Title: Black Widow
Author: Orilon
Rating: PG-13 (for one bad word and light innuendo)
Pairing: Spike/Xander
Spoilers: one for Season 4
Distribution: If you want it, take it and let me know where.
Disclaimer: Everything from Buffy the Vampire Slayer belongs to Joss Whedon
and Mutant Enemy. Characters not from Buffy come from my imagination.
Summary: Xander and Spike learn why Xander was forced to make a choice.
Feedback: Please.
I learned today why the Nevels and Angel fought so hard for me to join their fight. Spike and I were avoiding dead boy by talking a walk away from my sire's crypt when we came across a woman.
I said woman but I meant female Nevel. Black Widow is a rogue Nevel Falcon that turned bad and has been fighting the good Falcons for years. She tried to get me to join her side tonight, saying that I started the same way she did. I scared the hell out of the Falcons by refusing to stake my sire and train with an older falcon because she did the same thing. She refused to train with an older falcon, and her sire twisted her power from good to evil.
The others are afraid that Spike will twist my power like Caleif did hers, and I will fight them like she does. I refused to join her because my soul and instincts were screaming at me. What dead boy and the good falcons didn't realize is my soul is firmly in control and I refuse to feed with Spike. I can eat normal food most of the time and bag it like Angel and Spike, before the chip malfunctioned, when I need blood.
My soul keeps me from killing the good guys like Black Widow. I refuse to get entangled in their little game. I had enough of the good guy vs. bad guy fight from working with Buffy. I'm hoping that I can stay neutral in this.
Spike seems to be respecting my decision in this, but also scared that I'm going to leave. I have to reassure him almost everyday that I'm not going to leave, that I still love him. Every morning I find myself entangled with a cool body. Reassuring himself that I didn't leave during the night and hoping if he's wrapped around me that I won't leave.
My hormones go wild at the feel of the cool skin, and I think that he's trying to remind me of the fact that my lust for him is why I let him turn me. I snort. It was lust in the beginning, but now its full-blown love and the Sire/Childe bond.
I learned today why the Nevels and Angel fought so hard for me to join their fight. Spike and I were avoiding dead boy by talking a walk away from my sire's crypt when we came across a woman.
I said woman but I meant female Nevel. Black Widow is a rogue Nevel Falcon that turned bad and has been fighting the good Falcons for years. She tried to get me to join her side tonight, saying that I started the same way she did. I scared the hell out of the Falcons by refusing to stake my sire and train with an older falcon because she did the same thing. She refused to train with an older falcon, and her sire twisted her power from good to evil.
The others are afraid that Spike will twist my power like Caleif did hers, and I will fight them like she does. I refused to join her because my soul and instincts were screaming at me. What dead boy and the good falcons didn't realize is my soul is firmly in control and I refuse to feed with Spike. I can eat normal food most of the time and bag it like Angel and Spike, before the chip malfunctioned, when I need blood.
My soul keeps me from killing the good guys like Black Widow. I refuse to get entangled in their little game. I had enough of the good guy vs. bad guy fight from working with Buffy. I'm hoping that I can stay neutral in this.
Spike seems to be respecting my decision in this, but also scared that I'm going to leave. I have to reassure him almost everyday that I'm not going to leave, that I still love him. Every morning I find myself entangled with a cool body. Reassuring himself that I didn't leave during the night and hoping if he's wrapped around me that I won't leave.
My hormones go wild at the feel of the cool skin, and I think that he's trying to remind me of the fact that my lust for him is why I let him turn me. I snort. It was lust in the beginning, but now its full-blown love and the Sire/Childe bond.
