Final Fantasy 10
GuiltBy Selina
Warnings: Rated R.
Pairing: Tidus/Lulu, I've thought of others and you've guessed them by now. ^_^
Disclaimers: Characters and places from the game mentioned in my story are from FFX belonging to Squaresoft not me. So don't sue!
Setting: The group are in Guadosalam and Seymour has just proposed to Yuna.
Authors Quick Note: This chapter is a little limey, but it's nothing explicit. You've been warned.
Chapter 9- DecisionsLulu stood alone by the entrance of the Farplane in Guadosalam deep in thought. Seymour had just asked Yuna to marry him and Lulu couldn't help but be irked by this. If Yuna did decide to wed, Lulu knew it definitely wouldn't be for love. But she still felt uneasy.
Maester Seymour…. Leader of the Guado and son of Maester Jyscle…and Yuna…daughter of High Summoner Braska, married in the name of Yevon. Overcoming the barriers of race. It would give the people something cheery to talk about for a change. It would help them forget about Sin for a short time. Lulu knew that Yuna was seriously thinking about this and had gone to the Farplane to see her mother and father.
Lulu sighed and shifted her weight onto one foot just as Auron walked up and stood beside her. Lulu took in a breath and ignored the feeling the she was getting in her chest.
"What is your opinion on the union between Yuna and Seymour?" Auron asked.
Lulu slowly let out a breath. "Well…I don't have much of an opinion. It's up to Yuna. What about you?" She glanced up at the strong warrior. "What do you think?"
"A moments distraction may amuse an audience but it changes nothing. Yuna should be focused on the pilgrimage and nothing else." He stated.
"Like us?" Lulu regretted the words as they left her lips.
Auron turned to face the black mage and stared down at her. Lulu slowly looked up at him then turned away sharply. She swallowed hard; her heart was racing.
"I'm going to the Farplane." Lulu headed towards the entrance of the Farplane feeling slightly giddy. She glanced over her shoulder to see if he was following her but saw that he had turned and was heading in the opposite direction.
Lulu sighed and continued to walk to the Farplane. When she reached there she saw Yuna and Tidus watching her parents. Looking to her right she could see Wakka talking to his brother. Lulu swallowed hard as she watched her old lover staring aimlessly ahead. She knew that it wasn't really him…that it was an image projected by the pyrflies but her insides tweaked as she looked at him.
Lulu folded her arms under her bosom and shifted her weight onto one foot. She didn't feel as sad as she had done in the past when thinking of him…she just felt at peace and glad that he was sent and hadn't become a fiend.
She smiled slightly. Things had been so much easier when he was around…there was no complication about her feelings towards him. All she knew was that she was madly in love and wanted to stay with him for the rest of her life. But he was long dead and seeing him in this place confirmed it….
"You okay?" A voice asked from behind.
Lulu nodded and smiled at Tidus over her shoulder. "He is dead and I am still alive. Coming here really makes that clear…I should focus more on what I have to do now." She chuckled softly.
"What?" Tidus asked.
She shook her head. "I'm not even sure what I am saying."
Tidus folded his arms, a thoughtful expression on his face. "Don't you mean that you should leave Chappu behind? I'm sure he was a great guy but there will be others."
"Ummm that's a possibility." Lulu smile widened and she sighed. "Goodbye Chappu…you always said that I looked grumpy but those were the happiest days of my life."
Tidus admired Lulu from behind then stepped forwards resting a comforting hand on her shoulder.
"Don't worry I'm fine." She said quietly.
Tidus remained silent and instead of answering her he turned her to face him and pulled her into his arms. Lulu was surprised by this gesture but felt safe against him. Her hands rested against his strong lean chest as her eyes closed.
Tidus caressed her back slowly wanting to comfort the woman he was falling for. Just holding onto her made him feel so much better. His pain seemed to ease with her near. There were just so many things that bothered him now. His father being the creature he is now…wanting to return home but not wanting to leave Lulu…. Yuna thinking about getting married to a creep like Seymour. Tidus didn't care what people said he still thought that Seymour was a total arrogant jerk.
He pulled away from Lulu slightly not caring if anyone was watching and gazed into her eyes. Lulu blushed slightly as he kissed her gently on her soft slightly parted purple lips. She kissed him back gently for a moment then pulled her lips away swiftly as if she'd been struck by lightening.
Lulu stared into his eyes not sure what was happening. Tidus frowned slightly, a confused expression on his face. She stared back at into his sky blue eyes searching for something…something to let her know that she was doing the right thing. Suddenly one of his eyes closed and formed a scar over the eyelid, then the other turned a shade of brown/grey and his facial features became more refined and his hair became a shade of dark grey.
Lulu stared in horror into the face of Auron…why was she seeing him here…like this? He shouldn't have been in her head at all. It was Tidus she was with…why was Auron always there in the back of her mind. Was it Auron she really wanted? Was she just fooling herself by thinking that Tidus was the one she was falling in love with? Lulu shook her head still staring into that grey eye. No…it wasn't like that…she really did feel something for Tidus but there was so much confusion in her mind.
"Tidus…" She uttered. There was so much to worry about…Sin, pain, Seymour, Yuna, Spira, the pilgrimage, her sanity, love, sorrow, Tidus, lust…Auron…
"Lulu?" Tidus peered down at her. He had released her but had grabbed a hold of her shoulders to snap her out of her daydream.
Lulu blinked and began to focus on Tidus again. She pulled back from him and turned away. She hated feeling this way, so confused about what she wanted. Lulu grew angrier when she thought of what she was doing to this young man. Hurting him was not her intention but she still wasn't sure…
"I'm…I'm sorry." Lulu muttered. "But not yet…"
Tidus swallowed hard and turned to face the image of Chappu. "It's okay. Take your time."
Lulu faced him and smiled unhappily. "Thank you for understanding." She paused. "Why don't you try calling someone? All you have to do is think about them." With that she turned away and headed out of the Farplane.
He nodded and then sat down on the floor, his legs stretched out in front of him. He rested his arms behind him and began concentrating hard on the person that meant he most to him. Slowly the image of a young woman came into view. Tears sparkled in his eyes threatening to spill. His voice was caught in his throat when he gazed into her eyes.
"Mom…" He whispered. "I don't know what's happening to me…I wish you were here. I need something to stop me from bouncing off the walls. I need Lulu so badly but there's something wrong and I just don't know what it is…. I mean she's the one that made the first move and now…."
Tidus sighed. "Dad's not so good now either. He's…different than before. I don't know how it happened but he's…"
"Hey! You okay?" Wakka slapped Tidus' back hard.
Tidus cried out in surprise then looked up at the burly blitzer. "I was. Geez…" Tidus tried to rub the sore part of his back. "Why do you always hit me so hard?"
Wakka chuckled. "Too hard for you eh? You should be able to take it. You're a blister like me, we have strong skin."
Tidus stood.
Wakka put a hand on his friend shoulder and looked ahead of him at the woman standing there. "Hmm that's a classy lady. Who is she?" He asked curiously.
"That's my mom." Tidus stated.
Wakka nodded. "Ohh…looks like you…but prettier."
Tidus smiled sadly. "She died a few years ago from some illness."
"Sorry bout that."
"S'okay. It's just been a long time." Tidus said quietly.
They stood there in silence looking at her for a while. Tidus felt a little better seeing his mother…more at ease but not fully.
"You know…" Wakka began. "I saw you and Lulu talking just then."
Tidus looked up at him. "Just talking?"
Wakka nodded. "Yeah…when I turned around you guys were talking and then she walked out."
"Ohh…and?" Tidus asked a little puzzled.
"I think I know what's going on. You like her don't you?" Wakka folded his arms and looked down at Tidus knowingly.
Tidus blushed slightly and rubbed the back of his head. "I guess." He replied nervously. "How did you figure that out?"
"You know I'm not as dumb as I look. I can tell…it's obvious."
Tidus chuckled but then realised that Wakka's face was serious. He hoped he hadn't gotten the older man angry. "Do you have anything against that?"
"Nope, I just wanted to give you some advice that's all. Lulu is very fragile…she may seem tough but deep down she's not. If you want to be with her you have to give her time and space to work things out ya?" Wakka stated.
Tidus nodded.
"You know that she hasn't been with anyone since my little brudda and that was two years ago. It's going to be tough for her."
Tidus folded his arms and looked down at his shoes. "But sometimes I get the feeling that she's not interested. I mean she was the one who made the moves in the first place and now…"
Wakka let out a loud chuckle that made Tidus jump. "If she wasn't interested in you…boy you would know about it! I've seen her turn down men so many times it's amazing! Even Luzzu was interested in for a few months back." Wakka smiled.
"What about you? Have you ever tried?" Tidus asked innocently.
Wakka's smile broadened. "I tried not to but a long while ago…yeah I did like her. I wanted to protect her for my bruddas sake. I wanted to comfort her when she was down. Lulu acted so tough back then but I saw right through it. No one would have guessed how sad she was but I've known her for years and I could tell…" He trailed off.
"Did you approach her about it?" Tidus asked.
Wakka nodded. "I did but…"
*
"What?" Lulu turned to face Wakka not believing what she just heard.
Wakka scratched the back of his head. "Umm…I want to be with you Lu."
Lulu stared at him then closed her eyes and shook her head, her fingers rested on her temples. "I should have known." She opened her eyes. "You want to take care of me for Chappu don't you?"
Wakka nodded. "Ya…"
She stepped towards Wakka and rested her hand on his shoulder. "Well I want to take care of myself for Chappu. I'm sorry Wakka…"
Wakka smiled and let out a loud laugh. "No prob! I thought you'd turn me down but I just took the chance to tell you anyway."
Lulu grinned. "We're still friends?"
Wakka winked at her and nodded. "Definitely."
*
"Lu was cool about it and never held the fact that I liked her against me." Wakka grinned. "But to tell you the truth I got off lightly. You should have seen how she turned the others guys down. She was so cold…I felt sorry for them."
Tidus smiled. "Do you still like her?"
"We're just good friends and that's all. I'm not interested in her that way anymore." Wakka told him.
"So you think she's serious about me?" Tidus asked.
Wakka nodded. "I'm sure of it. But like I said you need to give her space to work things out ya?"
Tidus smiled. He felt a lot better after hearing that. "Okay."
"Good. Now lets put all this romance stuff aside for a while and concentrate on what's really important. We're guardians remember." Wakka slapped Tidus's shoulder.
Tidus coughed. "Yeah…"
"Hello?"
The blitzers turned and smiled at the young summoner. "Hey Yuna…"
She smiled. "I've decided."
"Oh really. That's good." Tidus was hoping she had decided to do the right thing.
Yuna turned her head and gazed aimlessly ahead. "I remember when I was only seven years old in Bervelle that day. My father had defeated Sin and the whole town was out in the streets and everyone was laughing. They all seemed so happy. If I defeated Sin then that would make everyone happy wouldn't it?" Yuna paused for a moment. "I must do what everyone wants not just what I want."
"Lets go back." Wakka said.
"Yeah, you got to tell Seymour." Tidus agreed.
Yuna nodded then looked ahead at the figure of the woman surrounded by pyrflies. "Is…is that your mother?"
"Yeah. That's her." Tidus looked back at the image.
"She's very pretty."
Tidus thought for a second. "But…wait…no one performed a Sending for her… so… why is she here?"
"She must have accepted death while she was still alive." Yuna told him.
Tidus frowned and sighed. "Come on lets go." He said quietly before walking towards the steps leading out of the Farplane.
Yuna sighed as she watched him go then smiled up at Wakka when he put a comforting hand on her shoulder. "You ready?" He asked.
She nodded. "I am."
*
Lulu opened her eyes and yawned quietly. She had fallen asleep on her bed at the Inn for a few hours and it was now nightfall. Lulu sat up and stretched slightly while looking over at Rikku who slept soundly in the next bed.
She pulled her hair out of her face and realised that it was in need of a good comb through so she climbed off the bed and sat down by the dresser. She picked up the fancy engraved comb and pulled her hair over her shoulder then ran the comb down the length of it.
Lulu continued this until all the knots were gone and her hair was once again shiny and silky. She sighed and sat back in the chair. While tying her hair in a loose and simple ponytail she began to think. They'd be leaving in the morning to cross the Thunder Plain and head for Macalaina Woods. When they get to the temple hopefully they'd find Maester Seymour and inform him about the decision Yuna had made.
She stood and headed for the door. She needed to get some air.
"Lulu?" Rikku turned in the bed to face the black mage. "Where are you going?"
Lulu grinned. "I'm going for a walk. Don't worry I won't be long."
Rikku turned away. "…Okay. I won't …wait up…"
Lulu nodded then walked out of the room. Quietly she headed past the other rooms not wanting to wake up the others. Once outside she sighed and headed down the path towards the entrance of the Thunder Plain.
Loud grunting noises echoed up through that tunnel. It sounded like someone fighting a fiend or something. She rushed into the tunnel hoping that she would be able to help whoever was in trouble. She continued to run until she came to the end of the tunnel to the Thunder Plain then she stopped suddenly when she saw a red coat on the floor. She looked up and saw Auron but he wasn't in trouble.
He was on the Thunder Plain slicing his blade at invisible enemies. But he looked so different…he wasn't wearing his coat or that large collar that covered his mouth. Also his glasses were off and his hair was free from the band he usually had it tied in. The muscles in his arms were so strong and well sculpted.
Lulu continued to stare as he swiped at the unseen enemy with his sword; he let out groans and cries of effort. Rain trickled onto her but she didn't care. All she could do was stand there and admire the warriors' beauty. He didn't appear to notice she was there and kept training for what seemed forever in slow motion for her. While he fought, he continuously dodged the lightening that was homing in on him with ease.
Lulu licked her lips slightly. By now Auron was soaked and so was Lulu. She was safe from the lightening bolts because she stood only a little way from the tunnel.
Out of nowhere an Iron Giant rushed towards Auron and roared at him. Auron looked up at it unfazed then turned his sword towards it. As the fiend tried to reach for him he jumped out of the way just missing another lightening bolt, and landed on its arm.
He sliced at the iron foe and seemed to be inflicting a great amount of damage to it. The fiend roared then flung Auron roughly to the ground but Auron just jumped up again and continued to slice at it with his heavy sword.
Lulu was rooted to the floor watching the whole thing. She wanted to help but her legs weren't moving. The creature was getting weaker by the minute until it was just reaching for Auron blindly. Auron jumped up onto the Iron Giant's shoulder and plunged his sword through its neck. It cried out then began to disappear into pyrflies but just before that happened Auron jumped off the dying fiend and landed gracefully on the ground.
As he stood up straight he ran his hand through his wet hair, his lips slightly parted and his eye closed. Lulu began to get light-headed and swallowed the lump in her throat. He looked so mesmerising and tempting.
Auron walked to where the giant had fallen and picked up the six hundred gil it left behind. He then turned towards Lulu and headed in her direction, his sword flung over his shoulder. She took a deep breath waiting for his eye to meet with hers but it didn't happen. He continued to walk to her until he stood by his soaking coat that was by her feet. He bent down to retrieve it then walked past her as though she weren't there.
Lulu stood there breathing heavily, her skin burning up again. She couldn't just let him go like this. Lulu spun round. "Auron!" She called a hint of desperation in her voice.
He stopped walking and turned his head slightly letting her know that he was listening. She opened her mouth to speak but no words came out. Her heart was thumbing hard against her chest. "I…I…"
Auron turned around and walked towards her until they were merely inches apart. She looked up into his mysterious eye and took a deep breath. A slow smile crept onto his lips and his gaze softened. He reached out and ran his thumb down her smooth cheek. Gasping she closed her eyes slowly and then opened them. She took one step towards him, closing the gap between them then her arm snaked around his neck and ran her fingers through his hair.
Lulu continued to stare into his eye. All this felt like a dream to her…a dream she didn't want to wake up from. She felt so strongly for him at that moment and she had no intention of stopping this time. The sexually deprived woman felt like she would burst if she didn't take this chance. All logical thoughts abandoned her as before and all she sought after was the pleasure the powerful warrior could and hopefully would give her.
She slowly brought his face closer to hers and moved her lips towards his until they were just barely touching. Auron flung his sword to one side and dropped his coat in a heap on the floor. He wrapped his arms around the small of her back, touching her exposed skin through the gap in the back of her dress. He closed his lips over hers and she slipped her tongue into his mouth massaging it passionately.
He slowly slipped off the band holding her hair together, and watched as her dark long hair spilled over her shoulders. The temperature was now beginning to boil as they caressed each other softly.
The rain cascaded down onto them and the water dripped down their faces and slid over their skin. The weight of their clothing was becoming frustrating and they both wanted to shed them so badly.
Lulu pulled away slightly and looked down at his swollen lips with desire. He looked back at her from under his lashes and was amazed at how beautiful she looked. Her hair hung from her head like an ebony waterfall, her eyes burned with passion and her luscious and inviting cleavage seemed to glow as the water collected in a pool in between her breasts. Once again she brought his head down to hers. She groaned eagerly into his mouth as she moved her hands from his head down to his shoulders.
This felt so right…so perfect. They didn't want it to stop. Nothing would stop them from enjoying this moment. All their pain had vanished and their sorrow gone. All that was important at that time was their need…the need to let themselves go. To explore what hadn't been touched in a long time.
Lulu began kissing the side of his neck moving down to join her hand on his shoulder. She then took his hand in hers and began to kiss each of his fingers while staring into his eye. Auron burned with desire as he watched her like that. It took all of his strength to stop himself from throwing her to the floor and making love to her there and then.
The black mage then rested his hand on the top of her chest and stared back at him waiting for him to continue. He smiled seductively and squeezed the skin gently. A gasp escaped from her lips but she continued to watch him with those half closed, rose coloured eyes.
Auron kissed her quickly on her lips then pulled back. He turned away from her picking up his sword and coat then glanced at her. She looked a little dazed and confused wanting to know why he'd stopped just like that.
"I'm giving you a choice Lulu…I'm going back to my room now. You can come with me or go back to your room and just forget that this even happened. It's up to you, do as you please." With that he walked past her and headed for the Inn.
This was it…he had given her the choice. But Lulu didn't know what to choose. She pushed her hair out of her face and stared out towards the Thunder Plain while rubbing her shoulders. Her whole body was aching for more and she wanted it so much. She wasn't going to deny it anymore…or be ashamed of it. She wanted Auron to take her body…she wanted him to help her forget about all the pain and suffering around her. Lulu wanted him to lose himself inside of her….
To Be Continued…
Author's NotesHey guys! I hope you people liked this chapter. I had fun writing it…especially the part at the end ^_^. Let me know what you think by Submitting a Review. I'm warning you from now that the next chapter will definitely be a lemon. I've started the new one already so it should be there in a couple of days.
In this chapter I tried to show that Lulu and Auron are using each other for physical pleasure and that's all they are thinking about. I tried not to make them think things like 'her eyes showed him the pain she'd gone through and he wanted to shield her from the pain that anyone else would give her in the future'. That would be the kind of thing Tidus would be thinking about, towards Lulu.
In reality all they are thinking is 'he/she looked so beautiful' or 'every time he/she looked at him/her they began to burn with desire'. All they are feeling is intense lust and neither of them is looking to each other for a long lasting relationship or anything. Remember Auron wants to be a strong guardian for Yuna and so does Lulu but also for Lulu, she's falling in love with Tidus. But she's just finding it hard to resist Auron's magnetism.
Sorry if I went on a little too long just then but I'm just trying to help you understand why Lulu and Auron crave each other so much. (if you didn't understand)
Thank you for reading^_^
Selina
