For so long
-Time wasted, useless-
I didn't believe you or this
For all my bluster you frightened me
Challenged my solid foundation of definitions
Yes, I fear you
Your anger, ferocity
You rip and shred without a second thought
Why should I be any different?
And impossibly I trust you
I have no choice against
Someone like you
Something so beautiful
You infuriate me perfectly
Wonderfully
More real than anything in my pale life
Roiling, seething stormclouds within me
And unearthly splendor in a single form
It's a savage angel you are
Cruel demigod
Playing with us with me
Myths come to life with you
Maybe it's not so strange, this need
I catch on fire when we fight
Liquid, mutable when you hold me, anything you want
I see you spark with me, hiding it behind shadow eyes
Chips of smoke, glinting secrets at me
When you touch me, then I come alive
Your rare smile consumes me
Radiance made corporeal
My world crumbled and you were there
Held it up
Held me together
The sheer force of your will kept me
Sane
Alive
Safe
Anyone I can become must now be part of you
You say my name as if it feeds you
Look at me and caress my soul
I carried you within the core of my being
You opened me
Entered me
Laid me bare and sank inside me
Head above the surface and body immersed in me
You pulse within me still
Insane, this- different worlds, minds
Alien to us both
Kindred spirits nothing
I must be a masochist to love you
But
Then
You never really hurt me
Nothing you didn't heal with a touch, a careless glance
A tiny word as I fell asleep next to you
Always a scowl like massing thunderheads
The weight of the world is nothing to the weight of you
The sun can die for all I care
Next to you is safety
Inside you is home
If this is lunacy I don't want sane
If you're wrong I don't care
With you I don't need to be a princess, genius, beauty
I just need to be yours
