't happen again, you know that don't you."
He nodded then continued up the path. "We should be able to catch up with them today. Let's us." Lulu watched him as he strolled forwards. She turned to look at the sea as a wave crashed against the shore on the beach below. How could she have let that happen? Why did she let things go so far? What would Tidus think if he knew? If Chappu were watching her now what would he be thinking?
The guilt inside of her was almost unbearable. She didn't want to look into Tidus's eyes, she wasn't even sure that she could look at him without feeling totally miserable. And it was all her fault. Why was Sir Auron having such an effect on her? He never did anything in the past to suggest such a thing.
Lulu began walking down the path, after the older warrior. She couldn't believe she had neglected her duties like that. What if Yuna was in danger? What if she need them while they were on top of each other. Lulu shook her head. But she couldn't deny her feelings for Auron. It wasn't like she was in love with him it was just the feeling of pure lust when she looked into his eyes.
Silently Lulu preyed that they wouldn't have another encounter like that, even though she thoroughly enjoyed it, she never wanted it to happen again.
To Be Continued…
Author's Notes
Hi! I knew there would be at least one person who wouldn't be happy about Auron. But it's okay everyone is entitled to his or her opinion. I think it's going well so far. I tried really hard to keep the characters in character and make them say things that you believe they would. Let me know what you think so far by Submitting a Review.
And now you know why I called the story 'Guilt'. Thank you guys so much for reviewing! I'll try my best to keep updating as often as I can.
Thanks for reading!
^_^
Selina
