OKAY, NOW I KNOW I LEFT YOU ALL WITH A SAD ENDING, BUT
THAT ONLY MAKES THE STORY GREATER RIGHT? WELL, DON'T
WORRY; I'VE NOT LET YOU DOWN NOW. STAY WITH ME AND
YOU'LL HAVE THE GREATEST "ENDING" EVER! WELL, FIRST, XIAO
HAS HER DIARY BACK, SO WHAT'S THERE TO DO BUT WRITE IN IT!
BY THE WAY, FOR YOUR INFO, THIS IS ALL HAPPENING IN THE
SAME NIGHT. WELL, HERE'S HER ENTRY THAT NIGHT. REAL LIFE
NEXT CHAPTER. WELL, ENJOY!
Date:
Location:
Dear Diary,
Why me? Why must it always be me? These tears I cry, these awful tears. Does he
know I cry them for him? Why must he push me away? Jin! Please know I care for
you! Why, why why?! Jin, please, just give it time. I know that if you give us time i'm
bound to love you! I know I'll love you! Please, I don't care for the fact that you read
this diary, please, please find this. Why don't we have time? Why? What is the hurry?
Is it because of the tournament? Is it because you think you don't have time? What is it?
Oh diary, I don't think I ever cared for some one so much. My heart aches, my whole
body aches. I can't sleep. All I keep thinking about is him. I hope he understands,
I want him to hear me, to see me. Does he love me? Does he really love me? He never
said he did, then why does he want to know how I feel so bad? The way he looked into
my eyes, it was almost like he was looking into my very soul. Do I love him……please,
part of me that loves…why couldn't I tell him?! Why?! I thought I loved him, what is wrong
with me? Why am I not strong? Why don't I love him? PLEASE! I want to, I only want to.
Don't you know Jin? I want to love you, but I cant, I just cant. I'm shaking. Do you know
that? I'm crying, do you care? Do you?……Of course you do, you love me don't you?
If you were only here, you would wrap me in your arms and say, " Don't worry Xiao, it's
alright. Stop shaking, there, you see? It's alright, I'm here." Jin, do you really love me?
Because, if you do, if you tell me, I will love you. I will love only you and no one else, not
even myself. If you just say the words, my heart is yours. But you have to say it yourself.
I will not tell you. There, my mind is made up, all you have to say is three simple words and
I'm yours. I will enjoy it to. I wont be afraid, I will just be safe in your arms every day
and love no one else but you. My heart will be all yours, only if you want it. So, here it is,
will you take it? No, no answer. I will have to ask you myself. But, I will not ask if you
love me, I will ask how you feel, then I will tell you if I love you or not. So now diary,
I will go and see Jin. I will find out what I feel once and for all. Good bye.
Love,
Ling Xiaoyu
