-Authors Briefing-
Well I have senior obligations and all are starting to build...and I'm reading more
Jimbader fics, so these will be slowed. Over spring break I'll probably take the
time to type up about 5-10 chapters on each for the hell of it and update every
week. Any who, The organizing of Japanese notes that I have got is done, and the
site will be set up during spring break.
Well with this fanfic I'm going to take up a notch with seriousness of
emotions, and the progression of the pre-outlined plot.
-End Briefing-
-Gendo's Office-
"What a change of mood. Not that it was unexpected."
"You may be my second, but even you are in the dark of my intentions."
"Ah, perhaps."
-Exit Office-
Complicated Feelings
Chapter 12-Fiery Inferno Smothered with Kindness.
Misato walked towards the exit of NERV, through the cold monotonous hallways. They were as bare as she felt. She had spent the night there. She needed the love, the family she never had, the person or people who would complete her. She may be a Major of a powerful organization above the law, but that still doesn't change the fact that she was a human with feelings. She put on her front to everyone, her lustful, flirtatious ways being a cover for a cry for help, help for her loneliness. She needed to be held sometimes. Held like someone cared about her, held like a woman. She walked out the doors and into the parking lot in NERV's underground base. She got in her car and drove her car onto the car escalator. Misato's eyes remained unfocused in despair.
When Misato's car exited on the surface, for once she did not speed away, but drove moderately, slowly to a destination to bring her some relief. Kaji. The person she loved, the person she despised, yet it was a sort of playful competition between them. She found he was a spy, catching him snoop through files. She hoped he stopped before something happened and he got caught. That fool.
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"Asuka.....I don't hate you."
Asuka brought her, for once, humbled eyes to meet his gaze. She gazed into those brown eyes. Those deep brown eyes. She then lowered her gaze back down to her lap.
"Shinji, you don't have to lie. I know... I have been.... less than enjoyable company to be around. I realize that now."
Shinji placed his hand on hers. She flinched involuntary at the contact. She was not used to being touched. She may have been his self proclaimed girlfriend before, but never had he acted on his own like this. She never let anyone touch her, and most people only tried to touch her in some perverted way, like the guys at school. Though, she knew that was not the case here, and that it was out of simple affection. Affection for her?
Asuka looked up into Shinji's eyes. He was gave her a wistful smile. She was about to overflow with emotions here again. Damn that Shinji, how does he do it?
She grasped his hand in both of hers, and buried her face on his chest. Shinji fell over to where he was laying on the couch and Asuka never let go and fell with him, slightly scooting herself up so her face remained on his chest.
Shinji was shocked at this display of emotion, and contact, and it took him a moment to start to comfort her. He ran his remaining hand through her long hair until it came to rest on her back. Asuka noticed it, and was dreading he was going to try to take advantage of her action, but his hand remained where it was, running his fingers through her hair. She smiled and cried more silent. The wails became moans, then became slight sputters, then silence.
Shinji enjoyed the embrace, and was hopeful maybe a new Asuka would emerge from this. One that he could show he cared to.
*Click*
*Creak*
Shinji couldn't turn his head to look, but he didn't want to disturb Asuka, so
he did not even attempt.
"Ikari."
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The Commander was sitting in his desk with a hidden panel now open, and displaying to him where ever he wanted to see. What he saw now was the emotion break down of the Second, and her now probably bonding with the Third. He thought it was good for the Third to like someone, perhaps fall in love, making the manipulation of him all the more easier, and increasing his will to live and fight. But he did not wish for a relationship between pilots. You should not have romantic relations with people you work with. And before anyone could think him a hypocrite, with Ritsuko and all, but pure sex doesn't count in his book.
The Commander frowned this was not a good development. It was then he witnessed the First enter the Katsuragi residence.
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Shinji's blood went cold. That was also accompanied by a cold sweat. He felt as if he had been caught doing something wrong, but his heart was telling him otherwise. It took him a moment to realize, he was afraid of breaking Rei's feelings, and the same went for Asuka. They apparently both wanted him in something deeper than friendship, but he did not want to choose, nor hurt either one's feelings.
Rei was feeling anger, more closely related to jealousy. She normally never got this emotional. Her face was starting to contort out of her calm mask. She held a slight look of irritation, but her inner turmoil was so much more. She took an assessment of the situation before her. The first was that they had romantic relations, the ones that she dreamed of having with the man before her. Though, it was then she realized that the Second's face was tear streaked. Shinji was giving something, that he needed more in return. Comfort.
Rei's slightly contorted mask began to switch into indifference, and slight amusement. That was the most she would allow to show. She did not allow her feelings of slight jealousy, or her resentment of the fact he was comforting none other that the Second pilot. She walked across the room in the elegant way in which only she could. She sat by Shinji's head and looked into his eyes, as he looked up into hers.
Shinji thought he could see a questioning in her gaze, and not out of pure curiosity. Shinji looked down at Asuka smiling slightly. She stirred for a moment, rubbing her face against Shinji's chest and moaning contently for moment. Rei inwardly groaned at the cuteness of it all. It disgusted her a bit, for reasons she could not but into words.
They had been through a whole fiasco with Shinji over and over again. A battle between who would have the boy that defined kindness. They each needed what Shinji had in abundance, the affectionate way he treats you without wanting anything in return. The Second already hated Rei, besides the fact she was a potential rival for Shinji. Rei to her was strong, stronger than she was, and she resented it. Rei may have always done what the commander does, but she knows she has no choice and she accepts it. She accepts her life, and her fate. That is a state that Asuka cannot seem to achieve.
"Rei, Asuka...was feeling very bad and all, especially about what had happened. I kinda provoked more in the way I reacted to her. She was strangely quiet and reflecting. I tried to talk to her, and this is what kinda ended up happening. She cried until she feel asleep."
Rei heard what he said in the back of her mind. She unconsciously reached out and ran her hand through Shinji's hair where he lay beside her. She smiled at him, and he looked up at her in wonder.
"Shinji," Rei said as her mind and heart came to a conclusion, "I know you were doing what you do best. That is to care."
Shinji her smile was so warm, he did not expect it. He had never seen such a look on her before.
"Shinji, and for all you may or may not care about me. I care about you. Or at least that is what the feeling I have when I think about you is closest to."
"Rei...."
Rei lifted his head and scooted over for Shinji's head to rest on her leg.
"I will always be there for you. Ikari Shinji."
Shinji just stared blankly, what has happened has been somewhat inconceivable.
It was like this Shinji and Rei joined Asuka, and for the first time in
their lives, they truly rested.
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-Authors Notes-
I'm typing this up during my Japanese class, I couldn't afford to go with the
rest of my class, and since my sub doesn't know Japanese this is a free period.
I think this turned out to be a nice piece of emotional, dramatic art, the way
in which I intended when I began this endeavor. Also I think I have had a little
too much of Jimbader's influence. He is my fav author of all time, Kimberly of
"So Happy Together" being my second. Carrotglace third, and WFROSE
fourth. Please check out these people's works, because they are ingenious.
Now to ruin the effect and lighten the move with yet ANOTHER
perverted omake. Enjoy.
-End Notes-
*OMAKE* (Sings like in Blue Seed: OMAKE!, OMAKE!, OMAKE! Oh,Oh!)
Shinji enjoyed the embrace, and was hopeful maybe a new Asuka would emerge from this. One that he could show he cared to.
*Click*
*Creak*
Shinji couldn't turn his head to look, but he didn't want to disturb Asuka, so
he did not even attempt.
"Ikari."
Suddenly the Ikari in question felt a lump in his throat. That was until he was
scared half to death when the sleeping one arose.
"I was wondering what took you so long, Rei," said Asuka, her tears gone as if they never happened.
"As I was saying, Ikari, we have you where we want you."
"We have you where we want you?," Shinji echoed.
"Yes. Asuka, do the honors."
*click*
"W-w-wha!?," Shinji cried.
"Yes, that is quite nice if I say so myself. Rei, could you get me a chair?"
Rei brought a chair from the kitchen and set it in front of the couch. Asuka lifted Shinji and made sure Shinji was sat with his hands handcuffed behind the chair. They then preceded to tie Shinji's legs down, up to his knees.
"Good, there should be only one be one way he could move the way we tied him. Heh, heh."
Rei then put a tape in the VCR when Shinji wasn't looking. He turned to see what it was. He then wish he could reach up to hold his nose.
"Time for instruction of the sexually inadequate, any other man would have known what to do with two women who care about you. Or should I say three?," said Asuka while leering.
Misato then walked in from the kitchen. "I was wondering when the fun would get started."
*END OMAKE* (snicker,snicker)
