CHAPTER 39 Good Bye.

Teresa helped Fox to his room. She sat down on his bed to catch her breath for a second. She saw Fox struggling with his clothes.

"Here, let me help you."

"No, I can manage."

She undid the buttons of his shirt without saying anything to him. She pulled in down to see that there was blood underneath.

"What has gotten into the 2 of you anyway?"

"Nothing. We are brothers. We are bound to fight."

"But this was more than a fight Fox."

She undid his pants and let them fall to the floor. He held her shoulder as he got out of them. She went to one of his drawers and pulled out a clean pajama. She put it on his bed and went to his bathroom to get some things to clean his wounds.

When she came back and kneeled in front of him. She took the bottle of peroxide and the cotton balls and started cleaning the founds he had on his chest, slowly and gently. He felt every single one of her moves. Many times since he learned that little Ethan was his son, he imagined what it was like to have her in his arms and make love to her.

"I cannot believe what I walked in on. You could have been seriously injured!"

"I wasn't fighting back, that's why I'm like this right now."

She moved behind his and looked at his back. There were several cuts and she did the same thing. Then she was done.

"You should lay down."

"I want you to stay with me Teresa."

"I can't. I have something to do."

"What? Be with Ethan?"

She looked at him. She couldn't believe that after all this time he still threw that in her face.

"Yes, I'm going to Ethan."

She left the room wanting to slam the door, but she changed her mind remembering that her son was sleeping down the hall. She went downstairs and found Ethan sitting in the living room across from Gwen who was eying him like she wanted to choke the life out of him.

"Let's go Ethan."

"What do you want to talk about?"

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Teresa and Ethan walked on the beach. It was a beautiful night. She wished she was with Fox instead. She stopped and faced Ethan.

"I should have done this a long time ago."

"What are you talking about?"

"Giving you back your freedom."

He looked at her not understanding a thing that was coming out of her mouth.

"You see, I fell in love with you a long time ago..."

"And I love you too."

"No, don't interrupt me...please. I fell in love with you a long time ago, but I've also fallen out of love with you."

He looked at her in disbelief.

"No, that's impossible. You said that you would always love me."

"And I do. You will always be a part of my life and of my heart, but it just doesn't belong to you anymore."

"And who does it belong to? My loser of a brother?"

"He is not a loser, Ethan."

"How can you say that? He got you pregnant."

"We were both innocent in this mess."

"A mess? You created this mess. You went to Julian and let him get you drunk..."

"I went to Julian because of you. If Rebecca hadn't send that letter to the tabloid, none of this would have happened. But you know what? I'm glad it happened." "What? You're glad that both our lives are a mess?"

"You created your own mess Ethan. You had a wife and you have a son and you decided to walk out on them. At least my mess is starting to sort out. I know who my son's father is."

"Yes, don't remind me."

Good bye to you,
Good bye to everything that I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
The one thing that I tried to hold on to,

"The point of this conversation was for me to tell you that whatever feelings I ever had for you are now gone. I'm letting go of the past."

"You can't do this Teresa."

"Yes, I can and I will."

And when the stars fall,
I will lie awake,
You're my shouting star.

"Tell me one thing..are you in love with my half brother?"

She looked at him with a sad look in her eyes.

"I don't know, Ethan. I just don't know.

She walked back to the beach house and once inside she looked around her. Everything was so quiet. She went upstairs and went in Fox's room. She sat beside him and watched his chest rise as he breathed. She looked at him feeling guilty. She leaned in and kissed him softly on the lips. She put a note on his nightstand.

"I am so sorry for what I'm about to do, Fox. It's for your own good, I promise. I need to find myself and I don't want you to be hurt in the process. I think that I've hurt you enough already, you don't need anymore. I have to come into my own, and I need to take our son with me."

She kissed him again and left. She walked into little Ethan's room and took him out of his crib and left the mansion. She got in her car and dialed the airport number.

"What time is your next flight for Boston leaving?"

She looked at her sleeping son and gave a last glance to the beach house. She had some very good times there. But she was confused and had to get away from everyone. Home seemed to be the next stop.