Thank you to the people who have reviewed this story. To Madu-chan, are we psyco ? Oo;; Maybe, we kinda like to play a little with the cute little ukes. Ohohohohohoho !!!! *Cough* Anyways, more S/S, F/K, and Su/K. You won't be free of Su/K. Not soon anyway, or maybe never in this story. Ohohohohohoho !!! *Cough* Ok, enough cackling for this chapter.
Lilly: Kira and Shell ? Some time ago you let me use one of your ideas in Revelations 16:1 for an RPG and this fic is based on that RPG, so pleeaaase, dun kill me !!!!!!! *Begs for pardon*
Chapter 7 : Secret
"Mr. Shirou. Please read us your summary on World War II." Kamui was at school, being called by the teacher. But he was very distracted. He couldn't think of anything but of going home and seeing Subaru, he couldn't wait for classes to end. The first half of the day had seemed an eternity, but after lunch, time seemed to be flowing twice as slow as before.
"Mr. Shirou, your summary please." the teacher called again, getting impatient with Kamui's distraction. Finally the classmate next to him nudged him and he finally returned to the classroom. "Huh ?" he asked, rather stupidly, which earned him a couple of odd looks and snickers from his classmates. "Well, now that your are back with us, could you please read us your summary on World War II, Mr. Shirou ?" the teacher asked. Kamui nodded and did just what the teacher told him to do.
Then finally, after an exceedingly long day, the bell finally rang and Kamui was free from school. He grabbed his thing and ran out of the classroom, immediately bumping into his friend, Segawa Keiichi. "Uh sorry Segawa-kun." he apologized, to which Keiichi only smiled as brightly as always. "Seems your in a hurry Shirou-kun !! Got something important to do ? Or maybe a date ?" he asked jokingly.
Kamui blused a deep shade of red. "Not exactly." he answered. Keiichi raised an eyebrow at that. "Not exactly, eh ?" he inquired with suspicion. The younger boy only turned redder and started fidgeting. "Well, remember my friend Subaru... He and I kinda... you know..." he said and suddenly found a very interesting spot on the floor. Keiichi laughed and ruffled Kamui's hair. "That's good Shirou-kun, at least you're not so lonely anymore. Do tell me the whole story some other time, when you're not in such a hurry." he said. "See you tomorrow Shirou-kun !!!" he added, before going to the locker room to change for practice. "See you Segawa-kun !! he answered, as he continued his way towards the exit of the school builing.
As soon as he was outside he started running to his apartment, where he expected Subaru waiting for him, but it wasn't him who he found. It was Fuuma, and he did not look very pleased. In fact, he was very angry. He just couldn't stand the way Kamui kept running to Subaru now that he was to normal. Kamui was his, he had always been him, and would always be his, and a skinny omyouji wouldn't take the beautiful boy away from him, not even the 13th Head of the Sumeragi Clan. Specially not the Sumeragi.
"F-Fuuma... W-What are you doing here ?" Kamui asked, afraid of the madness in his twin star's eyes. He couldn't look into those eyes and feel safe anymore, all he saw in those cold, golden eyes was the /kamui/ of the Angels, his enemy, the one he was supposed to kill. Fuuma smirked at the boy's expression of fear. "I just came to claim what is mine..." he replied, licking his lips in an expression of pure lust.
"N-No... Please Fuuma !!! Don't do that !!! I..." Kamui started, backing away from the older boy and then ran all the way up to his bedroom, which proved to be a mistake, because his twin star followed him with blinding speed and had him pinned against one of the walls before Kamui could react. "Don't ever try to resist me, Kamui. It will only make it worse for you in the end." Then he took Kamui again, satisfying his own greed by hurting the one who loved him the most.
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Subaru had finished packing the few belongings he had taken to Seishirou's house to take them to Kamui's house. He hadn't thought it would take him this long to finish moving his very few personal things, but he had found himself taking a few of Seishirou's old things with him. He had found some pictures from nine years ago of Seishirou, Hokuto, and himself, some old omnyoujitsu books, a few packets of cigarettes, and some other stuff he'd left behind. He'd also found an old picture of a young man who looked like Seishirou with a woman and baby in his arms. He looked at it, but he didn't give it any importance since he supposed it must be Seishirou's parents and Seishirou when he was a baby.
When he finally was on his way back to the appartment it was way past the time Kamui got out of school, but he supposed the boy would be alright, and even stopped on the way to buy something for both of them to have a nice dinner. He didn't expect what he found when he got to what would now be his new home.
Even before he was inside he saw a figure escaping through Kamui's window. As he looked at it more closely he realized it was Fuuma, who was finishing to button his shirt, and there was a glimmer of mad, satisfied lust in his eyes. He turned to look at Subaru and gave him an evil, triumphant smile, before vanishing over the roofs. And Subaru knew what must have happened.
He quickly ran to the inside of the appartment, dropping his things somewhere on the way to Kamui's room. The young leader of the Seals was lying on his bed, looking blankly at the window, not seeming to focus on anything but the spot where Fuuma must have made his departure. Subaru immediately went to him and he jumped when the omnyouji took him in his arms...
"Kamui !!! It's me, Subaru... Don't worry, I'm here and I'll stay with you now." he said as he hugged the beautiful boy in his arms even thighter. He felt Kamui rest his head on his chest, the boy's tears soaking into the shirt he was wearing. "Subaru... Never, never leave me alone again ! Promise me that... Please !!!" Kamui asked through his tears.
"I promise you Kamui, that I will never leave you alone again... I won't let Fuuma, or anyone else hurt you again... I love you..." he said as he gently stroked Kamui's back, but not able to hide his own tears. He hated the leader of the Angles with a passion that wasn't even matched by his hate for Seishirou, not ever all he had done to him. He wanted nothing more than to kill Fuuma with his own hands, watching feel not even a fraction of the pain he'd caused to Kamui as he died. But he knew he'd never be able to do that, because by killing Fuuma, he would kill Kamui too. And he would never again do a thing to hurt Kamui.
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Seishirou wondered why someone like Kamui must be destined to life of suffering when he hadn't done a thing wrong in his life, and himself, who had sinned every day of life since he had killed his mother with his own hands had payed only with his death. And then again, he had chosen to die, so it wasn't exacly a way to pay for a life of wrongs. He wanted to help the young boy, but he didn't know how, so he did the only thing he could think of: visit Fuuma.
Fuuma was in his appartment, having returned after having his way with Kamui. He grinned at Seishirou as a greeting, an evil, mad, manic grin. He looked very proud of what he had done to Kamui. And Seishirou couldn't stand that, because it reminded so much of the way he himself had felt after breaking Subaru's young heart and innocence. He walked closer to the younger Angel and slapped him hard across the face.
Fuuma, no /kamui/, glared back at him, a cold, murderous hate in his golden eyes. "What's wrong with you ex-Sakurazukamori ?!!" he asked. "Can't stand to see someone who has mastered and surpassed your power ? Don't you know who're you're defying ?" Seishirou just looked back at him expressionlessly. "No, I'm not forgetting who you are. But I can't let you make the same mistakes I made in life. And you're not yourself, you're being controlled, so when you go back to being yourself, you won't be able to even look at Kamui." he said.
This didn't calm the Angel's rage, if only it made it burn even more than ever. "Shut up !!! How do you dare to comdamn me for my actions when yours weren't any better ? I will to what I please with Kamui. The boy is mine and your beloved omnyouji won't take him away from me !!!" Fuuma practiacally yelled at Seishirou, who only glared back and answered him. "Stop hurting Kamui and Subaru-kun !!! Why can't you just wait for Kamui to kill you on Promised Day ?"
At this Fuuma let our a feral, evil laugh, it was a laughter that would have made even Seishirou's already cold heart freeze in fear. "Ah... Promised Day..." Fuuma started thoughtfully. "That day, I'm gonna make sure Kamui dies in the most painful way. And you won't be able to do anything about it and neither will your pretty boy Subaru Sumeragi !!! Kamui will die in my arms because he's only mine, and only I decide when and how he will die." Fuuma answered. Seishirou couldn't stand it anymore, there was nothing else he could do, so he left, leaving mad, angry Fuuma behind.
I hate them !!!I hate them all !!!!! Humans are so very pathetic, they don't deserve to live. And I will make sure each and everyone of them dies after Promised Day... Fuuma thought when Seishirou left. He held a hand to his cheek. It didn't sting because of the physical slap, but from the fact that Seishirou, his own Angel, had even dared to oppose him. I would kill you, if you weren't dead already, Sakurazukamori...
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When Kamui woke up the next day, it was well past noon, and Subaru was still watching over him. By just seeing the dark circles under his eyes, Kamui knew he hadn't slept all night. And by seeing his red, swollen eyes, he knew he had cried too. It touched Kamui's heart deeply, to know that Subaru cared that much about him.
Kamui tried stretching on the bed, but he found out his whole body was weak and aching. As he looked at his own thighs, arms, and chest, he discovered the bruises, made the night before by Fuuma. That thought made his soul ache in despair. He loved Fuuma so much, even if he kept hurting him this way. He tried sitting up on the bed, but again, the pain and weakness made him fail in the attempt.
"Shh... Don't try to move too much. You're badly bruised and you've got some fever." Subaru said, placing his hand on Kamui's burning forehead. "I'll be right back." he said as he went into the bathroom to get another cool, wet towel, to the replace the now warm one on Kamui's forehead. He returned with the towel, some aspirin, another cloth to clean Kamui's bruises, and some bandages. The violet-eyed boy just lay in his bed, limply and silently, while Subaru cleaned his wounds and bandaged them. He replaced the wet cloth and gave Kamui the medicine he had brought.
During the whole ordeal Kamui had remained silent, far too much in pain, and so lost in his own thoughts to even think of making a coherent speech. Why do I keep accepting such tortures from Fuuma ? I mean, I've got powers, I can use them against him without hurting him too much ! But, everytime he touches me, it's like all my will went away and I let him use me as he wants ! He keeps saying he loves me but I don't know if I still can believe him... Kamui thought, not even feeling the tears running down his cheeks.
But Subaru was not oblivious to those tears of sadness, shame, pain, and despair. So much like the tears he'd cried for Seishirou even since they had departed nine years ago. Very gently he wiped the drops from Kamui's face and whispered. "Kamui... Sleep... You need to rest..." Kamui had no strenght left in his body and mind to refuse, so he slighted nodded and let sleep claim him once more, two things in his mind before it came: the feeling of Subaru holding his hands, and Fuuma.
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Fuuma waited impatiently at CLAMP Campus' entrance for the bell that would signal the end of the day to ring. But when it finally did he saw every student leave the school area towards their own houses or the residence halls from CC. But Kamui wasn't between the crowd. Then he remembered he sometimes kept company to his blond friend, Keiichi, he though was his name, during soccer practice. So he headed towards the soccer field to look for his small twin star.
He looked to each of the soccer fields in CLAMP Campus, but there was no sign of Kamui. He even spotted Kamui friend Keiichi, but not the young Seal himself. He then wondered if he was absent because of what he had done to him the previous day. Since he didn't find anywhere, and none of his Angels had been destroying kekkai, he came to the conclusion that that had been what had happened. Kamui had not gone to school because he was probably too hurt, both physically and emotionally, to even consider coming to school. So he went to visit Kamui the boy's apartment.
But the sight that welcomed him at Kamui's house was not what he had expected. He saw that Kamui was asleep, finally peacefully and dreamlessly. But what he did't expect to find was Subaru dozing in a chair next to his twin star's bed. This made him boil with rage and hatred. How dare Sumeragi Subaru try to steal his little Kamui ? That was something he would not tolerate, because Kamui was his. His mind, his soul, his feelings, his broken little heart, all belonged to Fuuma. And he would make sure it remained that way.
Even though he was asleep, Kamui felt energies in his room. For a moment he thought it was Subaru, who in fact was still in the room, but the energies he had felt weren't the omnyouji's. They were negative, the dark Kamui's energies. The Angel was leaning over the dozing Sumeragi, comtemplating the best way to kill him. The Seal felt a thightening in his heart. "F-Fuuma..." he whispered.
The older boy finally took his eyes off Subaru and turned to Kamui, a wide smirk across his face. In an instant he was next to Kamui's bed, holding the latter by the hair, pulling hard enough to hurt. With his mouth close to the violet-eyed boy's ear he whispered. "If he is still here tomorrow, I will kill him !!! And this time I will do it." he said. Then he kissed his fragile twin star roughly, before exiting by the window.
Kamui pulled his knees close to his bruised body and cried silently. Fuuma... The more he hurts me, the more I love him... he thought, before lying again on the bed and falling asleep once more.
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Seishirou once again made he apperance in Kamui's room, wanting to check the boy's condition. His body was still badly bruised, but it seemed the fever had gone down, and his breathing was normal. He walked to the side of the boy's bed to brush a lock of hair away from his eyes, before turning his attention to the chair next to the bed, where Subaru was still dozing.
He smiled gently and softly pressed his lips to Subaru's slightly-parted ones. "Subaru-kun, it's me..." he said after the kiss had been broken. The omnyouji slowly woke up and finally realized who had been the one who woke him up. "Seishirou-san..." he whispered, before his mouth was once again captured by Seshirou's.
When their last kiss was finally broken, Subaru asked. "What are you doing here now Seishirou-san ?" he asked. Seishirou looked in the sleeping Kamui's direction. "I just wanted to see how Kamui was doing. How is he ? Better ?" he asked. Then, without looking at Subaru he continued, unaware that was thinking aloud. "Fuuma... he... I hate him for what he is doing to him, even when I have no right to after what I did to you." he said.
Subaru looked suspiciously at Seishirou. He was supposed to be on Fuuma's, no, the Dark Kamui's side, but here he was worrying the present state of his /kamui's/ opposite. Suddenly another thought entered his mind: Seishirou could be there to hurt Kamui, or maybe he had become suddenly interested in the boy. After all, Kamui was very beautiful, and he knew Seishirou was attracted to beautiful things, even he didn't consider himself beautiful. "Why are you so interested in Kamui, Seishirou-san ?" he asked. "He's just 16 !!! I mean, you could even be his father !!!" he added.
It was then when Seishirou looked away from Kamui, but didn't look back at Subaru. It was not easy for him to say what was he going to say, and would be completely impossible if was looking at either of the two young men in the room. "That is because... I really am Kamui's father..." he said.
Subaru's breath stopped at that very moment. He wasn't sure he believed, that he could belive what he'd just heard. The idea was just too absurd for it to be truth. Seishirou-san is Kamui's father ?!?! he thought, It's impossible... But then again, it made perfect sense. Kamui was very powerful, and even if he had powers because he was the Kamui, those powers had to come from somewhere. And weren't both, the Sakurazuka and the Magami families two of the strongest ones in the world, let alone Japan ?
Many emotions ran in his heart: lack of understanding, because even though a part of him deemed it logical, most of him claimed it as impossible; anger and betrayal. because it was yet another piece of vital information Seishirou had kept from him all these years; and jealousy... He quickly made some calculations and found out that Kamui had been born exactly the year he met Seishirou the first time.
"Why you never told me that ? Why did you never tell me you were married and had a son ? Or was it another of the little secrets you never planned to tell me so I'd be inevitably drawn to you ?" he yelled. "How someone like you can be the father of such a pure soul ? You're a liar, you CAN'T be Kamui's father !! YOU CAN'T, YOU CAN'T !!!" he continued, slamming his fists against the chair so hard it hurt.
Seishirou just looked back at Subaru a sad expression that become almost usual on face after his death. He was about to say something, but he was interrupted by a small voice behind him. "My Daddy ?" Both men turned around behind them to look at a now awake Kamui, who was looking at them with big lavender eyes full of tears, his face portraying confusion.
The man who had been known to be emotionless in life was now looking somewhat nervous as he watched his son. "Kamui... I... hai.. I am your father. Even if I don't deserve to be the father of someone as pure as you. As Subaru-kun is thinking. I didn't ever deserve anything except death. I'm sorry Subaru-kun for never telling you. I'm sorry Kamui, for never being with you..." he was saying, realizing that in the deepest trough of his heart, he had always loved the boy. He was about to explain when he saw Kamui tense, but not because of him, but due to a voice at the window.
"Awww how disgustingly cute. I'm think I'm about to throw up right now." the voice said. It was Fuuma, who had apparently had been hearing everything for quite a while. He had come to carry out the threat he had made to Kamui. "I thought I told you I'd kill him if I saw him here again Kamui." he said, glaring at the surprised Sumeragi.
Kamui looked sadly at Fuuma. "B-But you said that he should leave by tomorrow !!! So why are you here now ?" he said, his eyes full of tears. "Because I know he'll never leave you alone, not until I kill him, and that is what I'm going to do right now !!!" the dark Kamui declared. He'd had enough of playing games of possessiveness with Subaru, he was going to kill the man this time and Kamui would be his again. And he would make sure the boy would pay too. On Promised Day, he was going to kill him slowly and painfully. But for now, his target was the Head of the Sumeragi Clan.
At that moment Seishirou spoke. "Don't you dare lay a hand on Subaru-kun or my son, you bastard !!! I won't let you !!!" he said, stepping in between Fuuma and the two Seals. And Fuuma laughed, because he considered the scene too pathetic to be true. He couldn't believe that the former and dead Sakurazukamori was trying to protect someone out of love, and not the possessiveness he had when he was alive.
"I hate to tell you the bad news, but you're dead and you can't do a thing to stop me, so excuse me. I gotta kill your precious Subaru-kun." Fuuma said, in a voice full of sarcasm, as he held out his Shinken. "Fuuma ! Kamui shouted from his spot on the bed, "You don't have the right to use it before the Promised Day !" The older boy grinned evilly at him and countered. "Just watch me do it..." he said, and before anyone even see him moving, he was on Subaru, savagely stabbing him on the stomach, and when he finished, he viciously licked the blood from his fingers.
Kamui wanted to yell, but he couldn't utter even a squeak. "Subaru-kun !!!" Seishirou yelled, as he ran to his fallen, bloody lover's body and held him in his arms. He didn't notice what Fuuma said or did anymore, he could only stare at Subaru, who had lost conciousness but was still alive.
The violet-eyed boy wanted to run to them, to hold Subaru, to tell him it would be alright, but Fuuma grabbed him painfully by the hair. "Where do you think you are going, Kamui ?" he whispered in his ear. Kamui didn't try to get away from him, he was still too weak. "Wasn't this fun Kamui ? And guess what ? I'll do it again on Promised Day !! I promise you a slow, painful death, you won't be as lucky as your lover Subaru, here. Ja ne!" he said to Kamui before leaving through the window.
Seishirou gently stroked Subaru's pale cheek. "It will be alright Subaru-kun, don't worry. I... we'll save you..." he whispered softly to the unconcious man in his arms.
Kamui just looked at them, not knowing what he should do. He was brought back to his senses by Seishirou's voice in a second."Kamui, please, call an ambulance !! Quickly !! You're the only who can do that, because I'm dead, and only the ones involved in the battle are able to see me. Please, don't let him die !! I love him !!" he said, for the first time in his life looking truly panicked and sad.
The boy nodded and ran to the phone. A few minutes later, the ambulance of the Clamp Campus hospital was there. A male nurse let Kamui go with them and Seishirou followed him, because no one could see him.
Subaru was really pale, looking younger than he was, blood covering his face. It's when the already heart-broken boy suddenly realized all what happened and burst into tears, screaming Subaru's name without being able to stop. The nurse looked at him pitifully, more busy in trying to keep Subaru alive on the way to the hospital. But Seishirou held his hands tightly and kissed his forehead comfortingly. And at that moment, Kamui knew Seishirou was really his father.
Lilly: Ohohohohohohoho !!!!!!! Major cliffhanger here, ne ? Anyways, Kira and Shell, I apologize again, but PLEEEEEEASE dun kill me !!!!!! I promise not to use any other of your [or any other's authors'] ideas ever again !!! Anyways, hope that anyone who read it actually liked it. XD And a little suggestion. Never hear 'Strength' or 'Forever Love' or any other sad song while writing/reading an angsty fic, you won't be able to stop crying for a while. ^^;;
