"So what exactly is the plan?" Lorne took another swig from his small glass.
"The plan is 'super me' goes in, fights this thing. If I die, you're gonna know, cause the people doing the spell will be brought back. Thats when Angel and you guys come in and fight this thing."
"And who told you this? I mean, you are sure this is on the up and up? Cause I don't feel like going into this and getting my ass handed to me."
"Don't worry, I looked it up."
"Uh, Xander. Maybe I should look over-"
"Giles, you heard the plan. Either you're with us, or we find someone to take your place." Buffy was actually confidant that this was going to work, which made Xander feel a lot better.
Everyone went off and did their respective jobs, leaving Xander and Buffy alone.
"Buff, can we... Can we go talk somewhere?"
"Sure." They headed over to the Magic box. They drove in silence and didn't speak even when they did get into the Magic Box. Buffy waited until Xander sat down next to her.
"So, what's up?"
Xander figeted nervously. "I..... Remember how I went down into the hell mouth to stop the world from ending?"
She laughed, "Yes Xander, of course I remember."
"I need to tell you who I fought down there. I..... I..... Oh god. Ihadtokillspike."
Buffy looked at him for a moment, not showing any expression.
"You did what?"
"I... Ok, he was evil again. I don't exactly know how, but he was all 'grr arg, I'm gonna end the world'. I had to. I know you and him have this whole Darkness becomes you thing going on-"
"Get out."
"Huh?" Xander saw the look in Buffy's eyes before, right before she was about to slay something.
"After.... After we stop the end of the world, I don't want to see you again."
"Buffy, I did what I had to. To save you, to save the world."
"You killed a good man."
"I highly doubt that since he was trying to KILL ME!!"
"I loved him. And you..... How can I ever look at you the same again? How can I ever love a man.... like you?"
Xander composed himself and walked to the door.
"I'll leave soon, after we.... I'm sorry, I... I love you."
"I can never love you."
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"Bye! And Fred, I wanna borrow that book on transcendentalism when you come by again!" Willow waved off Angel and his crew. She closed the door and went over to the couch where Giles was rubbing his temples.
"Is he any better?"
"He still has a high fever. He isn't very lucid. He comes in and out of it, talking about Darla, and someone named Bill."
"And the lack of blood isn't helping any. Less blood, less oxygen to the brain, less Xander fun time."
Giles smiled at that and looked over to the Wicca. "What happened to him in there Willow? There must have been a vampire because of the bite marks, but this fever."
"You think it could be mystical?"
Giles put his glasses back on, "You did say you felt no power over him, no signs of such."
"Yeah. I hate not being able to do anything. Its like we're back in the hospital again. Maybe... Since I didn't feel anything. Giles, I think Xander needs to go back there."
"I don't think they can help him."
"How could you?" Giles and Willow turned to see Buffy sitting on the stairs with tears in her eyes.
"You sit there and you say you feel so sorry. You aren't! You did this to him! I knew from the beginning we should have just forgot about the prophecy. I should've been down there with him. But you told me not to! You told me!! And now look what you've done to him!"
"Buffy, Giles had no way of knowing-"
"He did! Prophecies are tricky things; I've been in one I should know. He should have had a back up plan! He should've.... I was supposed to be there." Giles walked up to Buffy never breaking eye contact with her.
"We all did the best we could. Now is not a time for us to assign blame. We have to figure out how to make this right."
"Giles, what's happening to him? Ever since I found him... How can we make this right if we don't know what's happening to him?"
Giles thought for a second, then a realization came to him.
"Willow, is it possible that a being could be so strong they could mask their mystical energy?"
"Maybe, but why?"
"Because I think if something is doing this to Xander, it wouldn't want to be known. I think Xander is still in the midst of fulfilling the prophecy."
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A/N: So, what do you think? Interesting? Boring? I'll have fries with that? Please Review, and thanks to everyone who already has.
"The plan is 'super me' goes in, fights this thing. If I die, you're gonna know, cause the people doing the spell will be brought back. Thats when Angel and you guys come in and fight this thing."
"And who told you this? I mean, you are sure this is on the up and up? Cause I don't feel like going into this and getting my ass handed to me."
"Don't worry, I looked it up."
"Uh, Xander. Maybe I should look over-"
"Giles, you heard the plan. Either you're with us, or we find someone to take your place." Buffy was actually confidant that this was going to work, which made Xander feel a lot better.
Everyone went off and did their respective jobs, leaving Xander and Buffy alone.
"Buff, can we... Can we go talk somewhere?"
"Sure." They headed over to the Magic box. They drove in silence and didn't speak even when they did get into the Magic Box. Buffy waited until Xander sat down next to her.
"So, what's up?"
Xander figeted nervously. "I..... Remember how I went down into the hell mouth to stop the world from ending?"
She laughed, "Yes Xander, of course I remember."
"I need to tell you who I fought down there. I..... I..... Oh god. Ihadtokillspike."
Buffy looked at him for a moment, not showing any expression.
"You did what?"
"I... Ok, he was evil again. I don't exactly know how, but he was all 'grr arg, I'm gonna end the world'. I had to. I know you and him have this whole Darkness becomes you thing going on-"
"Get out."
"Huh?" Xander saw the look in Buffy's eyes before, right before she was about to slay something.
"After.... After we stop the end of the world, I don't want to see you again."
"Buffy, I did what I had to. To save you, to save the world."
"You killed a good man."
"I highly doubt that since he was trying to KILL ME!!"
"I loved him. And you..... How can I ever look at you the same again? How can I ever love a man.... like you?"
Xander composed himself and walked to the door.
"I'll leave soon, after we.... I'm sorry, I... I love you."
"I can never love you."
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"Bye! And Fred, I wanna borrow that book on transcendentalism when you come by again!" Willow waved off Angel and his crew. She closed the door and went over to the couch where Giles was rubbing his temples.
"Is he any better?"
"He still has a high fever. He isn't very lucid. He comes in and out of it, talking about Darla, and someone named Bill."
"And the lack of blood isn't helping any. Less blood, less oxygen to the brain, less Xander fun time."
Giles smiled at that and looked over to the Wicca. "What happened to him in there Willow? There must have been a vampire because of the bite marks, but this fever."
"You think it could be mystical?"
Giles put his glasses back on, "You did say you felt no power over him, no signs of such."
"Yeah. I hate not being able to do anything. Its like we're back in the hospital again. Maybe... Since I didn't feel anything. Giles, I think Xander needs to go back there."
"I don't think they can help him."
"How could you?" Giles and Willow turned to see Buffy sitting on the stairs with tears in her eyes.
"You sit there and you say you feel so sorry. You aren't! You did this to him! I knew from the beginning we should have just forgot about the prophecy. I should've been down there with him. But you told me not to! You told me!! And now look what you've done to him!"
"Buffy, Giles had no way of knowing-"
"He did! Prophecies are tricky things; I've been in one I should know. He should have had a back up plan! He should've.... I was supposed to be there." Giles walked up to Buffy never breaking eye contact with her.
"We all did the best we could. Now is not a time for us to assign blame. We have to figure out how to make this right."
"Giles, what's happening to him? Ever since I found him... How can we make this right if we don't know what's happening to him?"
Giles thought for a second, then a realization came to him.
"Willow, is it possible that a being could be so strong they could mask their mystical energy?"
"Maybe, but why?"
"Because I think if something is doing this to Xander, it wouldn't want to be known. I think Xander is still in the midst of fulfilling the prophecy."
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A/N: So, what do you think? Interesting? Boring? I'll have fries with that? Please Review, and thanks to everyone who already has.
