CHAPTER 35 November Rain

Fox drove home as fast as he could. What he had learned, he had to tell Teresa. They could have a life together with their son. He still didn't know how it was possible, but DNA didn't lie.

"Where's Teresa?"

Gwen was sitting on the floor playing with her son.

"She went down to the beach with little Ethan."

"What about Paloma?"

"Dylan called her."

He looked at her scratching his head.

"Dylan?"

"Yes, I know....kind of weird."

"I know. Anyway, got to find Teresa."

Gwen smiled.

"Make it happen, Fox."

"I hope I can."

He left the house and walked down to the beach where he saw Teresa playing with their son in the sand. He saw him take a handful of it in his tiny hand and bring it to his mouth. Teresa pushed it down in time.

"Sweetie, you can't put sand in your mouth, it's yucky."

She smiled at the little face.

"Teresa?"

She looked up.

"Oh, it's you."

He was disappointed by her reaction to him.

"We need to talk."

"There's nothing to talk about."

"Yes there is. Don't you want to know how I feel about you?"

When I look into your eyes,
I can see a love restrained,
But darlin' when I hold you,
Don't you know I feel the same,

'Cause nothing lasts forever,
and we both know hearts can change,
And it's hard to hold a candle,
In the cold November rain,

"I think that you made your feelings very clear when you slept with my best friend."

"No, I slept with Whitney because I thought I felt something for her. I didn't sleep with her to hurt you."

She didn't say anything, but she watched as her son crawled to Fox and sat beside him. Fox fixed the hat on his head. Again, Teresa was taken aback by how much they looked alike.

"That's beside the point, Fox. You should never allowed yourself to go after her in the first place."

"You mean like you went after Ethan when he was engaged, before he got married and how you destroyed what he had with Gwen?"

We've been through this auch a long long time ago,
Just tryin' to kill the pain,

But lovers always come and lovers always go,
And no one's really sure who's lettin' go today,
Walkin' away,

"That's not fair."

"Maybe you're not been fair to me either."

"I never hurt you that way."

"Yes, you did."

If I could take the time,
To lay it on the line,
I could rest my head,
Just knowing you were mine,
All mine,
So if you want to love me,
Then darlin' don't refrain,
Or I'll just end up walkin',
In the cold November rain,

"No, I didn't."

"What about when you were dating Dylan?"

"I never did it to hurt you. He was a distraction for me. He was fun to be around."

"He also got you drunk hoping to get you in bed."

She looked at him and felt tears forming behind her eyes.

"Fox, I don't think you and I will happen."

"What? Do not shut me out now that everything can be perfect. Don't do this to us."

Do you need sometime...on your own,
Do you need sometime...all alone,
Everybody needs sometime,
On their own,
Don't you need sometime...all alone,

"We never existed Fox. I can't destroy something that never existed."

"Yes, we did, we do exist. The night I kissed you and felt my heart burn for you and you felt fire inside of you. We existed before that moment. We existed the first time I arrived in Harmony and the first time I spoke to you. don't you feel the connection we have?"

"I think my sister, Gwen and Chad pushed the idea of me on you. I don't think you feel that way."

"I'm moving out of the beach house."

He was stunned by what she had just said.

"And where will you go?"

"I don't know yet."

"Don't do anything stupid, Teresa."

She got up and picked up her son.

"Why do you automatically assume that I will do something stupid?"

"Because you act on impulse. You just said that you don't think we will workout when I know exactly how you feel about me."

"You're a mind reader now?"

"No, but I know what I felt each time I held you and I know that you felt it too."

I know it's hard to keep an open heart,
When even friends seem out to harm you,
But if you could heal a broken heart,
Wouldn't time be out to charm you,

Do you need sometime...on your own,
Do you need sometime...all alone,
Everybody needs sometime,
On their own,
Don't you need sometime...all alone,

"What if you're mistaken?"

"I'm not. I know how I feel. I'm just surprised that you are lying to yourself where your feelings for me are concerned. It's not like you to push them away."

"And you can't project what feel onto me, Fox."

"Maybe not, but I want us to built a life together."

"No, I'm tired of been hurt, Fox."

"You think I'm not?"

And when your fears subside,
And shadows still remain,
I know that can love me,
When there's no one left to blame,
So never mind the darkness,
We still can find a way,
'Cause nothing lasts forever,
Even cold November rain,

"Fine, maybe it's too soon for you. But think of your son, think of our son."

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me Teresa, I'll be damned if I let my son grow up the way I did."

"Your son? What are you talking about?"

"DNA doesn't lie. We share a son you and I."

She looked at him not understanding.

"I don't know how it's possible, but he looks like me and he even had the same birth mark as me. I feel connected to him and he shares my DNA."

She walked away with her baby in her arms.

"Where the hell are you going?"

"I need to be alone.

He watched her as she walked back to the house holding their son in her arms.

"We haven't solved anything."

Don't ya think that you need somebody,
Don't ya think that you need somebody,
Everybody needs somebody,

It was his turn to go back to their house.

"God, how is this going to work out?"

(November Rain: Guns and Roses.)