CHAPTER 42
Passion
"Hi, Fox."
He looked at her then at his son who was asleep in her arms.
"Here, Teresa. Let me take him to his room."
"No, Paloma. I want to do it."
Paloma looked at Fox and shook her head.
"I think you should stay and talk."
Paloma took her nephew from his mother's arms and pushed Teresa inside the house where Fox was staring at her as thought she was some apparition. They watched her go up the stairs and then walked to the living room where they stood on opposite sides looking at each other, neither one of them knowing where or how to start.
"Teresa and Fox are in the living room right now."
Gwen smiled at Paloma. She was dialing the number of a pizza place and wondered for the hundredth time why it wasn't on speed dial.
"Good job, Paloma. I never thought you would be able to convince her to come back."
"And I didn't think you'd get Fox to leave his office."
"I guess it's a good sign that they not yelling or breaking things."
"That might also mean that they're not talking, Gwen."
"Do you think we should help it along?"
"I think that we should stay out of it for now."
Teresa started walking wanting to go outside for some air, instead she found herself standing in front of Fox studying his face. She walked away.
"What Teresa? Are you running away again?"
She turned around and he saw tears were starting to form in her eyes.
"Why did you leave, Teresa?"
She didn't answer his question.
"Why did you leave? If it's this place, then I would have gone with you."
She shook her head.
"Say something, Resa."
She burst in tears and had to sit down. She was sobbing violently, shaking uncontrollably. The old wounds were still so fresh and the new ones were still wide open. She got up still shaking and walked to Fox. She took his hand in hers.
"I thought I could make the hurt stop and my pain go away, but it got worst. I can't live like this, Fox. I can't go on like this. I feel that I have no control over anything. I am so damaged inside, Fox. I barely recognize myself."
My heart is at a low,
I'm so much to manage,
I think you should know that,
I've been damaged,
I'm falling in love,
There's one disadvantage,
I think you should know that I've been damaged,
He took her in his arms and held her as she cried and cried.
"Look at me Teresa, don't you think I've been damaged too? At least you have a family that cares about you and loves you. I have nothing, absolutely nothing. I think I can understand how you're feeling. I will never do to you what Ethan did. You'll always have me. This is a guarantee, and I don't want you to run away everytime something is wrong between us."
He led her outside where they sat by the pool where they could both have some air and where Paloma and Gwen wouldn't be able to eavesdrop.
"I want us to be what we were when everything was so easy, Fox. I miss what we had."
"I miss it too, but things are different between us now. We have a child together. We have to function differently now. But I think that we have a solid foundation to built something durable."
She got up and sat on his lap as she often did. She wrapped her arms around his neck and rested her head on her shoulder.
"I wish things would uncomplicated themselves."
"So do I. I knew your feelings for me would change once you remembered everything, but that's fine. I think our priority is to raise our son."
She go up and leaned on the railing. She stared into the deep blue of the ocean.
"What if my feelings for you haven't changed, Fox?"
He got up and stood next to her.
"I guess it would be pretty good if they were still the same or even stronger but I don't want us to jump into this head first."
She looked at him disappointed and for a second, he saw it.
"I'm sorry, this was a mistake. I should have stayed away from here. I shouldn't have come back."
And I really, really, really care,
And I really, really, really want you,
And I think I'm kinda scared,
Cos I don't want to lose you,
If you really, really, really care,
Then maybe you can hang through,
I hope you understand,
She was walking back to go inside when he grabbed her arm. Instantly, she turned around and faced him.
"Please, let go of me."
"No, because if I do that you might walk out of my life forever and I can't let you."
"Fox, I'm no good for you."
"Why would you say that?"
"Look at me. The Teresa you met in Harmony is dead and buried. I'm changed."
"Are you? I mean maybe to a certain extent you have changed, but we all do. The things that matter to you are still the same. You still have the same hopes and dreams. Your son is still your first priority and you love him more than you love anyone else. This is what makes you who you are Teresa. The rest doesn't matter to me. You have passion for so many things.."
"I have passion for you."
"What?"
They were facing each other, inches apart. Fox closed the gap between them.
"I said I feel passion for you."
"As do I."
She touched his face. It was warm and rough because he hadn't shaven. She liked him that way. He took her hand and brought it to his lips, but it wasn't enough. He leaned in and took her lips with his in a storm. It was like electricity had coursed from his body to hers and she felt it. She pulled away from his and gazed into his eyes.
"Where do we go from here, Fox?"
"Wherever the road leads us, Teresa."
In a corner, both Gwen and Paloma were smilling at what they had just witnessed.
"What do you think, Gwen?"
"Friendship turns into passion.."
Paloma looked at Gwen with squinting her eyes.
"You see, I think it's already more than passion. I think it' love."
"As long as they are willing to admit that they really feel something for each other, then we can call it a small victory."
They giggled.
"Where the hell is that pizza anyway? I'm starved."
"Do you think they'll be joining us?"
They watched as Fox jumped from the railing and helped Teresa down. They watched as he held her in his arms. They watched him as he put her down on the sand like she was a delicate flower. They held hands and walked on the beach where they sat down side by side and Teresa leaned her head on his shoulder.
"I think we'll be eating alone."
"Yeah, I thought so too."
"Hi, Fox."
He looked at her then at his son who was asleep in her arms.
"Here, Teresa. Let me take him to his room."
"No, Paloma. I want to do it."
Paloma looked at Fox and shook her head.
"I think you should stay and talk."
Paloma took her nephew from his mother's arms and pushed Teresa inside the house where Fox was staring at her as thought she was some apparition. They watched her go up the stairs and then walked to the living room where they stood on opposite sides looking at each other, neither one of them knowing where or how to start.
"Teresa and Fox are in the living room right now."
Gwen smiled at Paloma. She was dialing the number of a pizza place and wondered for the hundredth time why it wasn't on speed dial.
"Good job, Paloma. I never thought you would be able to convince her to come back."
"And I didn't think you'd get Fox to leave his office."
"I guess it's a good sign that they not yelling or breaking things."
"That might also mean that they're not talking, Gwen."
"Do you think we should help it along?"
"I think that we should stay out of it for now."
Teresa started walking wanting to go outside for some air, instead she found herself standing in front of Fox studying his face. She walked away.
"What Teresa? Are you running away again?"
She turned around and he saw tears were starting to form in her eyes.
"Why did you leave, Teresa?"
She didn't answer his question.
"Why did you leave? If it's this place, then I would have gone with you."
She shook her head.
"Say something, Resa."
She burst in tears and had to sit down. She was sobbing violently, shaking uncontrollably. The old wounds were still so fresh and the new ones were still wide open. She got up still shaking and walked to Fox. She took his hand in hers.
"I thought I could make the hurt stop and my pain go away, but it got worst. I can't live like this, Fox. I can't go on like this. I feel that I have no control over anything. I am so damaged inside, Fox. I barely recognize myself."
My heart is at a low,
I'm so much to manage,
I think you should know that,
I've been damaged,
I'm falling in love,
There's one disadvantage,
I think you should know that I've been damaged,
He took her in his arms and held her as she cried and cried.
"Look at me Teresa, don't you think I've been damaged too? At least you have a family that cares about you and loves you. I have nothing, absolutely nothing. I think I can understand how you're feeling. I will never do to you what Ethan did. You'll always have me. This is a guarantee, and I don't want you to run away everytime something is wrong between us."
He led her outside where they sat by the pool where they could both have some air and where Paloma and Gwen wouldn't be able to eavesdrop.
"I want us to be what we were when everything was so easy, Fox. I miss what we had."
"I miss it too, but things are different between us now. We have a child together. We have to function differently now. But I think that we have a solid foundation to built something durable."
She got up and sat on his lap as she often did. She wrapped her arms around his neck and rested her head on her shoulder.
"I wish things would uncomplicated themselves."
"So do I. I knew your feelings for me would change once you remembered everything, but that's fine. I think our priority is to raise our son."
She go up and leaned on the railing. She stared into the deep blue of the ocean.
"What if my feelings for you haven't changed, Fox?"
He got up and stood next to her.
"I guess it would be pretty good if they were still the same or even stronger but I don't want us to jump into this head first."
She looked at him disappointed and for a second, he saw it.
"I'm sorry, this was a mistake. I should have stayed away from here. I shouldn't have come back."
And I really, really, really care,
And I really, really, really want you,
And I think I'm kinda scared,
Cos I don't want to lose you,
If you really, really, really care,
Then maybe you can hang through,
I hope you understand,
She was walking back to go inside when he grabbed her arm. Instantly, she turned around and faced him.
"Please, let go of me."
"No, because if I do that you might walk out of my life forever and I can't let you."
"Fox, I'm no good for you."
"Why would you say that?"
"Look at me. The Teresa you met in Harmony is dead and buried. I'm changed."
"Are you? I mean maybe to a certain extent you have changed, but we all do. The things that matter to you are still the same. You still have the same hopes and dreams. Your son is still your first priority and you love him more than you love anyone else. This is what makes you who you are Teresa. The rest doesn't matter to me. You have passion for so many things.."
"I have passion for you."
"What?"
They were facing each other, inches apart. Fox closed the gap between them.
"I said I feel passion for you."
"As do I."
She touched his face. It was warm and rough because he hadn't shaven. She liked him that way. He took her hand and brought it to his lips, but it wasn't enough. He leaned in and took her lips with his in a storm. It was like electricity had coursed from his body to hers and she felt it. She pulled away from his and gazed into his eyes.
"Where do we go from here, Fox?"
"Wherever the road leads us, Teresa."
In a corner, both Gwen and Paloma were smilling at what they had just witnessed.
"What do you think, Gwen?"
"Friendship turns into passion.."
Paloma looked at Gwen with squinting her eyes.
"You see, I think it's already more than passion. I think it' love."
"As long as they are willing to admit that they really feel something for each other, then we can call it a small victory."
They giggled.
"Where the hell is that pizza anyway? I'm starved."
"Do you think they'll be joining us?"
They watched as Fox jumped from the railing and helped Teresa down. They watched as he held her in his arms. They watched him as he put her down on the sand like she was a delicate flower. They held hands and walked on the beach where they sat down side by side and Teresa leaned her head on his shoulder.
"I think we'll be eating alone."
"Yeah, I thought so too."
