Before I continue, I'd just like to say Thank You princessdelta, you have really inspired me in this one! Love ya sis!!

~~~~Disclaimer! I do not own any of these characters.~~~~

Dear Diary,

There have been others,

Who've come and gone.

You left forever,

You were the one.

Kisses and cuddles,

All in the past,

And for a short time,

I thought it would last.

First I was angry,

Then in denial,

But feelings come back,

To fade the fake smile.

My tears on the floor,

Forgetting the rage.

Heart broken in two,

And spilled on the page.

This kinda sums up what's been on my mind all day. At home, at the store, at the garage. What makes it shitty is that I know I can't reach him. He must want to talk to me again, see me. If he loved me. If he still loves me.

Forget all the cop crap! He needs to be here, he belongs with us. He's one of us and he knows it. Dom knows it, Leon knows it, shit, even Vince knows it. It was right for him to leave then, but it's time to come back and I wish I could tell him.

This is about the time that I would reach for a corona. I don't even feel like doing that today, I can't move from this bed. I think I'll just sleep. Then I'll be able to see him, like I do every night. It's like he haunts me in the day and comforts me at night. I just want him back. Is that too much to ask?

Night Diary, Mia xxx

~~~~This is a short one I know but it will get better I promise!!~~~