Hi, I was overwhelmed by the response to my first chapter of immortality. I am so glad that everyone liked it so I thought I'd be nice and write you another chapter. Sorry it took me so long but its here at last. Enjoy, read and please don't forget to review.
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The dagger felt cold. Deathly cold. The edge was sharp and it took no effort to pierce the soft skin. A small cut was caused, which was then made deeper. Blood came spilling from it, running down his arm. He watched as the warm read liquid spilled onto his hand. As it ran down his arm he felt a cool, calming sensation wash over him. He sat, fascinated by the oddly coloured liquid.
Legolas was in control. This was something he could control and no one else had a say in it. That was because no one else knew. And they wouldn't know. He couldn't tell anybody. They would think he was deranged. But he wasn't. He was in control now. He had felt no pain and no hurt or fear, just the calming sensation it gave him and the blood dripped from the knife.
Legolas stood up and found a cloth beside his bed. He wet it and wiped the blood from his arm. With the same cloth he also cleaned his knife. After he had finished he pulled his sleeve down again and lay on the bed.
It was minutes before Legolas was asleep. He drifted off dreaming of swirling red patterns and shining sliver blades. He felt calm and safe but most of all he was in control again.
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Legolas woke a few hours later feeling refreshed and awake. He found Aragorn sitting but is bed and then he remember what had happened before he fell asleep. He turned in his bed to face the window, away from Aragorn.
"You haven't touched your food!" Aragorn stated the obvious. He was worried about Legolas. He waited for a reply but when none came he continued. "You have to keep your strength up Legolas. I know you're upset but there is nothing you can do." Aragorn lent forward and touched Legolas arm. Legolas winced and withdrew is quickly.
"Are you ok?" Aragorn asked, wondering what Legolas could have done to hurt himself.
"Yes I'm fine." Legolas snapped. "Leave me alone!"
Aragorn knew that Legolas wanted to be alone and if he didn't want you there is was best to not to be there. He got up quietly and left.
Legolas lay thinking about what he had done. He didn't remember doing it and he didn't remember the pain, but he did remember the feeling it gave him when he saw that clean red liquid. He also felt guilty. He wasn't sure why but he felt as though he was betraying all of the people around him that cared for him.
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Throughout the next few weeks Legolas ventured out of his room less and less. Aragorn became very worried about him but guessed that he just needed time alone to think. Legolas became very withdrawn and quiet. He didn't want to see anyone or talk to anyone.
The cut on his arm eventually healed but was only replaced by more cuts. Each one was deeper and more severe than the last. Legolas always made sure that his clothes hid the cuts, as he didn't want anyone to notice them. Part of him wanted this to be kept a secret, for no one to know and judge him by it but there was also part of him that was crying out for someone to notice. For someone to realise what was going on and to stop him. He couldn't stop himself. He felt depressed and sad when he wasn't in front of the mirror.
Each time he saw the red blood from a newly formed cut he felt as though he has escaped and left the world behind. He was free no one could hurt him anymore. He became unable to short intervals of time without cutting himself. His arms were covered with cuts, new and old. Some had healed to formed scars but only made worse and re-opened later. Legolas often stood looking at himself in the mirror. He hated what he saw. His arms were ugly and full of hideous scars and cuts. He was disgusted with himself yet he couldn't stop what he was doing. It was out of control.
So you liked it? Yes? no? Whatever you thought please review. I think that there is only one more chapter left. It isn't very long story but something I just felt I had to write. I'll update soon. Loadsa Luv LegyLuva xxx
