Vegeta sat on the grass, basking in the sun. He wore nothing but his swimming trunks, as he had had a cooling swim earlier that morning. He smiled as he thought of his little daughter returning with a huge grin plastered onto her face. Not only because she (hopefully) had a good time with a bunch of ningens, but also because she was happy to be back home. Vegeta would have it no other way. Besides Gojita, and now and again Piccolo, there was no one else in the house. All he owned was the house, tons of money and Gojita. And even if the other two were taken from him, he knew Gojita was all he needed. But he knew he was lying. Gojita did what she could. She already filled up a huge space in his hidden heart, but both knew that there was still quite a bit left. One that had already been occupied by a certain Earth raised saiyan. Both knew this, as Vegeta often forgot that they could feel each other's emotions, so she could feel that a part was missing from him. But he knew that a part was missing from her.
He lay back as he pondered on that thought. I wonder if Kakarot envies us. We have half our hearts, as we have each other. But it's not complete as he isn't around. And he doesn't have us around… Vegeta frowned at himself. Baka Vegeta!! What am I thinking! Of course he doesn't miss us! He dumped me and then he abandoned Gojita!! What kind of parent does something like that?! What kind of mate says he doesn't love you anymore?! He tossed the thought over in his head as he came to the subject of love. He loved his mate, and he knew he still did. And he knew that he still loved Trunks, just as much as Gojita. And he knew, given a chance, they could learn to love one another if they ever met. But he knew that Gojita already did love someone, besides him.
Gojita…loves…Piccolo!! That's right! Vegeta grinned at all the memories of Gojita giving not only the 'I want something' chiisai neko look, but some other look. He could see it in her eyes; he could feel what she could. Gojita was in love with Piccolo. Vegeta didn't think it was a bad pick. After all, Piccolo and Gojita had been together for more than two years. And for a Namek, Vegeta had to admit he was very handsome. If he hadn't been in love with Goku, then maybe he would've gotten together with Piccolo. But he strongly doubted that. After all, even though he couldn't feel Piccolo's emotions, the light in his eyes reflected it all. And Vegeta could see that he felt the same way.
Imagine, when she's all grown up, about the age of sixteen or seventeen, she and Piccolo will be able to go out! He smiled at the thought, happy at the idea that his daughter had already found a suitor…if he lasted long enough. But, in a way, he also felt a bit envious of her. There she was, what? Only five years old, and she already had a crush who loved her in return. And whom do I have? No one! My 'wife' cheated on me, my mate dumped me, and there are no other females or males that could ever take his place. Come to think about it…neither could Bulma. He looked back up into the sky, eyes glazed as he ran over many other thoughts, not paying any attention to the yellow streak Goku's Kinto'un was making in the perfect blue sky.
Gojita peered down over the side of the fluffy yellow cloud, gazing over the Misty Forest. Home. She thought happily. I hope tousan'll be happy to see Kakarot…She gulped down the ball of nervousness that had formed in her throat. She didn't know how either were going to react on being reunited, especially after what Goku told her. She was hoping that somehow they'd be able to talk things over, but something else told her different. Tousan's too dominant and kaasan's too submissive! She smiled softly. That's why they love each other…
"Hey, Gojita," Gojita whipped her head back to see Goku looking at her very worriedly. "Are you okay?"
"Uh…hai! Of course I am!" she chirped. "Why do you ask?"
"Well, I'm feeling pretty nervous, but I have nothing to be nervous of." He said. "So, I'm guessing it's you." Gojita gulped again. Shit!! It seems I'm also forgetting about the link!! She smiled her best grin.
"Oh, that…it's nothing…" she quickly looked down, trying to hide the crimson blush tinted on her cheeks for not telling Goku that she was taking him to see Vegeta. She kept a sharp lookout, but didn't really need to, as they flew over the clearing. She looked down to see her house, and in the grass…Vegeta. "Okay! There it is!" Goku looked down, but she obscured his path so that he could only see the house.
"Oh…is that it?" she nodded.
"Hai! Come on! Take us down!" Goku grinned at the fiery chibi and complied, taking the Kinto'un down. Before they jumped off, he picked up the saiyan chibi and prepared to land.
Vegeta was still staring blankly at the blue sky, totally oblivious to the fact that there were now a number of yellow streaks in the sky. Only when he heard a soft, earthy thump did he sit up…and get the surprise of his life. There, standing before him, was Gojita…sitting in Goku's arms. Goku was also staring at Vegeta, also very surprised to see him there. Gojita jumped out of his arms as she ran towards her tousan.
"Tousan!" she chirped happily as she wrapped her arms around his neck. He forgot about Goku for that instant as he hugged her in return.
"Konnichiwa, Gojita-kun." He greeted her. "How was the party?"
"It was really nice! I met a whole bunch of new people! And they were all really nice!"
"Yeah?"
"Yeah! And Pan gave me this cool gi!" she took a step back and turned around, allowing him to see the gi that was very similar to his own. "Looks almost like yours, huh?" He smiled as he nodded at her.
"Hai…except its more like a royal gi. Not like the training gi that I wear." She shrugged.
"Close enough, innit?" she asked. He grinned at her childliness as she continued to babble on about who she met and what she did, glad that she at least was going to have a happy childhood. "Oh, and I have a surprise for you." She said with an air of mystery. His eyes widened.
"Huh? A surprise?" she nodded her head vigorously. "Well…what is it?"
"Not what…who." She corrected. Vegeta frowned at this and she giggled happily. She ran away from his sitting position on the ground to Goku, and grabbed hold onto his left hand.
"Gojita…" he wanted to ask her what was going on, but stopped as soon as she had taken hold of Goku's hand. Oh no…he thought. She hasn't…she couldn't…
"Tousan," she said. "I've found kaasan."
Both male saiyans stared in absolute shock at the other. Neither could believe this was happening. Both were, in a way, happy to see one another again, but they were also very nervous on what the other was thinking. Right then, neither need have worried, because as soon as they set their eyes on each other, everything surrounding them disappeared.
Goku's eyes wandered over the small, bronze, compact body sitting on the grass in nothing but his black swimming trunks. It had been many years since he had seen that same beautiful body (and found that, yes, it is an all over body tan), and now, he was more beautiful than ever. The sun shone gold over his muscular back and shoulders, highlighting the auburn in his hair. His eyes were wide with surprise, revealing to him the same pair of shiny onyx eyes that held so much hidden emotion. The finely, and rather petit and feminine jaw, the flame hair, the absolutely delicious looking backside in the entire universe…Goku tried to shake himself of his stare, but found it was virtually impossible. It had been so long since he had seen his true love; it was like he was seeing him for the first time again.
Vegeta was having the same problems as Goku. He just couldn't help staring at the absolutely sexy burly saiyan in front of him. Even though his pride was screaming at him to take his eyes off, he just couldn't. The creamy skin, the ink black hair that stood up in spikes, yet was unbelievably soft, the perfectly chiseled jaw, the tense and strong arms…but his eye roaming didn't last very long. As soon as he had a flashback of the night he proclaimed his love; he finally heard the cursing screams his pride was throwing at him. To stop searching the burly saiyan for any sign of change or affection he still had for him. /It's not there/ it told him. /You may still love him, but don't forget…he doesn't love you/. Vegeta's jaw tensed as he gritted his teeth, and his eyes were clearly wiped clean of all the hope that was held therein. Goku and Gojita noticed the sudden change in reaction, as both could not only see that the hope which was swimming so freely in his eyes one moment, drain away, but they could also feel his heart clench.
Gojita flinched at the feeling. She had known her tousan to talk about how he felt when he was under Frieza, but she had never ever felt it. She had presumed the feeling of not living with her kaasan was the same, but now she knew she was horribly wrong. It was worse. It was like a wrench literally clamping over and shutting all the feelings and emotions from getting in or out. Like it had just stopped functioning. Oooh! I had an inkling that this was a bad idea…why in the hell didn't I listen to it?! She cursed herself. Oh well, it's too late to turn back now. Letting kaasan go might just make things more awkward than they are at the moment! But she also knew that Vegeta might not let him back in…but that was a risk she wanted to take. Keeping the happy smile plastered falsely to her face, she looked back to him.
"Can he come in for a minute?" she asked, pretending like she couldn't feel anything. Vegeta remained still for a few moments before blinking rapidly and looking to her.
"H-huh? Nani?' he asked.
"Can kaasan come in to see our house?" she asked in a pleading tone. Vegeta blinked rapidly again. He wasn't sure what to answer. Part of him wanted to kick Goku in his rear and scream at him for having the indignity to suddenly just want to come back into their lives. But another part really wanted him back. Inside, the two sides were debating; pride VS the heart.
/Why should you let him in?/
//Well, for one, it's good manners. And for two,…//
/Feh. You fucked up cunt…there is no 'two'…is there?/ it asked, mockingly.
//Well…so what if there isn't?//
/You just want him to come in…don't you?/
//And so what if I do?// he tried to reason. //I mean…what's the harm in doing so?//
/Hmm. Let's see…/it said in a very sarcastic tone, which sent a cold shiver slithering down his spine. /You still love him, don't you?/
//And? Your point is?//
/Baka!/ it spat. /Don't you remember what he did to you? What he told you?/ it gave an evil smirk. /He said he loved you too, didn't he? Then, three months later, after getting the goods out of you and using your love and body…he dumped you./
//That was only because…because…// he tried to find a good enough reason, but he couldn't.
/Come off it! You can't defend him against what he did. You know it's true. It wasn't because of Chichi…he still loves that bitch. He was just using you…/
//No!! He'd never do that!//
/But he did, didn't he?/ he tried to ignore what it just said. He tried to ignore the fact that it may be right. /Of course I'm right. I warned you about going through with it that night, didn't I? And what did you do? You went against me! And three months later…look what happened./ it smirked again. /And don't say that those three months were real, because they were not. They were a lie. Everything was a lie./ his heart clenched at the thought of it again, remembering all the pain and suffering he went through. But at a glance at Gojita, his heart's hope was raised.
//I'm not doing this to get Kakarot back. If she wants him to see our house and what we've done, fine! But I do not love him!//
/Yeah, right/it sneered. /And I'm Piccolo's voice inside your head! Ha! Only when hell freezes over and the entire universe ceases to exist will you ever not love the kisama./ But Vegeta wasn't going to listen to his pride…for the moment. He'd let Gojita have her way. They'd show her kaasan their house. After all, Goku is Gojita's kaasan.
"Fine." He said as he stood up. Gojita gave a happy, yet awkward, smile. She knew it was hard for her tousan to see his mate after what had happened, but she wanted things to work out. Kaasan told me why he did what he did, so I understand. But he didn't tell tousan so he doesn't know what to do. Deep inside, Gojita was hoping that they'd strike a conversation that would lead back to that night. And then hopefully, Goku would be able to tell him and why and he'd understand too. Gojita knew he would, if he knew, that is.
"Come on!" she said as she pulled on Goku's hand. Goku's gaze dropped from his former koibito to his daughter. He smiled down at her cheeriness. He knew she was just trying to help out, and he respected that wish. He let her lead him into the house, following Vegeta.
When Goku entered, he was surprised by what he saw. He had expected Vegeta to either be living at Capsule Corp or struggling somewhere, but it seems Vegeta had totally outdone himself. The living room was fairly large, and contained two crème two-seated couches, two crème armchairs, a large colour TV and a mahogany coffee table in the centre of the room, decorated with a vase of Snowdrops. The kitchen and dining room were just behind it, separated by a thin screen, which was now open for him to see that it contained a pine table and chairs, an oak cupboard seemingly containing crockery and the kitchen containing all the necessary items. All the woodwork seemed to be handmade. On the one side of the living room were stairs covered in a blood red carpet, obviously leading to the bedrooms and bathroom upstairs. Everything was well kept and in order. Goku was…surprised…to say the least. He hadn't expected Vegeta to do so well on his own. But then again, Vegeta always manages to make it on his own. He thought, feeling somewhat proud of his former koibito.
Vegeta saw Goku's eyes widen, and felt the burly warrior's amazement. Vegeta's eyes wandered around the house. He honestly didn't see what was so great about the place. It was just home. It wasn't fancy or decorative, just practical. Gojita felt the same, and was also wondering the same as Vegeta. Both petit saiyans knew that their home wasn't entirely a welcoming sight, but it was comfortable. Secretly, Gojita wondered if her kaasan and half-brother's homes were also like this. She knew that her other half-brother, Trunks, lived in the busy, but quite luxurious, life, so she couldn't help but wonder about theirs. Which reminds me… she looked up first to her tousan, and then to her kaasan. Both were occupied in looking at the house, one wondering how he survived on an alien planet, the other wondering what the hell was so special about the place. Well, I had better leave them alone for the while. I just hope things go well…she prayed.
"I'm going to put my stuff upstairs." She declared loudly, wrenching both their attentions to her. Before they could both protest, Gojita ran up the stairs and into her room.
Vegeta looked to Goku and Goku looked to Vegeta. Neither knew what to say, or how to start a conversation with the other. Both wanted to get away from the other so that they could relieve themselves of the intense nervousness they were feeling, but neither wanted to lose sight of the other…not again. Silence filled up between them, and the tension was so thick, they could both take a bite out of it…and taste it! Finally, Goku decided to start with something simple, something that didn't involve what he wanted to say very much to his love.
"So," he said. "This is a really nice place you've got here, Vegeta."
"Hn." He replied. Then added, "It is." He didn't want Goku to know that he missed him dearly, but if there was hope, he didn't want him to think he didn't care either.
"It's really cozy."
"Hai." He agreed. "It's not much, but it's something." Another long pause followed.
"You know," Goku chuckled nervously. "I thought that you'd still be at Capsule Corp." Vegeta raised his brows, feeling a hint of anger hit him.
"Oh, why?" he asked.
"Well, it's just that you never seemed able to do anything domestic." He said. Vegeta gave a low growl.
"Well, I wouldn't have needed to if some kisama didn't leave their own child on my bed!!" he snapped. Goku looked taken back and very shocked by this outburst. He knew that Vegeta was trying to control his anger, but he knew that it wouldn't last long. Vegeta was pretty famous for his temper tantrums, and he never seemed to have more than just one nerve to snap.
"But, she was your child too…" he said. But that was a mistake.
"And you couldn't take responsibility?!" he snapped. Goku blushed furiously.
"No, no! I didn't mean it like that!"
"Then what do you mean? Spit it out!!" he yelled. Goku took a deep breath, trying to form the right words in his head.
"What I mean is…is…" he stuttered. "I miss you, Vegeta." He said it right out. He did miss him, and he knew there wasn't a day that went by that he didn't think of him, or look at all the photos he had of the handsome Saiyan no Ouji.
But Vegeta took it the wrong way. He was so nervous on having his true love in his home, that he misunderstood what he said.
"Oh, so you missed me?" he sneered. "What? Is your harpy not giving you any?"
"Nani?"
"You heard me! Have you suddenly decided to come running back to me just because you feel like it?! Because you've seen what a genius your…gomen…my daughter had become??!" he yelled, his voice getting louder with each accusation. Goku stepped back; frightened of the way Vegeta was acting. "Haven't you hurt me enough already??!!"
"Vegeta…" but Vegeta carried on, ignoring him and finally letting out all the angry feelings he wanted to tell Goku.
"You broke my heart, Kakarot!! I don't care if you beat me, or pulled me limb from limb…though I've had worse…" he mumbled. "But you destroyed the one part of me that I kept hidden from everybody so that I could live out my life in peace!! The one thing that prevented me from ever destroying myself!! You broke my heart!! You shattered it, tore it to shreds!! You delved it with a sword, twisted it and wrenched it from me before tossing it into a fire!!"
"But I…"
"And this, Kakarot," he hissed. "This all happened when you said you didn't love me anymore. That I was nothing but your playmate. Your lover. Your 'mistress'. The one you go to when that harpy's yelling got too much for you to even fuck her!!!" once again, his voice began to rise until he was screaming at the terrified saiyan. By this time, the tears he had managed to suppress from that night, somehow managed to find their way back into his eyes to flow down his face in little rivulets. "I was nothing to you!"
"No," Goku said softly, tears beginning to fall down his face too.
"That night, when I said I loved you," he said between choked sobs. "You just…you just used it as an opportunity to get something out of me!!! And when you said you loved me too, I thought…I thought…I thought you really meant it!!!" Vegeta knew he was losing control, as his body had started to shake and tremble, but his heart was too much in a frenzy to stop. "And then…you got sick and tired of me, you…you dropped me like a rotting corpse!!"
"But what about Gojita?!" Goku screamed in return, finding this rather unfair. "I gave birth to her…"
"You fucking abandoned her!!" he screamed back. "You left her by me!! Your 'former' mate!! Gomen, not 'mate'…whore is more like it!!! I don't know what you were thinking, but obviously you didn't want to have anything to do with either of us!!" his shoulders were heaving up and down with every breath that he took. "And now you come back and say you miss me?!!"
"But that's the truth!!" he yelled. Now Goku was hurting. He never knew how much pain he had caused his smaller, more petit, mate. Vegeta just shook his head violently.
"Iie. I've been fooled once, I'm not going to let you hurt me again." Silence filled the room, and everything was even tenser than before. "Get out."
"But I…"
"GET OUT!!!" he screamed. He glared at Goku through crystal teared eyes, scattered with shards of pain. Goku didn't want to leave without saying his part, but from what he heard from his koibito, he didn't want to be around himself. He needed to leave, to clear his head. Goku turned on his heel and ran out, not entirely understanding where he was going or what he was going to do, but knowing that he needed to think things through before asking for Vegeta's acceptance once again.
Vegeta stood in the room for a few moments, allows the tears to just run over his cheeks. He knew what he was accusing Goku of was very unfair. He knew it. But…if I know it…then why did I do it? He couldn't hold it in any longer, that's why. Finally, he fully gave into the wracking of his shoulders, and fell to the floor, sobbing heavily. He wanted so much to fly into his mate's arms, and hold him close and beg that what he said wasn't true. But once again, his pride got the better of him, and instead of giving him a second chance, he dismissed him.
/See, / it said. /I told you this would happen. Good thing you listened to me, ne? / Vegeta's heart could say nothing to that. Instead, he just curled up and cried.
Gojita lay her head back on the landings wooden railings. Tears were also falling down her eyes, but not only from the extreme pain she felt within both her parents'. She was weeping because of her foolishness. I tried to get them back together, she scolded herself. And why? Because being with one at a time wasn't good enough for me! I had to be greedy and want them back together!! Even though she knew that they, too, wanted to be reunited, she wholly blamed herself for the pain she caused. I was hoping to reopen a wound, but I never expected it not to heal again. Gojita felt guilty, she felt incredibly guilty. She had made both her parents' miserable from her desire of wanting them back together. I never did stop and think that maybe it was for the best. Everything was going great, and I was more than happy knowing that I had found my kaasan. Why did I go and do what I just did? Why was I so foolish and stupid as to make them unhappy? She knew that her tousan's accusations were a complete lie, and she knew that he knew that too. But that was just how he felt. She dropped her head in her hands as she silently wept.
I'm so sorry tousan and kaasan.
