FUMBLING TOWARDS ECSTASY
Chapter 15: Feelings Revealed
Rating: Rated PG13 for vulgar language and slight sexual content
Disclaimer: Higher Ground is owned by ABC Family; I'm only writing this story for pleasure.
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Recap: CHAPTER 14-Auggie tells Peter about Juliette cutting herself, much to her chagrin. Ezra and Daisy's tarot-reading business goes underway…with unsuccessful results. Scott and Shelby's diary entries are revealed, each ranting about the other.
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Scott threw a calloused hand through his tousled, dirty-blonde hair as he rehearsed what he would say to Shelby in his head. You're a slut, Shelby. I have nothing to prove to you, and there's NO POSSIBLE way in hell that my opinion is going to change of you. That's why I'm ending this whole meeting thing. We obviously can't get along, and I'm tired of apologizing to you. So, for the last time…I'm sorry.
The sullen teenager gave a slight nod as he made his way to the docks for his final meeting with Shelby. Yeah, that sounds good. Just say that and leave. That's all ya gotta do. As the docks came into view, he quickened his pace a little. It was a cold night, and he was ready to get this over with.
Scott then began to slow down a little as he stepped upon the dock, attempting to warm his hands by casually placing them in his jacket pockets. He gave a quick overview of the stretch of wood, his eyes scanning each feature. She's probably screwing a Ridgerunner or something. It wouldn't surprise me.
But then he saw her…and, all of a sudden, all coherent thoughts pertaining to his much-rehearsed speech vanished.
Shelby was sitting on the edge of the docks, looking as if she might freeze, for she wore no jacket, only a t-shirt and boxers. Although her head was bent, Scott could still recognize that she was shivering. Noticeably. And then he heard the whimpers. He could faintly hear them through the gusts of wind coming through, but they were there. Shelby was crying.
Taken aback, he took a step closer to the small girl, trying to form any sort of words of comfort. But there were none. Why do I care, anyway? I'm just here to say goodbye to the slut. But he couldn't deny the fact that his heart ached for her. He wished he could do anything in his power to deter those whimpers from erupting.
Shelby suddenly looked up and turned towards Scott, for she felt an extra presence on the dock. As her teary blue eyes rested on Scott's grim face, a gasp escaped from her mouth. Ohmygosh! It's SCOTT…out here…right now. PLEASE tell me he didn't see me crying. Please! She quickly stood up and wiped the tears from her eyes, as she reluctantly turned to face the man she loved…the man who didn't love her back.
"What are you doing out here?" she forced out, her tone turning sharp.
Scott stepped towards her in response into the light. His face was lit up by the fluorescent lights, which gave his eyes a slight twinkle. "I thought we had a meeting of some sort," he replied, his tone warm and inviting, contrary to Shelby's cold tone.
Shelby's eyes widened in confusion as she glanced hard at Scott. Why…why is he being so cordial to me? Has he forgotten the words he spoke out of spite? Has he forgotten how much he HURT me? "You didn't get the memo? The meeting was canceled," she finally answered, her words draped with venom. She wanted Scott. He knew it, as did everyone else. But he had hurt her countless times…and Shelby was tired of it.
"Oh. That's a shame," Scott said almost robotically, ignoring the ice in Shelby's words. "I was kinda looking forward to it. I was? What am I saying?
That was all it took for her to snap. "NO, Scott…No you were NOT! Don't stand there and fucking lie to my face! What are you doing?? You're messing everything up! I may not get the best grades, but I sure as hell recognize rejection when I receive it."
Scott looked at the ground. She was right. She had made advances on him and he had refused her time and time again. Yet when he had seen her crying…vulnerable and just waiting to be torn apart…he felt a liking towards her. A liking which seemed to take over his body, his verbal capabilities. He couldn't stop the words coming out of his mouth. As well as his newly-brought upon feelings for Shelby. "What do you want me to say, Shelby? What?"
Shelby's eyes glazed over in anger. "I want you make up your fucking mind, Scott! Before now you treated me like dog shit imprinted on the bottom of your shoe. Now, all of a sudden, you're trying to be all nice and friend-like. Why, Scott? WHY?" she screamed, tears streaming down her cheeks. She no longer cared that Scott had seen her crying. All she cared about was an answer.
Before he could control his movement, Scott was reaching out to Shelby. He ever-so-gently brushed his hand upon the confused and angry teenager's tear-stained cheeks…and lightly wiped away the fresh tears.
Shelby's breath caught in her throat, as the anger left her face. It was replaced with affection and pure love. Her love for Scott. She had imagined this time and time again…but she had never imagined it would feel like this.
Wordlessly, Scott then pressed his forehead to Shelby's. Upon feeling her cold body pressed up against his, he ran his hands up the sides of her body, making an attempt to make her warm. He wanted more than anything to make her happy. "I've never felt like this, Shelby. I've never felt such an attraction. Such affection. I see you in a different light, now. And I am so sorry I never saw you…truly YOU…before now. You're beautiful," he said into her ear. What will she say? Will she laugh at me? I've never said to ANYONE.
Shelby's big blue eyes glanced up at Scott as she memorized everything about his eyes. His eyes…so desperate for her longing, for her love. He had opened up to her. He had spoken such sweet words to her. But are they truthful words? He treats me like crap…and now…
But as Scott's warm and moist lips pressed upon hers, she knew it was the truth. It was all the proof she needed.
The kiss was truly beautiful. The two clung to each other for dear life, as their bodies molded together. They were a perfect fit. Sparks seemed to fly from each's supple lips.
As the two teenagers hesitantly pulled away to catch their breath, Shelby smiled and truly smiled up at Scott, he at her. "I've never felt this way, Scott. How I feel with you…Scott, it's indescribable," she admitted, her hands tenderly touching his adorned face.
Scott's grin grew wider, as he hugged Shelby close to him, his hands gently stroking her back. "Shelby, my Shelby…you never looked more beautiful until now. And when I saw you crying…God, Shelb, it hurt me more than you'll ever know. I wanted to take ever ounce of that pain you felt from you. Shelby, baby, why were you crying?" he asked, his words slightly mumbled, for his face was lost in her amass of blonde hair.
There was a moment of hesitation before Shelby's reply, for she wasn't sure of how her lover would react. This is what you've wanted, Shelb, for so long. Don't lose it now. "I was crying because I knew I was missing out on this…Scott, I knew I was missing out on you," she finally replied, her voice barely audible.
But Scott had heard her, and his grasp on her tightened at the sound of her sweet words. "I'll never leave you, Shelby. I truly missed out on such a beautiful person until now. But I'll always be here for you." Always.
And as their lips molded together once again to form a fairy-tale perfect kiss, a vow was exchanged between the two. They were there for each other no matter what life brought. The two blonde teenagers, who had never felt love before this, who had been let down numerous times, who just wanted to be held…had found each other. And they were never letting go.
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So…was it worth he wait? I know it's a little short, but it's something! Lol, sorry if it moved a little fast…I was just so tired of them hating each other! It got a little Shakespearean there for a little bit…but the chapters to come are going to be more real. Although they're together, they still have those damn obstacles to cross! Anyway, 10+ reviews, please and you get chapter 16…I know y'all can do it; you did it before!
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In chapter 16: Juliette ACTUALLY talks to Peter, Daisy & Auggie talk, PROMISE! Hannah comes back…PROMISE THAT, TOO! Scott and Shelby deal with their feelings…while the other Cliffhangers deal with the feelings, as well!
