I went into the house, and it was real quiet. At first I thought nobody was
home, which is weird because Soda is always home at this time. Darry was
still at work, though. I then saw that someone had been home because they
had gotten the mail. I went to go check if there was anything for me when
something caught my eye. It was a letter addressed to Soda. It was already
open, so I imagined he had read it. It was a letter from his girlfriend
Sandy. My curiousity took the best of me so I read the letter. It said:
Dearest Sodapop, I decided to move to Florida with my grandmother. I'm already here. I didn't want to tell you sooner because I knew you would want to stop me. I really am sorry, but you and me both know that we are too young to get married. My parents thought I was crazy when I told them that I had wanted to marry you, and that was when I realized that I was too young to get married. I don't know if you realize that, but I do. I could no longer stay in Oklahoma because if I did I knew that I would want to. I thought it was best if we go our separate ways now. Maybe someday you will find a great girl, but I know it won't be me. Sodapop, I really am sorry, but I couldn't do this. I had to leave in order to forget about marriage. I'm sorry if I forget about you, but I think it's the best thing to do now. Please don't ever try to contact me. I will not respond to you. All I want to do now is forget about everything. I really am sorry Sodapop, but I think it's the best way to go. Love, Sandy
When I finished reading the letter I knew how Soda must have felt when he read it. I knew the minute that I came into this house that something was wrong. I had to find Soda. I had to talk to him, console him. I was feeling the pain he was going through. I knew how he must have felt. I had never experienced it in my life, but I could imagine. I had to look for him. I looked through the whole house to see if there was a note. I found one, but it only said that he was going to be real late home. He needed to do some thinking for a while. I then ran out of the house thinking about where he might be. I then said to myself, "The park." I quickly ran over there, and I found him sitting on a bench by the fountain. He was alone. I ran to him, and sat right next to him. I saw his face. He wasn't crying but it looked like he was about to. I didn't know what to say, and I knew he wasn't going to say anything until I did.
"I.um.read the letter. Soda I'm so sorry."
"It wasn't your fault. It was mine. I should've known it was too early for us to get married.."
"You can't blame everything on yourself. You were in love. You had a wonderful thing going on. You loved her. It was her problem that she didn't want to get married. She's the one that missed a wonderful opportunity. You are a great guy Soda. You are one-of-a-kind. Many people would love to have a guy like you by my side. You have so many great qualities. You are funny, understanding, fun to be with, loving, nice, and so many more things I can't even list because there are so many."
"I have a question. Would you ever fall in love with someone like me?"
I didn't know what to say. I f I said no I would hurt him, and if I said yes I would be lying. He had been hurt enough. There were so many things going on in my head I didn't know what to say. I thought for about five seconds, and still no answer.
"I still don't know if I would fall in love with a guy like you. I don't even know how to love, or what it feels like to love, but then again I might be experiencing love at this moment without wanting to. I still don't know.I have been confused of all my feelings since Saturday. I'm all confused right now. How did you first feel when you experienced love the first time?"
He looked like he was about to cry, but managed to talk. "I felt the same way you are feeling right now. My first love was Sandy, and I have a feeling you are falling in love with Dallas. I remember how wonderful it felt to love someone, but I bet it would've felt better to be loved back. I suggest you be careful Coke because knowing Dally he may never love you no matter how much you want him to. He will never love anyone for that matter."
"That's what I have been afraid of the whole time, but I can't help myself from loving him. My mind keeps saying no, but my heart keeps saying yes." "Well then you better do whatever, you think is best, but make sure to take things slowly, but not too slow that it'll be too late. Is it almost midnight?"
"It's 12:15."
"Happy Birthday!"
"Oh my God! I completely forgot. After all that's been going on I forgot all about my own birthday. How'd you remember?"
"Me and Darry didn't buy a present for no reason. Come on let's go home, and see what you find."
We walked all the way back home. The talk with Soda left me thinking a lot. When should I tell Dally, or should I ever tell Dally? I finally decided I would wait a few more weeks to tell him.
We finally got home, and went in.
Dearest Sodapop, I decided to move to Florida with my grandmother. I'm already here. I didn't want to tell you sooner because I knew you would want to stop me. I really am sorry, but you and me both know that we are too young to get married. My parents thought I was crazy when I told them that I had wanted to marry you, and that was when I realized that I was too young to get married. I don't know if you realize that, but I do. I could no longer stay in Oklahoma because if I did I knew that I would want to. I thought it was best if we go our separate ways now. Maybe someday you will find a great girl, but I know it won't be me. Sodapop, I really am sorry, but I couldn't do this. I had to leave in order to forget about marriage. I'm sorry if I forget about you, but I think it's the best thing to do now. Please don't ever try to contact me. I will not respond to you. All I want to do now is forget about everything. I really am sorry Sodapop, but I think it's the best way to go. Love, Sandy
When I finished reading the letter I knew how Soda must have felt when he read it. I knew the minute that I came into this house that something was wrong. I had to find Soda. I had to talk to him, console him. I was feeling the pain he was going through. I knew how he must have felt. I had never experienced it in my life, but I could imagine. I had to look for him. I looked through the whole house to see if there was a note. I found one, but it only said that he was going to be real late home. He needed to do some thinking for a while. I then ran out of the house thinking about where he might be. I then said to myself, "The park." I quickly ran over there, and I found him sitting on a bench by the fountain. He was alone. I ran to him, and sat right next to him. I saw his face. He wasn't crying but it looked like he was about to. I didn't know what to say, and I knew he wasn't going to say anything until I did.
"I.um.read the letter. Soda I'm so sorry."
"It wasn't your fault. It was mine. I should've known it was too early for us to get married.."
"You can't blame everything on yourself. You were in love. You had a wonderful thing going on. You loved her. It was her problem that she didn't want to get married. She's the one that missed a wonderful opportunity. You are a great guy Soda. You are one-of-a-kind. Many people would love to have a guy like you by my side. You have so many great qualities. You are funny, understanding, fun to be with, loving, nice, and so many more things I can't even list because there are so many."
"I have a question. Would you ever fall in love with someone like me?"
I didn't know what to say. I f I said no I would hurt him, and if I said yes I would be lying. He had been hurt enough. There were so many things going on in my head I didn't know what to say. I thought for about five seconds, and still no answer.
"I still don't know if I would fall in love with a guy like you. I don't even know how to love, or what it feels like to love, but then again I might be experiencing love at this moment without wanting to. I still don't know.I have been confused of all my feelings since Saturday. I'm all confused right now. How did you first feel when you experienced love the first time?"
He looked like he was about to cry, but managed to talk. "I felt the same way you are feeling right now. My first love was Sandy, and I have a feeling you are falling in love with Dallas. I remember how wonderful it felt to love someone, but I bet it would've felt better to be loved back. I suggest you be careful Coke because knowing Dally he may never love you no matter how much you want him to. He will never love anyone for that matter."
"That's what I have been afraid of the whole time, but I can't help myself from loving him. My mind keeps saying no, but my heart keeps saying yes." "Well then you better do whatever, you think is best, but make sure to take things slowly, but not too slow that it'll be too late. Is it almost midnight?"
"It's 12:15."
"Happy Birthday!"
"Oh my God! I completely forgot. After all that's been going on I forgot all about my own birthday. How'd you remember?"
"Me and Darry didn't buy a present for no reason. Come on let's go home, and see what you find."
We walked all the way back home. The talk with Soda left me thinking a lot. When should I tell Dally, or should I ever tell Dally? I finally decided I would wait a few more weeks to tell him.
We finally got home, and went in.
