A Permanent Fusion Secrets revealed

"Are you sure they're here?" asked Bulma, a little nervous about meeting Vegeta again.

"Yeah, I can feel their ki." Answered Gohan. Right after Goku and Vegeta teleported away, Gohan, Goten and Krillin stood in the canyons, waiting for Trunks. When he arrived, they explained what had happened in great detail. Trunks eyes widened at the mention of his father and demanded to know where they went. Krillin, however, suggested they tell the other first before they went looking for them. After informing Chichi, Bulma, Videl and Piccolo, they all set out to find the three saiyans. All through their journey, Chichi said nothing, unsure of what to say.

"Excuse me," Krillin asked the receptionist. "But we're looking for a Mr Son Goku and his friend. They were brought in here a couple of hours ago, right?"

"Let me just check for you," said the red head as she clicked away on her computer. "Oh! That's right. Vegeta and Kakarot Ouji."

"NANI!!!" screeched Chichi and Bulma.

"Uhh…how do you know his other name?"

"He told us to call him Goku. But his friend insisted that we put his name down as 'Kakarot'." She explained.

"Oh, wow." He muttered. "Uhh…could you tell us what floor they're on?"

"Sure, they're on the tenth floor in the emergency ward."

"Are they badly hurt?" asked Trunks.

"Oh no! They just got out from surgery an hour ago." She said. "But they're both so stubborn, they won't leave the waiting room until the little girl comes out."

"What little girl?"

"Gojita Ouji."

"NANI!!!" everyone yelped. They were shocked to hear this, except Piccolo, to say the least. Chichi was infuriated.

"What do you mean, 'Vegeta, Kakarot and Gojita Ouji'?!!" she shrieked. "My husband's name is Goku!!"

"That's very nice to hear, but I don't see how 'Kakarot Ouji' could be married to you."

"Why not??!!"

"He said he was married to Vegeta."

"NANIIII!!!!" everyone freaked.

"That's right. He told me himself that he and Vegeta were mated. I'm not sure what that means…"

"Umm…miss, could you please let us through to see them?"

"Right, who should I say you are?" she asked, typing into her computer again. "Friend or family?"

"Well, some of us are friend and the rest are family." He said. She nodded as she finished up and turned to them.

"Okay then, you may go on through." She smiled. "It's on the tenth floor."

"Oh, right. Thank you miss." Krillin thanked her as they headed towards the lift.

"Daddy?" asked Pan. "Who's Vegeta and Kakarot Ouji?"

Vegeta sat in the chair, one leg draw up against his chest while the other lay straight, held in its plaster cast. He had a number of bandages, but it was really nothing. He had, physically, suffered worse. But emotionally, he was still suffering.

Goku glanced up at the pitiful sight sitting opposite him. He had never seen Vegeta so…so…vulnerable before. He looked so innocent and scared with his eyes and brows cast in worry, nibbling anxiously at his thumb. Both were dressed in hospital gowns, white like everything else around them. He sat opposite his ouji, holding a paper cup with coffee. He didn't really want it; he was just holding it because…well…it gave him something to do. At first, he didn't want to sit next to Vegeta, as Vegeta seemed to be in a rather foul mood when a couple of doctors tried to get them back into their wards on the fifth floor, but Vegeta would have none of it. But that was little over an hour ago. Now it seemed like Vegeta had finally come down from his hype, and was looking very depressed.

Goku decided he would risk a beating and moved over to the chair next to his mate.

"Vegeta?" he asked softly.

"Hmm?" he answered, eyes still stuck on the door where they had told him they had taken Gojita through to.

"Everything's going to be okay." Vegeta still didn't look at him. Goku reached up with hand and took Vegeta's free one. On contact, Vegeta turned her head towards his mate and took a good look at him. Goku wasn't better off than Vegeta; he was just about the same. He had a number of bandages wrapped around his body, a whole roll wrapped around his chest.

"Kakarot," he whimpered. "Do you think she's okay?" Goku hesitated, not sure of what to say.

"I…I hope so, Vegeta." He gently lifted Vegeta's hand and kissed the tips of his fingers as a sign of affection. Vegeta whimpered again.

"I wish they would come out now," he muttered. "I hate not knowing what has happened to her."

"Me too." He said as he wrapped an arm reassuringly around his mate. He looked down at Vegeta, who looked up at him. Ebony eyes met onyx, and true feelings could be seen. Goku took this opportunity to try and apologise to his loved one. "Vegeta, I…"

"Vegeta and Kakarot Ouji?" came a deep voice. The two saiyans looked up to see a doctor in his mid-forties with a black moustache. The stood up to show they acknowledged his presence.

"Hai?"

"You may see her now." On hearing this, they didn't waste any time. The quickly rushed off to the room where the doctor said she'd be, unaware that someone had seen them disappear around the corner.

Vegeta hobbled down the corridors, assisted by Goku, until they finally reached her door. Unable to contain himself, he wrenched it open. But soon after, he realised that it may not have been such a good idea. The sight he saw on the bed tore his heart to pieces, as it did Goku's.

Gojita was lying on her bed; eyes shut and limbs lying limply by her sides. Numerous bandages and plaster casts held her bones and flesh in place, making her seem so weak and pitiful. But the worst of them all was a plastic tube that was stuck in her mouth and leading to a machine, one that seemed to help her breath and generally, live. Her face was pale and sickly with light crimson streaks across her face, an indication of where blood had been wiped off. She didn't look like the sprite and fiery little princess they both knew and adored.

"Gojita…" he whimpered. Slowly and painstakingly, he limped over to the side of her bed, trying to make sure that what he was seeing was true, and not some sick prank of his foully demented mind. But when he reached down to grasp her hand, he found it felt…warmish. Her palms were warm with life, but the tips of her fingers were as cold as death, nails gone blue with little blood circulating the tiny hands. Almost at once, the tears returned. Vegeta leaned down next to her and began to cry.

Goku stood in the doorway, watching his mate's movement, as well as the seemingly lifeless form lying on the plain white bed. He couldn't believe it. Was this his daughter? The one he bore in the forest near the river? The lively baby he had spent one month with? The fiery oujo whom he had met again, who had revived his grieving soul by forgiving him? He didn't want to, but he had to. It was her. She had given everything she had for their happiness. But Gojita, he thought. Don't you see, without you…how can we be happy? He was brought back down to earth by the racking sobs of Vegeta, head buried into the blankets on the bed. It was then that he noticed he was shedding many tears of his own. Not wanting any gawking onlookers, he silently closed the door and headed over to Vegeta. Lightly, he touched the ouji's shoulders, a timid sign that he was feeling just as heartbroken as he was. Vegeta lifted his head, tears shining like diamonds in the bright and happy sunlight that streamed through the windows. But there was nothing happy in this room. On contact of eyes, Vegeta did not restrain himself when he jumped back into Goku's arms, nuzzling his head deep into the crook of Goku's neck. Goku was not surprised, as he felt the compelling need to comfort as well. He soothingly stroked the ouji's back while Vegeta cried all his tears out, soaking his and Goku's hospital gowns with despair and hurt.

"There, there 'Geta." Goku said in a trembling voice as his own voice wavered in pain. "It'll be okay. I promise…" he said nothing more, as he buried his face in the ouji's auburn locks and wept silently as well.

Goten and Trunks led the team of wives and friends down the corridors, feeling out the ki's of the male saiyans.

"Well?" snapped Chichi. "Have you found them yet?"

"I can't explain it." Remarked Goten. "One minutes, I can feel their ki rising up and the next…it's gone!"

"So, what does that mean?" questioned Bulma.

"I don't know, but when I get my hands on Goku he's going to have some explaining to do!!" vowed Chichi as she then took the lead and stormed down the corridors.

"Look Chichi," Krillin feebly suggested. "We've been searching this floor for twenty minutes. Maybe we should come back la…"

"NO!!" she yelled, causing the entire group to jump back in shock. "I am not leaving this hospital until I get some answers to all the questions I have to ask!!! IS THAT CLEAR?!?!?!!!" Everyone around stopped what they were doing so everything was dead silent. It was so quiet, you could hear a roach die!

"Umm…yeah…crystal…" he muttered.

"Good!" being the dominating woman that she is, Chichi stomped up to the tenth floor register and turned to the woman at the desk. "Excuse me!"

"Oh, what can I do for you, miss?" the pink haired asked politely.

"What you can do for me is tell me where my Goku is!!" she snapped. The woman jumped in shock.

"W-who?" she asked.

"Uhh…Chichi, maybe I should handle this." Suggested Bulma as she stepped in front of Chichi. "Ano, but we were wondering if you could tell us which room Gojita Ouji is in?"

"Oh, certainly." She woman replied. After a few moments of ticking away, she turned back to the green haired genius. "Gojita Ouji is in room 31. That's through that corridor there, you turn right and you'll reach a corridor of '30's'. Gojita Ouji is the first on the left. You can't miss it."

"Arigato." She thanked the receptionist and they all trooped off to room 31.

After about ten minutes of weeping, Goku and Vegeta finally calmed down, and resolved to just sit in the room in silence, watching over their daughter. Vegeta sat in the chair on the right of her bed, gently stroking her ice finger to try and get some warmth into them. Goku sat directly on the left, just sitting and gazing blankly at Gojita. Everything was so silent; they could hear everything around them. Their normal pounding heartbeat and the fighting one of Gojita. Their ragged breathing and the struggling one of Gojita's passing through a plastic pipe. The clacking of shoes as people passed outside the door. The honking and beeping of cars ten floors down…

"GOKU!!!" and yes, unfortunately, the sound of one's banshee of a wife screeching her husbands name out as if it were poison.

Both Goku and Vegeta jumped, Goku toppling over in his chair and Vegeta's heart just missing fifty or so beats. They both directed their eyes to the door to find the woman who had broken the tense silence. Chichi!! Goku inwardly groaned. As if things weren't bad enough already!!

"Just what are you doing here, Goku?!" she screeched. "Do you know how worried I was when you took off, do you?!"

"You don't seem like it." He muttered, but that comment went unnoticed by Chichi.

 "You say nothing to me! All you do is take off to fight some 'new threat'!"

"Cell had returned and we had to fight him…"

"I tell you Goku, I've had it up to here!!" she screamed, her anger hitting its climax. "First, you keep running off to some fight off in another galaxy, taking your son with you!!"

"Gohan went way before me…"

"Then you stay away for another year training on some stupid planet, learning new fighting techniques!!"

"Well, they helped didn't they…"

"Then you had to go and enter some 'Budokai' and take your son with you!!"

"Well he and Vegeta saved the planet, didn't they…"

"Then, you and that baka ouji have your regular little spars where you and that pathetic twerp waste more time by building muscle for absolute shit!! And I can't believe you went in a great depression right after you and that low down, idiotic, bastard of a prince stopped fighting! I swear, if I didn't know better, I'd say something was going on between you two!" all this came spurting out of Chichi's mouth, as though she wanted to let it out for a long time. But sadly, she didn't know where and when to stop. "Then what happens, you wind up being that little sadists friend! Then I come here and hear something along the lines of 'Kakarot and Vegeta Ouji'! Since when does that little dipshit have a say in anything you do?! That prick knows sweet fuck all! Stupid, lying and conniving bastard…"

Like I said, too bad Chichi doesn't know when to shut her trap. With every insult that passed, Goku found himself getting more and more angry. But it wasn't like he hadn't gotten angry before; it's just that he didn't do anything about it. But when Chichi started to insult Vegeta and Gojita, that was it. He didn't care how much she spat hateful words at him, or how she mistreated him emotionally, he would not allow her to say such things about his beautiful mate or his daughter from heaven.

Finally, unable to keep it in any longer, he let what he needed to say loose. Starting with shutting Chichi up.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP WOMAN!!!!" he bellowed, raising his hand and slapping Chichi across the face; hard! No one was expecting that, and everyone soon fell dead silent; especially Chichi. "Now you listen to me, woman!" he snarled, his true saiyan side coming through. "I don't care what you say about me, you've been calling me names since after Gohan, you fucking little wench! But I will not stand by and let you insult my mate and my daughter!!!

"Through all those years or hard work and training, not once did you ever step back and tell me how much you respect me! Not once!! I spent years training, not only to keep my body fit and ready for the next battle, but so that I was prepared for whatever other evils decided to try and take over Earth!! Without me, Vegeta and Gohan, where'd you think you'd be?!! Definitely not in Harvard!!" he sneered. Everyone stood in utter shock and surprise at all the hateful words that were flying out of their hero's mouth. He was always the cheery one, the one who had a constant smile plaster upon his face…well, sadly, that face cracked and was now revealing what was really brewing on the inside.

"But…Goku I…"

"And don't say it was for the best because you know damn well it wasn't!!" he yelled, taking a step forward and causing Chichi to take a step back. "You never gave a damn about anyone other than yourself and our sons!!"

He was about to rave on when a firm hand gripped his arms.

"Kakarot!" came a pleading voice. Goku turned down to see Vegeta, a look of concern in his eyes. "Please! Stop it! You're making Gojita upset!" Goku glanced over to the bed where the saiyan chibi was squirming.

"Oh, right." He muttered. "The link…" Vegeta let go of Goku and resumed his position next to Gojita, clutching her hand again to try and make it warm with life. Goku, instead, turned on the other with a hardened look in his eyes.

"You had better leave." He said. "I'll meet you in the waiting room." Before he turned back to his pure-blooded family, he gave Chichi a glare, one that could frighten the fungus and viruses out of a smelly sock. She gasped in shocked and stood gaping as he turned his back to them, a sign that they must leave. Because this was something they thought Goku would never, in a million years, do, they decided not to push it. He was, after all, the strongest being in the universe.

After the door had closed, Goku turned to his love. The hardened look faded from his eyes as the liquid onyx of Vegeta met his own ebony pair.

"Vegeta…" he started, but Vegeta held up his hand to silence him.

"I know what you have to say, Kakarot." He said. "I presume Bulma and Trunks want to ask me things too. We should let them know." Goku nodded. It had been too long. The secret had been kept in for too long and the fear of rejection from friends and family caused them to lose each other. And after being reunited, they were not going to let that happen again.

"Okay. But I will be back."

"You can tell Bulma and Trunks to come in here while you explain to your friends and sons." He said sombrely. Goku nodded.

He got up to leave, but before he did, he leant over the bed and gently kissed Vegeta on his forehead. Stunned, Vegeta looked up at him to be given a reassuring smile.

"Don't worry," he assured his mate. "I know Bulma and Trunks will understand, and Gohan and Goten will too. Everyone will." Vegeta said nothing. He just smiled back as Goku walked out the door and closed it behind him.

He walked along the corridors and into the waiting room. He could hear that they were discussing him, judging by the almost hushed and secretive whispers. But as soon as he came into view, the whispers stopped. There was silence between the lot. No one knew what to say. Goku hated acting like a bastard towards his friends and family, but it was the only way to get their attention and to get the message across. He decided to get the ball rolling.

"Bulma, Trunks." He said in an even tone. "Vegeta wants to see you in Gojita's room." They nodded and quickly set off for the said room. After they had gone, things were still quiet. I'm not surprised! He told himself. Judging by the way I screamed and slapped Chichi across the face, I must have scared them! So, once again, he got things started. "So? What do you want to know?" Everyone stood dead still, not knowing what to say. Finally, Krillin spoke up.

"Well, Goku," he muttered. "We were all wondering what's going on between you and Vegeta."

"Hmm…go on." He said nodding.

"Well, it's like this. You two have been fighting together for many years. Then, you two suddenly become really close. And the next thing, you and Vegeta are no longer together and you're in a great depression! We'd just like to know what's going on."

"Hmm…well, seeing as you've asked me questions up to that point, I think that's where'll I'll answer." He said. "You see, when Vegeta first came to Earth, that's when I was first intrigued by him. He really fascinated me, and I wanted to spend more time around him to learn what he knew." Goku knew that was another way of saying he fell in love with the ouji at first sight, but he knew they'd all pass out if he said it straight out. "Over time, I gradually started to enjoy my company with Vegeta. So much in fact, that I was falling…in love with him."

"WHAAAT!!"

"But I couldn't tell you guys that. I know how same-sexed relationships on this planet work. Anyways, after a while, something happened between Bulma and Vegeta, and they weren't as close as you'd think they'd be." He quickly glanced at Yamcha before turning his eyes away again. "That meant I would be spending more and more time with Vegeta, sparring. But the more time I spent with him, the more I loved him for who he truly is. He's not as arrogant and stubborn as you see. He's far beyond that.

"Then, one night, Vegeta admitted to me that he loved me too. And that's when I was just…complete. I had found someone, who truly loved me, just as much as I loved him in return. It was all so perfect.

"But then, trouble was brewing. Because of my fear of rejection from my sons and my friends, you guys, I left Vegeta. I broke his soft heart into billions of pieces, unable to be patched up again. That's why I was so depressed."

"Umm…yeah." Gohan muttered, unable to believe that his gentle hearted father could love the stubborn ouji. "But, I remember you disappeared for a couple of months before coming back home…why was that?"

"Heh…you probably won't believe me. But because you asked, I'll tell you." He chuckled. "I was pregnant with Gojita…Vegeta's daughter." On hearing this, everyone was dead silent. Yup, just like I thought… Goku inwardly sighed. But what he wasn't expecting was for Chichi to pass out! After a few seconds of processing this information, her eyes rolled back and she hit the deck; unconscious.

"Mom!" yelped Gohan as the woman fell to the floor.

"Krillin," Piccolo finally spoke up. They all turned to him to see that he still had the neutral expression on his face. Well, obviously he wasn't surprised, as he knew long before they did. "I think you and the rest should take Chichi downstairs to your car. I believe Goku needs time with his sons." Krillin didn't argue. Even though he accepted the fact that Goku fell in love with the proud ouji, he wanted to ask Goku how it was possible for him to fall pregnant…him being male and everything. But he knew better. Goku would tell him when he was ready. And besides, as they say, blood is thicker than water.

The three Sons watched as the rest of the Z Senshi trooped back into the elevator and went back down to the car. Slowly, Goten and Gohan turned to face their father. Gohan had confusing written clearly all over his face and Goten's facial expression was just blank. Goku didn't exactly know what or, if anything, how to say it. So he decided to be blunt. But not so blunt that it practically bitch slapped them and knocked them over backwards. Luckily, Gohan started.

"So," he said. "That's why you came home later that night in tears." Goku nodded. "And that's why you asked about the colour of the pregnancy test." He nodded again. "But…why did you leave us for those couple of months without making up some kind of excuse?"

"I couldn't." he replied.

"But…why?"

"Tousan," Goten said, finally finding his tongue. "Maybe if you tell us the whole story, we might be able to understand. I could see in your eyes that what you told mom and Krillin wasn't entirely true." Goku blinked in shock at his second child, unable to say anything. How did he know… he wondered, then chuckled. Of course, he's my son.

"Okay." He said as he sat down, an indication to them that the story was quite long and that they had better sit as well. As soon as they were seated, he started right from the beginning.

"You see, I had been in love with Vegeta for longer than I let on. In fact, I loved him the day I met him. But, of course, I didn't know what I was feeling for him, so I simply took it for fascination of the ouji. Years by his side were beginning to prove that theory of mine wrong, and after we fused…I was even more confused than before. Later, I found that…I was in love with Vegeta. I didn't know how or why, but I just knew it. I loved him so much; I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.

"And the opportunity arose when something was going on between Vegeta and Bulma. Vegeta asked me if I'd like to spar with him everyday and…how could I say no? After a couple of months, we grew even closer and closer, and little by little, Vegeta was taking his hard, stone mask off for me. Then, on night, Vegeta completely revealed himself to me. He told me that…he loved me as well. Suddenly, my whole life meant something. Fights weren't just to protect the Earth or my family…they were used to bring me closer to my true love.

"For three whole months, Vegeta and I were practically inseparable. I was so in love…it was like I had been drugged on something good, and I didn't want to come down! Sadly, your mother made me. Chichi was beginning to find out, and I was scared that if any of you found out…you might hate me forever…even though running off to fight battles should be enough, still. Three nights after he confessed, I shattered his heart by lying to him."

"How?"

"I told him I didn't love him anymore. He was torn, even more so than I was for doing something so cruel when I knew it just wasn't true."

"But…couldn't you have held mom off?"

"No. You remember the time when I ate very little because I could hardly keep anything down?" They nodded, totally entranced by this story. "Well, I decided to follow your advice, Gohan, and I went onto the net to research this illness I had. I went to 'ask jeeves' and typed in my symptoms: back pains, stomach cramps, throwing up every morning as well as in the evening and afternoons as well as a sudden taste for weird food combinations."

"Oh," said Goten, grinning from ear to ear. "Meat and chocolate sauce."

"Yeah," he chuckled. "Well, a few seconds after I clicked 'go', the computer came back to me with the strangest diagnosis."

"What?"

"I was pregnant. At first I didn't want to believe it, so I did some more research on the topic. After another whole month, I found my efforts to delude myself were fruitless. I was pregnant…and two months worth as well!"

"But…how?"

"I later found out that I had some…erm…female parts hidden deep inside of me. So no one, including me, knew about this! Not even Vegeta! Because I was so shocked with the news, I instantly flew away. A couple of months later, I was glad that I did, because my stomach started to bulge and it would've been damn hard to hide from your mother's prying eyes!

"On the 13th of May, I gave birth to Gojita. It had happened when I was just sitting quietly near the river, when I felt a wrenching pain. I know now that it was the contractions, but back then I really had no clue as to what was going on. I only knew one thing: the baby was coming. After giving birth to Gojita, I went into town to get some supplies and I stayed with her during her first month.

"Sadly, I had no excuse as to how I 'found' her, so I knew you'd think something was strange right away. And I did the second most foolish thing of all: I left Gojita by Vegeta. I'm not sure of what happened, but as far as I know, he moved out of Capsule Corp shortly after he found Gojita."

Goku finished up, looking at his sons. They were…speechless. Gohan and Goten really didn't care about the part that their father fell in love with Vegeta. They were amazed by the drama that took place.

"So," muttered Goten. "Gojita is yours and Vegeta's daughter?"

"Hai."

"And our half-sister." He nodded. Goten and Gohan turned and faced each other, almost asking what the other thought. Goku was worried at first, but then he was highly confused when they broke into huge grins and laughed as they hugged each other. He blinked a couple of times, trying to comprehend what he missed.

"Umm…correct me if I'm wrong…but aren't you supposed to hate me or something?"

"Why" asked Gohan, then turned to Goku to explain. "You see, I'm not that keen on you and Vegeta being an item, but if that's what makes you happy…who are we to say no?" Goku nodded, glad that they understood.

"So…you guys are okay with this?"

"Okay?!" gasped Goten. "Tousan, I think it's great that you're finally happy again! And as long as you're happy, we'll never have to worry again!"

"Gosh…thanks you two." He said as he gave them a hug, relieved that it wasn't as dramatic as he had thought it would be.

"Yeah, and besides," grinned Goten. "We got a little sister!"

Red: well…gomen if this is a little long, but inspiration just hit me over me head with a great, big, dirty club! And when I came to…my head was leaking with ideas!!

And don't run away now, the end is to follow in the next chapter! (Note: I'll try to update this one when I can, but you can bet that it'll be soon!)

Double note: and to anyone else out there who's also writing exams but is really writing instead of studying…you rock!!