I came up with the idea for this in the shower... that's where i get all of
my "greatest" ideas. I decided to turn it into third person on a whim, and
i think that it turned out better that way. The dog *does* play a major
role in the chapter, because he is the "person" that she shares all of her
feelings with, so you are going to have to put Kazuki in the story later
on.
Lylas!
Ami-chan
~*Ami*~ "I can't believe it. I seriously can't grasp the fact that I would do such a thing to her -my Sere- without a second thought. Can it actually be my fault and am I strong enough to suffer through the consequences of my actions? I'm not sure. The fact of the matter is that I went and hurt Sere on my own accord, and Heaven only knows if she will forgive me. I would be devastated if I lost her friendship -the first person to befriend me- all because of HIM. He took a toll on my conscience and made me realize that things that seem harmless can take the route that leads to the incidents that can mar a person's soul and friendships. like it will do to mine What possessed me to do that? I think it was our mutual friendship. or maybe it was the intoxicating smell of his cologne. or maybe it was the fact that I liked him, and he like me back. the truth is that I wanted what I got, and I'll have to face the corollaries for my actions. and now she's leaving for America.. Why do I have to keep recapping the events in my head? The "harmless" flirting. that turned into a full fledged affair of sorts. he kissed me. and my mind overrode my heart and. and I kissed him back. but it was so surreal. like I was in a dream like state. that I would wake up and it would just be a dream. only a dream. but when I didn't wake up, I knew that everything that happened those days. actually happened to me. the adrenaline rush that comes with the knowledge of something that you know you aren't supposed to be doing overrode all of my senses. I could do nothing. think of nothing. the knowledge that HE was Sere's boyfriend took me several days to even realize.. The kisses he gave were so passionate though. like they were meant to be. Why on earth am I torturing myself for? I'm sure that it won't happen again. but what if it does? Would I be strong enough -mentally- to pull away. like I didn't then. would I? or would I lose the battle like I did last time.. He was my first kiss. my first. and it had to be with HIM. why him? I had liked him for so long. so very, very long. but he never seemed to return any of that. but. but when his lips hit mine. my mind went into overload. I- I couldn't handle all of the emotions. plus the adrenaline. Why did he choose me. out of all of the other girls in the class. why me? I'm not all that pretty, not all that smart. they don't even know the real me. but he caught a glimpse of the actual me. not the faux show I put on at school. I'm really not as insensitive as they think I am. but. I still want to know. WHY ME? An author once said that betrayal can only happen if you love. Maybe I did love him. and maybe he did love me. but can you really love the person if it is an affair? I don't know, maybe you can; maybe you can't. I don't know.," The slender, blue haired girl sighs and takes a breath. "I know why I did it. I wanted it. He's a trombone player. his lips have to be soft. and they were.," She looks at the pug curled up against her slender frame and scratches behind its ears. "Why am I telling you these things, Kazuki? It's not like you can hear me. and answer me. and tell me your thoughts on the matter," She sighs again, and a tear slips down her cheek and falls on the blue comforter of the canopy bed. "Now he supposedly didn't want it and wanted me to leave him alone. The egotistical liar! And to top it all off. she believes him! Give me a break. You can tell he's lying by his writing, and the fact that he won't tell her anything that he writes. Men are so annoying sometimes. and are so childish," the small pug looks at up at her, and she laughs. "I don't mean you, Kazuki. I was talking about Darien, the one that kissed me and I kissed." She flops over onto her back and the pug jumps, lands on her stomach, and lays there and listens to her rant and rave. "What I don't understand is that he won't tell his motives. There has to be something that isn't as vague as 'I wanted the one nobody was after.' I know I don't have a boyfriend, but can he be more degrading -wait- he said that he 'wanted to be with someone who wasn't so funny, pretty, sexy, beautiful, sweet, and fun.' Notice that he didn't write 'smart', AND that he put in three words with the basic same meaning. I know I'm not really pretty, but I know I'm wanted by a lot of guys. they flirt with me constantly. Hmm, does that tell you something?" She bit her lip, "I guess it does." She laughs. "And, also, something a lot less vague than he 'wanted to know what it felt like'; he wanted to know what 'it' felt like? 'It'; what is 'it'? 'It' can be a number of things. For example: 'it' could be my lips. 'it' could also be an affair. 'it' could also be many, many more things." She sighs frustratedly. "And he writes this all to her, and refuses to answer the last two letters I wrote him. Just goes to show you how stupid he actually is. I don't know why I liked him in the first place. Must have been his eyes; he has gorgeous blue eyes. and his cologne mixes with his pheromones just right, so that he smells really good.. But other than that. he's ugly as sin!" The pug barks at the sudden loudness in her voice. "Sorry, Kazuki, I didn't mean to get that loud," She scratches the dog behind his ears once more, and turns her head to look at the clock. It reads 11:59. "The time he kissed me the first time," She sits up and the pug tumbles off her stomach. She laughs, "Sorry, Kazuki." The girl takes her shower and gets ready for bed. When she gets into bed, Kazuki is laying on her pillow, but moves as she lays down. "Goodnight, Kazuki," She says, just before drifting off to sleep.
Lylas!
Ami-chan
~*Ami*~ "I can't believe it. I seriously can't grasp the fact that I would do such a thing to her -my Sere- without a second thought. Can it actually be my fault and am I strong enough to suffer through the consequences of my actions? I'm not sure. The fact of the matter is that I went and hurt Sere on my own accord, and Heaven only knows if she will forgive me. I would be devastated if I lost her friendship -the first person to befriend me- all because of HIM. He took a toll on my conscience and made me realize that things that seem harmless can take the route that leads to the incidents that can mar a person's soul and friendships. like it will do to mine What possessed me to do that? I think it was our mutual friendship. or maybe it was the intoxicating smell of his cologne. or maybe it was the fact that I liked him, and he like me back. the truth is that I wanted what I got, and I'll have to face the corollaries for my actions. and now she's leaving for America.. Why do I have to keep recapping the events in my head? The "harmless" flirting. that turned into a full fledged affair of sorts. he kissed me. and my mind overrode my heart and. and I kissed him back. but it was so surreal. like I was in a dream like state. that I would wake up and it would just be a dream. only a dream. but when I didn't wake up, I knew that everything that happened those days. actually happened to me. the adrenaline rush that comes with the knowledge of something that you know you aren't supposed to be doing overrode all of my senses. I could do nothing. think of nothing. the knowledge that HE was Sere's boyfriend took me several days to even realize.. The kisses he gave were so passionate though. like they were meant to be. Why on earth am I torturing myself for? I'm sure that it won't happen again. but what if it does? Would I be strong enough -mentally- to pull away. like I didn't then. would I? or would I lose the battle like I did last time.. He was my first kiss. my first. and it had to be with HIM. why him? I had liked him for so long. so very, very long. but he never seemed to return any of that. but. but when his lips hit mine. my mind went into overload. I- I couldn't handle all of the emotions. plus the adrenaline. Why did he choose me. out of all of the other girls in the class. why me? I'm not all that pretty, not all that smart. they don't even know the real me. but he caught a glimpse of the actual me. not the faux show I put on at school. I'm really not as insensitive as they think I am. but. I still want to know. WHY ME? An author once said that betrayal can only happen if you love. Maybe I did love him. and maybe he did love me. but can you really love the person if it is an affair? I don't know, maybe you can; maybe you can't. I don't know.," The slender, blue haired girl sighs and takes a breath. "I know why I did it. I wanted it. He's a trombone player. his lips have to be soft. and they were.," She looks at the pug curled up against her slender frame and scratches behind its ears. "Why am I telling you these things, Kazuki? It's not like you can hear me. and answer me. and tell me your thoughts on the matter," She sighs again, and a tear slips down her cheek and falls on the blue comforter of the canopy bed. "Now he supposedly didn't want it and wanted me to leave him alone. The egotistical liar! And to top it all off. she believes him! Give me a break. You can tell he's lying by his writing, and the fact that he won't tell her anything that he writes. Men are so annoying sometimes. and are so childish," the small pug looks at up at her, and she laughs. "I don't mean you, Kazuki. I was talking about Darien, the one that kissed me and I kissed." She flops over onto her back and the pug jumps, lands on her stomach, and lays there and listens to her rant and rave. "What I don't understand is that he won't tell his motives. There has to be something that isn't as vague as 'I wanted the one nobody was after.' I know I don't have a boyfriend, but can he be more degrading -wait- he said that he 'wanted to be with someone who wasn't so funny, pretty, sexy, beautiful, sweet, and fun.' Notice that he didn't write 'smart', AND that he put in three words with the basic same meaning. I know I'm not really pretty, but I know I'm wanted by a lot of guys. they flirt with me constantly. Hmm, does that tell you something?" She bit her lip, "I guess it does." She laughs. "And, also, something a lot less vague than he 'wanted to know what it felt like'; he wanted to know what 'it' felt like? 'It'; what is 'it'? 'It' can be a number of things. For example: 'it' could be my lips. 'it' could also be an affair. 'it' could also be many, many more things." She sighs frustratedly. "And he writes this all to her, and refuses to answer the last two letters I wrote him. Just goes to show you how stupid he actually is. I don't know why I liked him in the first place. Must have been his eyes; he has gorgeous blue eyes. and his cologne mixes with his pheromones just right, so that he smells really good.. But other than that. he's ugly as sin!" The pug barks at the sudden loudness in her voice. "Sorry, Kazuki, I didn't mean to get that loud," She scratches the dog behind his ears once more, and turns her head to look at the clock. It reads 11:59. "The time he kissed me the first time," She sits up and the pug tumbles off her stomach. She laughs, "Sorry, Kazuki." The girl takes her shower and gets ready for bed. When she gets into bed, Kazuki is laying on her pillow, but moves as she lays down. "Goodnight, Kazuki," She says, just before drifting off to sleep.
