My Shining Star

Disclaimers: Don't own em, I'm just a spoony bard.

Warnings: this is yaoi, and has foul language and al that happy shit. I know, big fat fucking deal.

Dedications: This is for you Rain.

Chapter 9

"That was Squall? How? When? I'm confused. Selph, I'm nervous... I don't know what to say to him the next time I see him. I mean what if he-"

"Geeze, You'd think you were a second year cadet with a crush. Why don't you just be you? I think that would be the best thing for both of you right now. But if you'll excuse me, I have a date tonight!!"

And with that, the bouncy brunette left with a flash of her white panties. Why couldn't she just wear a longer skirt? I don't want to see her ass. But I've heard a few people say otherwise about us. I hate people. They're stupid. Can't they see it's Squall I want?

My attention turned away from my thoughts about twenty minutes later. I seriously gotta stop doing that. It is way too time consuming.and damn confusing when I snap out of it.

I had made my way into my room without even realizing it. They gave me the same dorm room I had when I was a cadet here the first time. All my stuff was still here. I guess they knew I was gonna come back. A bit dusty, but still all here. And sitting on my bed, was a black leather case. a bit worse for wear from the elements, but the underlying blade was the true beauty here. I opened the case and there she was. I hadn't taken a good look at her when we were in Centra, and since our trip back was really uneventful, I haven't held her yet. My Hyperion. I was going to pick back up the weapon that almost killed him. The weapon I used to almost kill him.

I closed my eyes and took in a deep breath. The memories there of the D District prison. Hyne. How fucked up am I? It's no wonder they wanted me dead then. If I think about it. I want me dead too. These people were my friends. well... sorta. but I was so fucking devoted to making Squall notice me that I went off on the deep end. And the only one I ever talked about this with is Selphie. And there are still things I haven't told her. Things I did behind closed doors. People I've hurt...You can't even begin to imagine the things I've done. And all with this blade. And I'm about to pick it back up again.

A/N: I know it's a little short and I haven't updated for a while. But I do have a good reason!! I promise!! I was in a car accident an shattered my heel in April and it's still not healing right so I have to go back in tomorrow and have more surgery. I'm not happy. But I will try to write another chapter tonight. I have ideas and now that I have a little time, I promise to take full advantage. Anyhoo. please leave me a review. I love you all! (?)