Tendencies of the Traitorous Heart~ Ch.2 To Feel Life

Hello! This is my first fanfic, so be fair in your reviews! I welcome flames but only constructive flames! I don't own any of the characters or places known in Harry Potter. I only own my characters Gisela Gringles and Nicole Riddle. Hope you enjoy the chapter!

* The first six chapters or so will be the background or the history of how Nicole gets to Hogswarts and the life Harry Potter leads so read on and enjoy and make sure to REVIEW!!!!!

Summary of the story~ Nicole Riddle has lived a live of evil and cruelty but then she is finally allowed to escape the darkness but the only problem is that to stay out of the darkness she must follow her father's plans or die. And this plan contains Harry Potter who might be the key to open Nicole's guarded and hidden heart but will Harry want to? Read and find out if love can conquer all or if the darkness will always succeed in its plans of destruction!

~It is going to happen! I get to leave my make-shift prison and finally get to explore the wonders of life! God, could it be any better! Well, I could be going to have fun but no.. Stop it! You will have fun, don't think about the bad, and just be ready to enjoy the good!~ Nicole reflected while packing the small suitcase that Voldermont had supplied for her. Not that even half the bag was filled by the time she was finished, it was only filled with the small amount of clothing that she owned and her small brush and mirror. ~I will feel the sun! Only if it is for the next four months at least I would have finally felt the sun!~ Nicole thought as she waited on her window seat for her father to come who would be in the next hour or so. Nicole was overjoyed to be leaving but a small part of her was afraid or cautious of the adventure she was about to embark on.

What would she see? Would she enjoy everything she saw or was she so tainted by evil that she would never be able to fully feel the effects of beauty and life? In all of her existence she had never really discovered what Voldermont had done that would make the great even tremble at the mere mention of his name. Yes, she knew he was very powerful in wizardry and magic but so supposedly was she if she ever got to learn how to use her power. Did having power constitute you to be automatically evil? Or was it how you use the power? These thoughts and speculations were floating through her head as she waited for the door to open to the new world of exploration. Even though, many would call Nicole wise beyond her age, in human nature and the evil of life, she was still very naïve when it came to anything past her destitute harmful sanctuary had shown her and that constituted most of the world's wonders and many puzzles.

This morning when Nicole had awoken from catching another hour of sleep, Liguawana had been waiting to wash her hair, allow her to shave and brush her teeth. After the morning necessitates had been completed, Liguawana had went on to explain some things that Nicole might see and how she might feel. Although Liguawana never would go against her master, she still loved her mistress with everything her little heart could give and that was why she was trying to alleviate some of the fears that Nicole must be feeling. The explanations had helped a little but Nicole was still cautious but very excited to leave!

"Ah, I see you are ready! Good! Follow me!" her father announced in his usual cruel and taunting tones from the doorway.

"Yes Voldermont" Nicole replied, loving the way she could see her father's eyes feel with rage when not being addressed as master when he stipulated to someone to perform a task.

Walking down the stairs of the musty, dark and dank townhouse Nicole could only speculate on the plans that her father had in store for her. ~Luckily I won't have to follow any more orders after the four months~ she mused. Nicole had taken it as a given that she would never be beautiful so why hope for any more time than she would be granted. Nicole was never one to wish for the unattainable especially when it came to herself so she decided that she would just enjoy the four months and live life to fullest. Little did she know that in four months time her life was going to change for forever!

Stepping out of the house for the second time in all of her life, Nicole could not resist trying to see if she could see the mortal existence of life in the dark abyss of the St. Ives Forest. ~Nope, don't even know why I tried!~ Nicole scolded herself.

"Now hold on to my robe, and don't let go else you will be lost forever and all my planning would be for naught!" Voldermont snidely ordered while waiting for Nicole to have a firm grasp on his robe.

~I wonder if she will be able to be beautiful, her mother was someone that most men wanted but can this small, gangly ghost of a girl actually become beautiful. I don't know but in four months, I will either get to continue my plans or receive the enjoyment of killing her. Both are satisfying choices so both ways I win~ Voldermont chuckled in his mind. Using the power of his wand, Voldermont was able to apparate or bring them into the stunning summer home of Lucius Malfoy, one of Voldermont's right hand men.

"Here we are, your house elf is here and she will make sure you stay alive otherwise no one will be here for the next four months. You are allowed to do anything you please that will help you become beautiful but you will not leave the grounds else I will know and then there will be dire consequences!" Voldermont hideously whispered.

"Do the grounds contain some amount of the surrounding area outside?" Nicole asked pondering if again she would be denied the chance to feel the sun on her skin.

"Yes, as a matter of fact, it does. Do not pass any of the wrought iron fences and you will be still contained in the grounds" Voldermont replied while magically setting charms around the grounds that would notify him if his daughter decided to try and leave.

"Fine, I understand. You can leave now" Nicole non-chalantly spoke while taking in the magnificent scenery of the home.

"Do not think to order me around!" Voldermont angrily hissed.

"I was not ordering, I was just giving you leave to go since we both hate being in each other's company" Nicole calmly pointed out while looking Voldermont straight in the eyes.

"Like I stated before, if you had been a male you would have been the perfect heir!" Voldermont again established as he disappeared into thin air.

"Humph, good riddance. Now I actually get to feel what it is to live!" Nicole excitedly pondered as she swiftly descended the stone steps and out into the sun.

"AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH" Nicole screamed as she quickly placed herself back into the safety of the shade.

"Mistress? Are you alright?" Liguawana concernedly question.

"Why did it hurt my eyes?" Nicole wailed while furiously rubbing her eyes.

"What hurt your eyes, mistress?" Liguawana asked puzzled.

"The sun" Nicole angrily spat, "It's not supposed to hurt! It is supposed to be the greatest thing to feel but no it had to hurt!"

"Well mistress, you are never supposed to look straight at the sun!" Liguawana instructed thoroughly amused by her mistress' foolishness but then Liguawana couldn't fault her young mistress; she had never been in the sun.

"You are not" Nicole copied sheepishly.

"No mistress, never look into the sun, it hurts one's eyes," Liguawana continued.

"Thank you Liguawana. I will remember that. Could you possibly make me a pancake breakfast?" Nicole asked.

"No mistress, master says you are only ever allowed to have gruel and water." Liguawana sadly retorted.

"Oh no, you see Liguawana, my wonderful father said I could do anything needed to make myself beautiful and what I need is a pancake breakfast!" Nicole mischievously rejoined.

"Yes mistress, it will be ready in about fifteen minutes." Liguawana pensively chirped while leaving to the kitchen to begin breakfast.

~Alright, so don't look into the sun~ Nicole repeated to herself as she again stepped into the sun. ~Amazing Liguawana was right! It doesn't hurt, it feels so warm and comforting~ Nicole thought as she hugged herself and allowed her body to go in circles. Touching her face, she could not help but notice the moisture on her face. ~I am crying~ Nicole speculated astounded, ~I can still feel to some point!~ Not noticing how fast time was going by, Nicole glorified in the feel of being free to live in the wonderful place called life.

"Mistress, breakfast!" Liguawana called from the front door.

"Coming" Nicole shouted as she rushed to the house to taste and feel another wonder of the world.

~Hogsmeade~

"Harry, what took you so long?" Hermione asked while holding Ron's hand that was right now engrossed at the window display at Honeydukes Sweets Shoppe on High Street.

"Bugger, do you see that chocolate frog! It looks so good!" Ron excitedly observed.

"Yes Ron, we all know of how the chocolate frogs look!" Hermione agitatedly stated.

Seeing as how his friends were so perfectly suited but yet so different, Harry could not help but chuckle of how the ways of the heart worked.

"What's so funny, Harry?" Ron inquired intrigued.

"Oh just life, Ron, just life!" Harry laughed out.

"What does li." Ron tried to question but was interrupted when Hermione scolded Harry,

"Thanks Harry now he is going to try to ponder what is so funny about life!"

"Sorry Hermione" Harry whispered as he stopped laughing but not able to stop the contended smile that slowly crept onto his face.

"So Harry were you able to get away from Gisela without having to bodily throw her?" Ron's innocent inquiry began while chuckling behind his hand.

"Aha, funny Ron. Actually I basically ran away as fast as I could!" Harry rejoined.

"Now that is funny! Harry Potter running away from a girl and not just any girl by a 5'4 Ravenclaw 5th year. Oh this is too much!" Hermione cried while doubling in half from her laughter.

"You are right Mione that is so funny!" Ron also cried as he doubled over in laughter.

"I would like to see you deal with Gisela Gringles!" Harry said truly affronted.

"Oh Harry, we both understand. We are not saying we wouldn't run but it is just that the infamous "boy who lived" has to run from Gisela is so funny!" Ron playfully barked still chuckling.

"Yah I guess you are right. It was funny! I swear I was running bloody 60 miles per hour just to get away!" Harry replied causing all three to double over in laughter again. After about five minutes of uncontrollable laughter all three were able to take full breaths again.

"So I have to get a new robe at Zonko's for the Ball in June, for the seventh year graduation since all of the prefects get to go with their dates, and some new school robes! Do you guys want to join me else I will just meet you at Three Broomsticks for some butter beer in about 45 minutes?" Hermione loftily breathed as she started towards the shop where there was a stunning display of evening gown robes which were finely detailed for each individual owner.

"Umm, I believe we'll just head over to Three Broomsticks and visit with Fred and George. We have to create a new game plan for the quidditch match on Wednesday with Hufflepuff and then we have the final cup game in two months time with Slytherin!" Harry seriously spoke while trying to form a new quidditch strategy in his head. Since Harry was now the new team captain for Gryffindor, it had added many new responsibilities and also made him even more untouchable and desirable to the female population.

"Yah, I think that Angelina, Ginny and Seamus are also already there! So the whole team should be there to listen to the almighty Harry Potter tell us how to beat some blimey Hufflepuff rear!" Ron proudly declared while tugging Harry towards the end of the street.

"Well don't hurt those small brains of yours trying to find out that perfect strategy. Because I truly believe that you should be able to beat those weak Hufflepuffs without help but maybe I am wrong!" Hermione called, just relishing in the red faces of both of her friends who abruptly turned around and were stomping back towards her.

"Yeep!" Hermione squeaked while quickly scurrying into Zonko's for protection. Once the boys saw Hermione enter the robe shop, each individually promised themselves that she would get retribution for that little statement and both sauntered off towards Three Broomsticks with the identical smirk of confidence. Following 45 minutes of pure strategy techniques, game plans, individual player habits and just plain quidditch, Ron and Harry were both very relived to see a very happy and satisfied Hermione basically skip to the table.

"Hello, everyone! I hope you were able to plan a new strategy! Ginny, did you see that new fluorescent baby blue robe in Zonko's. It is to die for!" Hermione basically squealed directing her question to the beautiful young red hair woman with her slight muscular hourglass body and warm and inviting cinnamon brown eyes.

"I know. Did you see that white robe with the silver lining and the back's design. Holy cricket, it was magnificent!" Ginny replied while pushing her two twin brothers out of the way so she could better converse with her best friend Mione.

"Well I guess were unwanted!" both Fred and George stated while saying their good byes to the table and leaving to join their friends while dragging Seamus with them.

"Wait did you see the forest green one on the rack in the back with the gold! Now that is what I call a masterpiece." Angelina, a 5'6, black haired, attractive young woman, happily joined into the conversation.

"Harry, I think that there is just nothing these women need us for. So let's go and talk with Neville and Seamus!" Ron whispered into Harry's ear. Receiving a slight nod, Ron went onto whisper into Hermione's ear where he would be and getting a quick kiss from Mione left with Harry to talk some men talk.

"God, how can women remember all those details about robes! I mean it is bloody amazing and people wonder why girls get better test scores." Ron observed. At Ron's amazed drawl, Harry couldn't help but chuckle. Watching the clock strike 5 in the afternoon, all of the students of Hogswart slowly started heading back to the school including Ron, Harry, Hermione, Angelina and Ginny which the last three were still enthusiastically speaking of robes.

"Well, well! What do we have here? Two Weasleys, a mudblood, a Gryffindor bitch and the infamous Potter all together. Now doesn't it just make you feel charitable and perhaps help put them out of their misery!" Malfoy's cuttingly amused tones drilled through the light snowfall of the afternoon.

"Malfoy, Crabbe, and Goyle what do we owe the unpleasant surprise of your revolting company?" Hermione hissed.

"Mudblood, I don't believe I gave you leave to talk!" Malfoy rejoined with malice. Hearing the clear insult to his girlfriend, Ron swiftly started walking over to Malfoy ready to bash in his bloody mouth. Fortunately for Malfoy, Harry was able to grab him before he was out of reach.

"Malfoy why don't you just sod off!" Ginny angrily cried.

"Oh now we allow our little sisters to battle for us, Weasly. I knew you Weasleys were poor but I didn't know that you were also cowards!" Draco vehemently snapped, furious at the fact that a Weasley could actually think they could hurt a Malfoy. While pondering his observations, Malfoy was completely thrown to the ground when a strong upper right jab hit him square in the jaw.

"Bloody hell, who ever just did that better hide!" Malfoy angrily bellowed. Looking up from his spot on the cold, hard ground, he was amazed to not see Ron Weasley but Ginny Weasley furiously rubbing her right hand.

"You got what you deserved Malfoy! Never, ever, insult my family!" Ginny furiously barked and for once in Draco Malfoy's life, he was speechless. ~This slip of a girl had enough courage to hit me and she was good at it too! Also she is so beautiful when she is angry! She is the most beautiful woman I have ever laid my eyes on! No, she is a Weasley!~ Draco tried to reason with himself.

"Stop staring at me and if you ever insult my friends and me again, I will allow my brother to punch you to a bloody pulp!" Ginny indignantly declared while slipping past a still speechless Malfoy. Following Ginny's lead in amazement the rest of the group followed but not without getting a few covertly placed kicks into Malfoy's side. After the Potter group had past, Malfoy quickly regained his thoughts and his anger,

"Don't just stand there, help me the hell off the snow, idiots!" Malfoy infuriated yelled at his two dimwit side kicks Crabbe and Goyle who promptly heaved Malfoy off the snow.

"Are you alright?" Crabbe asked still stunned by the punch that Weasley must pack to throw Malfoy to the ground.

"I'm fine. Let's go!" Malfoy calmly replied while placing his cold public mask into place to hide his warring thoughts of desire and anger at that Weasley girl. Already half the way to Hogwarts, Ron was still praising Ginny till she couldn't take it anymore.

"Listen Ron, I know what I did to Malfoy, to you is great. To me though I can not help but feel that I shouldn't have lost my temper and since I feel bad about what I did, you all must promise not to tell anyone who hit Malfoy. Agreed?" Ginny ordered totally behind her convictions about the Malfoy punch.

"But Ginny, I mean he deserved everything you gave him!" Ron pleaded hoping he would be able to tell everyone of how the great and scary Malfoy had been hit to the ground by his sister.

"Yes, Ron I understand that he deserved everything I gave him and probably more but that doesn't mean I should have sunk to his level and I won't continue to sink so I have decided to not further embarrass him by telling everyone. It is my decision and I would demand each of you to respect my wishes including you Ron!" Ginny explained, hoping that her friends would just accept her wishes.

"Yes I agree with Ginny. It is her choice even though I will never forget Malfoy's face!" Hermione agreed while laughing. Hearing Hermione agree, Harry and Angelina promptly joined the number followed by a reluctant Ron.

"Cheer up chap! You will always have the precious memory of how big Malfoy's eyes got once he realized that it was a girl that hit him and not any girl but a Weasley!" Harry commendably retold. Once Harry statement was said, the whole party couldn't help but pull the image up in their minds making them all outright laugh all the way to the front doors of Hogswarts.

~Mediterranean~

Once Nicole had finished the most scrumptious and delicious food she had ever had the delight consuming, she decided that she had to leave the inside of the house and finally see the world. Walking toward the edge of the property, Nicole delighted and relished in every sensation her body attained while walking in the grass, seeing the blue sky with puffy white clouds and feeling the sun's warmth on her entire being. This was, however, nothing compared to the scene that greeted her at the edge of the cliff, it was god's gift. The perfect image of what life meant was reflected in Nicole's eyes as she memorized every aspect of the crystalline sea that her view could capture. The many blues mixing together, the reflection of the sun glistening off the water, the white and foaming crests of the waves, the gliding seagulls high above the water, and the people way down on the beach enjoying themselves and to Nicole it was the true sight of what living and how to live meant.

~I wonder what the water feels like when you dive in, when you feel it immerse you into its essence. Is it scary or is it exhilarating?~ Nicole questioned as she continued walking the perimeter of the property. Reaching the back of the house, Nicole could not stifle the gasp that came from her mouth while she looked at what must be a pool that the Muggle magazine described. It looked so inviting, Nicole decided it was her time to learn how to swim, quickly recalling the step by step guide that Teen Life had on how to do the breast stroke.

"Liguawana, I am going for a swim!" Nicole bellowed into the house as she expediently discarded all of her clothing and tentatively stepped into the pool. She was amazed of how it felt to have your body covered by something that was not a solid by a liquid, it was astronomical. Feeling her way to the pool where the height of the water was 5'5, Nicole was still able to have her head 3 inches above the water with her feet touching the bottom and so standing there, she started dancing with glee at the new change of her life.

"Mistress, you don't have any clothes on!" Liguawana horrifically wailed.

"Oh, Liguawana, stop worrying! Voldermont said nobody would be coming here for the next four months so nobody would be able to see me!" Nicole excitedly replied while twirling her self in the water and diving under to touch the bottom.

"Alright Mistress, is there anything you want me to make you for dinner?" Liguawana questioned relieved to see her mistress smile again.

"No Liguawana, you make what ever you want to make and I will eat it!" Nicole smiling rejoined while diving and swimming slowly to the other side of the 36 feet pool.

"Yes mistress. I will come get you when dinner is ready for mistress!" Liguawana stated as she basically skipped back to the house. ~Oh god this is the life!!!~ Nicole dreamily thought as she pulled her wet, naked body out of the pool and placed herself on one of the reclining pool chairs, falling asleep. Feeling herself being tugged on, Nicole agitatedly swatted at the nuisance only to fall ungracefully on the concrete flooring of the pool deck.

"Are you all right mistress?" Liguawana asked concerned.

"Yah, I am fine. Oh no, I fell asleep. Now I am going to have painful sunburn or whatever those muggles call it!" Nicole wailed disheartened.

"Don't worry mistress, Liguawana put enchantment on you so that you can become tan but will not get sunburn!" Liguawana proudly declared.

"You are the best Liguawana" Nicole stated relieved while hugging her little elf life savior.

"Oh mistress, you are making Liguawana feel uncomfortable!" Liguawana chuckling said.

"Sorry, so is dinner ready?" Nicole questioned just as her stomach decided to loudly rumble.

"Yes mistress. Come" Liguawana laughed as she saw her mistress' embarrassed face.

Finally finishing the fantastic dinner and climbing into the most comfortable bed probably ever created or at least it was to Nicole, she was content to muse on how after four months this would be all over and she would be killed. ~At least you got to see what living means and for the next four months, you are going to live to the greatest capacity ever!~ Nicole hazily declared as she quickly fell into her first real deep slumber.

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