Another chappie for you!!!!! Thanks to those who reviewed!! (anime-queen, Silver, Annachan and firedraygon97!!)
I promise you it'll be some NaruxzSasu!! But maybe for the first toime in chap 4... Or something hehe! But today, I have some kissing for you!! And a littttttttleeeeeee yaoi (sniff... Now that Kakashi is gay I can't have him :'()

disclaimer: I still don't own naruto... If I did I would make the yaoi take over it and Itachi would be desperate in love with Kakashi!!!!!

Anyways.. Enjoy this and R-E-V-I-E-W!!! I love reviews!!! (to bad me only had 4 for chappu one... But it's better than nothing!! Txs again!!)

But now, enough of this silly babbling. Here's chappu 2!!!
and alittle warning... the word "fuck" got kinda stuck in my mind in the end.. gomen :_;;
Chapter 2:love
It was a sunny day. I've always liked the sun. It's warm... Like orange...
No. Don't think about him. Forget.
That was my decision. To forget Naruto, and to leave Konoha village. I decided that two days ago, after my talk with Kakashi.

When we finished painting, it was already late, and the sun was about to set. I walked home alone, as I always do. But I didn't feel like going home to my empty apartment, so I decided so stay out for a while. I climbed up in a tree and let the sunshine stroke my pale skin.
I closed my eyes and thought how I would feel if Naruto sat here with me. How gentle his fingers would leave my cheeks burning when he stroke my hair back, and how soft his lips would be against mine.
I know that they're soft. I have kissed them, although back then when it happened, I had no interest or what so ever in Naruto.
I guess that that kiss awoke the feelings for him inside of me. My burning love for him.
The love that I have to light out and forget.

"But how..."I whispered to myself.
As I started to focus, I heard a voice. A very familiar one..
"Naruttoooo, that's not how to do it!! Concentrate!" It was Sakura, happily yelling at Naruto. I just had to se what was going on.
I jumped over to another tree, silently. Down there, on the ground I could see Naruto and Sakura train. Sakura threw a kunai and said "Catch it!"
Naruto jumped off in perfect timing and caught it. He's stronger than before...
"Good Naruto!" Sakura said and smiled. Naruto scratch the back of his head and said something that kind of sounds like "Hi-hi-hi-hi". One of those typical Naruto sounds that I deeply love.
Then I saw something that killed me.
Sakura laughed and gave Naruto a hug. A hug.
Their bodes slightly touched each other and Naruto's arms was around her waist, and her fingers started to play with the hair on his neck.
It wasn't just a friendly hug, it was something more.
Please kill me... Anyone...
I couldn't stop watching them. Sakura loved me right? So why does she hug the one I love from the bottom of my heart?
The hug only lasted for a few seconds, but those seconds where always burned into my mind forever. I knew that I would stay awake many nights, thinking about it, and how Sakura must have felt by getting hugged by Naruto.

"Ano Sakura... Don't you like Sasuke..?" Naruto asked her, still holding her hands in his. His big warm hands that I've always wished to get touched by. And now, they're holding her hands.
I'll kill her...
I dragged out a kunai and started to aim at Sakura.
Baka Sasuke... He will hate you more if you kill the one he loves...
I sat down and put the kunai back.
"Chikuso..."
"Well Naruto it's like this... I've realised that even if I love Sasuke... I love you too. And knowing that you love me... It just... Makes me love you more..."
From the next thing that happened in front of my eyes, I backed away.
I'll never love again... Never...
It was Sakura kissing Naruto. And Naruto happily kissing her back. I ran away. Just ran, while tears were rolling down my cheeks.
I can't remember ever crying like this before... Naruto... Uzumaki Naruto...
I stopped to catch my breath. I fell down on the ground shivering our of sorrow, and anger towards Sakura.
I closed my eyes. I didn't care anymore. Not about Itachi or anyone else.

Naruto...

I want to die... You killed me...

I sat up and yelled. I tried to yell out all of my pain, but it didn't help.
All I could se was Naruto. Everywhere around me.

He's the reason why you're alive... Your destiny is to love him...

I've always told myself those words. Always.
But now... I wanted to forget.
I got up on my feet and wiped away my tears. I started to walk to Kakashi's house. It was time to tell him that I was going to leave.
To never return.

I knocked carefully or Kakashi's door.
"Who's there?" His lazy voice asked from the other side of the door.
"Me" I answered and tried to hold back my tears. When Kakashi opened the door he saw my tears floating unstoppably out of my eyes. He stepped aside and I walked into his apartment.
I sat down on a sofa in his kitchen.
How well cleaned...
The only thing that looked like it wasn't cleaned was a pile of books on the kitchen table. I saw that all of them had a "paradise" in their names.

Kakashi gave me a glass of water and a napkin to dry away my tears.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" He asked with a friendly voice.
I knew that if I started to talk, I wouldn't be able to stop. It was to much for me to carry by myself.
So I started to tell him about the kiss three years ago. How much I liked it, and wished for it to happen again.
Kakashi listen carefully during my whole story. He didn't interrupt me, he only started to talk when I wasn't able to speak anymore.
"Sasuke... I understand that what you feel for Naruto is strong... But you can't continue like this. You should leave, and let Naruto be with Sakura. If you really love him, you should let him be happy."
Kakashi's words went right into my heart. I knew he was right.
"But where should I go...?" I asked Kakashi and looked into his eyes.
"I now where... I have a relative, a Ninja who lives in the Stone Country. I could send you to him and you can live with him for sometime, and get some practise."
Kakashi smiled towards me.
"Is that... Really ok to do?"
"Of course. I'm your Sensei, I can decide what's best for you."

Finally.. Maybe I can stop suffering... And if I leave I don't have to watch Sakura and Naruto...

"I'd love to go.. Thank you Sensei." I felt relived. A chance to forget Naruto and start over.
"Even if I can get in touch with him today... You have to stay her at least for two days..." Kakashi said.
"What for?" I asked him.
"You need to see that... Naruto doesn't love you... He's with Sakura." Kakashi said sadly. I could tell on the look of his eye that he knew what I was going through.
"Kakashi... You have been through the same, right?" I asked him carefully. "Yes I have. When I was in your age I think. I fell in love with the fourth..." I was shocked by his answer. Kakashi and the fourth??
"Nothing happened actually... More than that he talked to me about it.. And told me that I couldn't love him. So I had to move on. To Iruka." Kakashi said and smiled. Kakashi... and Iruka... Just the thought of them together made me realise that... I wanted that... with Naruto. No! You can't have that... Never.
I got up from the sofa and said good bye to Kakashi.
On my way out, I stopped and asked Kakashi something that popped up in my head. "...Sensei... Do you think I can love someone else than Naruto?"
"Of course." Kakashi answered me.
I didn't believe Kakashi. I knew he was lying. Deep inside of him, he still loves the fourth.

God... Two days of them cuddling together... It made me wanna throw up, and at the same time cry... How could I possible watch Naruto be with her? It hurts...

The next day, I was dragging my feet behind. I didn't really want to go and meet up with them.
Soon there...
"Sasuke-kuuun! Ohayou!" I turned around and saw a smiling Sakura. Naruto was walking behind her, and was looking at her with lovesick eyes. I didn't answer to Sakura, I just walked away.
"Sasuke-kun....?" she asked me.
Get the fuck away from me Sakura...
I could feel that Sakura grabbed my left arm and tried to stop me. "Ano Sasuke-kun... Are you alright?"
I just shook her hand off me and started to walk faster.
"Don't care about him, Sakura. He's just a baka!" Naruto said and then something that sounding like a kiss came from behind.
Kuso...
"O-ha-yo-u!" It was Kakashi's cheerful voice. I looked up in the tree where he was sitting, and saw that his eye didn't have his usual smile. And he looked a lot more tired than usual.
"Sensei?!?! You're here on time!" Sakura said and smiled. She was also holding Naruto's hand. I could see their fingers play and stroking each other. Disgusting.
I looked away to find something else to stare at. I could see two birds building a nest. One of them were very colorful, and the other one was brown.
A male and female... Rule of nature...
I couldn't stay there anymore. It was to painful to watch them.
I turned and gave them a last look. Sakura whispered something in Naruto's ear which made him blush. If I hadn't been in love with Naruto, I would've been happy for them.
I started to run. Away from them. I could here Sakura calling my name and Naruto saying something about. "Leave the baka alone."

It's kinda sissy to run away all the time. Ba-ka~
I stopped and look around. I hadn't been running for that long. I heard someone in the bushes behind me and turned around.
"Sasuke... Don't run..." It was Kakashi that had followed me. I just gave him a death glare. How could anyone want to stay in a situation like that?
Kakashi walked over to me and gave me a hug. Whatta fuck??
"If it hurts that much... Leave now. My brother will gladly take care of you."
"I don't want to say good bye to them." Was my only answer.
"Then don't." Kakashi said and started to walk away. "Meet me at the gate tomorrow morning. At eight. Ok?"
"Yeah whatever." I said and dried away my tears. I'm a cry baby...
"Ja~" Kakashi said as happy as always.
I went home and started to pack. I had no one how long I would stay there, but I really hoped that it would help.

Later that day, I was eating my supper when someone knocked the door. I sighed and got up and opened it. I saw the last person I expected to see.
"Naruto?! What are you doing here?" I asked and tried to keep my voice steady and my face cold.
"I dunno... You just seemed kinda weird today... Are you alright?" He asked and looked a little worried.
"I'm fine."
"Sassuukeee... I know you... Whenever you feel bad you shut yourself in. C'mon, talk to me." Naruto said and smiled. He hates me, right?
" I told you, I'm fine." I looked and Naruto with disgust in my eyes. I remembered where his lips had been, and where his tongue had been. And it wasn't even near me. I closed the door with all of my strength the door and walked back to my ramen. I grabbed the bowl and threw it out of the window. "Fuck you Naruto!!!"
I decided to go to bed and sleep away the anger.

I was walking to the gate and thinking about last night. Why did he come? Why?
The only reason I could find was the he cares about me. But he hates me, I know that for sure. Maybe he came to tease me a little... But he did look worried. I walked right into Kakashi.
"Watch your step..." Kakashi said and looked down on me. I backed of a little and stared back into Kakashi's eye. He smiled at me.
"Me brother's name is Renka. He's a very interesting person..." Kakashi chuckled. "I'll tell Naruto and Sakura that you've left. Ok?"
"Sure." I just wanted to get away from this stupid village.
"Good luck then. And take care. I'll se you in three months!" Kakashi said and patted my shoulder. I was just about to answer, but he left before I even opened my mouth.
I looked out of the gate. My freedom. My life without Naruto. I couldn't wait, but at the same time, I knew that I would miss Naruto. A lot.
I walked out of the gate, and I decided not to look back. To start to forget.

Doneeeeeeeeeeeeeeee hehe!! Send me suggestions and ideas!! My inspiration was kinda gone when mw wrote this.. so this chappu is kinda crappy... *sweatdrops*
I blame it all on my muse!! She refuses to read it!! Just because it's yaoi... Grrrrrrrr damn her!! She doesn't know what she misses...
My head.. hurts.. to much studying... review!! ;)

Ja~~