Title: Reflections
Author: Orilon
Rating: PG
Pairing: Spike/Xander and a little Spike/Angel
Spoilers: none
Distribution: If you want it, take and let me know where.
Disclaimer: Everything from Buffy the Vampire Slayer belongs to Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy.
Summary: William's thoughts on the events after his staking.
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William was shocked at the behavior of his sire. Of all the things he was expecting, his sire burying his face in his neck and crying was not one of them. And when he told Xander that he was not worth his suicide, he didn't expect his sire's reaction. The sorrow at the fact they were ghosts was the complete opposite from what he thought.
The fact that Xander killed himself because of him being dust was unexpected as well. The two had grown closer in the few months before his staking, but he hadn't thought that when he was gone, Xander couldn't live without him. All the people in both is life and unlife considered him not worth much, tears or otherwise.
He chuckled at the memory of the Slayer's face when Angel went down there and demanded answers as to why she staked him since he was defenseless. The hurt look on her face was priceless when Angel expressed his disgust at her waiting until Spike was unable to fight back to stake him.
William had never thought that his sire would value the Childe/Sire bond over his love of the slayer. Without the demon mocking him for being weak he could easily admit that he loved, never hated, his sire and was deeply hurt when he ran off after he got his soul back. The demon was the one who was nasty to his sire and everyone else because he was trying to protect the fragile heart resting inside.
He hoped that he would still be able to remain in contact with his sire. The feeling of not fighting felt good, and he didn't want to give it up, just as he didn't want to give up the relationship with Xander.
Author: Orilon
Rating: PG
Pairing: Spike/Xander and a little Spike/Angel
Spoilers: none
Distribution: If you want it, take and let me know where.
Disclaimer: Everything from Buffy the Vampire Slayer belongs to Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy.
Summary: William's thoughts on the events after his staking.
Feedback: Please.
William was shocked at the behavior of his sire. Of all the things he was expecting, his sire burying his face in his neck and crying was not one of them. And when he told Xander that he was not worth his suicide, he didn't expect his sire's reaction. The sorrow at the fact they were ghosts was the complete opposite from what he thought.
The fact that Xander killed himself because of him being dust was unexpected as well. The two had grown closer in the few months before his staking, but he hadn't thought that when he was gone, Xander couldn't live without him. All the people in both is life and unlife considered him not worth much, tears or otherwise.
He chuckled at the memory of the Slayer's face when Angel went down there and demanded answers as to why she staked him since he was defenseless. The hurt look on her face was priceless when Angel expressed his disgust at her waiting until Spike was unable to fight back to stake him.
William had never thought that his sire would value the Childe/Sire bond over his love of the slayer. Without the demon mocking him for being weak he could easily admit that he loved, never hated, his sire and was deeply hurt when he ran off after he got his soul back. The demon was the one who was nasty to his sire and everyone else because he was trying to protect the fragile heart resting inside.
He hoped that he would still be able to remain in contact with his sire. The feeling of not fighting felt good, and he didn't want to give it up, just as he didn't want to give up the relationship with Xander.
