Hey everybody! Well, first things first. Haven't been getting too much reviews. I don't know If I should continue this or not? Should I? Well, this is what I'll do, I'll continue for a while, if no one really cares, then I'm ending it early. It all depends on my reviews really. Well, just wanna say a BIG thanks to everyone who DID review! I feel so bad to do this to them. Well, I hope I get reviews so I don't have to end this cuz I love it sooo much! Well, on with the story!
REAL LIFE
Servant: Oh, master Jin. What are you doing in miss Ling's room?
Jin: Oh, Heihachi told me to send for her.
Servant: Yes, well, will you tell miss Xiao that Miharu called?
Jin: Yeah, sure thing.
Servant: Okay, thank you.
Jin: Yeah, sure.
When the servant left, Jin slowly brought the object he found in front of him. His eyes
slowly widened.
Jin: Ling's Diary?
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Jin quickly walked into his room and shut the door behind him. He carefully
examined the object he had in his hand.
Jin: Yup, this is it all right.
Jin never once opened it. Many questions ran through his head. "Should I open it,"
"its only for a little bit," "you wouldn't want to obey her trust now would you?"
All these thoughts were running thoughts and many more where running through
his mind at the time. Hours passed and still he laid on his bed with the diary in
his hand still unopened.
Jin: Uhhhh, what do I do?
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Hei: No no Ling! I'm coming at you from the left! Don't block that way!
What is wrong with you today?
Ling: Huh? Sorry Heihachi. It's just….
Heihachi smiled to himself. He knew that his plan was put into action. Now
his secret was safe, for now.
Hei: Are you sure nothing is the matter?
Ling: Huh? NO. I'm positive, I'm fine.
Hei: Well, lets continue then, shall we?
Ling: Yes.
And then they continued to train.
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Jin: Uhhh! No! I cant.
Jin then threw the dairy to his bed. He paced around his room for a while.
He then stopped by his window and looked up to the moon. He soon found
himself calm.
Jin: What is wrong with me? I'm making a big deal over a dairy?
What's the worse that could happen?
He walked over to his bed and carefully opened the diary.
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Ling: Huh…AHHH!
Hei: Ling? Are you okay? Why didn't you evade my punch?
Ling slowly got up from off the ground holding her cheek.
Ling: I'm okay. It's just that…
Hei: Yes?
Ling: I can't help but feel that something is wrong.
Hei: Huh, teenagers. I'm sure its nothing Ling. Don't worry.
Now shall we continue?
Ling: Yes sir.
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Jin flipped through the pages. He quickly scanned the writings, but one
stood out to him as his eyes met the certain page.
Dear Diary,
Hello again. I just came home from school and had nothing to do, so I decided to
write in here today. Sorry to say, this will be my last entry in my diary. Why?
Technology of course! Heihachi gave me a brand new laptop, so for now on,
I will record all of my diary entries in there. Plus, it is also harder for Miharu to
find or get into! For once I'll have my privacy! Oh, did I tell you? That day we
all went to the amusement park, I dropped my diary and Jin picked it up! It's
a good thing I have fast reflexes! He didn't even have time to notice what it was.
Thank goodness! Can you imagine how it would be if he found it? If he even read
a page or two? What about the page I scribbled in that said "Ling Kazama" all over
a page…Ahhh! That would be total chaos on my part! I'd probably be the laughing
stalk of the school if Jin were to find it, what's worse, Miharu, or even: HWOARANG!
All the letters I wrote and all the feelings I put down, all could be exposed in a matter
of minutes. That is why I HAVE to keep this private! I don't want ANYONE finding
out how I feel until I find out how I feel first. Still, even if I was sure that I was in love
with Jin, would I still tell him then? Nah. I'd be too afraid of rejection. I'm just not sure
Jin thinks of me that way. I'm pretty silly huh? One day I'm hoping Jin asks me out, the
next I'm deathly afraid of him. Sometimes I'm sure he loves me and I don't, the next
I'm not sure of my feelings for him or his towards mine. This is a strange thing for me.
I just wish I could tell someone how I feel every now and then. It would be nice to have
someone there to listen to my secrets to one day, and not utter a single syllable the next.
And that is why I have a diary. This is where I can express my thoughts and deepest feelings.
All the things that go wrong and things I would like to change, like how I feel. I just wish
I was sure of the way I felt every now and then. How do I feel now? To tell you the truth,
I miss him, a lot. Now I know he's just down stairs training, but some part of me cant stand
to be away from him. Some part of me wants to look into his beautiful eyes forever. Some
part of me wants to hold him in my arms and never let go…but then there are parts that say
to stay away. That I am only asking for heart break, or that he just would never understand,
he's not that type of guy…but then again I want to be with him. Because you see diary, some
part of me DOES love him, I only wish it was all of me. Because, I do, I know I do! I just
wish there was some way I could let him know….you see! There it is again! There's a little
voice inside of me saying " Don't go there Ling!" Then why do I still think about him this
way?! This part of me that hates, this part of me that loathes, that truly and honestly hates
Jin Kazama. It isn't a big part of me, but it is a strong one. It's what's keeping me from
getting closer to Jin. And I hate it! Why can't I break away from it? Why does it control
me so much? Why? I have to get the part of me that is pure to get stronger. Another good
vs. evil. Jin once told me that good will always triumph over evil because of love. So now
I say, part of me that loves, love him more.
Jin: What?
He must have read that same entry 6 times, trying to make sense of what it all said.
But still, it all came to one conclusion, Ling wanted to love him, perhaps did love him.
It was something he couldn't find himself believing. He slowly closed the diary and
looked at the clock. It was getting very late. He went over to his bed and laid himself down.
Jin: I cant believe this….does she really? But why? Why me, why now?
Rrrrrr….this doesn't make any sense!
He tossed around in his bed and turned to look out the window.
Jin: But why?
He rolled around and turned off his lamp. He then pulled the covers over his head
trying to get some sleep, but it never came. He thought about what the diary letter
had said: part of me that loves, love him more. He then smiled to himself as reality sunk in.
Jin: She loves me…..
He closed his eyes as sleep took control.
Jin: ……..I, I…..I love her too…..but she cant know, she can never know,
not……now…..
