"Buffy, Buffy calm down," Dawn told Buffy as she tried to catch her while
she was pacing back and forth in the room.
"I can't. Spike hasn't come back and he hasn't called. Maybe we should go
to his crypt," Buff immediately grabbed her coat.
"Okay," Anya said as she grabbed her coat also.
They arrived at Spike's crypt and went inside.
"Spike! Spike are you here?" Buffy was nearly crying. "He's not here. I'm
going out to find him." She ran out the door.
"Come on guys! We have to go get her before she runs into some demon or
something!" Xander was pointing at the door.
"No, let her find him, she's capable of doing that." Dawn said defending
Buffy.
-Outside the Crypt-looking for Spike-
"Spike! Spike where are you!!! Spi-" Buffy stopped as she saw Spike standing in the middle of the park looking into the sky. She walked over and stood next to him. Even though she was crying, it was a little less now. Spike slowly grabbed Buffy's hand. Buffy looked down at their hands. "Spike," Buffy whispered slowly. "Why hello luv," he looked into her eyes. He then let his emotions take the best of him. He kissed her, she kissed him back, but just like Buffy, she pushed him away. "No. Spike. No. Not now." "Why not luv? You know you want to." He squeezed out a grin, trying to lighten the mood. "Yes, I mean no. I mean, I can't. It's not that I don't want to. I just can't." Buffy looked away from Spike and ran out of the park all the way home. Spike just stood there confused. He then looked into the snowy sky once more. "Bloody snow. You're supposed to make everything beautiful, but you just ruin the most amazing and good moments. You make them bloody hell. Bloody hell." Spike dropped his head and walked out of the park and into his crypt.
Everybody was gone by then, so he had some time to think.
-Summers' house-
"Did you find him?" Dawn asked Buffy as she walked into the house wiping her tears. "Yah," Buffy squealed as she ran upstairs to her room. "Ahhhhh, I understand." Anya told herself as she nodded her head. "Understand what?" "Why Buffy is crying and why she won't tell us the details," Anya responded to Dawn's question. "Then tell us, smartie" "He kissed her." "What? How do you know that?" "It's obvious. I mean come on, she came in here, all-crying, wiped her mouth, and kept it closed. He obviously kissed her. Jeez, you guys are blind." Anya got up from her seat next to Xander and looked at everyone. She then sighed and went into the kitchen to get more coffee. "Whatever, I'll go talk to her." Dawn got up from her chair and ran upstairs. "Knock knock, Buffy can I come in?" "Whatever. Come in if you want," Buffy rolled over to her other side as Dawn walked in. "Hey sis, what's wrong? What happened with Spike?" "Nothing, nothing happened." ~He kissed me that's all.and I think I liked it. Buffy shut up. This is Spike we're talking about~ "Anya says that he kissed you. Some how she could tell. Uh, is it true?" "Okay, do you want me to tell you the truth?" Dawn nodded. "Alright, he kissed me! Okay? Do you feel better now?" Buffy snapped. She jumped off the bed and went over and looked out the window. Dawn was still sitting on the bed looking at Buffy's back. "Did you like it?" "I don't know," Buffy was still standing at the window. "What if I did?" Buffy said as she turned around slowly to look at Dawn. She had started to cry again. "Oh Buffy, don't cry, come on." Dawn grabbed her in her arms while Buffy sat down on the bed. Dawn put her head on Buffy's shoulder. Buffy responded by leaning her head on Dawn's. "I just don't want to lose him again, you know?" She turned to look at Dawn. "Yah I know, you're not the only one who doesn't want to lose him. After almost losing you, he took care of me. And he's like a brother/father figure." Buffy began to cry again. She couldn't picture her life without Spike. He meant so much to Dawn, and now she was realizing that he meant a little something to her too.
-Outside the Crypt-looking for Spike-
"Spike! Spike where are you!!! Spi-" Buffy stopped as she saw Spike standing in the middle of the park looking into the sky. She walked over and stood next to him. Even though she was crying, it was a little less now. Spike slowly grabbed Buffy's hand. Buffy looked down at their hands. "Spike," Buffy whispered slowly. "Why hello luv," he looked into her eyes. He then let his emotions take the best of him. He kissed her, she kissed him back, but just like Buffy, she pushed him away. "No. Spike. No. Not now." "Why not luv? You know you want to." He squeezed out a grin, trying to lighten the mood. "Yes, I mean no. I mean, I can't. It's not that I don't want to. I just can't." Buffy looked away from Spike and ran out of the park all the way home. Spike just stood there confused. He then looked into the snowy sky once more. "Bloody snow. You're supposed to make everything beautiful, but you just ruin the most amazing and good moments. You make them bloody hell. Bloody hell." Spike dropped his head and walked out of the park and into his crypt.
Everybody was gone by then, so he had some time to think.
-Summers' house-
"Did you find him?" Dawn asked Buffy as she walked into the house wiping her tears. "Yah," Buffy squealed as she ran upstairs to her room. "Ahhhhh, I understand." Anya told herself as she nodded her head. "Understand what?" "Why Buffy is crying and why she won't tell us the details," Anya responded to Dawn's question. "Then tell us, smartie" "He kissed her." "What? How do you know that?" "It's obvious. I mean come on, she came in here, all-crying, wiped her mouth, and kept it closed. He obviously kissed her. Jeez, you guys are blind." Anya got up from her seat next to Xander and looked at everyone. She then sighed and went into the kitchen to get more coffee. "Whatever, I'll go talk to her." Dawn got up from her chair and ran upstairs. "Knock knock, Buffy can I come in?" "Whatever. Come in if you want," Buffy rolled over to her other side as Dawn walked in. "Hey sis, what's wrong? What happened with Spike?" "Nothing, nothing happened." ~He kissed me that's all.and I think I liked it. Buffy shut up. This is Spike we're talking about~ "Anya says that he kissed you. Some how she could tell. Uh, is it true?" "Okay, do you want me to tell you the truth?" Dawn nodded. "Alright, he kissed me! Okay? Do you feel better now?" Buffy snapped. She jumped off the bed and went over and looked out the window. Dawn was still sitting on the bed looking at Buffy's back. "Did you like it?" "I don't know," Buffy was still standing at the window. "What if I did?" Buffy said as she turned around slowly to look at Dawn. She had started to cry again. "Oh Buffy, don't cry, come on." Dawn grabbed her in her arms while Buffy sat down on the bed. Dawn put her head on Buffy's shoulder. Buffy responded by leaning her head on Dawn's. "I just don't want to lose him again, you know?" She turned to look at Dawn. "Yah I know, you're not the only one who doesn't want to lose him. After almost losing you, he took care of me. And he's like a brother/father figure." Buffy began to cry again. She couldn't picture her life without Spike. He meant so much to Dawn, and now she was realizing that he meant a little something to her too.
