Yo minna-sama!! Ano.. Me is gonna repost chap 3.. Cause it was nothing like I wanted it to be... ughieeeee.... Me want sasuke to sufferrrrrrrr and sufferrrrrrrrrr. Yes, I am evil :P.

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Chapter 3: Training
It had taken me days to get to the Stone country. I was tired and sick of all of this walking. I wanted to get home and tease Naruto... Naruto...
Now I wish that I would have said good bye to them. After all, I'm not going to see them for three months.
I know that Sakura will be worried like hell, and Naruto... He won't like to see Sakura that worried. Kuso... Why do I always make so stupid decisions? I wish I could turn back time and just say good bye to them. And then, they wouldn't worry about me, and they would be happy.
Happy... When was the last I was happy?
I can't remember...

I felt that I hit something with my head. It was soft and warm.
"Watch your step."
I looked up and saw a man that looked like Kakashi. The only difference was that he didn't have a mask, or a scar.
"You're Sasuke?"
"Yes" I said.
"I'm Hatake Kakatsu, Kakashi's older brother." he said.
"Now, we will begin your training." He continued and smiled evilly.
He walked into the house, and I followed him.
"You can leave your stuff there" he said and pointed to a small room with a bed. "You better go to bed early."
"What for?" I asked.
"You will train in the morning as well. The only way to achieve something is with intense training. You know how strong Kakashi is, ne?"
"Yeah I know..."
"If that lazy boy would train he would be so much stronger... Lazy lazy~" he smiled with his eyes. Just like Kakashi-sensei...

"Now, show me what you got." Kakatsu and I was out in his backyard. He stood a few meters away from me, waiting for me to attack him.
"Sasuke, hit me!!" he yelled. I ran over to him, raised my left arm and pulled out a kunai with my right. I tried to hit his hand with my left hand, but he dodged easily. Before I even had a chance to use my kunai, he had grabbed my right arm and twisted it around. I could my bones crack, and my arm protector became red instead of white. All of the pain made me mad. I wanted to place my fist right in is smiling face.
He grabbed my left shoulder, and pushed it backwards. I could feel my bones being forced away from each other. He had easily dislocated my shoulder. "Kakashi told me that you were fast. Hn." What can I do? What??

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"Oy, Sasukee!! Why are you training by yourself?" Naruto said and walked over to me. I death glared at him and my heart skipped a beat.
"I like to be alone." I said and walked up a tree.
"Hi-hi-hi." Naruto scratched the back of his head. Naruto walked after me. "Ano Sasuke... Don't you ever... feel.. like lonely...?" I turned around and looked at the 14 year old Naruto.
"Sometimes, yes."
"Then what do you do?" Naruto asked.
I closed my eyes. I think about you Naruto... I follow you when you walk home... I look into your window at night.. You're so beautiful when you sleep... So... Peaceful...
I opened them again and looked into Naruto's eyes. I could feel my heart beat faster, and me knees become weak.
"I guess I... try not to think about it..." I said and felt a little sad.
"Soka.. Well, now I'm gonna go home. Se you tomorrow. Ja!" Naruto jumped down the tree, and started to run towards town. He waved to me over his shoulder, and I waved back. Even if he couldn't see it.
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I was being pressed against the ground, and Kakatsu was sitting on my back. My shoulder hurt like shit, and my bones had started to make big holes in the arm protector.
"Sasuke.. What are you thinking about? You're not even trying to get loose." I smiled an evil smile in my head.
Just wait... With my left arm, I pulled out a kunai. I quickly aimed it at his arm, and he dodged it, just as expected.
"Is that all you got?" he asked me.
I forced my right arm to move, and I grabbed another kunai. This time, I was able to stab him in his right arm.
"I didn't see that coming." He said and got off me. "Let's go inside and take care of you injuries."
He helped me up on my feet, and we walked inside. "Sasuke, you're a lot weaker than I thought."
I didn't answer him, I just sat down on a chair next to his table. He grabbed my shoulder. "We better but this back to where it belongs, ne?" he pushed it forward, and a loud clicking sound came from the bones being forced to each other. It hurt like hell. I started to see small black dots on the table. They quickly became more and more. Ants...? I tried to focus on a pair of chopsticks that was on his table, but everything became black. I could feel that my eyes where open, but I saw nothing. "Kuso..." I said and fainted.

I opened my eyes and stared right into a lamp. "Kuso..." I muttered and closed my eyes again. Where am I? Right.. Kakatsu's house... I removed the blanket and sat up. My head started to spin.
"Ohayou Sasuke!" Naruto walked over to me and placed a hand on my shoulder. He sat down next to me and took my right hand. "You're so cute when you're asleep!" He said and moved closer to me. What??? "Hi-hi-hi!" Naruto stroke my cheek and grabbed my chin. He leaned towards me and kissed me gently. I could feel his tongue pushing in between my lips, and I responded quickly.
Naruto moved down his hands and placed them around my waist. I gently placed my hands behind his head and stroke his neck. He leaned back again and blushed.
"Sasuke.. You taste like snow... with vanilla... I like vanilla..." Naruto pulled me closer and kissed me again, this time it felt like he wanted something more.
Naruto... I love you... I love you!

"You know, you sleep talk." I opened my eyes and saw Kakatsu siting down next to my bed. I could feel that my shoulder still hurt, and so did my arm. "Where's Naruto?" I asked and sat up. What?? Wasn't I already sitting up?
"He was never here. Just so you know, you moaned in you sleep and whispered something about that you love him." Kakatsu smiled and walked out of my room. I stroke a finger over my lips it never happened...
"Sasuke! Today we're going to cut trees!" he shouted from the kitchen. "Ano... I've done that with Kakashi-sensei. And besides, cutting trees has nothing to do with chakra." I answered to him.
"I you believe that chakra has nothing to do with it, you're wrong, asual, you pathetic little relic. You know nothing. Now, come and eat breakfast."
Pathetic little relic?? Who does he think he is?!?!

I walked to my bed, half asleep already. The training was much more exhausting than I ever imagined. I was supposed to cut wood with my chakra. And I wasn't allowed to come more than 1m(3 feet) closer to the tree. Though guy. He could do it more than 100 m from the tree.
I fell down on the bed and slept. I didn't even change my clothes.

"Naruto... I want you to be my first..." Sakura said and held his hand and carefully stroke it with her fingertips.
"First?" Naruto asked and looked confused. He was so beautiful that it hurt in my chest.
"Yes... My first... First as in the one who takes my virginity..." Sakura said and smiled. She leaned a little closer to Naruto and put a hand on his thigh.
"I would love to do that, Sakura-chan..." Naruto gently stroke her hair behind her ear.
"Now?" Sakura asked with desire in her voice.
"Now and always..." Naruto kissed her deeply and dragged her close to him. She kissed him back and wrapped her arms around him. He carefully started to remove her dress...


"NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I woke up from my own scream. I was breathing heavily and I was horrified.
"Calm down... Just a dream... Sakura wouldn't asked that, would she?" Just the thought of made me wanna kidnap Naruto and take him far, far away from her. But I knew that that would only make them unhappy... and I want Naturo to smile...
I sighed and went back to sleep. With more dreams about Naruto and the way he would kiss me.

I felt something cold hitting my face. No, not just my face my torso as well. I heard a voice. Someone was yelling. Cooooooooooold... I slowly opened my eyes and looked up. I saw Kakatsu holding a bucket with water and screaming at me to wake up.
"What was that for?!?!" I yelled back.
Then he smiled. He's smiling?!?!
"Ohayou relic." He walked out of my room and shut the door. I just sat in my bed and stared and the door. Why does he do that every morning..? I can't take this much longer...

He completely broke me down. Not my body, but my mind. After a few weeks, and nights, and sat in my bed and cradled my body back and forth while having my arms wrapped around my legs. So week... I don't deserve life anymore... I'm sorry Naruto... For loving you... I don't deserve you...

I never slept much. I lied awake and waited for the cold water. And after he woke me like that, he forced me to use my body to it's limits, and it made me so tired. I just had one meal each day. Dinner. And everyday. Even though it was burnt rise and dry chicken, it tasted like heaven.
But one day... Perhaps when I had a month of training left, the water never came. I got up and peeked out of my room. I could se Kakatsu cook something that smelled lovely in the kitchen. Ramen... "Come and eat relic." He said and placed a bowl on the table. I sneaked out in the kitchen and carefully sat down, avoiding to look at Kakatsu. I grabbed a par of chopsticks and started to eat. It was so delicious... It tasted just like that kiss with Naruto... I closed my eyes and ate my food like someone was going to take it away from me anytime. It happened that Kakatsu did that. Just because he felt like it. Everything he did was based on what he felt like at that moment. If he felt like hitting me, he did. And when that happened, I closed my eyes and focused on an image of Naruto, a smiling Naruto. And then I didn't feel the pain.
Naruto...
"You're supposed to forget him, you know." Kakatsu said and sat down in front of me.
I opened my eyes and looked at him.
"I've realised that it's impossible to forget him completely. But now, I don't feel the same for him. I don't love him as much as I used to..." When I said those words, a pain much worse than the one that made me feel like I was pathetic and weak hit my heart. Right in the middle of it and made a tear slowly slide down my cheek. I quickly wiped it off, but I knew that he saw it.
"Do you know why Kakashi sent you here?"
"To train and forget about Naruto." I said quickly.
"No. To gain mentally strength. So that you can confess to Naruto."
"What? No way... He told me to forget about my lo.. Naruto."
"He told you about the forth, didn't he?"
"Yes he did..."
"Kakashi's never confessed to the forth. That's why he can't completely love Iruka now. He has a lot of pain inside of him, and he can't fix it. He wants to stop you from making the same mistake as he did. After the forth died, Kakashi found a letter. From the forth. Where the forth asked him out... And told him that he had never felt something as strong before as his love for Kakashi. That's why you must confess when you get back." He said and looked sad.
"Naruto hates me. More than anything."
"Perhaps Naruto is like you. He doesn't want you to now, because you might reject him. So he's doing exactly what you're doing to him."
Naruto can't possibly love me... I know that he hates me... I can see it in his eyes...
"Now it's time to gain that strength." Kakatsu grabbed his bowl and placed it the sink.
"Today... We're going to see how strong you are now." He walked out, and I followed him like a dog that follows it's owner.
He stooped in the middle of his garden and held out his left arm.
"Break it. Do it without touching it."
What? Has he gone insane?
"Now Sasuke!!"
I started to concentrate my chakra in my right hand. I'm a chuunin.. Of course I can do this...
The chakra started to form itself into a globe. I held it up and aimed it and his arm. I pushed it away and it didn't take long before I could hear his bone break and see the blood falling down on the ground.
"Good Sasuke. Very good."
I smiled a little for the first time in two months. And then I saw the sunset. The sun was orange and beautiful. Naruto. I'll make you mine someday...

"Sasuke.. It's been a pleasure to have you here. You can come back anytime you want to."
My training here was done. Kakatsu said that I had nothing more to learn here. "I'll be back someday. Not alone I hope."
"Bye." Kakatsu walked into his house and closed his door. I turned around and faced the road that wad going to take me home. I smiled a little and started to run. I wanted to know how everybody was feeling, and if Sakura and Naruto was still together. The way home seemed so short. I ran. I couldn't wait. I wanted to tease that blonde boy. I wanted to look into his eyes again...
I was home right before dawn. I walked in to the village and felt happy. I was home.
I started to walk down a street that led to my apartment. I could hear a voice. It sounded so familiar. I looked at my left and saw Iruka. He was talking to someone that sat in front of him. That someone moved a little, and I saw the wind capture his grey hair and play and a little with it. I hid myself in the bushes behind them.
"Kakashi... I don't want to be second best anymore..."
"Iruka.. You are not..." Both of them sounded sad.
"Yes I am. You love the forth more than you have ever loved me. I can't take this anymore. This is it. This the end for us."
Iruka bend down and gently kissed Kakashi. Kakashi grabbed Iruka's wrist. "Don't leave me…"
"Good bye Kakashi."
Iruka walked away and waved at Kakashi. I heard that Kakashi cried.
"Sasuke.. I hope that you've learned your lesson. Don't be a fool like me. I sent you away for the wrong reason.. I was wrong." Kakashi said and started to walk away.
"Sensei.. Why did you lie about the forth?" I asked him and walked out of the bushes.
"Because I thought I did the right thing.. But I only brought Naruto and you suffering... Enough said now. See you tomorrow at the regular meeting place. Ja." Kakashi left me confused. Why would Naruto suffer?

The next morning I was walking to the meeting place when I heard a familiar voice calling on me. "Sasssssukeeeee-kuuuuuuuuun" Sakura of course. I stopped and turn around to watch her while she ran to me. I saw that.. She was changed.. It was like she was radiating joy.
She gave me a big hug, and for the first time I returned it. "How are you?" She asked me and smiled.
"How's Naruto?" I interrupted her.
She immediately looked a little more sad, and looked at the ground before she spoke.
"He's... changed... He... He's not what he used to be... He doesn't smile..." I could hear in her voice that it was serious.
"Isn't he happy with you?"
She looked up at me and tried to smile. "It was never him and I... I realised that I didn't love him, and he never loved me. It was never meant to be us. My heart belongs to someone else, and so does his."
I was about o say something, when I saw Naruto coming towards us. He was looking down on his feet, lost in his thoughts.
"Ohayou Naruto!" Sakura yelled. He looked up and I saw the sorrow in his eyes. I felt that my heart stopped beating. I didn't want to see him like that. It made me feel like someone was crushing my heart.
"Sasuke..." Naruto whispered. "Ano yaro..." he continued and looked even more sad. "Naruto..." I said and tried to smile. It was impossible. I could feel the pain inside Naruto, and when I looked into his eyes, it was like looking into the eyes of someone who had no reason to live. His eyes were empty. Usually they were smiling, but now... I couldn't look at them.
"Why didn't you say good bye...?" he asked me.
"I'm sorry Naruto... Gomen..."
"Sakura... Tell sensei that I'm going to skip today..." Naruto took off before I had the chance to say something more.
"He has been like that since you left..."
I quickly followed Naruto. I wanted to know what made him so sad. I followed his footsteps he had left on the ground and it didn't take long before I found him. He was leaning against a tree, and he was crying. I walked over to him and placed a hand on his shoulder.
"Get away from me..." he hissed. "Why are you crying?" I asked him gently. "You hurt me Sasuke... You're tearing me apart... I hate you for doing that."
I flinched back from Naruto. Those words was like a knife in my back. He said it... He hates me...
Naruto turned around and looked at me. His eyes was filled with tears and he slowly walked over to me. He grabbed my collar and pulled my face closer to his. With his other hand, he gently stroke my cheek. His touch made my entire body shiver. His hand was burning my skin, and I liked the feeling of it.
"Sasuke... Don't ever come close to me again... Ever..." Naruto said with tears rolling down his cheeks. He pushed me to the ground and walked away. I could still feel his hand on my cheek, and smell his breath.
I watched Naruto's back while he was walking away from me, and I realised that it was to late for me to tell him how I felt. I had done the same mistake as Kakashi did many years ago. I laid down on the ground and released all of my tears.
"Naruto..." I whispered. I could a drip hit my head. Rain... One drip became severeal, and I just laid there, without my reason to live.
"Oy, Sasuke, what are you doing?"
I opened my eyes and saw a pare of tanned feet. He reached out and pulled me up on my feet.
"Sasuke... Why are you crying...?" Iruka said and stroke my cheek. "Is it because of Naruto?" he asked and pulled me a little closer. Oh great Kakashi told him. "Yeah, it is, and there's nothing you can do about it." I pushed him away.
"Sasuke... You should realise that I of all the people understand you the best. I know what it's like to love someone, and get nothing in return." Iruka smiled a smile filled with pain.
"I love you Iruka." It was Kakashi, siting in a tree.
"Koibito... What are you doing here?" Iruka looked at the man when he jumped down. He quickly turned around and shook his head.
"I was... Watching you..." Kakashi said and walked closer to Iruka.
"What for?" Iruka asked and decided to look at Kakashi again. I could see all of Iruka's love for Kakashi pour out of his eyes. And I also saw the same coming from Kakashi. I forgot to breath. Their love... It was so strong...
"Iruka..." Kakashi grabbed Iruka's fingers and stroke them gently. "I love you so much... It's just that.. You know that I'm an idiot... Having you here and treating you like... nothing... I'm sorry..."
"Kakashi, shut up." Iruka said rashly and pulled Kakashi into his arms. He removed the mask and placed a kiss filled with love on Kakashi's lips. I couldn't stop myself from smiling as I walked away.
Naruto... I'm not giving up on you... Wait for me.

Me promise to write the next chappie soon.. when my body and brain is healthyyyyyyyyy!!