She rolled over again, unable to get comfortable once again. She was comfortable in the bed a few minutes ago, but she couldn't sleep. Hell, comfortable or not…she just couldn't rest! She missed her tousan so. She had fallen asleep earlier, but had woken up by about twelve. Cursing in Saiyanese, she sat up and glared at the wall in front of her as though it was its fault. Oooh! What am gonna do? I don't want to stay awake until the early hours of the morning! I know I'll feel and look like crap! But I won't be able to sleep until I get home! She knew that she wouldn't be able to sleep without her tousan, as she knew that these were the years in which the bond was at its strongest, but weak as well. In other words, the bond was so strong that they could still feel each other. But it was weak in that they just can't go without each other. She hissed as she rested her head in her hands and her elbows on her knees.
"What am I gonna do?" she whispered to herself, so that she wouldn't wake up Trunks, Goten and Pan. "I can't just sit here and wait for sleep to overcome me. But then," she thought as she looked out the window. "I can't go back home. Not now anyway. Even if I did, they'd want to know how I got home." She rolled her head around in her hands for a bit, thinking of a solution. Finally, one came to her. "I know! I can train! Maybe that'll make me tired so that I can fall asleep!" she said as she silently hopped out of bed. "And even if it doesn't…I'll still get training out of it." Gojita silently slipped on the costume and the saiyan armor and silently flew out the window to her training grounds. Nobody felt her leave for the night. Well, almost nobody.
Goku was lying down, worried that Vegeta would come back any time, see him lying in his bed and kick him out, screaming at him and reminding what had happened between them. Then, he felt it. A ki. More accurately…Gojita's ki! Goku jumped out of bed, clad only in a pair of orange ki pants, to see Gojita go flying past his window.
"Where is she going?" he asked himself. "Well, I'm going to find out!" Putting on his boots, he opened the window and took off after Gojita. The night air was warm, but cold as well. He couldn't see her, but he could definitely feel her. And her ki was tremendous! He had thought that Goten and Trunks were born with high ki levels…let me tell you, she was far beyond that! In fact, she seemed a little beyond their maximum. Goku didn't waste any time in reaching her. When he arrived in the area, he saw Gojita sparring fiercely with an imaginary enemy. He was rapt with fascination at the power of this chibi. His chibi. His daughter. As he watched her fly across the area, using a highly complicated combination of kicks and punches-something that only Vegeta, Piccolo and himself could do-he noticed that the area seemed very familiar to him. It was like he had been there before. Then, it hit him…hard!
Goku went flying across the area, and then headfirst into a cliff. Gojita lowered herself down, glaring at this 'spectator'. It was only after he emerged from the rubble, did she recognise him.
"Oh! Kaasan!" she blurted out surprisedly as she ran over to him. "I…I didn't know it was you."
"Uh…that's okay." He said as she helped him up.
"What are you doing here?"
"The question is, what are you doing here?" Gojita dropped her gazed as she looked away. Inside, she was contemplating on whether to answer honestly or not. But she knew she didn't have any other choice, as any excuse was not good enough, and even the ones she thought up were worse than the one before.
"I came here to train." She said, putting her hands behind her back. It was her own trademark gesture, like Goku putting his hands behind his head and Vegeta's constantly crossed arms. "I couldn't sleep, so I came here to tire myself out…if that's possible." Goku nodded. He could sense that she wasn't covering up her power, so he could tell that she was near the level he and Vegeta were.
"Man, he's been training you." He blurted out without thinking. He quickly clamped his hands over his mouth, but it was too late. Gojita perked her head up and looked at him with an interested look in her eyes.
"Nani?" she asked. "Do you know my tousan?" she asked. Goku shook his head.
"Iie. I don't know Vege…oops!!" he yelped when he realised he had blurted out more than he could afford. Gojita was now convinced that this was her kaasan. She narrowed her eyes accusingly. Goku gulped as he backed away.
"You do know my tousan, don't you!" she declared. "You said his name! You know who I am! You know! You know!!" Goku didn't know how to react to this. He knew that she knew that he knew [Hoo-boy! This is confusing!].
"I don't!!" he yelled back, but he yelled and that was his big mistake. He had now totally convinced Gojita that he was hiding that he was her kaasan. She frowned her Vegeta frown and she crossed her arms. Goku couldn't help but swallow hard as he noticed that she looked like Vegeta when he wasn't convinced. And the suit didn't help either.
"I don't believe you." She said bluntly. Goku took this as her Vegeta side kicking in. "I tell you what," She said. "We'll battle for it."
"Nani??!"
"If you win, that means you were telling the truth and you don't know jack-shit about my tousan or anything else about me." She narrowed her eyes. "But if I win, then you have to tell the truth!" Goku wanted to tell her that that was the truth, but he knew he was lying once again. I've lied too many times already, he thought as he remembered breaking up with Vegeta and keeping the secret to himself, afraid of the danger lurking therein. I can't do it again! Not to my own daughter! But…I can't tell her the truth! She'll want to ask questions on why I abandoned her and left her with Vegeta! Goku clenched his fists as inside, his thoughts tossed and turned. He made his decision.
"Iie! I will not fight against you!" he wasn't only doing it to keep the secret away from her, but also because he didn't want to hurt her. But Gojita wasn't pleased. In fact, she scowled deeply, baring her extra long fangs.
"Fine! If you won't…then I will!!"
Without warning, she attacked and headbutted Goku in his gut. Goku bent double and then got a nasty uppercut in the jaw. He went flying up and then got hit back down into the ground by Gojita. She hovered high, hoping that would get him to fight. In a way, it did. Goku flew up from the crater and hovered opposite her.
"You do know what you're getting into?" he asked as he wiped a dribble of blood flowing down from his lower lip. She glared at him.
"I don't care!!" she screamed. "I will get you to tell me the truth…even if I have to die to know it!!" Goku was very taken back by this. He knew that Vegeta always put his life on the line when it came to fighting, be it a friendly spar or a fight to save the Earth. And it seemed Gojita was doing the same. Obviously because she had been raised by Vegeta.
"What??! You'll what??"
"I said, I will die to get the truth!" she repeated. Goku stared at the chibi, obviously dumbstruck. He knew that she knew that he was her kaasan, and that he knew that she was a full-blooded saiyan. And what he had blurted out earlier told her that he knew her tousan, which meant he was her kaasan. Goku didn't know which was worse; the knowing that she knew or the idea of having to tell her. He couldn't fight her; not like this. Sighing he lowered himself down. Gojita could feel that he had given in, and followed him down. Goku dropped down to the ground and walked to the edge of the cliff. He sat down so that his back would be facing her, and he wouldn't have to see the horrific reactions of her face when he told her that he had left her by her tousan because he was scared of what everyone else would think.
"Gojita…" he started. " I want you to know what I'm going to tell you is the absolute truth. I've hidden from it long enough, and you were the last person I ever expected to demand it from me in such a way." There was silence, but he could feel her eyes boring into his back.
"More twenty-five years ago, I met my brother, Raditz. He was part of Frieza's empire and he told me that I was a saiyan and that he wanted me to join with him. I declined, and in the end, died. I was to train and prepare in the other dimension, training to take on the other two saiyans who were coming to Earth. The one was…"
"Nappa, Saiyan Elite, head commander of the Saiyan Army. And Vegeta, the Saiyan no Ouji." She said, showing that she had heard this part before, telling him in silence that this was proving that what she had said before was right.
"Hai. After we defeated them on Earth, Vegeta left to go and find the dragonballs on…"
"Namek. Hai, I know all about what happened there with tousan's former master. I know what happened with the Jinzouningen, Cell, Babidi, Buu and tousan's Majin form." She said calmly. "I want to know what happened after all that. Onegai…" Goku couldn't see her face, and by the tone of her voice, he didn't want to. She sounded like she was on the verge of tears. He was hoping he could drawl this out so that she would lose interest, but it seems she had just cut to the chase. He nodded, taking in a deep breath as he prepared to tell her what he had been holding in for the past six/seven years.
"Fine," he started. "Saa…it happened from long time ago. I remember laying my eyes on him for the first time, when I first met him. Of course, back then I couldn't just leapt over to him and make out. And, I didn't get the chance to after that either. There were just so many battles, one after the other. And the time we did spend together would be to train. I thought he didn't love me, even though I loved him. At first, I was very confused by what I wanted. I knew I had a good family, even though Chichi's insistent screaming almost made me snap her head off. I knew my chances were slim. Not only did I now have two sons, but Vegeta had one as well.
"I couldn't just drop them and leave them there! I had to be a father to them. But, there was a time when Bulma and Vegeta's relationship wasn't working out, and he began to spend more time with me. I was all too happy of course. It was an excuse to get out of the way of that homicidal bitch I married," he bitterly spat. " As well as a moment to spend with the one I had true feelings for. I can also remember the day he opened up to me. He dropped his arrogant and proud barriers for me, so I could see who the real Vegeta was. And he was even more beautiful than the kawaii arrogant ouji I fell in love with. After a few months of courting, we mated.
"But then, trouble rose." He said as he dropped his head. "Chichi was onto us, and worst of all…I was pregnant."
"With me…" she whispered.
"Hai. It wasn't such a bad thing…but I was just…just so scared of what my family would think of me being pregnant. I then did the stupidest and fucked up thing of all fucked up things," he swore. "I dumped my one true love.
"I lied to him, saying I no longer loved him. I…I broke his heart. I then left home to live in the forest while you grew inside of me. Then, on the 13th of May, I gave birth to you. It was painful, but…" he smiled fondly. "It was well worth it. I stayed with you for a month, wishing and praying for the courage to tell everyone. But I never got it. I became even stupider and I…I…" he choked. "I…left you by Vegeta." He wiped the tears from his cheeks. "After that, I returned to my home. I kept thinking that everything would be okay, but it was far from it.
"I was riddled with guilt, consumed with the hate of myself. I wanted to blast myself in the head, die and rot in hell! The next five years were spent in utter depression and absolute guilt.
"Then…then I saw you again. And that's when I thought…I thought…"
"You thought I would hate you?" she asked. Goku lifted his head and saw her hovering in front of him. "That I would never understand why you did what you did?" He nodded, as he was at loss for words. She hovered in close; tears evident as her eyes were glazed over. "Kaasan…I could never hate you." She said. "You brought me into this world. All I ever wanted to know was why. I could never hate you…" She stopped abruptly as the tears were beginning to fall. Goku felt a great weight lift off his heart as he revealed his past to his one and only daughter.
"Gojita…"
"Kaasan!" she cried as she launched herself into his arms. He held her close in a great bear hug and she buried her head into his arms. He could feel the salty wetness of her tears as they flowed down her soft cheeks and onto his arms, but he didn't care. He was shedding plenty of his own tears.
"I'm…I'm so sorry, Gojita." He cried.
"Oh, shut up and hold me!!" she cried even more. Goku complied and held her in silence. Everything was still, and the only things that could be heard was their happy sobs. After a while, they both quietened down and just sat in each other's company, keeping each other warm. Goku looked through tear blurred windows to see the area.
"Hey…this looks like…"
"The area in which you first met tousan, I know." She said as she nuzzled up into the warmth of his chest.
"But…did tousan tell you?"
"Iie, but I can feel it." She gave a halfhearted chuckle. "Sometimes, both you and tousan forget about the link we have. He brought me here for our first sparring match." Goku smiled.
"So, even if I took up on your challenge, you would've still stood up against me."
"I had to take that chance." She said honestly. They sat like that for a few minutes before Gojita gave a yawn. Goku could sense and see that she was tired, as the heavy eyelids gave it all away. He decided to then sing her a lullaby. Just like I did when she was just a baby. He thought.
"You don't have to climb a ladder to the sky
To pluck a star for me
The smile in your eyes is all I need to see
And you don't have to tie rainbows in my hair
Just to show you care
Of your precious love I've always been aware
You don't know just what your love has done for me
No you don't know the half of what you've given me
You were light when I was in shadow
You were bow to my broken arrow
I mean you, I mean you
Your embrace given tenderly
Helped me face the demons within
It was you, yes you came through
So don't tell me that you're not strong
Or say you don't belong
Look what you've given me, now give it to yourself
Look to your heart and see, that you're beautiful
To me" As Goku sang, he watched her as her tired face became even more so. Her eyelids drooped and her breathing became even and heavy. Finally, with the last words, he kissed her on her forehead as she fell into a deep and peaceful slumber. He smiled at her before ITing back to his room. He lay down and cradled her in his arms. Like before, all those years back, she wrapped her tail tightly around his wrist and buried her face deep in his hair. Sighing, he closed his eyes, and for the first time in five years, he fell into a deep and peaceful sleep.
The next morning, Gojita woke to find herself in a very familiar position. One that she had only felt once, and dreamed of there after. She was in the arms of her true kaasan. After many years of wondering why he did what he did and whether she'd ever see him again, she finally got both. She smiled happily as she nuzzled deeper into his hair. Hmm…smells a bit like tousan. Well, they are mated, and tousan also has a hint of Kakarot on him. She thought. Delighted to be in the strong arms of the one who gave birth to her, she started to purr contentedly. Feeling the tiny vibrations on his chest and the gentle breathing in his hair, Goku slowly fluttered his eyes open to stare in the face of a smiling Gojita.
"Ohayo gozaimasu, o-kaasan!" she greeted merrily. Goku smiled back as he gave her a little peck on her forehead.
"Ohayo, Gojita-kun." Gojita wriggled even closer, basking in the warm glow of her kaasan's ki. "How did you sleep?"
"Kay." She smiled. "And you?" Goku stretched, then realised that he actually slept! He stopped stretching, looked down at Gojita and smiled at her.
"Better than I have in years." He answered honestly. Gojita sat up as the sunlight came streaming into the room. She looked around curiously, taking in everything in the room, wondering what about it made it so familiar; apart from the fact that she had put her costume on in here. Goku could feel this sense of curiosity, and sat up alongside her. "What's the matter, Gojita-kun?"
"Oh, it's nothing. It's just that," she paused, trying to find the right words. "It feels like I was here before. It's like…like…like a memory from a dream. You…you know what I mean?" Goku nodded.
"Hai. And I understand why you think it's so familiar."
"Honto ni?"
"Hai. This was the room in which your tousan used to sleep in. The room I brought you to before…" he trailed off at the last little bit. Gojita gave him a worried look, then entwined her tail around his hand. Goku looked up, surprised at this sign of affection that only saiyans could show [that is because of their tails…duh!].
"Kaasan…you don't have to be afraid that I will push you away because of what you did." She said gently. "All I ever wanted was a kaasan. And because you told me why you did what you did, I forgive you." I can't say that for tousan though, she thought worriedly. He's so stubborn, he might not like the idea that I've found kaasan… she stopped in thought. Chottomate kudasai! If I show tousan that I've found kaasan…maybe things will work out and he'll understand! Gojita grinned at herself, pleased that she came up with an idea to get them back together. After all, they did love each other, but they were too afraid to try and heal what they had wounded years ago.
"Gojita…why are you grinning?" asked Goku, frowning by the sudden excitement in the chibi.
"Oh, it's nothing!" she chirped, grinning sneakily at him. Goku frowned, but shrugged it off. "Uhh…kaasan?"
"Hmm?"
"I was wondering if I could show you a place."
"What kind of place?"
"Saa, I can't tell you, because I want it to be a surprise!" she gave him the 'chiisai neko' look, liquidating her eyes and looking all cute and innocent. Goku, never been under her 'wrapped around the finger look' before, smiled as he gave in.
"Oh, okay." She smiled as she leapt at him and gave him the biggest hug she could.
"Dom arigato, kaasan!!" he smiled as he hugged her in return. Even though she was putting the plan into action, she had to admit she was very nervous on what should happen should everything go wrong. Oh well, I'll sort that out later. I have to get kaasan and tousan back together so they both know what I know…
…That they both still love each other very much.
After a delicious breakfast cooked by Bunny, all the kids who slept over were being taken back home. By lunchtime, there was only one chibi left. The smallest, and most fiery of all known chibi's.
"Hey, Gojita," asked Gohan as he sat talking with Gojita. "Isn't your kaasan gonna fetch you?" Gojita wanted very much to nod her head, but knew the risk of putting that together with the sentence she was about to answer with.
"Kakarot says he's gonna take me home." She said, loud enough for Gohan to hear, but so soft that should Goku be anywhere nearby, he wouldn't have been able to hear it.
"Oh." He said simply. "You know Gojita…you're a pretty intelligent chibi for your age." He remarked. Gojita blushed at the comment from her half-brother.
"Oh…uh…arigato. Tousan taught me everything I needed to know from a very young age."
"Honto ni?"
"Hai. He used to train me…to be better than all the other chibi's…in…working." She stuttered. Gojita knew she almost blurted out the real deal, and mentally kicked herself in the ass for nearly doing so.
"Wow. Your dad sounds so familiar." He said, smiling at the now friendly chibi saiyan. "Maybe if you give me his name, I might know him." Gojita flustered, but quickly covered it up.
"Oh, I don't know his name." She answered, her cheeks turning a pink shade. "I only call him tousan." Gohan nodded, and Gojita got off the hook. By one-thirty, Goku was ready to go.
"Gojita!" he called. "Are you ready to go?"
"Hai!" she called as she ran out to him. "Are we going to IT again?"
"Nope, we're going to fly." Gojita noticeably paled. The Z Senshi behind her thought she was paling because she was afraid to be carried, but Goku knew it was because she didn't want to show them that she could fly.
"O…oh." She gulped. "I see…"
"You see, I don't where this place is, so we'll be going by another way." He smiled down at her. "You had better say your good-byes to Pan…"
"Kay!" she said quickly, cutting him off. Gojita knew he was going to finish it with 'because she might not be here when you get back'. She knew that Goku didn't know that Vegeta had moved out after he left her there by him. She turned to her audience and gave them a respectable bow. "Dom arigato for inviting me to your party, Pan-san."
"It was fun to have you around!"
"Hai. And dom arigato, Bunny, for letting me sample those delicious cakes and cookies and stuff."
"Oh, no problem!" she said, smiling down at the saiyan chibi. "You just make sure you pop around everyday after school with Trunks, and I'll see to it that you get more!"
"I'd like that."
"Hey, and maybe one day we can arrange for you to come to Pan's house, ne?" chuckled Gohan. She nodded.
"Dom arigato, minna-san." She said, feeling very happy. "Well, I've got to go now." She ran over to Goku, who picked her up. "So? How are we gonna travel?"
"By Kinto'un!"
"Kinto'un?" Goku lifted his head to the sky and called out the name. Out of the blue, a puffy, yellow cloud appeared. As it streaked by, Goku jumped on. Gojita was at first surprised, but found it to be quite fun. Turning around in her kaasan's arms, she waved down to her new friends and half brothers'. "Sayonara!"
"Sayonara, Gojita-san!" they called in return. She smiled as she turned back to Goku.
"So, where to, Gojita-kun?" she grinned as she hopped onto the cloud, not falling through, but standing solidly.
"Onto West City's forest; Misty Forest!"
AN: The song is not mine. I got it from a CD called 'bleed' by Tina Schouw. And another note: the Misty Forest is forest name I took from a Playstation game called 'Grandia'. Just so you know…
