Their Destinies Were Fordained By: Marion and Lilly

Spoilers for X12. Just thought you'd like to know. And oh yeah, not all chapters are same length. Some may be really long, but most will be not so long nor too short.


Chapter 2: For the Sake of a Wish [Part I]

"Oh damn it ! I'm never gonna get this right !" Kamui was frustrated with his math homework again, though he was glad Subaru was helping him again. It had become sort of a routine for them, Subaru liked helping Kamui, and the boy absolutely adored the idea of spending more time with the omnyouji. He was now fully aware of the crush he had developed on the older man, but he wondered if he'd ever stop obsessing over the Sakurazukamori. Or he'd ever stop obsessing over Fuuma. He shook himself out of his thoughts and went back to working on his homework, this time getting the correct answer.

"Finally ! I'm done with this ! Now I get to rest for 24 hours before repeating the whole process again." Kamui said as he let himself fall back on the chair. "Hey, it wasn't that bad. You're a good student, it took you just an hour to get this done, so don't whine." Subaru said with a small small. Kamui snorted, "I wasn't whining." "Sure, you weren't." Subaru didn't know what was it that pulled him to this boy so much. Possibly it was the similarites he found between Kamui and his own younger self, shy and introverted, open only to his close friends, and even then, only when necessary. He didn't want to think much about his relationship with Kamui, at least not when the boy was present.

"Well, since you finished earlier than we thought, how about going for ice cream at Ikebukuro ?" the omnyouji suggested. Kamui blinked and then smiled. "Sure ! That'd be really nice Subaru !" he agreed. At last he'd be able to spend more time with Subaru without it being for studying purposes. The last time they'd gone out, it had been ruined when Fuuma and Seishirou showed up. I hope we won't be interrupted this time, though with my luck... Subaru grabbed his coat, then took Kamui to Ikebukuro.

When they reached a small ice cream shoppe in Ikebukuro, Subaru found himself thinking about Seishirou again. Why do I keep bringing Kamui to the same places Seishirou-san took me ? He shook himself out of his thoughts and went to the counter to order the ice cream. "What kind do you want Kamui ?" The boy looked at the list of flavours, almost thoughtfully, and then answered "I think I'd like vanilla." Subaru smiled and ordered the ice cream, and handed one of the bowls to Kamui. Then they went to sit in one of the tables around the shoppe.

They ate their ice cream in a comfortable silence for a while, each into their own thoughts. I should stop thinking so much about Seishirou-san, he's my enemy, twice my enemy now since he's also a Dragon of Earth. And he's still the Sakurazukamori, the man who killed my sister. Why do I still love him after all this time ? Subaru thoughtfully ate his strawberry ice cream, which was the one he always had with Seishirou and Hokuto. Kamui glanced at the older man, and then went back too eating his own ice cream. I wonder what he really feels about me, but no, he still loves that bastard, and I still love Fuuma... Fuuma... I swear I'm going to bring you back, to make the REAL Fuuma come back.

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Fuuma walked around the basement of the City Hall with his hands shoved into his pockets. He was bored again so he'd gone to ask Kakyou if there was any kekkai needing to be destroyed. "Ikebukuro..." had been the yumemi's only answer. So Fuuma was going to head there, he was just looking if anyone would go with him, though he could take down a kekkai by himself. Satsuki was busy again, though he knew he could count on her and Beast if he needed to. Seishirou, Kusangi, and Yuuto weren't even there as usual, so he was looking for Nataku. But the biroid found him first.

"Father ?" he asked. "Hello there, Kazuki-chan ! Want to go with me to make a kekkai go 'boom' ?" Fuuma asked. Nataku's face brightened at the thought of helping his 'father' and nodded. "Good ! Come with me Kazuki." the Dragon of Earth started leading the other Angel to their destination. "I hope Kamui's there. It will be fun to play with him for a while, ne ?" he asked. Natauku nodded and following Fuuma outside of the City Hall.

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Kamui and Subaru had just finished eating their ice cream, and were on their way back to the Imonoyama mansion when they felt the ground start shaking. They looked at each other and ran toward the place where they knew a kekkai was being threatened. Both Seals only hoped they'd get there in time, they'd already lost the one at Sunshine 60. Soon they reached the roof of the building, watching Fuuma and Nataku trying to break the kekkai.

"And this Kazuki-chan, is how you destroy a kekkai." Fuuma was explaining to the biroid when he saw Kamui and Subaru arrive. "Hi ! I was teaching Kazuki here how to break kekkai. But I'm glad you came, Kamui." he continued and before either of the Seals could react, Fuuma had Kamui pinned against the wall. "It's pointless to struggle and you know it. Or if you want to put up a fight, at least do it right, Kamui." The younger boy tried to make Fuuma let go off him but he couldn't. "But I don't want to hurt you ! I want to make you come back, Fuuma ! I know you're somewhere in there !" Fuuma chuckled in amusement, "I'm not Fuuma. The one you call by that name is dead and will never come back, so I advise you to get used to me and start taking your duty as a kamui of the Dragons of Heaven more seriously. Unless you want to people like him all the job." Fuuma said, pointing at Subaru, who had put up a kekkai started to fight against Nataku.

The moment Fuuma had attacked Kamui and Subaru had tried to save him, Nataku attacked Subaru, to prevent him from hurting his 'father'. "If you want to hurt him, you have to kill me first." the bioroid said in a flat, emotionless tone. Subaru didn't answer, but he immediately put up his kekkai and threw a couple of ofuda at him, whispering an incantation as he did. Nataku used his scarves as a shield from the attack, then he used the same scarves against Subaru, wrapping him up in them. The omnyouji chanted another incantation and ripped the scarves apart.

Kamui could only watch from over Fuuma's shoulders, unable to do anything against his former friend so he could go and help Subaru. However, Fuuma seemed to decide that maybe Subaru was too strong for Nataku, so he trapped Kamui in a mass and tangle of wires and called to the bioroid. "Kazuki-chan ! You've done well, but I think you should leave this one to me. Please babysit Kamui for a while, will you ?" Nataku nodded and stopped fighting Subaru to go over to where Kamui was trapped.

"Well, well... you seem like a strong opponent. Let's find out just exactly what you're capable of..." the Dragon of Earth said, thowing a blast of energy at Subaru, who put up a shield to dispel Fuuma's attack. Fuuma chuckled in amusement, "As I said, you seem strong, why don't you attack me." he was grinning, the way Seishirou always grins. W-Why ? He looks just like Seishirou-san. The omnyouji shook his head and threw some ofudas at Fuuma, chanting a few words. The ofudas took their bird shape, but /Kamui/ managed to destroy most of them, and the ones that hit him cause little damage.

"I know you can do better than Subaru, you're not the Sumeragi Clan Head for nothing, are you ?" Fuuma smiled, that smile that was so painfully familiar because it was the way Seishirou smiled too. "Why... why do you ?" Subaru started. "Look so much like him ?" the Dragon of Earth finished for him, "Because you wish so." he continued and smiled again. Again, he was distracted by the similarity between the two, the hand reaching for his ofuda faltering.

"Pay attention of you kekkai will break, Subaru-kun..." That simple honorific added to his name was all it took for the omnyouji's already slipping concentration to shatter completetely. Fuuma took advantage of this and threw Subaru to the floor. Then he leaned over him, still wearing that smug smile on his face. "You never forgave did you ? I know what your Wish is, and I'm going to grant it." he said as he plunged his hand into Subaru's emerald eye. The omyouji cried out in pain.

"SUBARU !!!!" Kamui screamed the Sumeragi's name over and over, trying to break free from his bonds, blood starting to come out from his arms and legs. "Why do you keep hurting yourself ?" Nataku asked, not being able to understand why Kamui kept trying to escape. "Shut up !!! You're just a heartless, empty person !!! You'll never understand what love or friendship are !!! You'll never understand why I risk my own life to protect those I love !!!" Kamui yelled at Nataku, finally breaking free, just as Fuuma's hand took out Subaru's eye.

Kamui ran towards the fallen Seal, taking him in his arms. "Subaru... It's all my fault, I should have fought him !! I should have helped you !! I shouldn't have been so selfish. Subaru reached a weak hand to stroke Kamui's cheek. "I-It's not your fault Kamui... I..." he started saying before he lost conciousness. It was then that the kekkai started dispelling, meaning that Subaru's state was a serious one. No ! I can't let him die !! I can't fail yet another person I love... I... I have to save him... I owe it to him !!! I just CAN'T fail HIM !!!!! he thought, just as the other Seals reached the place and called for an ambulance to take the unconcious omnyouji to the hospital.

Fuuma calmly walked back to where Nataku stood. "Well Kazuki-chan, seems it's time for us to go back home. Did Kamui give you any trouble ?" Nataku looked at Fuuma with a puzzled expression. "What is love ?" he asked his 'father'. "Ah, love. That's a very annoying emotion that you'll do better if you don't have it. Trust me on that Kazuki-chan, love is a weakness, and we can't have any weaknesses. right Kazuki-chan ?" Fuuma explained as he started leading the bioroid back to the City Hall. "No, we can't have any. He said I would never understand..." Nataku commented thoughtfully. "Of course you won't, you weren't meant to know, experience, or recieve love. You were only meant to kill the Dragons of Heavens, so you don't need to understand. Now be a good child and stop asking questions to 'daddy' and stop thinking of all this bad things Kamui said, ok ?" Fuuma looked at Nataku with a look that discouraged any further questions the he might have had. But Kamui's words would stay in his mind for a long time.

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"He's finally out of danger. He will recover." one of the doctors said after long hours Subaru had spent in surgery, attempting to save his life, and his eye. "C-can I see him yet ?" Kamui asked, desperation shown in his soft voice. The doctor was about to shake his head, but the pained look in the boy's eyes made him nod and lead the boy to Subaru's room. Kamui had been hurt in the battle too, but not too badly and his wounds had been taken care of already.

The doctor stopped in a room and let Kamui inside. "His life is out danger, though it'll take him some time to recover." the doctor repeated, trying to reassure the boy. "W-what about his eye ?" he asked. The doctor sighed, he hated giving bad news but it was part of his job, so he had to do it. "We couldn't save it. Apparently the person who did this fully intended to blind his eye. His optical nerve was severed and his ocular globe was almost totally destroyed. I'm sorry, there was nothing we could do." he said, placing a comforting hand on Kamui's shoulder. The young Seal's eyes were quickly filled with tears as he looked at the still unconcious form on the bed, a bandage covering his right eye. "I'm leaving you alone for a moment. I'll be back to check on him shortly. Kamui let himself fall down on the chair, and resting his head on the edge of Subaru's bed, he cried until he was too exhausted he fell asleep.

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Nataku walked around the halls of the basement of the building he lived in with the other Dragons of Earth. He was still thinking about the words Kamui said to him, and also what Fuuma had told him. He wandered around the building, hoping that one of the Angels would help him with his thoughts. He found Seishirou first. "What is love ?" he asked the Sakurazukamori, but the man was furious for some reason Nataku didn't know so he just growled an answer. "How the hell do you want me to know ? I'm the Sakurazukamori." Nataku shrank back but didn't press him any further and walked away. He saw Kanoe next, but he disliked her and didn't bother to ask her anything.

He continued wandering, and found Satsuki with Beast as usual. He asked her the same question he'd asked Seishirou, but either the girl was too busy to notice him or she didn't want to answer. He looked around the room and found Yuuto, looking up at Satsuki. "I can answer you question if you want." Yuuto said. Nataku blinked at him and nodded. "Love is a feeling, it's when you want a person very, very much." he said. The bioroid blinked again, Yuuto's answer only served to confuse him more, he didn't understand what the blond man meant.

He left the room, and suddenly felt himself being pushed outside of reality. He looked around, not recognizing the place, he'd never been in a place like this before. There was soft, white sand beneath his feet. The sky was a light blue, but to one side heavy, dark clouds hung. He turned around and saw that there was also a great amount of water, deep blue in colour. He turned around again and saw a man sitting on a rock, a man he had seen asleep in one of the rooms at 'home'. But now, this man was awake, sitting on a rock, watching him.

"Kakyou-san ?" he asked, his voice flat and emotionless, yet with the touch of naivety it always held. The man on the stone nodded. "I brought you here, this place is not real, it's one of my Dreamscapes, a place to escape from reality." Nataku blinked in confusion, he wondered why Kakyou had brought him to place that wasn't real. "I brought you here for a reason Nataku. You have questions, and I happen to have the answers to them." Kakyou said nonchalantly, knowing what the biroid was thinking.

"Kakyou-san, do you know what is love ?" Nataku asked. The yumemi nodded, "Love, as Fuuma and Yuuto told you, is an emotion, a feeling you feel towards another person. It's when you only want to be with that person. You like that person so much, that he or she becomes special to you, like no one else in the world. You wish to protect that person, no one is as important as that person. But even if love is a wonderful emotion, it can be terrible at the same time." Kakyou looked at Nataku to see if he had understood. The biroid looked back at Kakyou, "But all of that sounds good, why do say it can be terrible ?" The yumemi sighed, he knew exactly how terrible love could be. "Because the person is so important, anything that cause pain to him or her will cause you pain too. Or if the person doesn't love you back, it will hurt too. Love hurts, Nataku. Maybe not always, or not everyone, but it hurts some."

Nataku thought about what Kamui, Fuuma, and Kakyou told him. "Why does father doesn't want me to experience this emotion ? Why does he think love is weakness ?" Kakyou walked close to the bioroid and softly stroked his head, as one would to a young child. "Because he thinks that love will make you incapable of doing your duty as an Angel, because when you love someone, that person is more important than everything or everyone else. And also, because he doesn't want you to get hurt." Nataku thought this over and then looked at Kakyou. "Thank you Kakyou-san. I'm glad you answered my questions." The yumemi gave Nataku one of his small, rare smiles. "You're welcome Nataku. I'm glad I could help. Now you have to go back to the real world." And after saying those words, he sent Nataku out of his Dreamscape and back to the basement of the City Hall.

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Seishirou was furious at Fuuma. Being the /kamui/ of the Dragons of Earth didn't give him the right to break his most precious toy, and he was going to make him pay for it. He stomped into the headquarters of the Angels and into Fuuma's room. "Hi Seishirou ! I see you're finally here to congratulate me for having granted your little prey's pathetic Wish." he said. Seishirou was not in the mood to play games with Fuuma, so he went over to Fuuma and immediately had him pinned to a wall, his hand at Fuuma's throat. "Don't play games with me /Kamui/ ! How dare you even touch my Subaru-kun ? He's mine and only I can touch him or break him." Fuuma just grinned, "It's not my fault, actually it's yours. He wanted to lose his eye because even after all this time, he still feels guilty for yours. I just gave him what he wanted. And it's not all, he's got a rather interesting wish, and you're involved in it. He's got a messed up mind and all thanks to you. In fact, you already did a good job in breaking his fragile soul into pieces. I just broke one of them."

Seishirou let go off Fuuma, his words sinking deep into his mind. "Damn you /Kamui/ !!! But don't you think I'll leave things like this. I'm going to make you pay for playing with my Subaru-kun." he said, and swiftly left the room. For a long moment Seishirou didn't know why Fuuma's words had made him so angry, but then it hit him. Because it's true, all of it. I played with Subaru-kun and broke him, and Fuuma just played with one of the broken pieces. But why does it bother me so much ? He shrugged and decided to visit his Subaru-kun in the hospital.

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Arashi, Sorata, and Yuzuriha had returned to the Imonoyama mansion once the visiting hours were over. Only Kamui was allowed to stay in Subaru's room, just because the doctors knew it would be almost impossible making him move from his place next to the Sumeragi's bed. He had fallen asleep for a while, then woken up when the other Seals came to tell him they'd be going home, and then he'd fallen back to sleep. His own injuries and exhaustion taking his energy away.

It was midnight, visiting hours long past over, and there only few doctors and nurses on night shift. It was no problem to the figure creeping into the building to find the room he was looking for, nor to get past the personal, after all, illusions were his strength. He made it to Subaru's room with no problems. He opened the door and was only mildly annoyed at the young boy who had fallen asleep on the chair next to Subaru's bed, what made him angrier was to see the bandages that covered one of the once bright emerald green eyes. Ever since Hokuto was killed, the Sumeragi's eyes had lost his lively brightness, replaced by a faded, plain green which reflected just a shadow of the emotions they'd shown before.

Seishirou walked over to the bed, not before placing a space on Kamui, so he'd remain asleep and wouldn't end up waking up and screaming. He sat on the edge of the bed and softly stroke the Sumeragi's hair. He was still as beautiful as ever, if only a little thinner and paler than nine years ago. Why did I even come here ? I don't feel anything for him, do I ? Can it be that I really lost the bet to him nine years ago ? It can't be, but if it isn't, then why do I feel so angry he lost his eye ? Subaru-kun, you always made my life more complicated than it should be.

Subaru had been asleep until then, but after long hours, the effect of the sedatives that had worn off and he woke up to find the Sakurazukamori running his fingers absently through his hair, looking into empty space. "S-Seishirou-san... What are you doing here ?" Seishirou turned to look at the woken Sumeragi. "I came to see you. How are you feeling, Subaru-kun." The omyouji didn't meet the older man's gaze. "I'm ok, go away. You have no reason to be here."

Seishirou flinched slightly at Subaru's cold tone, but a part of him was amused by the Sumeragi's reaction to his presence. "Yes I have, I always check if my property is in a good state. And it seems you're not Subaru-kun." He reached to stroke the younger man's cheek, but his hand was promptly slapped away. "Don't touch me Seishirou-san !!! Don't you dare touch me !!! I'm not your property, I belong only to myself. I'm not your toy for amusement. I'm a person and I don't want you here. So for God's sake GET OUT OF MY LIFE !!!" Subaru didn't yell, he didn't want to wake up Kamui or any other of the patients, but he spoke in a harsh tone, that quickly became desperate until tears began to run down his face.

"Why Seishirou-san ? Why did you have to take away the only happiness I had ? Did you think I'd forget and get on with my life after my sister was killed by the man I loved ? After the man I loved said that he was someone else and he'd been lying to me all this time ? That I'd ever forgive you for what you did ? No Seishirou-san, I didn't, but what made it harder is that even after all this time, after all that you did to me, I still love you. Not the false 'you', but the real Seishirou-san, the Sakurazukamori, the one who murders people for a living. I love you so much that I even lost my eye for you, because I wished so much to be like you so you'd think I was worth as more than an object !!! B-but now I see that will never happen. I'll never be anything to you but another toy you can find amusement in and dispose of when you tire of it. I love you, and I hate myself for loving you. So if you'd even be as kind as getting out of my life so I'd be able to live the rest of it in some semblance of peace !!!" Subaru had to stop as racking sobs invaded his body and uncontrollable tears started flowing from his good eye.

Seishirou didn't know what to do, so he did the only thing he could think of: he pulled the Sumeragi into his arms and held him while he wept. Subaru presented no resistance and let himself fall into the older man's embrace, clutching his shirt and buring his face in his chest. "Subaru-kun... Fuuma said that your eye, it was part of your Wish... What is your Wish ?" he asked. The omyouji laughed bitterly against the other's chest, "Why do you care Seishirou-san ? So you can laugh at my pathetic existance ? No, I won't tell you what my Wish is, it's none of your business. Ask Fuuma, he probably knows it. Now I wonder, do you have a Wish ? Are you even capable of wishing ?" Seishirou looked away, he didn't want to answer the Sumeragi's question. "None of your business, as you said so yourself." Subaru smiled bitterly, "I thought so."

They stayed like that for some time, Subaru in Seishirou's arms, a silence filling the room, then the Sakurazukamori looked at Kamui and frowned. "Why is he here ?" he asked, a mild annoyance creeping into his voice. "Well, unlike other people, Kamui does give a damn about me. For all I know he has been here all the time, after all he was with me when Fuuma attacked." Subaru replied with a shrug, but feeling inwardly smug that he'd managed to annoy the older man. "What exactly is your relationship with him ?" Seishirou asked, again not able to hide the annoyance from his voice. "Kamui and I are just friends, for now. But Kamui seems to have a huge crush on me, I don't know. I think that with time I could come to love him. Why do you ask ? Are you jealous ? I didn't think you'd even gave a damn about me, either to be with me, or to kill me." he said, with a small, smug smile on his face.

Seishirou didn't answer, but his hold on the younger man thightened, as if expressing his answer this way. "Why did you wish to lose your eye ? I never blamed you for mine, I knew what I risked when I saved you, and I don't regret it..." the Sakurazukamori wasn't aware he was thinking aloud. Subaru clinged to the older man's shirt, "Because even if you don't blame me, I did. And also, because I wanted to be like you, so I'd finally be worthy to be more that your toy. You seem to think I'm not even worth of being your prey..."

Seishirou sighed, this wasn't his territory and he knew it, emotions had never been. But somehow, this man he held in his arms had given those emotions to him and he didn't know how to express them. "Subaru-kun, you're worth something to me, or else I would have killed you when you were just a child, when I first met you." The Sumeragi was taken aback by this, he never expected this kind of answer from him. "S-Seishirou-san... you really...?" he started, but was interrupted by Seishirou's lips on his. Subaru was startled at first, but then he gently started to kiss back. Too soon, Seishirou broke the kiss.

"S-S-Seishirou-san..." Subaru started to say, but Seishirou chose that moment to leave. "I'm sorry Subaru-kun, I'll leave you alone now..." Subaru grabbed the other man's wrist and looked at him with a pleading eye. "Please, don't leave me... Stay with me..." The Sakurazukamori turned to look at the Sumeragi, "Subaru-kun you have me confused now, just a while ago you wanted me to leave, and now you ask me to stay. What do you really want ?" The omyouji looked down, "I never wanted you to leave, it's just that, I don't know what hurts the most... if having you near me... or not having you at all..." Seishirou sat on the bed again, "I'll stay with you, if you think it's ok with Kamui. Wouldn't want him to wake up screaming and trying to kill me." Subaru laid back down on the bed. "I think you put a spell on him, or else he'd already have woken up." The older man lay beside the omyouji and pulled him into his arms again. "Maybe I did, and he won't wake up until I want him to." The Sumeragi smiled weakly. "Thank you Seishirou-san..." he said, before falling asleep in the arms of the man he loved.

So that was cute or what ? Yeah I know Sei-chan's very OOC, but Marion and I totally adore him and Subaru-kun together so love out Sei-chan! XP And our OOC characters. I like Nataku in this chapter, I think that if Kamui had actually said that, he'd gone to bug every DoE in sight about it.


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