Chapter 6

"Let go of me!" Dawn practically screamed. Buffy had dragged her half way home already after catching her in bed with Spike. Buffy continued on, ignoring her younger sister's comment to release her arm. "I said, let go!" Dawn shouted firmly yanking her wrist out of her sister's hand with all the strength she had.

Buffy sighs before turning to face her sister. Dawn looks at her intently breathing heavily. Buffy looks like she is about to explode. Her fists were clenched to her side. She sighs and strokes her brow. "Dawn." She states calmly.

"What the hell were you thinking?!" Buffy explodes raising her hands in the air out of frustration.

Dawn glared at her as if she was the craziest person she had every meet.

"How the hell could you have sex with Spike?" Buffy inhales running her hands through her hair. "God, Dawn how could you let him touch you. He's a vampire, he's evil." Buffy shakes her head in disbelief. "I never knew he could be this sick."

Dawn stood still the entire time as Buffy ranted on about Spike. "How the hell can you talk?" Dawn asked defensively.

Buffy looked at her confused. " What are you talking about?" She asked. * Dawn couldn't know about me having sex with Spike. She can't. * She thought

Dawn smiled wickedly walking up to her older sister. She looked her in the eyes. "You know what I talking about."

Buffy's eyes filled with tears. * She knew* she thought. Buffy's face went from angry to shocked and ashamed.

Dawn loved her sister with all her heart but she wasn't going to be talked to as if she had done one of the most horrible things in the world when it was the most beautiful experience of her life. All she wanted to do was hold her sister and wipe her tears away but she wasn't going to fold. Buffy needed to be told some trusts about herself and Spike whither she liked it or not.

Buffy, who are you exactly trying to convince that Spike is evil, yourself or I? Dawn asked.

Buffy said nothing as Dawn continued her assault. You try and convince yourself that he can't love anything or anybody, he's evil, he's a monster. Why are you sleeping with him?" Dawn asks calmly. Tears began to stream down Buffy's face.

"He loves me." Dawn stated. Buffy looked at her with disbelief, her angry quickly coming back.

"Dawn, Spike doesn't know anything about love!" Buffy shouts trying to knock some sense into her sister. "All he does is obsess. The only thing he's capably of is pain and hurt." Buffy face turned into determination. "And I'll be damned if I let him hurt me."

Dawn smiles sadly. "It's not your choice." Buffy looks at her intently. "Buffy you don't control me. I love Spike and you can't stop that. "

Buffy opened her mouth to object but Dawn was not finish. "You feel in love with Angel when you were 16, yeah he had a soul, but I know that Spike would never hurt me that's not a question, and you know it. You try and convince yourself that he's a monster but you sleep with him anyway."

"Dawn that's enough." Buffy says not wanted to face facts about what she's been doing with Spike.

Dawn doesn't let up. "Why do you come back, why do you come back for more?" She asks leaning in closer to look into to Buffy which are quickly turning dark.

"That's enough!" Buffy hissed trying to control her angry.

"What is it Buffy, huh?" Dawn smile wickedly. "Is it his cold and musculair body against yours?" She asks." Does he get you so hot you can't help yourself?"

That was it. This threw Buffy over the edge. "Dawn that is enough!" She yelled before slapping Dawn across the face.

Dawn looked at her with shock. and tears in her eyes. Buffy did the same, putting a hand over her mouth. *Oh, God what have I done*. She thought.

"Oh, Dawnie, I'm so sorry." Buffy rushed to comfort her sister. Dawn jerked out of her reach holding her now throbbing jaw.

Dawn shook her head in disgust. "I thought Spike was the one who was suppose to hurt me?"

Sobs escaped out of Buffy's throat.

Dawn didn't stick around to talk anymore she took off toward her home, running as fast as her feet would take her.

Buffy watched as Dawn ran away. She didn't move, she didn't know what to do she just wished that her mom was here.

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Dawn ran non-stop all the way home. When she entered the Summers' home she did not stop to answer the calls of Willow as she ran upstairs to her room and slammed the door to her bedroom. When she entered the safety of her room she fall onto her bed and let out all the tears she had been holding for so long.

Willow could hear Dawn's cries from the outside of her door. Something told her to go in and comfort her but, she knew something had happened with her and Buffy so she decided to wait for her bestfriend to explain.

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Buffy walked around, trying to clear her mind. It had already been a couple of hours since the scene with Dawn and she really didn't want to go home and face her just yet so she decided that she would kill some vamps. That would definitely make her feel a little better. Kicking ass was the best comfort food for a slayer.

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Dawn popped Destiny's Child's CD: Survivor into her player. She didn't want to feel more depressed but she needed some music, it was the only thing that made her feel alive, that and a certain blonde vampire that she was already missing like crazy. She pressed number 11 on the CD player. "Dangerously In Love."

I love you... I love you, I love you

Baby I love you, you are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete if you weren't by my side
You're my relation and connection to the sun
With you next to me, there's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops, I am the seed
With you and God who's my sunlight I'm blooming, grown so beautifully
Baby I'm so proud, proud to be your girl
You make the confusion go all away from this cold and misty world


I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

Dawn plobbed back on her bed and thought about the man she loved and how her life had changed so much.

I know you love me, love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am, baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy, easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife and I see my whole future in your eyes
Lord of all my love for you, sometimes makes me wanna cry
Realize all of my blessings, I'm grateful to have you by my side

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me


Every time I see your face, my heart smiles
Every time it feels so good, it hurts sometimes
Created in this world to love,
to hold, to feel, to breathe, to live you
Dangerously in love, yeah

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me


Dangerously (dangerously)
Dangerous, dangerously in love with you
Oh, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you.. oh yes..

Dawn eyes grew heavy, so much crying had wore her out. *So, so tired. * She thought before drifting off. Dawn fell asleep oblivious to the figure outside.

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Spike looked at Dawn through her window as she drifts off. *Cor, I wish I were there with you Nibblet. Just to touch you, smell you. * Spike thought. It took all of his strength to not climb through the window and wrap his arms around her, but he couldn't. The only thing standing in his way was Buffy. Something had to be done because he wasn't about to give up on the one good thing in his un-dead life without a fight.

Spike took one last look at the sleeping figure on the bed before leaping out of the tree and onto the ground. With a sigh Spike walked back to his crypt.