Final Fantasy 10
GuiltBy Selina
Warnings: Rated R.
Pairing: Tidus/Lulu. ^_^
Disclaimers: Characters and places from the game mentioned in my story are from FFX belonging to Squaresoft not me. So don't sue cause I just spent the last of my money on a copy of Tenchu 3!
Setting: Lulu is in an interesting predicament
Author's Quick Note: The people have spoken! So here it is…Enjoy!
Chapter 8– EmotionsAt the sound of his voice a tingle travelled through her whole body. He held so much power over her just hearing him speak drove her crazy. She tilted her head involuntarily and moaned as he licked the skin there. Lulu could feel herself losing it again. She was falling into the depths of pleasure and this time she didn't know if she could stop it.
"No… Auron. This has…has to stop." Lulu moaned weakly trying to pull away.
He gently sucked the skin on her neck tasting the soft flesh. Auron moved his hand up to Lulu heaving chest and rested it on her cleavage. Lulu bit her bottom lip. Her head felt light as she listened to Aurons heavy breathing. She had to stop it; she couldn't let it go on like this anymore but…. it felt so good.
Lulu turned her head to face Auron and he caught her lips between his. He pushed his tongue into her mouth exploring the inner walls. She closed her eyes enjoying his exquisite taste. Reaching up to touch the hand that was on her chest she groaned into his mouth. They stayed like that for a long while, just kissing each other… enjoying each other's touch. Lulu was losing it totally. But even though she was enjoying it she knew that it wasn't right and that she had to put an end to it!
Sharply Lulu turned her head away, her lips swollen. "Auron…don't."
Auron watched her closely. She had made no attempt to move away from his grip but her eyes were full of sadness. He let go of her and stepped back his eye still on her.
Lulu stood there for a moment feeling totally ashamed of herself. Once again she'd not been able to control her feelings for him.
"Lulu…" Auron began.
She whirled round to face him her eyes ablaze with anger. "Why are you doing this!" She yelled tears streaking down her face. "I said before that it shouldn't happen! I don't want to be distracted from our mission and neither should you!" Lulu pushed him out of her way and headed for the door. "I don't want you Auron! I don't want anyone! I just want to be on my own." Lulu yanked open the door.
"Are you trying to convince me….or yourself?" He said calmly
Lulu's heart ached and all she wanted to do was run onto Auron's arms and let him make love to her but she knew it was wrong and she had to resist it. Her body had betrayed her yet again, giving into the seductive warrior but she would not…absolutely not let it happen again.
Lulu sighed and closed the door behind her. She sighed deeply and headed out of the inn alone.
*
"Lulu! Did you stay out here all night?"
Lulu slowly opened her eyes and looked up at Yuna and Kimarhi who stood over her. She was sitting outside of the inn by the lake her knees pulled up to her chin and her arms wrapped around her shins. Lulu yawned and stretched arching her back.
"I guess I lost track of time." Lulu muttered. "I only came out here for a little while. I must've fallen asleep."
Yuna crouched down by her guardian. "Are you alright?"
Lulu smiled and nodded. "I'm fine. You worry too much Yuna." Lulu stood and brushed her skirt. "Is everyone ready to go?"
Yuna shook her head. "Wakka and Tidus have yet to shower."
"Right. Is there any breakfast around?" Lulu asked acknowledging the growl from her stomach.
"Yeah. Why don't we eat together?" Yuna suggested straightening up.
Lulu smiled at the happy young summoner. "Why not."
Lulu followed Yuna into the inn where breakfast was occasionally served. On the menu that morning was Bite Bug soup and Garm strips. The soup looked piping hot and the green liquid had lumps of flesh in it. The strips were almost black and the smell was hardly appetising. Yuna pulled a face at the steaming food placed in front of them. She thanked the young girl who gave them their meal and waited for her to leave before turning to Lulu.
"It doesn't look very appealing does it?" Yuna stated solomly.
Lulu sat back in her seat scrutinising the food under her gaze. "No it doesn't but…" She picked up her fork. "We need a meal to start the day. And a young summoner such as you shouldn't skip a meal."
Yuna wrinkled her nose. "O…ok."
Hesitantly, Yuna began to stir the soup for a while examining the food closely then she scooped up a small amount and blew on it gently to cool it down. Just as she raised the spoon to her lips she looked up at Lulu once more for assurance. Lulu nodded while smiling slightly. The summoner slowly drank the soup from the spoon and winced.
Chuckling Lulu began on her own food and realised why Yuna had flinched. The food was awful and she was sure that she'd have a problem keeping it down. After a while they'd managed to finish the meal but kept their disgust it themselves not wanting to displease the cooks.
"I'll make sure not to eat Bite Bug soup again." Yuna whispered to Lulu who sat across the table from her.
"Bite Bug can taste quite pleasing but it has to be done just right." Lulu stated.
Yuna smiled at her guardian. Whatever was bothering Lulu she seemed to have gotten over it and Yuna was glad to have the old Lulu back. But she was still curious as to what made her so distant the day before. Yuna often worried about her guardian, ever since Chappu died Yuna's had a watchful eye on the black mage waiting for when Lulu was going to release her pain. Yuna wanted to comfort her friend but at the time Lulu had been very hard to approach because of her harsh exterior.
The door to the eating area opened and Auron strolled in. Yuna smiled at him as he looked down at her then Lulu. Lulu kept her head down and turned away slightly. His eye turned back to Yuna.
"Good morning Sir Auron."
"Good morning Yuna…Lulu…"
Yuna thought that she saw Lulu flinch but dismissed that though immediately. "Sleep well?"
Auron shifted his weight. "As well as can be expected. Are you ready Yuna? We must get going." He said.
Yuna nodded. "We're ready. What about Wakka and Tidus?"
Auron gestured towards the weapon area. "They're buying supplies. You should buy some for the journey ahead. The walk to Guadosalam is a long one. Be prepared."
Yuna nodded and watched as the stoic warrior turned and walked out the door. Yuna grinned after him and looked at Lulu who appeared to be in deep thought. "Are you ready?" She asked standing up.
Lulu nodded mutely and stood then headed, with Yuna in the direction of the weapon area. Yuna smiled as they entered the shop seeing Tidus and Wakka eyeing up new weapons that were way out of their price range.
"Good morning guardians." Yuna said cheerily.
They both turned and grinned at her. Wakka rubbed the back of his head. "Morning Yuna."
"Are you done here?" She asked.
They both nodded in unison.
"Okay. We'll now ride the shoopuf to the other side of the Moonflow and head for Guadosalam." Yuna stated.
As her guardians exited the shop she quickly rushed to the counter to buy some Phoenix Downs and Potions then headed after them. She smiled at Tidus who'd decided to wait for her.
"Ready Yuna?" He asked.
She nodded and they walk out together. There was a slight fluttering in her chest whenever Tidus was around. She really liked him and was glad that he'd decided to become her guardian. Yuna hoped that he'd be able to stay with her until the end of her journey.
*
Lulu was trying hard… so hard to become herself again. She wanted things to be like they were before all the complicated things began to happen. She felt it was best for her to be alone so that she'd have no distractions.
Yesterday Lulu had been so close to giving in to him…. it frightened her. Tidus was the one she wanted to be with but even that she wasn't sure of. Maybe it would be best if she were alone. No one would be hurt or distracted from his or her duties. Protecting Yuna… that was all she should be concerning herself with. Not the feelings of love and lust she'd been feeling for the last few days. Now she was going to devote herself to being in Yuna's service and helping her with the pilgrimage.
When Auron had walked in during breakfast she began to feel light-headed all over again but using all her will power she'd managed to suppress it. It hadn't been easy but she was sure that she'd be able to do it again.
The day passed by quite quickly; they had a little trouble with the Al Bhed who had tried to kidnap Yuna while they were riding the shoopuf. Tidus and Wakka managed to get her back without too much trouble. But then they'd met up with a young spunky girl Rikku who'd had helped Tidus when he first came to Spira. Rikku had become Yuna's guardian at the moment they found out who she was. She was Cid's daughter who was Yuna's uncle. This didn't surprise Lulu but they knew that Wakka would hit the roof if they found out that Rikku was an Al Bhed and that Yuna was also half Al Bhed so they kept it a secret. Auron noticed straight away that she was what she was but he didn't seem to mind at all.
Lulu sighed as they walked up the road to Guadosalam. She glanced at Tidus who was smiling at Yuna. She stepped towards him and he looked at her.
"You okay?" Tidus asked.
"I'm fine." She said. "There's no temple in Guadosalam see? Summoners usually just pass by on their way elsewhere."
Tidus chuckled.
"What is it?" She asked abruptly.
"I didn't even ask a question and you're explaining things."
"You rather I say nothing?" Lulu asked.
"No no. I like it when you explain thing to me. It helps me…understand a little more about Spira." Tidus stated his hands behind his head. "Does that mean you believe me when I say I don't know anything about this place?"
"Well…perhaps. There are many things I do not know. Your Zanarkand is one of those things. But you should be careful what you say. You shouldn't tell other people." She explained.
"Yeah I know."
"Guadosalam is where the late Lord Jyscle lived during his long life. His death was a great loss to all of Spira. He was truly a great man."
Tidus raised his eyebrow. "Why was he so great?"
Lulu folded her arms under her bosom. "He brought the teachings of Yevon to the Guado."
"Hmm…I still don't understand all this Yevon stuff." He muttered.
"Don't worry. You will in time." Lulu said quietly.
"I…I guess." Tidus paused. "…Lulu…I need to ask you about something." Tidus muttered slowing down his pace so no one would be able to hear what he wanted to say to the black mage.
Lulu nodded and waited for him to continue.
"Well…I'm kind of confused about what's happening between us. I mean…how do you…you know… actually feel about me?" Tidus looked down at her.
Lulu stared back into his blue ocean like eyes. "I…I'm not sure. I thought I was but I really don't know."
Tidus swallowed hard. "Is it something I've done?"
"Not at all! It's all me, you've done nothing. It's just that there are something's I need to work out in my head. I've been emotionally detached for so long I just don't know how to deal with it just yet. I need a little more time." Lulu explained.
Tidus smiled at her. "Don't worry about it Lulu. I don't want you to rush into anything. I know it must be rough.... with Chappu and all."
"Will you wait?" Lulu asked her heart fluttering.
Tidus nodded. "I will."
Lulu's smile widened and she felt to give him a hug there and then not caring who saw her. She was so touched by how Tidus felt towards her. Her insides ached when she thought about Auron and what she'd done. Lulu was so torn up she could hardly think straight. And if her and Tidus were meant to be together she'd have to totally get over how she was feeling towards Auron and that…was going to be a challenge.
To Be Continued….
Author's NotesHi there! I'm sorry I took a little while writing this chapter but my heads been clouded and I can't think straight! I think I'm having severe writer's block or something and it's getting on my nerves!! Also my stupid computer was playing up and wouldn't let me submit my work. You know I actually finished this chapter on the 7th of May and the thing was just sitting there and getting on my nerves!!! But it's sorted now!
Anyway what did you think of this chapter? Did you like it? Let me know what's on your mind by Submitting a Review. I didn't really like this chapter too much but hopefully when I do the next one it'll be more interesting and have a little more in it.
If you have any ideas on what I could do next in the chapter then let me know. I'll do the next chapter as soon as I can.
Thanks for reading
^_^
Selina
