Revised
-Authors Notes-
Ok. I maybe cheating Shinji should choose this chapter. I know who my favorite pairing is, but if I told you, you'd just guess who'd end up together in the end. If he ever decides to choose. I might throw Kaji into this one, because I missed him in the last one.
Disclaimer: Do I have to write these? Argh. Whatever. One word: Gainex. Two words: Not mine.
-Authos POV-
I contemplating what happened last chapter, and I am going to bend the most obvious, yet unique actions and events from it. You have been warned.
-Gendo's Office-
"Time to deal with this indecision. He must choose."
"No, I am pulling rank in this fic. I am the commander in this (negaverse) NERV. I say if he doesn't want to, he doesn't have to."
"I don't care for such insolence."
"I will now take my leave. I have complete authority. Don't try me again."
"Ah."
-Exit Gendo's Office-
Complicated Feelings
Chapter 7- Tears of Blue
Shinji woke up first, the way he always did. His mind was still racked with thoughts of Misato. She was even in his dreams. He had dreamed that he and Misato lived together in nice house all by themselves. She kissed him everyday, and they were open with their feelings. Misato smiled at him when they sat down to eat the meal he prepared. Even in his dreams, he did not expect Misato to cook, or be a house keeper. She said she would thank him later on that night. He figured she "thanked" him every night, but before he could get to one of those scenes, his biological clock woke him.
She was the main women in his mind after that mind blowing kiss. Eventually he began to think of the other girls in his life. Asuka, maybe she didn't want him, she might just didn't want him with wonder girl. She had been treating him the same for the most part, even though they were "together" now. He scuffed at that. Then he thought about the angelic Rei. She was so beautiful, and could be sweet, her smile was all the more special because of it's rarity and genuineness. He knew he would have to choose. This affair could not keep up for too long. He then began to make breakfast. He wished he didn't have to decide. But he knew he had to sometime before things gotten out of hand. He heard Misato stirring. She was going into the shower. Shinji sat down and began his breakfast. Misato would be there shortly after her shower.
Misato took a longer shower than usual. She knew she told him to sleep on it, but the time for sleeping was over. She had to confront him. Her thoughts began to mirror the thoughts that Shinji had so many times before. 'I mustn't run away, I musn't run away.' Misato dragged herself out of the shower and she had an interesting thought on the way to her room. Hmm, maybe it would be interesting to accidentally drop my towel in front of Shinji.
She decided it would be too much for the boy. He did eventually return the kiss last night, showing that he can overcome his fear in situations. But if she did it, she would probably never be able to forget it. She walked into her room, and changed into her usual morning attire. She slowly reopened her door. She walked reluctantly to the kitchen. She needed beer and breakfast. Shinji was sitting there eating already. He was almost done. It seemed that he was taking his time as she watched him chew, and swallow, as if trying to make the time longer before they had to talk, or so he would have an excuse to still be here. She opened up the fridge and pulled out a beer, she then proceeded to sit at the table.
"Good morning, Shinji." She gave him a warm smile.
"Good morning, Misato." He did the same.
An uncomfortable Silence ensued.
"You didn't give me a morning kiss Shinji?"
"Well, I didn't know, I mean, but..."
"Oh Shinji, I was just teasing, you are too easy sometimes."
"Oh. Well, I wouldn't have minded."
"Neither would I." She said, and took a sip of her beer. Then she thought again. She took a huge gulp of her beer.
Shinji stood up, his food unfinished, and walked over to Misato. He stood there uncertain of if he should to what he stood up to do. Misato's can fell from her lips some, her face had a questioning and surprised look. 'He's not going to, is he?'
'I have to see how this is. I liked the kiss last night. 'I musn't run away. I mustn't run away!'
Shinji bent down and moved his hand to Misato's chin, and pulled her face to his. Misato dropped her beer, on the table, and moved her arm to his cheek, and her other to his other shoulder. 'He initiated it this time. He isn't a little kid as much as everyone thinks. He has guts.' Misato thought. She was enjoying this kiss. Shinji was a fast learner. He knew how to touch her lips the right way, and how to use his tongue. Misato couldn't even move her tongue that way. Maybe it was because Shinji's kiss felt so full of need. Shinji finally broke the kiss, his back was beginning to hurt from bending over. Misato took in a deep breath. She had been holding it for the most part, she had forgot to breathe. Shinji gave her a warm smile, and let out a sigh. He then went to pick up his plates to deposit them in the sink. Misato ran to get something to clean the beer she spilled, after she snapped out of staring at Shinji. After that was done, Misato was debating whether he should stay for a while, he was always at school so early. 'Maybe it was to see Ayanami.' She dismissed that thought out of her head, mainly because she didn't want to think about it.
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Shinji went to Rei's apart, to check to see if she was there, and getting ready for school. It took him a little while to get there because she lives a good distance away from him. When he made it there, he heard a....crying? Who was crying? It could not be Rei. Rei didn't cry. Shinji wanted to check it out, but he wasn't sure if he should eavesdrop of spy. This was Ayanami's place though, and no one else should be in her apartment. She should put a lock on her door.
Shinji cracked the door. He could not see anything but her one window because of the walls of the hallway entrance. He stepped quietly inside, and left his shoes by the door as he sneaked in slowly. Peered around the corner. He saw Rei, in a fetal position. Right now she was making a muffled weeping sound. Shinji wanted to help her soo much, but she was not on the best terms with him right now. He noticed shattered glass on the floor. He squinted his eyes to get a better view. It was a picture of the pilots, or was. Asuka wasn't in the photo, even though she was originally. She must have been cut out when the picture was resized to fit the frame. Shinji took a deep breath to gather courage.
"Ayanami."
Rei jumped, and Shinji was slightly intrigued by her reaction, because he had never seen her react that way before. Rei stood up, and faced the wall away from Shinji, never letting him see her face. She then reached down for the sheets, and lifted them to wipe her face.
"Ikari-kun. You came in unannounced."
The slight shakiness in her voice hinted at her left over shock and her current emotional state.
"Rei, I wanted to come... to apologize."
"Why did you let me do that if you were with Asuka?"
Shinji's feet suddenly became interesting. He felt uncomfortable.
"I...um.... didn't know we were together."
"Ikari, is a relationship not an agreement between two people, saying that they would like to know each other more?"
"It is...I suppose..."
"Did you ever ask Asuka out, or did she ever ask you?"
"No..."
"Then was it an agreement?"
"Um...I suppose...no?"
"Correct. So therefore you and Soryu are *not* together."
"But...Asuka..."
"Ikari. You must learn to speak for yourself."
"Yes....I probably..."
Rei turned suddenly. Shinji had flinched, but his feet did not move. She was soon nose to nose to him, before he had even realized she was moving. She looked him in his eyes, into is soul. He noticed her eyes were red and irritated. Rei's face was reddish, and puffy, especially her nose, as if she had been wiping it. Her hair was in more disarray than usual, like its maintenance was no longer important, and hadn't been combed or washed for a while.
Rei looked into Shinji's eyes. She looked deep into him, to see how he felt. She wanted to see if there were any untruth behind his words. All she found was honesty and confusion. She was lost in his eyes, how she wanted gaze into those eyes, and make those lips quiver against her own. But maybe that was not meant to be.
"Ikari..."
Rei dropped her weight onto Shinji suddenly, wrapping her arms around him, and holding on to him like he was a lifesaver. Shinji wasn't ready for the unexpected weight, and they both tumbled to the floor. Rei buried her face into his shoulder, enjoying the feeling of being close to him. She rubbed her cheek and nose along his shoulder, she caressed his back and sides. It was a very intimate hug, and even more intimate considering she was on top of him, and his private parts.
Shinji was overwhelmed, he was also very confused. He attempted to hold her back, and in all honesty, he was starting to get turned on, he was unused to all the physical contact with a female. Her moving and caressing was affectionate, but also a turn on. He closed his eyes and swallowed hard. He lowered his head to meet the top of Rei's and enjoyed her presence for a while. He could not stop nature taking it's course.
Rei moved, something was poking her in her side. She didn't know what it was, but it was bugging the crap out of her. When she slid to a move comfortable position, over the protruding object, she heard a...moan from Shinji.
"Ikari-kun?"
Shinji turned stiff as rock.
She shifted again to look up at his face.
"What's wrong...?"
"Oh, nothing..."
"But...you just made a sound a moment ago. I did not harm you, did I?"
"No, Rei..."
"Then why did you moan?"
"Its just that," Shinji blushed and felt somewhat ashamed, like he was taking advantage of her, "I'm not use to so much contact."
"I am sorry Shinji, I just wanted to be close to you, even if it was the last time."
"Rei...um...Ahhhh"
Rei has shifted again, to lay her head back on his chest. She started to put two and two ogether. She experimented. She moved again, as figured that it was the object that was poking her. Shinji moaned again. She now knew what was causing it.
"Shinji...why do you moan like that when I rub this place?" She rubbed it, this time with her hand.
Shinji turned a bright red.
"It just... it feels good."
"Oh... is this what happens when you are sexually attracted to someone, I think, right?"
"Um, Rei, yeah. " *gulp*
"You find me...attractive Ikari?"
"Well, that is...."
She looked down at his pants, Shinji saw her look. Then she looked up at him.
"Do you?" She seemed to make a puppy dog face. Shinji thought she was the cutest thing in the world. He couldn't help but answer.
"Yes. I do."
"I see."
She resumed holding him for another five minutes. Ignoring the lump in his pants. She didn't avoid it either. Shinji almost thought she was purposely moving so much...
*****
Rei dismounted Shinji, and stood up. Shinji was somewhat stiff on the floor.
"Shinji, it is time for us to go to school."
"Oh, ok."
Shinji slowly stood, and followed Rei out of the door. She seemed to look almost happy, and a slightly amused. She had an up beat in her walk. Shinji followed behind quietly. When they got to the door out of the building, and opened it, there, Asuka was standing. She did not seem very happy.
-Author's Notes-
Sorry long time no update, forgot mostly, and I am now kinda of busy, but I will start to take the time to update this more often. I will probably start a new Eva fic too, I'm a romance kind of person. I think I will probably write more Eva romances, they are my fav. Anywho, Senior year at an honors school, who gives BS assignments is a byotch. Oh, and hmm, I suppose after I resolve the Asuka/Rei thing, I will start the next part of this story. I DO have a base plan ladies and gentleman. Thank you for enjoying my story.
-End Authors notes-
---Rated R to NC-17 Omake warning. Do not read if you are offended by a perverted guys comments on sexual things.
*OMAKE*
Rei has shifted again, to lay her head back on his chest. She started to put two and two things together. She experimented. She moved again, figure that it was the object that was poking her...Shinji moaned again. She now knew what was causing it.
"Shinji...why do you moan like that when I rub this place?" She rubbed it, this time with her hand.
Shinji turned a bright red.
"It just... it feels good."
"Oh... is this what happens when you are sexually attracted to someone, i think, right?"
"Um, Rei, yeah. " gulp
"You find me...attractive Ikari?"
"Well, that is...."
She looked down at his pants, Shinji saw her look. Then she looked up at him.
"Do you?" She seemed to make a puppy dog face. Shinji thought she was the cutest thing in the world. He couldn't help but answer.
"Yes. I do."
"Well, would you mind if I show you that I am attracted to you to?"
"Um....?"
Rei dropped her pants.
Shinji would have passed out, if he wasn't so intrigued and curious about the female body and couldn't stop staring.
"Um gulp Rei, I think you need, to...gulp.. clean yourself."
Rei frowned...
"What?"
*END OMAKE*snicker
